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Before I look for these books, I looked up online to see if there's anything like it left, even just a picture . Like an embossed flowery notebook, or something pretty, like mine. But couldn't find it. It was meant to last for my next generations when I have it. I know it will no longer be sold in the future. I wanna keep my diaries until when I'm old. This is what I found in my searching just now, before I went to my sister's room : It's similar... But not quite like it. It's not the same production same brand. Similar quality. And my writings....

I went to my sister's room.. she has like a collection of books that are many since back then a long time ago. It's a hobby that we shared. But she's much more of a reader than me. She had completed her masters degree. Well, and nothing was lost. In her collection. This sister aren't here. She lives elsewhere. But, I'm shaking cuz I saw the collection that we had. My first diary, we all have it. My aunt gave it to me and us all. Each one of it. For us. She kinda started it. After that, I only buy the same brand the same type of notebook for my diaries. (I have lots of it over the years.. ) Though now it is no longer being sold. She gave us in 2012. (Before that I had other types of diaries. ) After looking at my sister's diary (her versions of it) , I realized that I have mistaken about the brand. I couldn't remember it correctly. (I've been searching for it online). It is actually a pop urban, not pop bazic. Another brand which are similar. This is my thing to buy this same type of notebook whenever I've finished writing in each diary. So it was like this : First I saw my second sister's diary In my first sister's room/collection. I just wanna see how it looks like cuz I have kinda forgotten how it looks like. I couldn't remember the words that are written on it. So I wanna look again, to my surprise, it is pop urban and not pop bazic. Just looking at these diaries that we all once had , I'm just shaking. Mine was stolen and gone. This thing is from 2012. Given by our aunt. To all of us as a gift. Only mine was in good condition. I take care of it well I guess. And all the writings in my diaries are all black, with only words. With the same handwriting. All in English. And at the back of it, I had a watercolour portrait of my fav artist. That I paint. A little bit. This diary had a pocket in it and that's what I put in mine. It was so precious. My diary is hot pink. . This is my first sister's version : I am surprised to find my second sister's (the first green one) Both the bands are loose. (Mine aren't like this.) I have a collection of these diaries throughout the years... And I have different types too as these are no longer available in store... The back pocket : And the insides : Mine are fully written with no pages left. I do miss my diaries.... And my artworks.

I few days ago I feel so bad about my life. I'm feeling I'm getting old. I could feel that I'm old now. And my life is nothing. I feel bad about myself.

I finally have bought the Danny Bear bag ☺️

I really wish that time would stop at one phase . Back then. If only, That would be so good.

I saw these images from X. And they just saw an angel in aurora. 11th May 2024.

I bought this for my mom : I didn't know today was mother's day. When will I become a mom? Anyway, my father drive me lol. And my other siblings aren't here. I don't know what to buy for my mom. A few things to choose from : If I bought this we could share it. It would also be for my father. 😄

I don't know, I got, another bad dream. 3:20AM Omg

How can I find a university that was better than my previous one? Today's weather :

Welcome back. On day five, I am already getting used to not having it. But anyway, now we're back. I sleep early today because it's raining heavily and the day was dark. It's so good to sleep. In reality , it was Saturday morning. But in my dream realm , it was about 6 PM. And it was almost night. So I'm just sleeping early. Quite weird. I got a few dreams today that is reminding me of my previous uni. I don't know. I don't know what it wants from me. But the latest one, I saw my sister's card with her face not on it. We went to the same uni so it was that card. And earlier, I got some dream too. This was very confusing. Now when I woke up it's 2:34 PM. Still raining. Somehow I'm feeling a little bit sad. There was my sister in that dream waiting for us to be home. She told me to buy some thing. And me and some family members are just on a car ride. I remember that I was taking a picture of trees with a camera . On the road. And there was other people too. We talked about something. "Samawi" ?

I thought we are back to July last year 🥲

No. That would kill off your flow. Anything that disrupt your flow is no good.

This is real. I really wanna make $140k.

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No. I actually have no idea where to start. All the jobs listing I see it seems like I am not qualified.

It took me one day to feel better. I was struggling through it. There's nothing you can do. Bought some throat spray. And pills. And just sleeping. It's really a struggle to sleep. Nothing makes me feels comfortable. But now, I'm good.

I'm sick now. I'm starting to get sick. Got this flu since yesterday. I feel regret not finding a med for it today. Now I had to live with it tonight. I'm only drinking lemon water. (Feeling so sick. ) -☝🏻Stay away from sick kids. -Never wear wet clothes to sleep. Even just for a minute. -In AC. Smelling a crushed garlic does make my flu stop. I used to have a nosebleed when I was young and to stop the bleeding, we smell garlic. And it will stop. Now I tried eating the garlic

This is good. Maybe I should install a camera in my room. And outside my room. (Even though I don't have anything (much) left. Not like back then. Where I have everything . ) When I said I want to buy a dog, I meant to live faraway (I wouldn't bring a dog in my parents house). Not with my family. If I do this back then, my things would still be with me. It wouldn't be lost. Stolen.

How can I prevent this? Idk where to put this in which sub forum We have cctvs outside the house. but not inside the house. And this, is also recent. Quite recent. Not back then.

This is EXACTLY how I felt. I don't wanna create anything anymore because in the end it will only be stolen. No. I would rather go to the police than having a talk with my siblings about this. Wouldn't it be dangerous? Let the police do the work. They might take an action before I could go to the police. So I would rather do it quietly and let the police settle it. @BlueOak meh~ I had a LOT OF ARTS being stolen too.

Is it toxic?

I don't want it. But these kids are still living with my parents.

I don't wanna have a nephew and nieces who would become an enemy but it seems like so. Well I guess,