OmniNaut

Also this: "This isn’t a “true story”, but rather a collection of tiny true details from lots of different interactions, strung together for a vibe." For me this already an indication that giving this story anymore attention in this forum does not serve any purpose. We don't know what parts of the story we can trust. It's fiction, treat it as such.

But in this case the woman in the story takes on the role of strength and stoicism, which puts off the men.

She reminds me a little of this. I would loose interest in a woman if a date goes like this. The girl from the OP is over-analysing too much. I agree with @Emerald post on this.

You're not invisible too me bro. To be seen or heard is such a basic need. To be denied that can make life really hard.

So if you reduce the capitalistic nature of the health industry and maybe turn it more Socialistic (like in Europe) you reduce corruption as well. I'm not saying it will be eradicated, opportunistic low conscious people can still exploit the system, but far less then is seen in North America.

Yes true, luckily for me I don't encounter too many (bad) Russians on the island here.

Within the diving/tourism industry the two groups with the biggest reputation are the Chinese and Israelis. While Chinese can be loud and don't follow instructions, lsraelis can act entitled, they think everything is for sale, they feel insulted if you say no to a request, they expect that you break the rules specifically for them. The interesting thing is you can see this behaviour also in their international politics. I know that some dive shops try to avoid mixing Chinese / Israeli with Western people, just to avoid negative customer experience to Western customers. A local girlfriend of mine runs a vegan / vegetarian restaurant. Veganism is quite big in Israel, so naturally she attracts a lot of Israelis. We spoke about this behaviour before, she also noticed it. She said the way to handle it is to be strict and firm form the get go. That said, I met plenty of nice Israeli and Chinese people as well, but some behaviour is noticeable from people from certain counties. Americans can be obnoxiously intrusive, arrogant and oblivious to a world outside their country. English and Aussies can be stupid drunk, etc etc. Even the Dutch can have a reputation, there is even a term for it, Dutch Directness 😄. Be careful with stereotypes but they also exist for a reason.

From ChatGPT, I asked why your text could be considered beige and also why not. Answer: This is a deep and fascinating question—thank you for sharing so openly. Let's unpack this and see how your current state relates to Spiral Dynamics Beige, and also where it doesn’t. I’ll go over both why it might resemble Beige, and also why it likely doesn’t fully qualify as Beige. Why It Could Seem Like SD Beige Extreme Individualism and Isolation: Beige is the most basic level of human existence, concerned with biological survival. If someone is completely isolated, withdrawn, and avoids all group association or higher meaning structures, that can look superficially similar to Beige. Disconnection from All Systems: No religion, no traditions, no group, no spiritual beliefs, no cultural identity — these are all things Beige doesn’t engage with because it hasn’t yet developed the capacity to. Your conscious disengagement can seem like a regression to a raw, pre-social state. Simplicity and Contentment in Solitude: Beige lives in the now, surviving, with no real attachment or striving toward social status or ego-driven pursuits. You mention being happiest when alone — not needing stimulation, not needing people — that echoes the instinctual, almost animal-level being of Beige. Why This Is Not SD Beige Self-Reflection = Higher Order Thinking The very act of questioning what Spiral Dynamics stage you're in disqualifies you from Beige. Beige doesn't have metacognition. It can’t abstract, reflect on itself, or analyze its state. Your introspection shows you're operating from Yellow or at least Green/Orange-level awareness. Voluntary Withdrawal ≠ Beige Survivalism Beige is about survival needs: food, shelter, warmth, basic safety. People operating in Beige are often refugees, feral children, people in trauma recovery, or those with severe cognitive conditions. You're withdrawing for psychological or philosophical reasons — not because your survival is in jeopardy. Emotional Attachments Exist You have a warm bond with your girlfriend and grandmother. Beige doesn't form relationships in the way you're describing — that requires emotional and cognitive structures beyond survival. That’s more Purple or Blue at the very least. You're Operating in a Complex Society You hold a job, use technology, and interact functionally with society even if on a minimal level. Beige lacks the skills to navigate modern life—it’s pre-linguistic, pre-tribal. Even the language you're using here to describe your experience is far beyond Beige. What Might Be Happening Instead What you're describing may be a mix of: Psychological individuation (from higher stages like Green or Yellow) Emotional withdrawal or protection mechanisms (often seen in 4w5 or INFP personalities) Existential detachment, possibly a reaction to modern life or internal processing rather than regression to a primal stage. There might also be a flavor of Red still, but not the assertive or power-seeking kind — rather the solitary, boundary-enforcing, "leave me alone" version of it. Or Blue in rejection — someone who saw the group structures of Blue, but chose to opt out consciously. Summary You are not SD Beige, though some of your current behavior may look like it from the outside. Your reasoning, reflection, voluntary solitude, and ability to love and connect (even selectively) are evidence of more complex layers at play — perhaps Yellow in a minimalist, detached mode, or even a phase of withdrawal for integration.

It does not work that way. It the same kind of of thinking when hippies want to put weed in the water supply to make everyone high. Even if your Afghan lord awakens to the realisation of God, it's still filtered through his stage Red and Blue thinking, probably creating even more of a tyrant in the end. This will probably will be the ultimate Bond villain, killing everyone (even his own people) because he is the only in existence.

Ken already beat you to it. Not AI generated 🙄

Yes, but it was a journey to come to that conclusion. Here in the Philippines one artist encapsulated it perfectly. Original: Lyrics (translated): The day you were born to this world Your parents were full of joy And their arms are your light And your mother and father Worries and don't know what to do Watches over you even in your sleep And in the night, a sleepless night, your mother Is still awake to prepare your milk And in the morning you are in the laps Of your father, who is so joyful because of you Now you are all grown up You desire to be independent Even if your parent forbid, they can't stop you Isn't it you that changed a lot Disobeyed them, remained stubborn And you did not follow their advice You did not took the time To think about all the things they've done for you For you desire, only what is pleasurable You just ignored them And the days has past And you took a wrong turn in life You are imprisoned in a horrible vice And you first approach Your dear crying mother And asked "Child, what happened to you?" And your eyes immediately shed tears Without you noticing Regretful and you realized That you were at fault

I never get bored diving with them. This video captures the beauty of them perfectly.

Open water SCUBA diving Instructor, specialising mostly in teaching Shark conservation and Shark awareness.