Schizophonia

It just feels like some psychotic delirium you had on a psychedelic.

The children are mean or even ruthless, they used your origin/your culture to be mean, that's all. It could have been any other singular characteristic, you just want to inflate your ego by talking about "white supremacy".

I did the first time with 5 meo dmt (40 mg in snort) and instantly regretted it, basically spent the 20 mins of the trip fidgeting around lost like I was going to die. I redid a smaller dose of 20 or 10mg (I don't know) and it had absolutely no interest, just ended up putting myself in a "fetal position" in my bed as if I were very sick, a kind of very weird and unpleasant bodyload/feeling. Am I a big fragile or just not ready for the 5 meo dmt? even huge doses of lsd weren't as bad.

you're french ?

Is it supposed to have a "use"?

What I don't understand is where consciousness goes when the body "better", when the brain becomes hs. Where is "God" the projector going?

I tried 750ug, and had a "blackout" somewhere around the board, only to "wake up" mid descent. This is common when I do heroic dares. I don't really know why.

I want your TR With you tried ketamine? how would you compare it to 3-meo-pcp?

Masochistic and misanthropic message.

Lauric acid is a strong 5ar inhibitor. I've seen some people getting less powerful erections and globally seems less androgenic because of abusing coconut or sub-products. Incidentally, some countries having high consumption of coconut also seems having higher percentage of transexual people with again, globally, less androgenic population, typically thailand and polynesians. Polynesians mans in tributs with very high consumption of coconut seems fat, beardless with a unchiseled face. Also, the poorly prepared coconut will quickly turn your ass into a volcano.

Intuitively I might avoid psychedelics with high affinity for dopamine and glutamate receptors. So typically lysergamides (LSD, al LAD, LSA...) They're very effective at high doses are very effective in inducing a strange state of psychosis/acute schizophrenia, for me.

@OBEler I will eventually drop 10mg of 5 meo mipt this weekend. I want it to be less strong but more manageable, try to handle the energy in "meditation" to enter into ecstasy. I had a feeling of ecstasy/bliss under lsd, I want to recreate it by going further. do you have any advice?

Idk, all of my psychedelic experiences have been enjoyable. But I have this strange head... I find myself most physically agreeable and confident the next day, when I'm much "drier" with low serotonergic activity, small pupils...

Free will is an illusion

You're right, I thought a significant portion was going to go down the throat. But even 10/20mg feels like pure psychic and physical poisoning. That's mostly what I wanted to say.

The visuals and sensations are very similar

I really like 4 HO MET, I take 40mg each time for a good trip. + Quite erotic, round, enveloping, with a feeling of bodily pleasure, especially in the legs. + Very visual, especially internal visuals. + Difficult to have a bad trip, unless the conditions are deplorable, psychedelic euphoric/funny. +Mental, allowed me to realize things about my life in a very deep way, so good for introspection. But don't wreck your psyche and make you drool on your bed like LSD for example. - Didn't take me very "far" even at high doses, unlike LSD, magic mushrooms... No seeing God, no unbelievable feeling, no ego death, no reverting to childhood memories, past life or that crazy stuff. But maybe it's just me.

They make me ugly, especially LSD. A kind of crestfallen face while being stuck in an exaggerated smile.

SERMS + more food

I watch hormone levels closely, one to two years ago I had normal testosterone levels and estrogen (or at least estradiol) levels a bit high, I was also skinny. I was much more afraid of women, other men and confrontation in general. But I had no problem doing high doses of psychedelics, at best hyped and at worst "neutral", I never did bad even with huge doses. I felt the "cool"/interesting sense of transcendence. The only exception was the 5 meo dmt, which was very tough. In the meantime, I have evolved a lot and without going into details I found myself with very high testosterone levels (around 1300ng/dl), also very high DHT and much lower estrogen, to the point of having problems like dry skin, more fragile joints, frequent urination etc. I'm much less afraid of direct confrontation than I used to be, I can talk to other people with no problem, I can be intimidating etc and I generally have less of a problem with self-expression. BUT -I have never been so uninterested, even scared at the idea of taking a psychedelic or any product that alternates consciousness. I want to have control. -I've never been so afraid of death, it didn't bother me so much before but now I'm very frustrated at the idea of my person disappearing. What do you think of it? I saw a video of mckenna where he said psychedelics are feminine because it's about letting go.

If the human is basically just a robot but still "aware", then could it be that divine consciousness is literally in everything on different scales? Do all of the electrical circuits in my macbook form some form of consciousness, just totally different?

I won't be able to see any for quite a while without spending the money so I prefer to drop 20mg and have a very strong experience, I'm used to very high doses so that should be fine. My friend compared it to 450/600ug of lsd. spot on Under most psychedelics the high makes me gradually euphoric or at least stoned. Climbing 5 meo dmt I just want to stare into the distance with a livid look like a fish, and an empty mind.

Hi, How can you know that?

I would even say, is a quark, a neutrino or a higgs boson "alive"?

have you tried microdosing?