Schizophonia

oh ok i inderstand lol

@Emerald @Natasha Tori Maru These days, I've been ruminating a bit about not having a girlfriend, and more specifically, I've been fixated on the fact that girls tend to systematically choose guys who are stupid, violent, etc. So my first instinct was automatically narcissistic, that is, to shift my attention to the evidence of my beliefs to maintain my character, my ego. But then I remembered these mechanisms and made the effort to look for counter-evidence, which I actually quickly found through, for example, girls in my family who are very pretty, popular, lively, kind, etc and who have always been with very nice, even sensitive guys; more so than me who already projects the idea of being too nice or things like that. The particularity of these girls was that they already had the daily habit of indulging themselves, and therefore their emotional world, in a "symbolic order," as Lacan would say (symbols, masculinity, on which movement, the feminine, occurs; the terrain, the law, matter, etc.) "gentle," that is to say, full of activities, notably sports and work, daily sociability, and generally a pleasant and light frequency in general; no politics, no personal development, no spirituality/religion, no stupide fucking useless diet; nothing, no "terrain" (masculine part) that consists precisely of self-flagellation, of crushing the feminine part. And you know what? The affect that most tends to come to mind when I think of them and their vibe is contempt; because for me, their frequency is laughable, there's too little ego, it's too nice. I am the anima who loves her toxic man, with whom I identify because I am a man, who imposes on her at worst regular rumination, at best boredom and/or heavy, low-key self-flagellating subjects like the ones i talked about before and anything neurotic in general. And since the nature of maya is projective (it's always a dual way to see things, but it's for visualization), then I will project, materialize, replicate in macro form; in a fractal model in this case, from the "inside" to the "outside," this anima/animus dialectic and see everywhere the evidence that relationships are too complicated because of x. Either I really want to be nice, and so to be able to have a girlfriend, I'll have to reframe my animus in favor of my anima. That is to say, stop ruminating, stop being bored, stop being interested in stupid neurotic things and finally indeed general a nice symbolic order. Either I'll give in to my animus, which is easier since I'm a man; but just as a woman who gives in to her corrupted anima can become hysterical, if I give in to my masculinity in its current conditioning, I might find a girlfriend, but it will probably be a toxic relationship. Where I cheat on her, or I speak badly to her, or I'll have to endure my neurotic terrain anyway, with or without her etc; and it seems i don't want this deep down insofar as I project this phenomenon with anger. Suppressing the anima doesn't even really make you more masculine; people who suppress the anima, basically obsessive neurotics in Freudian-Lacanian parlance, tend to end up thin, weak, fearful, submissive to authority, even with masochistic fantasies and behavior (it's a kind of quasi-pro-homosexual conditioning anyway)and less often sadistic if, like me, you really cling to the phallic function despite resistance, but it's rarer, and even I've had more "masochistic" fantasies, like dominant girls riding me cowgirl, making me perform cunnilingus aggressively, and generally "ordering" me more. A pole where I embrace my toxic masculinity and follow the dominant but in a twisted way (aggressively, or as opposed via a kind of nurse syndrome), and a pole where I unconsciously refuse it, I think, and am more submissive as a result, because I project my (toxic) masculinity onto a more dominant woman.This is the way we find ourselves, once again, in spirituality, personal development, centrist politics, etc. Submitting to the anima actually seems to be the most effective way to teleport into the masculine position, and men who take this path tend to be tougher, more energetic, more creative, and, above all, more magnetic toward women.

Some associative studies

Yes exactly

i was kidding Well i would say not at all, even if it's very unconscious because It involves deep-rooted layers of ego.

lol Look at mean @Sugarcoat who doesn't want other actualized women to know how great I am 😾 She didn't end up on bupropion; she ended up having to take, or manifest, a situation where she takes antipsychotics, which is in line with her persona. Her depressing PP, her antipsychotics, her health problems, her writing style, etc, all of this is a projection of her persona; it's perfect. I'm being teasing, but I'm not saying that to attack her at all, just because I know her well. I'm going to change what I said; it's not about the difficulty in recognizing that I am the cup of coffee in denial; it's also about the denial that I don't want, don't desire, to be (in the sense of embodying, of feeling, precisely not of projecting/objectifying) the cup of coffee. I don't want to be in a frequency where I am directly energetic without a cup of coffee, because, for example, I'm playing at "I'm the worker who has to get off my ass and work hard to support my family." If I'm playing at being whipped, I'm projecting the whip (the coffee). I don't know if this is clear, I could clarify all that.

Indeed somehow lol; you've internalized in your self-concept that you're not coffee, and so you project "coffee." The effect, of course, but also the taste and apparence in general of coffee, milk, etc. Because if "milk," "coffee," and "caffeine" were integrated, there would be no reason to go out and drink one.

There typically my joke wasn't funny, it was a bit simping. To draw a parallel with my topic; I could marry my anima but that would mean stopping forcing things with you or anyone else and therefore taking the risk of being abandoned.

Too bad it was funny and boosted a bit my ego lol Nevermind Of course, everything is projection/reproduction.

He was mystical and got close to non dual philosophy.

@Sugarcoat I saw the comment. You don't want other actualized women be interested eh 😾 Yes. What I think about women is a projection of my relationship to the internal phenomena that I associate to them (emotional...) If I don't allow myself to be emotional and my life is boring, I'll think that women are distant, if I'm angry, that women are annoying or even hysterical, if it's generally negative, that women like bad boys, etc.

Better than that, love is about recognize (so project) of a lack in the other and wanting to fill it. So you will love someone for things that are going to be redflags for people that dont have the same karma.

Ok

@AION @Natasha Tori Maru @theleelajoker There's no point in telling me about a contradiction between "theory and practice". I'm writing this thread for the pleasure of intellectualizing things; that's the point in itself. I don't have a problem in practice.

I didn't say or suggested that; anima is just my feminin side. It's not even the sharing of the same phenomenon between two polarities, as if I were 70% masculine and 30% male. In the Lacanian epistemiology that I love, the anima would be the imaginary order, the emotional, the movement, and my masculinity the symbolic, with which I identify because I am a heterosexual man. The more I embrace, feel, my anima, the more I am in fact masculine because I am projected into the symbolic. A bit like a camera, there is where the camera can film and where the camera is; the more I film the feminine, take it as an object, the more I am in the place of the masculine.

Typical nolife sentence

@UnbornTao Do you know William Blake?

Philosophy, remotely. Blond swiss cheese feeded women. 😏 I can't work at the border like this.

I live with my parents. I've had temporary assignments here and there but it's rubbish, I'm going to take advantage of the seasonal workers leaving their positions to see if I can find one.

Yea but opioids are bad for hormones and digestions.

He probably invent lol @Leo Gura

I almost never saw anybody progress with psychedelics. I can have good ideas under psychedelics, but it requires a lot of thought and planning before and after the trip. So for most people, just doing whatever they want during the trip will be useless, just a roller coaster. Then, it's cool to ride a roller coaster. I'm not against having fun/experiencing things, but it's still a roller coaster. People who say psychedelics change lives, are more effective than therapy, lol, are essentially neurotic and need excuses to take psychedelics, like those who used to say they play to "software" instead of video games when it was still a bit taboo, lol.

No pb it takes more than that to hurt me eheh Thanks You have a bit of a mean/violent way of sorting lol 😹I don't think in terms of trash or low-level. In any case we attract people who are like us yes. Yea but it's linked to my vision of masculinity, but nevermind I don't operate with this limiting belief, it's something that hangs around somewhere in my belief system that could limit me, but it's not central at all, I found it interesting to talk about it.

I dont have this believe. Yes