Sabth

We have been attacked. If you look at this : This is a three drawers/cupboards. All the four of us have it. But one is already missing. And two was already destroyed. As a person who takes care of her things well (me), only my cupboard was still good and is being used up until December 2022. The others they no longer use it or keep it inside the house or keep their things in it. But I have it. And I put my things in it. Even though I am no longer using the things in it, but it is a storage. Which I keep my things. Including two bibles. And many books and other things. Basically I still keep it tidy in my room while others had destroyed theirs. But in 2022, when they put me into the mental hospital , my mom said she transferred everythings in it in my brother's "plastic" drawers(/cupboard). This is wood. And we all have it. BUT, some things are missing.... Not everything but some things... My academic certificate and my self portrait (a painting) which I put in a drawing block inside the second drawer/cupboard. But only those are missing. And my bibles and my book. I don't know if there's anything else that I didn't notice. Which went missing. But these things, are gone. And look, my father (or whoever that is) put my good condition cupboard/drawers together with the ones that had breaks and wears out.... look at this. It wasn't broken or ugly. Mine is still good. But my father put it outside in the ugly (zinc)store that he built (during the pandemic) And put it together with those that are broken. Evil. Korea🍭 If I went to Korea, I want to do my nails and my hair. And then probably enjoy the weather. Apart from the food. (^This is something that I write yesterday. Korea)

This block of concrete had been added to the side of the house . Otherwise there's a patio and a play area there. Which allows ventilation in the house.

Well, I shall act like this house ain't mine. It was my father's . That's why it's not pretty. (What do you mean? I grow up here. )

This, while waiting for the sun to set, I went out looking at the surrounding of the house. I think this house surrounding had becomes a hard forest. It's too hard to do anything about it anymore. It felt so concrete and wild. I don't know. There's definitely nothing that I could do with it. The state that it had becomes now, after almost two decades, this is what it has becomes. I don't know . (As I said before, my father had spoilt the house) . But back then, it was even more lively than now. Now I just saw sharp plants and greeneries. It was too wild and foresty. I can't do nothing about it. Definitely. (Back then I still think that I could make it good but now.. ) It was just too hard.

My artworks, gold, diaries, academic certificate, phone . Books

This is a private matter and I wouldn't have bring it up in real life.

Like I don't wanna be like you fuck no But then they wanna integrate with me. No.

I wonder if it was because of this that they steal from me.

This^

I have wrote about some nasty things about how I don't wanna have anything to do with someone who is in contact with someone whom I don't wanna have anything to do with. Because you are who you spent your time with. You became them and they became you. This is the reason why I limit my contact back then. During COVID. I no longer wanna be in contact with them because they are in contact with someone whom I don't wanna have anything to do with. I see it how they turns to become each other. And I don't wanna be like the other person. So I keep myself furthest away.

I shouldn't have asked my mom who took my diaries , because she could have been one of them . /The ones who took it. Silly me. Fuck.

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What DID I DO? ......... D*mn. I hv wrote a whole lot of paragraph but it got erased when I click "back". Usually the forum will saved your draft but this it's missing. Basically I just said that I don't wanna do anything in this house or start anything because it will be pointless anyway. It will be stolen and destroyed and many more ugly things will happen. I can't start doing anything in this house. It is cursed. I can't keep all the good amazing things in this house. There's a theft going on. To the already poor me ~ * I also write about, in self care I needed about $114k in self-care .

Life Audit Health Poor Finances I only have $116. And I don't make money. Personal development Meh. Poor. Career I don't have a career and a university. Relationships I don't have friends only family. Self care Don't have money to buy skincare upgrades. Home Needed a renovation. Don't want this home. Want my own home because of the theft that's happening. Life Poor. Free time Always free. But trapped Couldn't do anything. Life : poor , good.

I shall look into this more.

And now , My quality of life right now is - 10 Would killing myself be better - 2

This is what I've wrote in 28 December last year 2023 : ( I was looking for it fo long but only now found it. I can only remember it by memory. But now I've found it) ••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• Good healthcare Clean and safe housing Healthy food A job that pays a living wage. Dentist A house Food A job personal health (physical, mental, and spiritual), relationships, education status, work environment, social status, wealth, a sense of security and safety, freedom, autonomy in decision-making, social-belonging and their physical surroundings. My quality of life right now is - 3 Would killing myself be better - 10 I want another life, another body, another soul, another spirit. I will put an end to this spirit. ••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• This is what I've wrote , and found last year.

Nah. I still have lost a lot.

It's okay for the remaining 12 days I wanna do my best.

I don't know I'm lacking a lot. This month.

I'd rather not buy it than to buy it an expensive price. (When I can get it at $8 dollar). Lol Should I just buy it at a markup price? But that's not what it worth. Should I?

Yesterday, I want to buy this really pretty red plum rose thing that cost only about $8.2 , but today I saw it again and it's sold out. The colour that I want. And there was a local shop which sold the same thing but the price is mark-up to $16.4 dollar. So I don't know . While I want that colour, I don't know if it's worth it to buy it at that price when I can get it yesterday at half the price. So yeah. Silly me. For not buying it yesterday.

I wonder if these books can make me a millionaire.

Look at Taeyeon : she's so pretty, she's 35.

You know, like when I feel like I can still feel like a child , those who are around me are getting married, going to the next stage of life. Etc. But sometimes I am just lost in my own world. Not realizing that I'm getting older now.