Schizophonia

Without narrating my life, I spent a lot of time thinking/ruminating on life/existence (call it what you want), I obviously used psychedelics to deepen my path, mainly lsd and others tryptamines (rc). I start having random moments where I actually espouse the intuition that the world "makes no sense" (or at least it's a lot more than I felt like) and I start to panic , to bend over and almost to start a panic attack where I break down, wonder that I'm going there, where I feel like there's nowhere to go/be hidden. It's as if I had lived all my life in a huge delirium where I am so invested that I forget "reality", and all of a sudden I have these flashes of lucidity that particularly scare me. Currently I am writing this message on this forum (among other things) to try to entertain myself and re-persuade me from the matrix. I am quite neurotic, very ossified. I was quite traumatized and stressed during my youth until I became a kind of far-right autistic person, with eating disorders, and above all a very great inhibition, fear of chaos. I've changed a lot but I still have these kind of thought patterns. I'm not here to plead or anything, it's fine, I manage, but what advice would you have for someone like me in this situation? Do we have to go through this kind of stage to reach enlightenment and if so how? Mea culpa if a similar post has already been made.

What do you mean by "between ego archetypes and no-self" ?

When people are disgruntled/helpless their advice will be "flavored" by their willingness to inflate their ego, usually by victimizing themselves/imposing a ruthless worldview. When people are disgruntled/helpless their advice will be "flavored" by their willingness to inflate their ego, usually by victimizing themselves/imposing a ruthless worldview. Many disgruntled people are experienced, and most are unwise.