Schizophonia

Not yet experienced to be aware of/understand this. 😅 I say this because I asked a YouTuber I know who has consumed it several times, and compared the experience to being "like totally dead to the point where the notion of being alive no longer made sense" and that it felt like there were thousands of years between each breath. Of course it was a big dose vaped. I visualize. During my last experience, I felt a unique sense of warmth and intimacy, with typical psychedelic visions, but darker and more "masculine," if that means anything, than other psychedelics. What do you mean by that ? I had this panic attack during my first trip with a huge dose. All I remember was a big white light in my imagination, and me fidgeting around, remembering my identity while paradoxically nothing was happening.

I have to try again. But I should smoke it, to get through the barrier as quickly as possible. I heard that the concept of time is distorted and that the trip can seem to last for years or something like that. Is that exaggerated?

Sometimes when I come out of a hypnagogic state, especially after having almost gone into a lucid dream/sleep paralysis, I feel like I have entered a super state of intelligence and unlocked the mysteries of the universe lol.

No you already manifest all your life; It’s about being more conscient of how you do it. Life is basically like non-newtonian fluid (like when you put corn starch in water, if you hit hit quickly/strongly it becomes hard); The more you react to something the more it becomes real and vice versa. Something is made conscious, and generates, unconsciously takes a denser form that we call reality. If you find all this strange, you can simply take it all as some kind of personal development advice.

Based.

Like with everything you wish; Living in the desired state. Everything else is irrelevant, it's just wading through the shifting sands of the Maya.

Do you like your dad

I mean there wasn't a single moment when we were "perfect," because how could something perfect suddenly not be perfect anymore? So I guess we've always been egos in some form or another. It was smart. I'm still agree a priori. Obviously

Yep. It seems impossible that something perfect, infinite, could "suddenly" produce an ego, a limited and evolving experience; It’s the story of the big bang, there would be "nothing", nothing since "always", and then all of a sudden BOOM an evolving universe in a temporal dimension of dual and relative structures. The most obvious would therefore be that absolute unity does not really exist, is an illusion, and that we are fundamentally "trapped" in an infinite cycle of reincarnation, the « samsara wheel ». I remember you had made a topic on the same or similar reasoning which made you doubt the Buddhist possibility of the end of reincarnations. I don't know 😂 It was a funny theory I read. The idea is that for reasons of quantum logic, if you are conscious it is because ultimate is in the version of your ego that will survive infinitely. You are not going to commit suicide, you are not going to choke on blood pudding, you are not going to get thunderbolts, and you will surely find a solution (transhumanism, medications...) to basically become immortal; Maybe you will evolve until you forget this current form, but there will never be a "death" as a "quantum leap".

@Razard86

Everything that is limited is a relative true. Then if the question is whether there is potentially another scenario than reincarnation in infinity, well that would mean that something that has no beginning can have an end, which is a bit of an aberration a priori. I saw a theory that if you're conscious, then you're in a "quantum immortality" scenario; Meaning you're a version of Sugarcoat that's never going to "die" for some reason. I think that was a troll lol but it's still fun to imagine that.

Don't overdo it either lol, there are plenty of other problems that cause anxiety, intellectual performance problems etc well before cannabis. You have to have been a heavy consumer over a long period of time to develop these kinds of problems. You will also recover after withdrawal, unless as you said it was a dormant schizophrenia.

It would piss me off to be fetishized like that because it means that the love I have is extremely conditional. Black fetishes are very racist and a defect in Protestant countries; I live in a region where the male culture is quite bawdy, and there are a lot of big (white) rugby players who are more androgenic than average. I've never seen women with a fetish for black people, very probably because in their subconscious there isn't that much difference in injections when it comes to behavior between black and white men. If what I'm saying makes sense.

Gay 🐋

It basically means that life has no meaning. 🐋

I might be attracted to a man if he is very neotenic and fits a certain phenotype; it happened when I was on high doses of DHEA lol. But in reality, the slightest sign of masculinity will quickly disgust me with the idea of having sex. Even a woman who is too masculine will disgust me.

So, i was supposed to shoot a video and posting it but I actually had to do at Toulouse with my family; I wasn’t supposed to. So it will be for the 20th. 🐋

Oh mea culpa. I think that the concept of self is completely relative, from this point of view I am post-modern lol; But I also believe that for the sake of well-being the most relative layers should align with the most absolute ones. The easiest thing for a straight man (assuming that homosexuality is not also an anomaly) is to make love normally with a woman, generally in a dominant manner. If your libido is behaving strangely, there is no need to beat yourself up, without going into details it will only "make the problem worse" and hurt you; but the truth is that behind all this you will find an education, a relationship with parents and others, traumas and ultimately a system of beliefs that comes to twist the expression of this libido.

She's not dominant, you're just afraid of her aggression.

Why ? What do you mean

You don't think like a man. A girl trying to roast me like that can be exciting because it makes me want to « correct », to dominate her.

If gender dysphoria develops during the phallic phase, then people will feel as if they have "always been like this."

Clairvoyance increases ego.