Schizophonia

Worked for what

Projecting

Tell me if I trigger things, if you want details...

I write this because I am probably mirroring you, in the more masculine polarity automatically.

You look better when you're healthy, the photo in 2023. Idk if it's that but you can also be cute, fragile even being normal or overweight. It's not like you need to be skinny to appear cute, and therefore attract, if not be perceived, that way; it's an illusion, if that's what you're looking for. Otherwise, you can also try to detach yourself from this identity, this "type of emptiness" for something else. For example, less "cute" and more "sexy." Both are possible, even overlapping; you can play with several masks at once depending on the context.

Have fun looking at people's avatars. Ofc. Otherwise i I would have already manifested love glory and beauty

Too bad 👺

@Judy2 You're so cute and you wake up my savior syndrome when i see the photos. You deserve to feel good and be pampered by a good social group and/or man, according to your wishs. Stop wasting your time on food; I assure you, it's a complete waste of time, and you gain absolutely nothing from it (unless you believe you need to be like that to be entitled to a similar level of attention or something like that). The photos are old but you said you "relapsed" so I imagine you're skinny again Eating more should also greatly reduce your stress by dampening stress hormones (QED) and boosting the hormonal cascade.

Someone who plans ahead

Yes exactly ! The feeling of excitement, liberation, pleasure sought through death is actually in theses places. Maybe you like being sent to a bad image of your physique for this very reason, but it's a last resort; it's kind of lame to go in that direction I don't want to take you there. It's better, I think, to say "okay, actually I'm quite pretty 🤗" and dare to move the game towards something more "Boemian," creative, sensitive, playful, etc. Better than settling for its schizoid structure and laughing, or else coming off sarcastic stuff. It can be funny in a bdsm game lol but well. What am I saying. Yes

No, a true alpha male knows how to be compassionate. No, nothing beats the French country baguette.

Maya is the materialization of the concept of self, everywhere and all the time. Just look at your PP. Most of the time, you can see people's problems in their PP: they complain about some phenomenon, but they create a PP that reminds them of this phenomenon. A problem only ends when you stop paying attention to it, stopping identifying with it.

@Joshe I'm not making fun of your point of view; I just wanted to joke a bit. I basically said what I had to say on page one; I could make another serious response if I have an idea.

No me strong, me having won the club battle and me having biggest wily, me being actualize alpha male

Yea but the afterlife isn't necessarily better. The point of no return, pleasure of humiliation/destruction of the ego, is available here and now. It can be anything from gardening to sex, including skydiving, partying, taking drugs, etc. The desired direction by definition can no longer be experienced in death, so it is not the true desired direction. It's not a question of any particular activity in itself, but really of letting go, lose it; if what I'm saying makes sense.

I talked about the why are you not ending yourself; it would be downright mean lol It's like I go down the street and say to someone, "Hey, you're fat." it's good 👍 👺

>someone might ask “ why are you suicidal” but to ask “why are you not ending yourself

You on the stairs of your house to get revenge for the theft of your DMT

Why would they ask that

Me rock me masculin male. Me doing club battle with males to have actualized woman.

The topic is lowkey funny Imagine posting this with your stoic face in close-up as an avatar.

Al hamdulilah

Yes, exactly. Probably because when I (my ego) become small, "castrated" (of certain signifiers), well paradoxically I am dispossessed of castration anxiety, so there is no more "void" to fill. I am once again "full of myself," even if it is anger/bad feelings. It's a good question. I would say that feeling empty is a sign that you don't want to seek the phallus, and probably what's behind this (unconsciously) is exaggerated castration anxiety. And if your brain functions in a way that manages strong castration anxiety, even if it isn't felt because of defense mechanisms (hence the feeling of "emptiness"; I'm bored because I don't want to do things that make me happy, I don't make myself happy because in the end I'll be useless, I'll be humiliated, blah blah blah), well this will induce more feminine behavior, even fantasies. Either you believe you have the phallus and will automatically, systematically take the dominant position; or you believe you are not phallic and you will tend to more or less project the phallus, instead of identifying with it. Here we're talking about sex, but it's at all levels. Thanks my mouse. Give a piece of Comté.

Scenarios 1 and 2 amount to the same thing: it's about feeling the emotion of failure, of lack (castration). If you want to do something with your life, to move in a direction, you must automatically contemplate and digest the difference between your current self and your ideal self. If you don't want to feel it, then you end up living life through defense mechanisms that protect you from it; this is neurosis. To feel powerful and function in the sense of pleasure, you will regress to an archaic libidinal functioning called "anal sadism," (or oral, for hysterical people typically) where the phallus (not literally, not just lol, but the usual signifiers like a beautiful woman, a big car, sports activities, etc.) is substituted by "excrement." What you call victimization and rumination in general is a false "scatophile" phallus. It's frustrating, but it protects you from castration anxiety (being humiliated, hurt, etc.); unconsciously, that's what it's all about. The phallic position is the position used to fight castration. Men are generally more "phalic" than women; that is, when a castration scenario presents itself (lack of money, lack of sex, drama, boredom, etc.), men will normally directly seek to suppress castration anxiety, passively (through acceptance) or actively (making a plan, being proactive). Whereas women will remain passive and endure the anxiety, or preferentially transfer it onto a man. In cases of poor Oedipus complex development, trauma, etc., a man may also chronically fail to adopt the phallic position, which will generally lead to passive and feminine behaviors and even fetishes in general (due to the weakness of phallic dynamics and regressive mechanisms). Castration anxiety is the fear of losing power. The phallus, as Lacan would describe it, is the ultimate signifier hidden behind the various objects of desire. Someone who doesn't have the phallus is someone who doesn't have money and/or a woman and/or a PlayStation 4, etc.; what we consider the phallus to be is individual; it is the frustration that signals castration anxiety.

You can say the same with everything