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I always listen to music and concert in my room but I never hurt my ears. But this...

Those people.

I wonder if he just kept quiet. (Even though it hurts) Idk.

I was trying to persevere to continue to pray for one last time before I move. The decision that cost me my good ears. Now I don't have it. I should do what's best for me. There is no God to be worshipped more important than my body. No God. I can't even do anything now. That my ears are no longer good. I can't imagine how others or my father could stay until the end. Truly bad. It cost them their hearing. I wish it never happened. None of them stop. Or lowered the volume. They are close. They could. It's so not worth it. Yo.

I don't like to ruin my body.

Misfortune.

I like my body before yesterday So much!.

Now my ears are uncomfortable. And I can't be a good worshipper either in this condition. ☹️

I hate myself. I really hate myself , for not moving despite the speaker right above me. Listening to all that ear shattering loud speaker. I really hate myself. For continuing. I should have moved immediately. But I stayed. I really hate myself. Now I have a bad experience. For this whole month. Or who knows for ever. 😠🙁

I really like myself yesterday. Who are these people to spoil my hearing?

I can't list more.

I will try to do this : 30 things I want to have : I want to have a good body. Good eyes. Good ears. (Ah too bad I already don't have it since yesterday) I want to have a Sony ZV E1 A Dell XPS 17 Roberto Cavalli Dior Gucci Michael Kors Celine More wardrobes. Ice skate More inline skates. Swarovski A studio apartment or a medium sized house. Skincare Aha a car! I want to have a good educations. I want to have a lot of money. I want to have a good relationship. I want to have a daughter. I want to have a million followers (?) and a million USD. I want to have a drone. I want to have (don't know what to list no more) Esprit Backpack A vase Mastery Knowledge. 30 things I want to do : I want to go to Egypt. I want to jog. I want to skate in Canada ice. I want to experience Christmas and winter in New York. I want to go to Korea. I want to do my nails in Korea. I want to buy a lot of things. I want to hike a lot of mountains. I wanna go to Mecca and Medina. And to buy a lot of things. I want to make a lot of films. I want to meet a few people. I wanna go to a future Gd concert. I wanna go to a future Taeyeon concert. I wanna go to Japan in April. I wanna run. I wanna go horse riding. I wanna go to a highland. I wanna go diving (not really) I wanna make a lot of films And I wanna make a lot of films. 30 things I want to be : I want to be a millionaire. I want to be intelligent. I want to be athletic. I want to be good looking. I want to be a mother. I want to be a university graduate. I want to be a God worshipper. I want to be a student. I want to be a model. I want to be a good daughter and a good friend. I want to be rich. I want to be rich. I want to be rich to 30. I wanna be fluent in reading Arabic.

I want to have a million followers and a million USD. I want to go to Egypt. I wanna go to Mecca and Madina. I wanna go to New York. 💕

I should never tolerate it.

Now I really respected king Salman's decision to lower the volume of the speakers in Haramains mosques I wish to go to a small villages mosque. It must be good. Like somewhere. It supposed to be a calming experience . Not ruining your eardrum . I thought when I wake up from sleep my ears would be okay. But it's still not..

I wonder if our eardrums have ruptured yesterday..

Now I wonder if my father had been hurting all these while. I have yet to see him since last night. So I don't know. Idk his reaction or his experience. I have messaged him immediately.

I have more and more regret in my life. how good was my life before this night. My ears are good. I am in good comfort. I'm healthy. Now... It's still painful. Hours have passed by.

I will live by my own term from now on. You can't predict what you didn't know. So I don't know. I will always prioritize my comfort from now on. It is a sign. That something is right.

I wish it didn't happen.

Even though , I would like to get a perfect score, I regret going to the mosque tonight. The first half was good. But then, when they changed the person, it became too bad. I wish for a heaven where everything was just soothing and ideal. I wish for such places. But now that my ears is no longer good, I don't know what to say no more. Everything would be useless. It's too late. My ears is already hurting. Only if today didn't happen~ . No amount of good thing in the future can change it. It's already destroyed.

Damn . They're ruining my ears. I would never expected that my ears could be damaged going out tonight. My ears is still hurting. I'm better off at home like this. Never happened before to me. I always take care of myself. Damn. I wonder how others could take it. Or are they all ruined? Not worth it!!!

I shoulda leave sooner and protect my ears~ 🙄

Now my ears still hurts😡

I never go to a concert, hence never ruined my ears. But today, the mosque ruined my eardrums. So I had to go back. It was soooo bad. Too too bad. Not gonna risk my ears. But I already stay for a while then. ☹️