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All the things that I wanna buy and do cost like this car. Can I do it? idk. 538k. Or $114k. This is a family car. I personally wouldn't buy it. But what I want costs like this car. Is it much ? Or not much?.

These brands makes me want to make my own angpaos ~

You can get angpao's from banks and shopping mall, but I want something truly unique, so I bought papers to make one myself . I know it wouldn't be as good as the banks angpao's. But I still wanna try this regardless. I bought various types of papers from China.

I can't wait to work and get my own money ~>

I also don't have older brothers. I have older sisters.

She also lost a lot of weight for having to breastfeed a boy.. being a mother.

This at least is modern. To the present moment. https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=RoKdznkZ92k&si=53xotc39YGDOOVvi&feature=xapp_share

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The ideals~ but ain't happening ~ ~

My only thought was that. To save myself. It was the only right thing to do. What should be..

I would give them a piece of clothing each , and I would brought them to the holy mosques Mecca & Medina each.. that's what should be happening. It's the only way I could save myself (but it ain't happening). So I go through what I go through.

I regret having brought this up now my dreams appeared to be different . Yk The night before I got a dream of going up to a highland , there are friends and family (relatives ) in that dream , and many more. And the night before I got quite a good dream. I wish to maintain my flow. Nah. Let's get furthest away from this .

I got a really weird dream. A dream of unmatched torture... Idk 8:28AM could be that I brought this up back, the hospital... Someone was cooked alive , by one who have keep his rage for long. So it was like an immense torture. Since this guy never get the freedom to do what he wants. So when he get it, he became crazy/ unstoppable. Idk it's such a weird dream. I just thought that it was pure hell. Someone behind me. And I also went to this "Chinese village". In truth, it was that year, (last year) when I got to the hospital ,it was like a Chinese hospital. I was surrounded by Chinese. Doctors and patient alike. I became like Chinese. I think it was hell. Because I was taken away from my religious's system and brought into that. I feel like I wanna convert everyone. There is no such thing as mental illness in my religion. It's either I became like them or they became like me. I feel like I wanna convert everyone. My life was threatened. That thing shouldn't exist. (Hospital). I also find them to be very old , old school , traditional. Stuck maybe 50 years in the past. Everyone. For this work to still exist. It feels like I am being brought back to a really old era. Idk. Fucked up. You know I think a nurse job (or even a hospital) is a very old job. It shouldn't exist. It felt really outdated and very old fashioned. it felt like they are fucked up.

A girl! Definitely a girl. But if I get a boy, idk. Maybe I should just accept it as myself. Nah.

I have gained a lot of weight since then. I was 45kg in the hospital. And last year I was 53. Now I'm 51. I'm losing my weight. And when I was younger, I was below that even. I lose weight a lot when I stayed home back then.

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They cut me off from the outside world for a month and wouldn't allow me to make any contact. I couldn't use my phone, which when I get back , the phone is already missing.

This is really unfair. I was put into a mental hospital and my things are stolen.

Now this thing had been restocked, and the price had goes up a little bit $10.8 dollars 🤭

I did a conversation with ai sometime ago and mine was barely 12 pages. I couldn't read Leo's 60 pages. I'd rather see a real example of a conservative and liberals either on social media or something. A real life example of people being a conservative or liberal. Then compare it. I can't read those.

Whenever I think of my stolen things I will feel like my life is worthless. Life's not worth living ~

If I have money I will give 50 to my eldest nephew, 40 to my eldest niece , 30 to her younger sister and 20 to my youngest nephew. Lol. But I shouldn't waste money when I barely got any. /Till I make my money. 🤔 I should probably be thinking about my non- existing career first..

I want to be able to give angpao , not receiving it. But I'm not working 😔. https://vt.tiktok.com/ZSF4mrGGs/ I saw this video on TikTok on big brand's angpau/envelopes. And it was so pretty. If you went shopping you will get these free envelopes. And it reflects your wealth. Give it to kids and young people . I got these a lot. Some people are just rich that they gave me good angpau. And not only me but hundreds of other kids. I used to get these a lot as a kid.

Nah I'll just buy this : But a cover is just a cover. It's doesn't add any substance to my life .