Schizophonia

It's illegal everywhere in the world or almost.

Day 14 I slept well today 🫨 I will have more energy to manifest a delicious viking foid and 100,000€ cash. Yum I'm not going to go into details today, I really don't have time, I'm really making this post for the sake of regularity But what I really miss the most, jokes aside, is vitality; Not so much in the sense of physical energy but really vibrational. I don't feel bad, not depressed, in fact I've never really had suicidal or dark thoughts in general even in cases of extreme stress, but it seems that I still live overall, most of the time, in a fairly dry and poor frequency to my taste This is the conclusion that I can have here and there when I enter a particularly deep and unusual state of satisfaction, in fact in these states I even happen to feel what seems to be a rise of Kundalini: I can feel a sensation of pleasant heat in the body and more particularly in the lower spine. Not the anus or the sex, not an erogenous zone, but at the level of the coccyx, maybe a little above. Ideally I would be physically overpowered, very courageous, rational, with a lot of libido; And at the same time hyperintuitive, supercreative, with a lot of visions, creativity, and a natural inclination to be .high" I want to become an alien bodybuilder with 300 qi, master of manifestation lol. Maybe in the near future we will see 👺, nevermind.

Then it's not the size that matters, it's how you use it. 🤏 🤏

Tobacco contains a stimulant close to a racetam (nicotine) and even antidepressant compounds (MAOIs)

There is no contradiction. good I also had a bad cold the last time I was in northern Europe eheh. Probably the bacterial/viral strains differ depending on the country. Nevermind.

Thanks. Indeed the reason why you masturbate literally as well as figuratively (cigarette, food, watching videos on youtube, going on the forum very often) is to avoid a feeling of lack/emptiness; This emptiness corresponds to castration. You must accept castration otherwise you will refuse to contemplate that you lack healthy things (money, career, relationships, sport, health...) and that you have work to do. Otherwise you will seek to fill yourself urgently with drugs, undesirable behavior and neurotic behavior in general; Just like a ostrich who puts her head in the sand or a child who shouts "lalalalalala I can't hear" while covering her ears. What I call the symbolic phallus are what are considered as objects of desire (that is to say of power, unconsciously) by a normally constructed psyche (money, career, sport, women, cars...); If we had all fully integrated the supremacy of the symbolic order, there would probably be no one on this forum lol and we would all be working, picking up, and doing the "obvious" things to have more (more phallus). And the imaginary phallus is the one whose constitution is generated by non-acceptance and therefore castration anxiety; Since you refuse to look at the nullity of your life because it is too violent, humiliating, that you are lost etc (=castration) then once again you fall back on stupid objects. Neurosis is a normal and omnipresent process to varying degrees, it is a kind of "temporization". Anxious people, who have been more damaged by life, or simply who have been too accustomed to sources of easy pleasure will be more neurotic. In case it was not clear by "imaginary" I am not talking about the nature of the object, like a car in the imagination would be the imaginary phallus and a car in reality would be a symbolic car; It does not concern the object but the sexual drive, the energy that wants to bring the phallus. What I mean through this dichotomy is that if what is best, a priori, for your ego, is to go rock climbing but you prefer (I am talking about drive again, so if it is because you are handicapped it is another story) to smoke joints all day, the drug represents the imaginary phallus (which gives you a temporary feeling of power, because you are too lazy and/or fearful to choose escalation, = castration anxiety, the real goal, what is really considered the (symbolic) phallus by your ego.)) and the climbing the symbolic phallus (which the ego really would wants, target). I said joins but but maybe a healthy habit like bodybuilding, bodybuilding is sometimes if not often motivated by neurosis (fear of not being attractive enough, = castration anxiety). You want to jerk off imagining a pretty girl in your class because it makes you feel like you have a phallus (=power). So far it's real, you really do have the phallus (=symbolic phallus). But the real question is, wouldn't you rather have a partner or stay chaste for some reason? If the answer is true then the real phallus (the real object of satisfaction) is a woman, like actually making love, and jerking off while imagining fucking is a false phallus (=imaginary phallus) to avoid the pain of not having the "real" one and of having to make an effort. It's all a question of point of view. From this point of view, yes masturbation is rather a neurotic practice. Mea culpa if I repeat myself lol 😅, it's my habit.

Disease is the key to an energy equation. From the smallest wrinkle to generalized cancer through mental illnesses. Joe Dispenza manages to reverse phenomena that are supposed to be irreversible (brain damage following a stroke, terminal cancer, disability...) by making his patients change their sense of self; There are tons of positive testimonials in his youtube channel.

What do you suffer from if you don't mind ?

Princess Arabia's fantasies 😄

You can operate the law of attraction in an orthodox way by following Neville's advice, the law works the same way whether you understand, are aware of its operation or not. I think that an average but intelligent and healthy person could master and accept this new paradigm with the implications, I also think that a spiritual person could completely fail to obtain a greater creative power because it would threaten one's ego, in particular those who come from the blue stage spirituality (typically Abrahamic religions) or even worse (shamanism). These people will never really accept living in a simulation and this will block awareness. I have no problem with hopium ahah, the goal is of course still selfish even if paradoxically it requires a higher degree of detachment because you have to understand that you don't have something because you pretend to want it, and have something because it's what you really want at some point. I see it everywhere and in everyone now, it's blatant, even if I'm not yet conscious enough to observe the phenomenon from a less superficial level. I see it as an evolution of the basic human game that we (me and most of my mirrors) play. Now we play (are conscious) essentially the game of Newtonian physics, of distance, of having or not having, and by extension of the downstream minigames, in fractal models, like the big psycho-social minigame of the hero and the victim; I see the human experience as a fractal of play (= selfish experiences). We will switch to a game of greater oppulence, which btw corresponds with the arrival of technological singularity ; That of quantum physics, the goal will be awakening. The goal will be more to have or not 100,000€ or a girlfriend with flowers in hairs and a big buttocks👺 , but to understand that it is a projection in a game of self-discovery. This is also what Bashar Daryl says about alien civilizations, even if I don't have an opinion on this character it seems logical to me. Hoping that I did not answer beside eheh.

Day 13 I barely slept today despite being tired, maybe about 2 to 4 hours in total to give a fairly wide range? I still have here and there difficulties dissociating myself enough to fall asleep, the line is fine, it only takes a little too much vigilance to switch from a potential normal night of 6 to 8 hours to no sleep at all or almost; To be able to fall asleep, or even simply be more amnesic, you have to be able to suppress your attention, dilute it: Switch to thoughts of lesser importance with what I could call the technique of ("let it go, it's not important") lol, slow down the speed of mental speech in general, suppress sleep anxiety by totally accepting the possibility of not sleeping and the consequences (which is actually the easiest, from my point of view). With insomnia and other problems that I have had, I have learned to be much more detached, but sometimes it is not enough and this kind of thing happens, the important thing is that it sometimes goes in the right direction. The one who inspired me to make this journal, even if he talks mostly about seminal retention and some kind of personal development topics, suffers from ADHD and explained that he resorts here and there to sleeping pills or melatonin to be able to fall asleep, he also admitted to being on light doses of risperidone to calm his hyperactivity.

You are all answering wrongly actually. 😂 Nevermind.

What does this mean? You enjoy your family normally and eventually you can talk about this topic with them. It's like with any topic.

Day 12 Short post for today, i'm tired for some reasons. I often watch videos of Joe Dispensa, who often talks about manifestation, synchronicities, but it is not the hobby horse of his work. Neville Goddard is probably the biggest thinker, even if oddly he does not seem very well known even in the world of spirituality, of the theory of the law of attraction; He is in fact aware of solipsism and very much in agreement with the statements of Leo Gura. To summarize his thinking a little, the maya works like an echo chamber between what is unconsciously projected (i.e. matter) and what is consciously projected (mental discourse, the concept of self and what is by extension conceived to be accepted as true in general). We do not have power over the unconscious part (automatically) but we have it more or less over the conscious part; So to manifest something we simply have to remove thoughts, including and especially of an emotional nature, mental visualizations, imaginative, in general that assume the non-reality of what is desired, and on the contrary produce some that assume its reality. Wanting to eat an orange will manifest the experience of... wanting to eat an orange, but not having it! To manifest an orange, you must reconfigure your sense of self through visualizations assuming that you regularly eat oranges; This can be regularly sitting down and imagining, especially before sleeping where the mind is most suggestive, eating an orange: Feeling the taste of the orange, visualizing it in your hands, the smell, the sugar sticking to your fingers, and other pieces of the scenario like someone you know delivering this orange to you. Neville goggard would also say to do exercises like sticking up signs like "I'm not going to eat an orange" lol all over your apartment to condition the conscious to imagine this experience and cause the manifestation. I have manifested things or people, but it was never a conscious effort; Most of the time it came from simple little thoughts without effort, from "light" daydreaming. I think that's the difficulty, wanting to manifest something tacitly declares "I don't have this thing" and moves you to this frequency; Manifestation requires being selfless, but the line is fine, it is a particularly refined process and this is probably the reason why a conscious manifestation requires at least several days of effort, according to Neville Goddard or his predecessors. There are many videos of Neville Goddard on YouTube, but also of some of his followers including a certain O Locker and especially his grandson O Locker Junior who regularly spreads propaganda on YouTube. I will definitely make other posts on my journal to go into more detail about this. If the creative process starts to be able to be mastered to this point, then the whole game of this maya changes; it is not about passing the license, exams, buying a house, having a child or this kind of human NPC event lol, but about moving to a level where everything goes much faster.

I'm agree but here i really don't understand where is the problematic.

I don't want to hurt "transgender" people, but yes, from what I know it is probably a mental illness. Most leftists will refuse to even admit the possibility that it is true either by post-modern dogmatism, or simply by projection of their cowardice, their inability to work on themselves, even if it will obviously be denied.

Thank you for taking pity on my "1 reply" 😂 Dw nutrition is probably simpler than psychoanalysis, it's more about memory. Health care professions are above all a question of memory in general. Yes exactly, i have read a certain number of articles on psychoanalysis and excerpts from reference psychoanalysts here and there. Freud, Lacan, Richard Abibon, and a bit of Jung.

That's just obvious lol. Or i didn't understand something.

She's ok, if one likes the style. I meant a similarity in some specific expressions. It just crossed my mind, nevermind. I teased ahah.

You are just afraid of rejection. Women are objects, just like men; You go to each other to enjoy different things.

In spirituality maybe, but in everyday life there are non-traumatized and functioning people everywhere.

No.

@Sugarcoat It's Emerald, i find she looks a bit like you in some expressions, especially the smile. But don't become vegan and jungian please

Eheh I totally see what you mean. Some stimulants for the attention of the mind actually numb the mind and it makes one seem stupid, or in any case very uncreative or "thinking outside the box"

Day 11 Franck Lopvet is one of my main "mentors" (in spite of himself) on my path both intellectual and spiritual, he is someone who has made self-exploration, self-awareness his battle path and he is the one from whom I hold the principle of the mirror effect. Everything that we perceive in the universe, and automatically in others, is projection; It is not 70%, 90%, 99.9%, but the totality of what is perceived at each moment, for the simple reason that it is not possible to observe anything outside of our energetic structure. To put it simply, remaining "physicalist", in the relative, the reason why you are able to experience the color red is that you have neurological patterns attributed to this color, the reason why you are able to experience jealousy is that you have patterns constituting jealousy, the reason why you are able to experience manipulation is, once again, that you possess these patterns, etc. As Neville Goddard would say (in another context and same paradigm), mental discourse is the conscious part and maya is the unconscious part; Nature does not make useless things, what needs to be clarified (=made conscious) is what is subject to doubt (=what is not experienced), and what is actually integrated as true, what really wants to be true is what is projected on the maya (sometimes strangely quickly propelled towards you if necessary by synchronicities, if you believe in this kind of thing). As Franck would say, humans are like paradoxical soap bubbles which, by "sticking" together, form a common border representing an emotion, a frequency; If I am lazy, I will automatically end up hanging around too much on my computer, hanging around too much on actualize lol, and coming across many people who do the same thing. If it is accepted that I am lazy, if it is not a subject, then there is no reason for neurological patterns associated with the perception of laziness to be activated, but in the opposite case then I will project the affect, the emotion perceived on the basis of the representation of this concept, that is to say for example (self)aggression, and I will start to say sentences like: "You are really lazy, you have to move your fingers off your ass because otherwise x will happen to you". This statement is not false and refutations are generally a way for the other to protect themselves against your accusation, or even to humiliate you (as in "humility") a little by tacitly exposing on your projection, and it is never completely true either because we can never completely grasp the situation of the other, but it is a message from the conscious ("masculine", one could say) you to your unconscious you; This is why men manifest more wealth and power in general than women, it is not very feminist to say but it is the truth, because men identify more with their conscious, with the divine which drives rather than with what is driven. As Owen Cook would say, men bring women back to God. Women talk more and lie more (either directly or by omission) because they have more ego, they do not want to be hurt nor hurt (unconsciously to not be hut actually); As the one who inspired me to write this journal would say, women are often in conflict between their social constitution and their reptilian brain, what they desire. I think that this is also the case for men, except that once again men are more identified with their conscious and in denial of their unconscious including the emotional process which is basically the intermediary between the two worlds; So men can find themselves continually experiencing "wanting" without experiencing "having" it because that would be being in the emotional, even if it is "masculine" emotional (=predation), while women who have a more accepted emotional world (even if it is more "victim", most of the time) are more likely to give in, hence the fact that most divorces are committed by women. When you understand that the precise reason why, instead of doing anything else, a person preferred to end up on actualized, on the "dating" or "politics" sub-forum and write texts is that their brain is just excited by it, that is to say that it recognizes itself, then you understand that what is closest to the truth is the one that is not said and that everyone is only trying to persuade themselves of what they think must be the truth; If this is really what must happen then the emotional world will agree to manifest the evidence of this new truth. For example, it may be that a woman (they are generally women, for the reasons I have cited) wants (well, her "higher self" we could say) to be cuddled and loved by a man, but that she is at the same time too attached to her world of victim. So she will declare something like: "I don't need a man, because men are x or y, I'm very good with my cats, who are you to say who I need! Blahblahblah, it's society that says that..." So the woman will be able to continue to chronically see herself as a victim, keep her limiting beliefs in general, by diverting her desire into aggression, by transferring it onto others. Either take a "masculine" position, that is to say, projection of the emotional onto the other ("No, don't worry, you'll find someone great, you're a nice woman, blahblahblah"), or take a feminine position and projection of the masculine, rational part, and therefore expression of the denial that takes place without the emotional, desire transformed into aggression (What are you saying! I don't need a man!) Women don't like to have power, to use their "animus" as Jung would say, hence the anger. Franki's only video in English, it's a bit old but still as good :