Schizophonia

@OBEler I will eventually drop 10mg of 5 meo mipt this weekend. I want it to be less strong but more manageable, try to handle the energy in "meditation" to enter into ecstasy. I had a feeling of ecstasy/bliss under lsd, I want to recreate it by going further. do you have any advice?

Idk, all of my psychedelic experiences have been enjoyable. But I have this strange head... I find myself most physically agreeable and confident the next day, when I'm much "drier" with low serotonergic activity, small pupils...

Free will is an illusion

You're right, I thought a significant portion was going to go down the throat. But even 10/20mg feels like pure psychic and physical poisoning. That's mostly what I wanted to say.

The visuals and sensations are very similar

I really like 4 HO MET, I take 40mg each time for a good trip. + Quite erotic, round, enveloping, with a feeling of bodily pleasure, especially in the legs. + Very visual, especially internal visuals. + Difficult to have a bad trip, unless the conditions are deplorable, psychedelic euphoric/funny. +Mental, allowed me to realize things about my life in a very deep way, so good for introspection. But don't wreck your psyche and make you drool on your bed like LSD for example. - Didn't take me very "far" even at high doses, unlike LSD, magic mushrooms... No seeing God, no unbelievable feeling, no ego death, no reverting to childhood memories, past life or that crazy stuff. But maybe it's just me.

They make me ugly, especially LSD. A kind of crestfallen face while being stuck in an exaggerated smile.

SERMS + more food

I watch hormone levels closely, one to two years ago I had normal testosterone levels and estrogen (or at least estradiol) levels a bit high, I was also skinny. I was much more afraid of women, other men and confrontation in general. But I had no problem doing high doses of psychedelics, at best hyped and at worst "neutral", I never did bad even with huge doses. I felt the "cool"/interesting sense of transcendence. The only exception was the 5 meo dmt, which was very tough. In the meantime, I have evolved a lot and without going into details I found myself with very high testosterone levels (around 1300ng/dl), also very high DHT and much lower estrogen, to the point of having problems like dry skin, more fragile joints, frequent urination etc. I'm much less afraid of direct confrontation than I used to be, I can talk to other people with no problem, I can be intimidating etc and I generally have less of a problem with self-expression. BUT -I have never been so uninterested, even scared at the idea of taking a psychedelic or any product that alternates consciousness. I want to have control. -I've never been so afraid of death, it didn't bother me so much before but now I'm very frustrated at the idea of my person disappearing. What do you think of it? I saw a video of mckenna where he said psychedelics are feminine because it's about letting go.

If the human is basically just a robot but still "aware", then could it be that divine consciousness is literally in everything on different scales? Do all of the electrical circuits in my macbook form some form of consciousness, just totally different?

I won't be able to see any for quite a while without spending the money so I prefer to drop 20mg and have a very strong experience, I'm used to very high doses so that should be fine. My friend compared it to 450/600ug of lsd. spot on Under most psychedelics the high makes me gradually euphoric or at least stoned. Climbing 5 meo dmt I just want to stare into the distance with a livid look like a fish, and an empty mind.

Hi, How can you know that?

I would even say, is a quark, a neutrino or a higgs boson "alive"?

have you tried microdosing?

Honestly I only know kundalini by name, can you tell me more? I'll also ask chatgpt suddenly ah ah. Why would it help me to awaken my kundalini, this awakening is not definitive anyway, is it?

I have two lozenges of 10mg each, I was thinking of taking 20mg. I saw it was a "heavy" dose like 300/450ug of lsd, I'm in that dosage range. I will do a trip report , the real question is whether this substance is effective for "spiritual work" regardless of whether it is pleasant.

I don't know the DPT. A friend offers me 5 meo mipt, have you tried it?

Thank you for your answer : ) what do you mean by "energy blockage"? I've already done with "ease" huge doses of LSD and various tryptamines, so I'm a little disappointed. I tried the plugage but it didn't work, even with a very large dose.

Someone advised me OSR chelation, because it "definitely" binds the heavy metals in the body until the evacuation whereas ALA must be taken at a precise interval so that the metals are not released into the body. system before evacuation.

Without narrating my life, I spent a lot of time thinking/ruminating on life/existence (call it what you want), I obviously used psychedelics to deepen my path, mainly lsd and others tryptamines (rc). I start having random moments where I actually espouse the intuition that the world "makes no sense" (or at least it's a lot more than I felt like) and I start to panic , to bend over and almost to start a panic attack where I break down, wonder that I'm going there, where I feel like there's nowhere to go/be hidden. It's as if I had lived all my life in a huge delirium where I am so invested that I forget "reality", and all of a sudden I have these flashes of lucidity that particularly scare me. Currently I am writing this message on this forum (among other things) to try to entertain myself and re-persuade me from the matrix. I am quite neurotic, very ossified. I was quite traumatized and stressed during my youth until I became a kind of far-right autistic person, with eating disorders, and above all a very great inhibition, fear of chaos. I've changed a lot but I still have these kind of thought patterns. I'm not here to plead or anything, it's fine, I manage, but what advice would you have for someone like me in this situation? Do we have to go through this kind of stage to reach enlightenment and if so how? Mea culpa if a similar post has already been made.

What do you mean by "between ego archetypes and no-self" ?

When people are disgruntled/helpless their advice will be "flavored" by their willingness to inflate their ego, usually by victimizing themselves/imposing a ruthless worldview. When people are disgruntled/helpless their advice will be "flavored" by their willingness to inflate their ego, usually by victimizing themselves/imposing a ruthless worldview. Many disgruntled people are experienced, and most are unwise.