Schizophonia

Feeling of control; It remains a materially comfortable incarnation despite everything. Nobody or almost. No one, least of all the parents, is making this thing unnecessarily more dramatic than it already is. Seeing several prostitutes; Taking several recreational drugs like alcohol, cigarettes, cocaine and joints; Eating whatever I want, going to see friends. Tons What can you do

Abstinence for one month + wheat lecithin + zinc + enclomiphene citrate + coffee enema. Your girlfriend is not ready ahah.

You're welcome. There are more products listed on myfitnesspal.

Day 42 I saw a good friend today; we spent 2 hours talking, chilling smoking cigarettes and drinking coke. I'm an introvert but it's always cool to socialize, do stuff like that. I should have more nights out remaking the world while smoking and drinking alcohol lol.

lol mods are rather leftists. Indeed 4pts is a lot.

Myfitnesspal is better.

Ok i see.

https://www.reddit.com/r/kratom/comments/1ic26lr/petition_to_keep_kratom_legal_in_sweden/

@Sugarcoat re my breadboard shaped alien. Are you sure Kratom is illegal in Sweden ? Mine has been exported from there.

There is no reason to deprive yourself of having children in a country with a demographic decline, with significant ecological policies and where people are highly educated, while populations at the opposite end of the spectrum are multiplying. Either you are "selfish" and you don't care, or you are ethical but you recognize that Swedes should actually reproduce more. Intelligent people should reproduce more.

Spirituality is different from politics + maybe you are wrong; I can never be sure I am right.

You're taking it a bit too seriously ahah; the important thing is to have the money to take care of it, the biggest obstacle with time.

Enough Bangladeshis, no Swedes.

Non duality.

You're right, I said that because I can see how I can actually play characters of profoundly different natures. But from a certain point it's hard to know if the difference in pleasure in playing the characters is vertical/quantitative (so towards a higher self) or simply horizontal/qualitative. I think that if I want as much love as possible I'll end up being a monk lol or even directly mahasamadhi; My ego doesn't want that at all but I mean, objectively.

It’s what i like to do.

You criticized me for my vibe once but yours is turbo estrogenic, it looks like a woman on her period. There is nothing to answer to begging the question aggressively thrown by a guy; Yes i assume music is probably bad for cognition, it is an unnatural stimulation, it is not very different than watching youtube shorts. In fact, I'm not even trying to theorize anything, it's an empirical observation. There was a point where I was watching Leo and Longevity and he thought the same thing about the music. You listen to music if you want, you do what you want, everyone has their vices, but even if I am relatively lax, I want to look at things for what they are; I am not demagogic.

It has a Saint Row vibe lol.

Once when I was like 16 I took 200/250mg of tramadol in the evening and the next day I spent the day throwing up. 😅 I was with a friend in front of a doctor's office and I threw up a lot, a guy asked me if I was going to clean up I said yes yes and I left lol. Never again. The best thing I tried was a medium dose of LSD, I went into samadhi on it. Why cocaine? Is it so recreational? Isn't it neurotoxic btw?

Day 41 I started listening to music again, but it's really not good; Firstly, obviously it reduces your cognitive abilities and your motivation, by accustoming your brain to enjoy a continuous flow of information. Secondly because like any addiction, it is fundamentally about letting yourself go to your usual egotistical echo chamber. My introducer to psychoanalysis, Richard Abibon, would find his definition of the death drive there; Endlessly recreating the trauma (PTSD or simply ruminations in the neurotic, immobilizing behavior in general) to find yourself as a subject, paradoxically it would therefore be a narcissistic approach. I listen to music to force a state, a frequency; Even negative (anger, sadness, ruminations in general) to put myself as an actor; And conversely, I refuse here and there to be more proactive and rational, because that would make me disappear as an ego and that is what death fundamentally is. The goal, the game of this planet (or at least of the organic beings who live on Gaia, as the perched would say lol) is not enjoyment, it is essentially a Russian doll in a fractal model of freedom of experience and humans play the game of survival so much that it gives these wacky configurations. All life is wacky, completely twisted; the human ego is a Gordian knot and ultimately the humans who will be able to change will be those who are ready to die.

I don't like it too much because I feel like it makes me less intelligent, has no libido, and sleep is weird and feels like teleportation. Ahah.

You have very little chance of dying from benzos unless you mix them with opiates, alcohol, barbiturates etc. All benzodiazepines do is slow down the central nervous system. Most of the time brain damage is caused by stimulants like amphetamines which generate a lot of oxidative stress.

You like benzodiazepines? Ethanol and metabolites are directly toxic but benzodiazepines are chemically harmless, and maybe I'm wrong but I don't think that simply increasing GABA neurotransmition is neurotoxic. Alcohol has a complex pharmacology but some benzodiazepines like Xanax come close. I've never tried gabapentinoids. It sounds like you're a regular drug user lol.

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Ok Nat the locomotive. Vaping is not associated with lung cancer or the other problems associated with cigarettes. Then it's hard to say because a lot of centenarians and healthy people smoke around the world; the first tobacco users smoked in South America didn't get cancer. You also have studies that show that people who live in cities actually take in a lot more particulate matter and carbon monoxide than a smoker, which is weird. I guess it depends a lot on the quality of cigarettes, if the diet is high in antioxidants, and that kind of thing; I don't know.