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I want the big room so that I could fit in more things in that room. There was a big wardrobe in that room but I think I wanna change it to smaller wardrobes. Though my mom said that wardrobe isn't going anywhere 💁🏻‍♀️. I don't like it since it was first being bought. Too big. For my room. Idk I want a sofa in my room .

I am like a fish out of water moving into this small room. Because I am used to the bigger room. I don't know

A small room won't be as expensive as a bigger room. But I don't know . No matter what I do, this room will still be small.

If I have work, I want to make my room heaven on earth. To be the most expensive single room in the middle of nowhere. I don't like my original room because it is next to my brother in law's room. Even though it's bigger. But I think I'm fine with this room. Even though it's small, I want it to be a heaven on earth. IF I move to the next room , I will apply a sound system. To be completely sound proof. For now, for this room , I want it to be the most high quality interior. But idk. It's small. And only if I have work. Before I create my own home. I want this room to be good. I was just unsatisfied. And I don't like the bathroom . I wanna change everything. (I like my original room's bathroom:( ) *Applying this wallpaper*

The best place to live in : Middle east?

But I don't know where to locate myself. Should I live here which is not my place but the place that my parents had decided to migrate to? Or should I live somewhere (x) or should I live at a totally new place ? Idk I can't imagine where I would wanna built my house in , or where I would wanna live in .. Maybe , at this moment , I wanna live in x. That is the best decision. If I were to live here but in a different house , I would rather not. Because the only reason I'm here is my fam. If I were to live separately somewhere a few km away , I'd rather not. You better not. It will feel really weird. We can't be neighbours either. Really weird.

I saw a lot of influencers building their house , and my mom too building our house back then. And I want to built my own house too.

I want to move to a different house.

I want to buy : DJI Mini 4 Pro Dell XPS 17 (highest spec) Sony ZV E1 It costs $7350

And you take the lives of others that's why you're still living.

And the reason of death would be others taking your life's. Essence? Or your spirit. Or your soul. Your breath away. The Muslims call these others the angel of death but I call them others. Because it is literally others killing you.

When you are meant to die you will die.

I don't wanna do or accumulate something new here because there is a thief in the house. They might accuse me of being crazy again and put me into a mental hospital and steal everything from me yet again. And I will be left with nothing. Again. Over again. So I might as well start in another place. If I were to do something new. Which I wouldn't.

And that room is at the corner. Surrounded by neighbours. And this room is in the middle. It is slightly isolated. With a backyard away from neighbours. And it is the only room that is in its original state. Not renovated.

I'm imagining all the things that I wanna buy, it wouldn't fit this room. At all. I needed my original room for it to work.

I def can work on my own but I needed to renovate my original room. It's the biggest room. But had been altered. So now I think it needs to be a little different. For me to want to stay in that room . But I don't know. I don't know if my mom would allow it since I have change this room that I'm staying in. I have painted it according to my colour. So if I wanna change back to my room.. And a lot had to be done to that room.

My eyes becomes worser when I read a book. Than if I'm just looking at my phone or doing other stuff.

Well, I have read part 7 of this book : Millionaire fastlane. Well, it's good. But, idk.

My goal But I am so hopeless~

I am blessed with all these songs. back then.

The moment I leave the world Is the moment I get back into my serious mode. For real things to happen.

I use an Acer Then Lenovo And then a custom made PC This is when I lose touch with my intuition. As I said my life is already (or only) crumbling. We had a choice, between two desktop. The case one is small and the other bulkier and bigger. I had always want and like a compact and smallest things , as I was physically not a big person so I like my tools to be small and compact, easier to carry around. But this time, the shop keeper and my mom pressured me to choose the big one. And I was already crumbling , my life, my personality at this time I don't have a strong opinion, so I followed them. And this one that he gave me had a crack on its side. So it was already not good. My life was already bad. Making bad decision. So I have this PC that are not in it's best condition. It has a scratch on the side. I only wish that I would have choose the small PC. And I move places quite a bit so I had to bring this PC travel. So that's it. It's such a big PC. And later my father destroyed the box so I can no longer change it's location . I even thought that I wanna sent it back to the shop. But couldn't because the box had been destroyed. And it doesn't work just fine too. Having a loose wire that it will shut down on its own a lot. Until last year when I brought it to a local shop (not the shop that I buy it from) and the person said that there is nothings wrong with it. He upgraded my PC and suddenly this problem is gone. Weird. But true. It no longer shut down on its own. But I don't use this PC much.

I want more skates more camera more everything. Lol

My life should be upgraded to a newer kind of things. Higher quality everything. Camera laptop etc. Idk. I should have had my art studio. But now.. before even that happened my collections are already stolen.