Schizophonia

Be aware devil is in all political camp. If you weren't so full of aggression your attention would shift elsewhere like chocolate croissants, prostitutes, a video game, work, or whatever. You project aggression/destruction onto the right, and right-wingers project other things onto left-wingers. In reality, we generally experience dualities; I feel warm in a hot shower in direct proportion to the coldness I project myself into the future or past. Everything is like that.

If you want another girl it means you don't love your girlfriend enough, it doesn't go any further than that. Why are you with someone you don't love that much; that's your karma.

The first sentence alone shows that this is just a privileged metrosexual reacting after crying over vegan propaganda. Everything he says is false and/or idealistic and neurotic.

Car is sometimes quicker, It's more comfortable and you can carry stuff

Yes, with radical honesty

Can't trust someone who drinks Monster when there is Red Bull

No i saw videos with very few views and there was AI dubbling. Maybe it's the duration.

Everything i affirm become true; thought precedes the feeling. Rumination or simply thoughts in generals hides opening, opening to vitality, new posibilities, to infinity in general; but the ego has a resistance to it. On a psychoanalitic pov opening means vulnerability, because the more you open yourself the more you lose the ability to think (which is however a complete illusion) you have controle over reality; this is the base of most of tendancie of mental illness (paranoia, dysthymia...) i think; trends which ultimately are just ramifications of the same neurotic phenomenon. The game of "being in control," of having "important things," the "hero and victim" dynamic as my "mentor" Franck Lopvet would say; that's precisely the obstacle. Whether from a materialistic/psychological perspective, simply, or even non-dually.

Day 1 I lost a lot of time due to a prolonged period of almost 3 years of severe insomnia where i had between 1 to 4 sleepless nights per week. This insomnia was triggered by a combination of chronic stress, use of stimulants (especially coffee) and even testosterone/DHEA to see if it would improve my physical appearance (actually turned me into a psychopathic beef lol) and my sports performance. Insomnia literally destroys you, you lose your motivation to do any type of work, your verbal and mental fluency, your humor, your empathy and even your physical appearance; It's really horrible, i can look like a 7 out of 10 on days when I slept particularly well and if possible avoided masturbation and sleeping pills, but otherwise be mistaken for an old heroin addict. I wasted a lot of time doing nothing and now i don't have much money or a social circle, my life is kind of shit, but that said i can sleep again and the bad sleep cycle is mostly my fault which means i have the energy to be productive again. I need more money, i want a professional career and/or a hobby, why not a sports career eheh, i want a nice car, i want to express my creativity. Currently i feel like a person close to forty, i'm not a zombie but i clearly lack energy and libido, vitality in general, i can work, i think i can also more or less defend myself if i am physically attacked, i can do things in general but it's not optimal. To help me both recover from my insomniac period and actually exploit my full potential i decided to take inspiration from a French youtuber (Thomas Mayer-Chéret) and to (among other things obviously) start seminal retention, it is not my only source but it is my main inspiration, it is one of the only youtubers that i still watch because i find him funny and pleasant to listen to, nevermind. From a dual and rationalist point of view, seminal retention is supposed to allow the maximum accumulation of metabolic energy. On the one hand by removing the sedative "reward" caused by orgasm (prolactin spike) and then by allowing the accumulation of spermatozoa which it seems can be recycled by the body (hence the use of turmeric in certain spiritual practices, supposedly having the capacity to increase the destruction and recycling of spermatozoa for the benefit of the body (it is therefore not recommended to use too much turmeric if you want a child)). From a point of view beyond duality, we could precisely say that seminal retention is a bridge from duality to non-duality, from the finite to the infinite; Empirically, deprivation of masturbation gives you the energy to manifest your selfish desires, the first time i had to deprive myself of masturbation for a long time was in high school because of a frenulum plastic surgery (which was not enough lol, which meant that i had to do in fine a circumcision, nevermind), and i who was usually shy, even cowardly, thought for the first time to see a random girl in my class to tell her that i liked her (which was not entirely true, but for some reason i had targeted her😂 ). In this journal i will of course talk about seminal retention (i hope not to relapse obviously, but that should not happen), but also other subjects that are close to my heart, i spend a lot of time ruminating on many subjects without ever having the courage to put all that into form, this will be the opportunity. This journal is also and above all a way to finally get involved. I will stop there for this first post, i have to keep some substance for the others eheh; The goal will be to make one post per day.

Tons of introspection while walking in nature. More efficient than anything else.

Yes but "vibration" doesn't evolve out of chance, there is a consistency it's the Karma. The story = Karma

It's just broscience; he just regained some energy for some reason.

Never forcing anything; it's as simple as that.

No

It would tend more toward a classical psychedelic

I imagine you are perfect.

I saw reals of him on instagram and he looks very stressed and angry. There are also videos of him irl where you can see he is actualy quite mannered lol

What did she do

So the most important in fine is the state/city

Lol yes but it's obvious you will settle in a neighborhoods where people have a economico-social status a least somewhat similar to your. "HEY, THIS NEIGHBORHOODS IS COMPLETELY ROTTEN AND THERE ARE BLACK PEOPLE WITH UZIS WHO DEAL DRUGS ALL DAY LONGS, IT LOOKS SO FUNNY I CRAVE TO MOVE THERE"

lol the Actualized loop. This is only a pistol; piece of steel. boom You're dead

Masculinity stems from the conditioning to embrace symbolic castration. The phallic position is the positive polarity of this configuration, which may seem paradoxical at first glance but the idea is that by accepting castration you stop seeing yourself as lacking a phallus, as a "castrated self", and learn to enjoy this position of absence of lack, to identify with it. Femininity means lack of phallus; that's why girls have longer hair, like to do their nails, like cuddles, to be filled by a functional willy and cie; because they want to recover the phallus that is "missing"; and all of this is a psychological game; fundamentally, they lack a phallus because they can't bear its absence; if I want something, then it means, I experience, not having it; and vice versa. Thus, when attention perceives lack or rather unconsciously and from a non-dual perspective the polarity of lack/fullness, through comfort/conditioning you will automatically identify with fullness and project the lack. This is what male sexuality is all about; energy builds and triggers a growing perception of the full/empty duality; you generally prefer fullness (normally) and therefore naturally project absence onto women. And the more this energy manifests, the more your mesolimbic dopaminergic circuit my ass becomes aroused, the more you see this duality, which manifests as the urge to fuck a girl while pulling her hair. He could return to calm/inner power (phallic position), but this would automatically lead to accepting the atrophy of his ego (symbolic castration, entering into the symbolic in general as Lacan would say), which he so vehemently rejects that he becomes like a homosexual, fidgeting in his armchair. The guys around him are a bit more androgenic and therefore assertive, more prone to feelings of anger and sarcasm than confusion, but deep down they have the same problems and that's why they end up talking to this mirror.The guys who talk about blackpill, pua and the like are generally wimps; it's obvious.

If people are not ready to pay that for your service it means it worths nothing. This is the average price of a McDiabete menu.

I said that because it would allow Leo to make more money and get rid of people who have no interest in being here. I'd say $5 seems fairer in the end. Yes I'm a bit addicted but it won't last; very soon I won't be here at all. So take advantage of me while I'm here.