Schizophonia

Yes, once again, I'm not talking about toxic masculinity in the common SJW sense like not mansplaining lol, more seriously I'm talking about neurosis, about establishing a world, a delusion that is already toxic inside me. For example, Nazism or Salafism are delusions, symbolic orders that are toxic to my anima, feminin world, emotionnal world call that as you want; they involve a lot of anger and rumination. I could find a girlfriend by following these orders, but she would be angry and generally unpleasant, like my emotional side. And in any case, I don't reject such a functioning that is already within me, and the immune system is the projection mechanism. So I see and obsess over phenomena I see between men and women that are in fact the projection of what is happening internally; the link between my masculinity (order, law, the delusion in which we invest ourselves) and the feminine (the emotional world). Not necessarily because I naturally tend toward frequencies of kindness, phlegm, sharing, etc., internally. And at the same time, at heart, I'm a bit of a neurotic, Nazi type who enjoys anger, struggle, partisanship, etc. Right now, I'm naturally in a state of "purgatorial" stagnation where not much is happening. There's too much turmoil and contradiction at the moment to settle down anywhere. Not just a girlfriend, but life in general. Women come naturally, like a mirror of my emotional world, which itself corresponds to the symbolic order I establish.

In fact I don't have any problems talking to girls, except that I don't meet enough of them; here I play with theories about what's going on in my maya.

Thanks

It has happened to me here and there to be suddenly aware for a few seconds or minutes and feel bad because I realized that life had no meaning and that being there was so strange; if that's what you're referring to. I see. Cringeness is cute

My bubble will evolve eheh Can you give exemples if you don't mind

When i talk about toxic masculinity i don't refer to the sjw stuffs lol. I refer to the idea of a symbolic order who induces a negative imaginary and emotional world in myself that we can call my feminine part, anima as Jung would say. Exactly because it becomes the heart of your attention, which propulse you in the masculine position. I'm kind when I'm masculine. Btw the most masculine and strong men tend to be the kindest. On the other hand, I can tend to approach girls, or simply see girls in my maya, who don't like kindness. And then I realize that it's a reflection of my own desire not to be "kind," to enter that frequency. And so automatically, the mirrors aren't the ones I wanted. I talked about niceness lol but I'm not that nice, it was just an example I should rather say "the vibe I tend towards if my shadow is put aside" I perfectly understand but you don't propose to change the "Shakti". And so my masculinity, since "Shakti" is nothing but energy, the movement that inscribes itself on the throne of symbolism (masculinity). If I don't change my symbolism and just look for the right "Shakti" that's coming towards me, I'll end up with shit. I see

You don't have to make excuses if you don't understand it's essentially because you don't relate to my paradigm/language. Thanks, it's true i'm not only hot but also very smart (Joke did for the 100th time) I describe my current maya, karma, call that as you want yea. Ditto Ofc the goal is in fine to burn this karma and make all of these observations obsolete, so pointless and so non visible. Is this an insecurity for you Idk i didn't think about the question, my topic did not directly target this problem. 👍

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For some reason today i go through a state of self honesty, close to what i can feel on 4 ho met. When i read the topic here i feel like everybody is insane and unconsciously subject to authoritarian forces, archetypes lol. Like I'm coming from the topic about "should I have friends" and I just laughed to myself about the fact that op asked me that, and you answered something like it's normal to use people "to develop yourself". Everything sounds goofy and nonsensical; i crave beer, cigars and laughing alone.

Why do I have the feeling that behind this kind of topic there are quite simple realities but complicated by all the participants so that their ego can continue to identify with it.

It sometimes feels like returning where I were when I was a baby or even a foetus when my human brain was still in construction.

It’s strange I let a mea culpa response but it it has been deleted is it you I also saw a notification of you yesterday but their is nothing so

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When you start to know the times of error 507 it's God telling you that you spend too much time on the internet 👺+ since you are rich, please make a donation to Leo so i can geek more.

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When I take 4 HO MET, a psychedelic very close to psilocybin easily found on internet, the trips can more or less easily become serious, and I can with a certain effort produce a real intellectual/introspective resonance, even when it sends me into very archaic dimensions. Whereas LSD is basically just about nonsense all the time. Whether it's big things about personal life or more global stuff like politics, or more archaic stuff (xhegeddekDUKDHUKHD5589+989+ZZZzzzzzzzzz...) It's still pretty crazy and "pro-ego". if what i say makes sense.

on a stroke of luck it can work 😏

I smoked a medium join once and had internal visuals.

@Someone here You never tried psychedelic ? Weed maybe ?

Average indian approach

We need friends to be happy. If you don't want to be with people they are not your friend whatever you say.

It happens all the time

It's not pervert lol, I just find the banana shape funny; I wanted to do something cool, like two girls hugging a really cool guy. A prompt like that. What do you mean

More simple, as my mentor would say be honest and humorous about my character. For exemple about me i admit that : -I'm quite lazy -I'm cheeky, I have no respect for authority in general, nor many moral considerations (I don't give a damn about killing an animal to eat it, I never give to charities, I want to close the borders so that fewer migrants enter, I'm not even interested in politics anymore...) -I am bawdy, I lack modesty even when asked to do so. -I think while I speak so I very often change my mind or simply my etymology. -Maybe I simp too much sometimes, get too attached to girls because I have little experience; I don't think I'm the worst at all but you can see me like that maybe I don't know. Etcetc. If I accept my negative polarities then it's over, there is nothing left to destroy and therefore to humiliate. I tell myself that if someone really has a problem, at worst, they can ask me for my address in a PM to explain themselves, which of course will never happen, or a mod/Leo can ban me. But actually, curiously, since I've been applying this ethic, I haven't received any warning points.