Schizophonia

As i said in another topic, your stiff stance isn't just a true identification with the phallus, but also a defense mechanism because of anal sadistic tendencies. And since you attract what you are in denial, you attract non-phallic people, wallowing in regression, who therefore watch black pill content. Not just black pill content, full of behavior you would consider infantile.

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Sparkling water

Yea but precisely they are women eheh. In fact, I've never met a woman who liked men who were too well-groomed. The times I was most frequently complimented were when I was unshaven, badly groomed, and looked like a construction worker.

Neurotics will project hatred onto women or the opposite sex in general, and what they unconsciously believe to be the reason why they couldn't sleep with their mother. "Alpha male" generally means "dad" unconsciously. Of course, there's some truth in blackpill: it's complicated to find love when you're ugly, but there are also plenty of unattractive people who find love, everywhere and all the time. Unattractive people generally form relationships, and at worst, even if you're cynical, there's plastic surgery. But overall, blackpill is essentially a compulsive projection of the "Oedipal trauma." The weakness of the phallic dynamic, due to the fear of castration by the father (and his surrogates), generates tendencies toward homosexual effects and mannerisms. The absolute desire to be dry (physically) is typically a neurotic tendency. Leo (I like him, I talk about him because he's the admin) isn't interested in looks, but he still has strong anal tendencies. He's torn between his desire to take the father's position and his anality. So sometimes he's a redpill leader in a white shirt obsessed with being "mature" (because of his archaic superego, inspired by the overwhelming father figure), and sometimes he becomes blackpilled, responding only with jokes and that sort of thing (anality); there's a split. The older he gets, the more anal he'll become because of the loss of energy, and the more he'll say blackpill things; you will see.

For me psychedelics turn music either boring/unpleasant and/or changes the "affective" meaning of music.

Dont do a pervert joke again dont do a pervert joke again dont do a pervert joke again...

Meditation, at worst medication (neuroleptics ?)

Ahah that's not that false. From a monist pov.

You can tell the truth in a kind/neutral manner, and move on if you're not consulted or there's resistance. For example, there are typically hysterical people to whom it's better not to say anything, lol yeah, well, too bad for them. And then above all of this there is always this mirror effect. I also have this "Promethean clairvoyant" archetype, and fundamentally, it's about projecting my own inability to see what I am and do. I'm often the last to own up to my insecurities about being too much of this or that, and my emotions in general.

I'm not going to push them too hard, just limit certain things. Living in middle age isn't just acute suffering, there was suffering and pressure all the time. Ofc you can. Yes, but by being paranoid, we're not starting anything, starting with children. I say it'll be fun, we'll find solutions.

@RendHeaven I want to have several children, i would say 2 to 5 to give a large scale (according to my income, the will of my wife etc). I don't even see the point of living at long term without having at least one, for me hapiness is in construction a of a tomorrow; taking care (and dominate ?) an buisness, a country, a wife and then logically children. I don't see many alternatives, which is one of the reasons why I've completely stopped being interested in nutrition; it's simply a useless libidinal investment. Hapiness = responsabilities, at least in my system. I don't know what the world will look like, so this is a comment to be taken with a grain of salt, but I would be careful with new technologies; they will be very limited. My children will find other, less-brained children to socialize with, and they have brains, so they'll be able to forgive me and even find it very good. Children, or at least teenagers, have brains too. If you're at least a little normal with your children, there's nothing to complain about. And even if they suffer, well, that's life. There are times when they risk being massacred and tortured; now it's other challenges. If we project cowardice onto our potential children, well, yes, it's better not to, but well, I trust my sperm, eheh.

Why not.

I've been reflecting a bit these days on the fundamental reason that pushes me to behave one way or another. Why do I decide to make a joke or not, what kind of joke? Do I make a serious face or a smiley face? If I'm texting, do I use this smiley face, another smiley face, or no smiley face at all? Do I write "ahah," or "lol," or "Okay, I'll stop," or "Jk," or any other verbal tic, or do I leave it out? Do I specify something? Do I hide something? And so on ad infinitum, in everything that constitutes interpersonal communication. The solution we usually give is "Be yourself," except that "be yourself" is an illusion. There is no real self; it's just not true, a lie; There's only the ego, that is, the inclination to construct an identity, a mask, to narcissify oneself; and the pressure of this inclination generates a predominance of maintaining a language that's effective in maintaining the ego, and therefore a feeling of continuity of personality. But this is purely relative; it's all based solely on memory, on limiting beliefs. Even what we believe to be the most "pure" and desirable, the most romantic, the most abundant; behind all this, there are only limiting (relative) beliefs; it's a charade. If there are no more limiting beliefs, there's no more interaction; no more love, nothing; just a pseudo-depressive collapse. In fact, from a certain point of dissolution, there's not even orgasm or pain. You could be masturbated as much as you want, or dismembered; There would certainly be automatic reactions due to the remnants of ego, but it would no longer have any substance; because no matter how realistic the hologram is, it is still just theater.

Homemade fruit/vegetable juices.

No girl says that lol. Or for fun, eventually.

I like astrology.

I've been followed by some really pretty and nice girls because I talked to them once, and rejected by some not-so-attractive girls. It's just vibe; not even about commonality, nor even energy; it's deeper than that. And vibe regularly changes, and so the kind of girl you attract; the kind of girl I attract changes all the time depending on the day, beliefs that dissolve, others that are born, etc; but that's maybe just me these days, it will stabilize. It's twisted because true/higher self in an illusion, it's pretty clear to me now.

Are you on ritalin ?

@AION How is your drone business doing?

I also know several person in this position.

What do you mean ?

Bodybuilder bodies are not natural anyway.

True 😎