Schizophonia

No, it's because a video is fixed and therefore only conveys a limited amount of affect. With a “real” woman, it’s different every time. If like most guys who fantasize about asian women it's because they seem promiscuous/easily submissive, well you don't hold them in esteem and you'll always want to go see another girl, because there isn't much intimacy in your relationships. Estrogen makes you polygamous, wanting to flirt with women of all ages and ethnicities everywhere, because you become too anxious to let yourself go with someone you really care about.

Ok it will be "She" Based on your pp.

Choose a genre, that way I can at least easily qualify you.

Ahah. I'm not at this level of madness, i eventually can have "visions" during present moment practice, some meditations...

If you have 0 "discipline" you will finish anyway to become homeless and eat trashs lol.

Yes. If you're like me and are too lazy to maintain a strict diet and very intense sport activity, you finish by having less stress,less hurt yourself physically, and actually shift your energy to more interesting things.

Too much "discipline" also means wasting time turning away from a more absolute, more holistic truth. Also, when you are in good health and energetic, you become naturally more hardworking, more strict on hygiene and storage, etc.

Which can be dangerous. If Adolf Hitler was French there would have been two death lol, because people would have been too lazy to make gas chambers and would have simply said “what is this crazy lol”.

You while writing that :

When you're "motivated" : "I will do some jogging, this way i will be able to lose weight !". When you're "disciplined" : "I will do some jogging, this way it means i'm not a shit who will never find someone" The mechanism is the same, only the affect is different. The discipline/motivation dichotomy gives the impression that by discipline you do something "without drive", which is dumb : There is still something, an energy which push you to pursue the effort.

@RendHeaven The only time i've had fantasies about having an harem is when i tried very highs dosages of testosterone without AI at the point i looked like a muscular pig, and later (some months after having stopped my experience) when i've tried clomid and that the zucclomiphene (the more estrogenic isomere) started to hit from approximately one week. I also had fantasies on fat women lol. Now my testosterone is normally high (900ng/dl) but my estradiol a bit low, and i am much more attracted to a tender monogamous relationship. I can do dirty things to my girlfriend lol but i much prefer to be more stoic and stable, the prospect of polygamy is just annoying. It become even truer when i am on nicotine or psilocybin for some reasons, and even more when i've tried 25mg of exemestane one day.

From an absolute pov, everything is a "placebo/nacebo".

No he/she is not. Throw a piece of baguette on @Princess Arabia face*

Indeed eheh. Done

I had to film myself some months ago to do a video in English to improve my oral, and maybe to posting here. I was lethargic and looked weird anyway because of sleep issues so it took a while and in the meantime my computer battery has grilled and destroyed my motherboard, so now I find myself without computers or my crushes (shitty lol, ok). Computer butted aside, i need a camera and I have no idea what to get. I have let's say up to 500 euros of budget, I think that's enough. If there's a john video engineer who wants to boost his ego a little by enlightening me.

Ohhhhh. So that's you who has retrieved OP's 5 MeO. Mhhhhhhh, i understand now.

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Tyson was disciplined because he was very motivated to, at a neurotic level, fight and giving the impression to be a tough guy. Why aren't you disciplined to drink celery juice every day ? Because for NOW you don't SEE the POINT ! Discipline = Unconscious motivations = Ego = Survival.

Ahah. That's what i actually did but the result wasn't so good.

You has taken too much edibles again 😂

I've responded.

I've never noticed anything. Maybe it's somehow true but we have to put in perspective with what concretely kills peoples. Nobody "dies because of eating cashew", just writing that is a bit funny lol, i'm sure yourself doesn't trust that. But, there is plenty of people who die because of cigarette, alcohols, drugs in general, sedentary lifestyle and deficiencies ; That's what i want to concentrate myself on, i don't want to worry because of eating cashew, because it certainly don't will have any significant, virtual consequences and in particular bad ones. "fly fucking' as we say here 😂 https://dictzone.com/french-english-dictionary/enculer les mouches

The main difference between genders is that men have a lower perceived stress response that women in a same context. So men can accept bigger problems, bigger truths, rather than resorting to denial (to avoid confrontation, active passive)in different forms of psychical defense mechanisms (because accepting to contemplate the truth would induce too much stress on the system). That's why mens' ego generally finish by limiting itself and therefore structuring itself around more complicated subjects (in "macro" in a fractal logic, from a holistic point of view, if what I say makes sense lol) that are hard for the ego to swallow in relation to women, such as spirituality, philosophy, or to a lesser extent science or even politics ; And omen will therefore prefer "smaller" problems, in relations to men. But, for some reasons (oeudipian complex, lake of experience in general and/or lakes of testosterone spikes), men eventually can prefer acting feminine in some context. So basically op has relationships problems, but rather that contemplate the truth ("I am unhappy of love, i need help, solutions"), he goes into denial. It's very simple to understand : What is accepted, understood, by the energetic structure lose its tangibility and isn't a subject anymore, what you see and are concerned by are the "projection" (to take a comprehensible dual pov) of your ego's structure. So, automatically, each declaration that you do is fundamentally a recreational formation to avoid the truth. Your whole ego btw is a deny of the truth, and the "self" deception process is certainly infinite. I've never say or even think "i have to blink" because it's very obvious, but if you say "i am heterosexual" while you're actually not, something like that, well you will see this subject put in the table everywhere, you will ofc compulsively talk about it. I know that if i'm currently compulsively respond to op, it's because the mirror is somehow strong ; It must be still a part of me which want to go to denial on some subjects, here by rationalize by insisting on the so called secondary benefits of a problem. BUT,it's still deny, because if his being was really agree to think that he wouldn't talk about it because the boarders of his ego would have evolved towards others subjects that separate himself from a more absolute truth.

Oh ok, a bit like ramana maharshi it seems. I see. They are all with mooji eheh.

Yes, stress is precisely the motivation of "taking" control ; It's the same thing. Otherwise, you would simply give up.