Schizophonia

Someone who plans ahead

Yes exactly ! The feeling of excitement, liberation, pleasure sought through death is actually in theses places. Maybe you like being sent to a bad image of your physique for this very reason, but it's a last resort; it's kind of lame to go in that direction I don't want to take you there. It's better, I think, to say "okay, actually I'm quite pretty 🤗" and dare to move the game towards something more "Boemian," creative, sensitive, playful, etc. Better than settling for its schizoid structure and laughing, or else coming off sarcastic stuff. It can be funny in a bdsm game lol but well. What am I saying. Yes

No, a true alpha male knows how to be compassionate. No, nothing beats the French country baguette.

Maya is the materialization of the concept of self, everywhere and all the time. Just look at your PP. Most of the time, you can see people's problems in their PP: they complain about some phenomenon, but they create a PP that reminds them of this phenomenon. A problem only ends when you stop paying attention to it, stopping identifying with it.

@Joshe I'm not making fun of your point of view; I just wanted to joke a bit. I basically said what I had to say on page one; I could make another serious response if I have an idea.

No me strong, me having won the club battle and me having biggest wily, me being actualize alpha male

Yea but the afterlife isn't necessarily better. The point of no return, pleasure of humiliation/destruction of the ego, is available here and now. It can be anything from gardening to sex, including skydiving, partying, taking drugs, etc. The desired direction by definition can no longer be experienced in death, so it is not the true desired direction. It's not a question of any particular activity in itself, but really of letting go, lose it; if what I'm saying makes sense.

I talked about the why are you not ending yourself; it would be downright mean lol It's like I go down the street and say to someone, "Hey, you're fat." it's good 👍 👺

>someone might ask “ why are you suicidal” but to ask “why are you not ending yourself

You on the stairs of your house to get revenge for the theft of your DMT

Why would they ask that

Me rock me masculin male. Me doing club battle with males to have actualized woman.

The topic is lowkey funny Imagine posting this with your stoic face in close-up as an avatar.

Al hamdulilah

Yes, exactly. Probably because when I (my ego) become small, "castrated" (of certain signifiers), well paradoxically I am dispossessed of castration anxiety, so there is no more "void" to fill. I am once again "full of myself," even if it is anger/bad feelings. It's a good question. I would say that feeling empty is a sign that you don't want to seek the phallus, and probably what's behind this (unconsciously) is exaggerated castration anxiety. And if your brain functions in a way that manages strong castration anxiety, even if it isn't felt because of defense mechanisms (hence the feeling of "emptiness"; I'm bored because I don't want to do things that make me happy, I don't make myself happy because in the end I'll be useless, I'll be humiliated, blah blah blah), well this will induce more feminine behavior, even fantasies. Either you believe you have the phallus and will automatically, systematically take the dominant position; or you believe you are not phallic and you will tend to more or less project the phallus, instead of identifying with it. Here we're talking about sex, but it's at all levels. Thanks my mouse. Give a piece of Comté.

Scenarios 1 and 2 amount to the same thing: it's about feeling the emotion of failure, of lack (castration). If you want to do something with your life, to move in a direction, you must automatically contemplate and digest the difference between your current self and your ideal self. If you don't want to feel it, then you end up living life through defense mechanisms that protect you from it; this is neurosis. To feel powerful and function in the sense of pleasure, you will regress to an archaic libidinal functioning called "anal sadism," (or oral, for hysterical people typically) where the phallus (not literally, not just lol, but the usual signifiers like a beautiful woman, a big car, sports activities, etc.) is substituted by "excrement." What you call victimization and rumination in general is a false "scatophile" phallus. It's frustrating, but it protects you from castration anxiety (being humiliated, hurt, etc.); unconsciously, that's what it's all about. The phallic position is the position used to fight castration. Men are generally more "phalic" than women; that is, when a castration scenario presents itself (lack of money, lack of sex, drama, boredom, etc.), men will normally directly seek to suppress castration anxiety, passively (through acceptance) or actively (making a plan, being proactive). Whereas women will remain passive and endure the anxiety, or preferentially transfer it onto a man. In cases of poor Oedipus complex development, trauma, etc., a man may also chronically fail to adopt the phallic position, which will generally lead to passive and feminine behaviors and even fetishes in general (due to the weakness of phallic dynamics and regressive mechanisms). Castration anxiety is the fear of losing power. The phallus, as Lacan would describe it, is the ultimate signifier hidden behind the various objects of desire. Someone who doesn't have the phallus is someone who doesn't have money and/or a woman and/or a PlayStation 4, etc.; what we consider the phallus to be is individual; it is the frustration that signals castration anxiety.

You can say the same with everything

What we intuitively consider being masculin is actually lowkey the appropriation of the father’s phallus (by imitation) during oeudipus complexe.

A man can be very sensitive and still be a functional person; be strong and attractive in his way.

France is the country with the best gastronomy in the world, with the greatest variety of landscapes, with the most monuments, with the highest political culture in the world (the majority of people become politicized from high school, there are no taboos on debate, there are tones of candidates in the various elections from Stalin to Adolf Hitler), no culture of hypocrisy in social relations like in the United States, social security, and a generally green population. Here I'm promoting my country, aka the best country in the world 😎, but you can be happy in Europe in general.

Awakening is a hobby.

@Judy2 it's useless.

I think it fix when you really give up on the idea of finding the phallus in girls, and therefore see them for softer/sensitive/weaker things to cuddle, activities and sex with. You know something is integrated when you don't feel the need to symbolize it anymore.

Thanks Well, indeed, victimizing/ruminating tends toward feminization because it involves transferring anxiety onto the symbolic. Just as a camera can film everything except yourself, the sign that you are in the masculine position is the feeling, the responsibility of femininity. For example, if you want a girlfriend (because the topic is about women) but you don't have one, you will be proactive, do what it takes to get a girlfriend, or else accept not having one, and therefore you will have to accept the emotional burden (hatred, knots in your stomach, etc.). If you're too feminine, you'll be tempted to ruminate/dwell on it, which may seem strange at first glance because it's painful and counterproductive, but it's a way, as I said above, of displacing anxiety onto the symbolic (a blackpilled website or video is symbolic, it's something tangible, the same goes for a thought of rumination/victimization, it's "something"), because otherwise it would be propelled into the emotional. It's not even "worse," it's another form of frustration or of experiencing things in general; what's behind it is the fear (Oedipus complex, childhood trauma, etc.) of taking the phallic position. When you ruminate on something in your head, when you victimize yourself, these phrases are like an imaginary phallus; That is to say, you have castration anxiety that you're going to calm by transferring it to this symbol, by clinging to it. You'll hear here and there that women might choose an asshole over a nice guy because he's better looking, cooler, has more to offer, etc. You're doing exactly the same thing! You don't want nice mental self-talk; you're stuck on bad mental self-talk because what interests you is its ability to absorb anxiety. So if you have a tendency toward victimization, to be mannered, perhaps masochistic fantasies, etc., you want to recondition yourself to identify more with the phallic position. Now, to get back to OP, that's not really what I'm seeing. Maybe that's how it is, but what emerges in this case is not directly the hypertrophied castration anxiety typical of victimization (see obsessional neurosis) itself, but rather the defense mechanism of identification with the father (and then with substitutes) against castration anxiety. That is to say, in the Oedipal situation and then in power struggles later in life, one strategy to calm the anxiety is to submit completely to the father (and later to authority in general). Normally, the libido is always directed towards the mother and then the substitutes, but if identification as a defense mechanism is too strong, it will tend to create misogynistic tendencies; because since you don't have the phallic position, you will blame women for not having it and bless your father for having it (instead of "killing" him). In the OP's case, it's this strange neurotic misogyny that comes out, like "ah, look, women are women, they prefer to do their hair rather than talk about spirituality, bla bla bla bla" Without realizing that what he sees as masculine is actually a defense mechanism found mainly in men for Oedipal reasons, but which is actually childish. The average peasant or rugby player is virile, more so than any man on this forum, and yet by OP's standards, he would actually be feminine. Emotional rigidity, dwelling on "the truth," and all that nonsense isn't masculine; it's defense mechanisms found more in men and is actually a bit feminizing because it tacitly betrays a fear of being phallic.

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