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I don't wanna go back because of my father. He had abused me I'm just pissed off by it. Rather not going back.

I miss this place I'm definitely gonna come back. I wish..

He's a millionaire or maybe even a billionaire who wasted his money on games and creating more money with games.

I don't wanna go back.

Let's not forget to curse the thief everyday.

I shouldn't let anyone know my playlist.

I won't sleep anymore. I'll stay awake.

I got a series of bad dreams. Idk.. idk. 9:28AM

You cant invite God or heavens into your life when your surrounding is no longer good. I wonder what it would be like , in an ideal world. In a Truthful world. If everything was in accordance with Truth. I can no longer listen to good songs. It is not fitting. My world used to be just heavenly.

This house had been destroyed. I have said it again and again. (I’ve been thinking whether i should move to my original room or stayed in my current room. This is my conclusion. There’s no way around it. I have told my mom that i want to move but she didnt let me and now that room, had been used by, MANY, people. In and out. The energy that i had was def not there anymore. It had been spoiled by people. But even the reason i changed my room, it was for a reason. Still not settled. There was a reason why i wanna change my room. Though it is not the best. Now my room can no longer be the same. As i said , “The house had been destroyed” ~

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4:20AM

I don't wanna go back I don't wanna be here. I haven't travelled I haven't explored or walk. And now the return ticket had already been bought. I don't wanna go back. But there will be no one here either. I don't wanna go back.

It IS, in a bad condition. This house, when i arrived last night. I dont know.

I got a bad dream. After I wrote this. Idk 12:55PM

My life is I’d imagine I lived here having my own one unit apartment to my likings, having a home. And then working and doing arts. I like this place, I miss it so much. But a few days ago all of these , just shattered. I’m not going anywhere. And my had since turns really bad. All the energy & excitement that I got from this city, died. I dont wanna go back. I’d imagine my nieces & nephew “coming to my house” . And that I went to a lot of places around the city with them. I thought it would be fun. Or else we’re just living together at home. To bring them here would be fun. Then after we’re done with this city we can go back home. I dont wanna go back when i arrived here. With the little thing that i bought, i think that would be sufficient. I dont need anything else. I wanna stay here. Idk. It felt all possible and good the Fisrt few days but now i am crushed. No longer was fun. It rather seems weird now that my plan… wtf “because i wasnt allowed to walk around the city by the person who had assaulted me back home, wtf. And i was at a place that im not familiar with (not the city center) the first few days felt so good. but f my mom want to keep me like a toddler. I am not sick and i am not old i should walk miles. now i am back, to my old place, without ever doing anything. I wanna live in my brother’s house longer. Its New and better. New environment and New dynamic. I wanna have my own house too. Here. In this city. But now im less excited. yk i carried the spirit of the people back home. I dont like how it turns out. 8:04AM - 26july2024 - week 1

I was never assaulted while I'm in school or when I'm alone outside but at home. Disgusting.

I wanna live here.

We didn't buy a return ticket yet and I don't wanna waste my time any longer. I wanna use everyday to the fullest.

@Lucasxp64 TikTok logged out my account and I forgot the password. This happened just now 🙁 I did put my Gmail account there and my phone number (now I've changed it) but it says that it didn't have it. Because I create a new account with that email. So that email haven't been used for my previous TikTok account that I forgot it's password. Idk. Because since last year, I don't have any other Gmail account. That is my one and only. I just miss my private videos on TikTok. Memories. I didn't set that account to private but I hv a lot of videos that are private in it. I tried to search for that account since tonight but it didn't appear. When other times it appears just fine. Even my comments from that account on other videos couldn't be found. I try to search my comments that received many likes. Because I want to click on my profile, but couldn't find it. It all went missing .. I thought I write everything since last year behind a book but I didn't. I think my life is over . It's tiring. That account would be 1 year + Do you think my account was hacked? It can no longer be found. And my comment across the platform can no longer be traced.

She didn't take care of the house. She let thieves in when I'm not at the house. Or maybe the thieves are already in.

You know when I have no one supporting me on my back? When my father had betrayed me. I had to do it by myself. Not even my mother. She didn't do anything when I told her that my things are missing. Instead she's trying to blame it to myself. I don't even know if it was her. Doing it.

These are like my previous diary , same brand. But the others, are no longer available. Are no longer being made. 2012 etc. : /

I just bought a new diaries , like this one , Recently, but I have nothing much left to write. So I only wrote a little. I have a lot of digital diaries, since 2014. In my phone, but I also write sometimes. So there's a book for it still. Right now, even one of my phone was stolen , so the diaries in that time frame are gone. My broken phones are still with me so I could still read my old diaries there. Though one of my phone I had forgotten the password. I had forgotten a lot of password after a month they put me in the hospital.

No. I just see a transgender man and a transgender woman.