Schizophonia

Are you aware that personal experiences are not proof? I saw a news report not long ago about a schizophrenic who died trying to convert lions to Christianity. I will give you 1000 euros within 5 years (I am very serious) if you manage to answer the following questions during your next awakening. 1) What was my mom's favorite dish when I was little. 2) In which city did I study last year. 3) What is the name of my best friend. Otherwise sorry, but if you tell me that you are not omnicians while you are omnipotent, I will consider you by default I will just consider you a somewhat crazy type who writes cobblestones in capital letters on a forum.

Interpretation of reality =/= reality

That's true, but it's only temporary. It's also a crazy feminine state of mind, not "realistic but brave" if you see my point. The ultimate goal is to have such a wise and strong mind that you take actions in your favor even if it seems excessively unpleasant to you. That's basically what the military teaches you.

I tried a few routes to see and there I am pursuing a degree in ancient languages + philosophy. Want to become a teacher of one or the other within 4 years.

How much do you weigh ? I believe that if you are very active and/or have a history of metabolic problems, undernutrition etc, you should consume a good amount of calories to stop the HPA axis and finally have the torpor to fall asleep. As a rule of thumb, the more physically and mentally stressed you are, the more calories and fat you need to be. This can go up to 4000 calories per day. Me too I have big problems on that side, I suspect malnutrition so I'm going to make a day at, say, 6000 calories. If so then I should crumble lol. I'll let you know.

Which isomere ? It has importance, is seems that R-Ketamine is more "psychedelic" than S. Like R > RACEMIC > S I have S and it mostly felt recreational and numbing.

Do you have the same symptoms by eating fish ? (like salmon, trout...) If the answer is yes, raw fish or cooked, how ? I guess omega 3 supplements can be more contamined by some stuffs (mercury), largely oxyded or something like that.

Looks a bit like cherry picking, This is especially true for the new rich with a "low level of consciousness." The "real rich" (senior civil servants, head of a large group...) that I see are mostly elegant people, with not so expensive clothes. Rather large expenses in food, their house etc. And again, I see dropshipping millionaires strutting around in randoms t-shirts edit : Spot on

I'm too detached and that's also a problem, because my rough and awkward expression attracts other people's animosity, as well as, by extension, this daily feeling of emptiness and loneliness. It also translates into a fear of awakening, in a different way. It's an another kind of problem. All that to say that the grass is not greener elsewhere. Attachment is your "burden", but savor this love. courage

I'm pretty sure that good sleep, low stress and enought micronutrients are 90% of the work.

I turn around in my room.

lmao That said, you can increase the size of your leek with large doses of DHT cream.

It's just an antihistamine, it's not a dangerous drug. But it has overall anti-psychotic action, so if you have a problem in the future...

He probably just saw it somewhere and spit it out loud and clear to inflate his ego.

Have you considered taking cyproheptadine before bedtime? it is a potent serotonin and even dopamine agonist at high doses (like >2mg). Something like 6mg an hour before bed. The anticholinergic action should also help

I'm interested, if I can make it I'll even pay you

Maybe the onset of schizophrenia, be careful.

What do you call "OCD" ?

To do what ? Can't empty your bladder before or during the trip?

Are you manic or depressed? both (bipolar?) How do you react to pure dopaminergics? (cabergoline, metergoline, bupropion, nicotine...), I have difficulties to understand. Have you tried or thought about trying progesterone? it has a euphoric AND calming effect on the brain (by increasing gaba signaling).

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Modafinil "It is not recommended in those with an arrhythmia, significant hypertension, or left ventricular hypertrophy.[14] Modafinil appears to work by acting on dopamine and modulating the areas of the brain involved with the sleep cycle.[3]" So must be a bit more like LSD, which is a dopamine agonist.

It's not really what I would call "a raw desire to fuck".

When I'm in the illusion and my fixations, my head in my diary, life is ok. But as soon as I become excessively "free", in contemplation, isolation, call it what you want, it all becomes excessively indigestible. And it's actually indigestible most of the time and we spend most of our time with our heads in the sand waiting for the next illusion, fixation, which will make us forget all that shit of being a consciousness trapped in the 3rd dimension etc. . All this has an excessive weight, why God does not commit suicide/is obliged to exist so as not to leave room for an eternal rest, devoid of love but in any case without the possibility of contemplating it?

Can someone explain to me if achieving solipsism has any point or if this is just a potential way to piss you off ? Apart from the entertainment of spirituality.

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