Schizophonia

Are you upset right now for certain events in your life or is it just a "natural" impulse to call people rats and be so dry ? Are you still on the carnivore diet ? some people often become angry and unsympathetic on this diet.

I have the opposite problem, high energy but overly manic and cerebral. I think it's the glutamate/GABA axis that plays the main role. GABA is the main "yang" neurotransmitter, it suppresses anxiety, pain and all internal considerations communicated by the CNS. Vice versa for glutamate. A high level of GABA or a low level of glutamate (especially at the level of NMDA receptors) will turn your energy outwards, making you more social but at the same time more assertive, even aggressive. Basically gives you the impression of being a "focused" energy with a strong interaction with the outside, especially since the energy (thus the stimulating neurotransmitters like cotecholamines, histamine, partly serotonin etc.) will be high. A funny comparison is the difference between Ketamine and LSD. LSD is a powerful dopamine agonist, obviously serotonin, but also glutamate, this substance makes me very vulnerable as a child. While ketamine is a potent dopamine (especially esketamine) agonist, apparently a mild SSRI, but also and above all an NMDA receptor antagonist, this is in fact its primary means of action. It makes me absolutely ruthless lol, even when I think I'm very nice in communicating when on ketamine I actually look like a pretty unpleasant person, like an intimidating soldier giving orders. Downhill I become very manic with a fairly high voice. Anyway, have you tried Ayurvedic diet? it seems that you are too "rajastic", it is very likely that a diet with a certain balance of micronutrients can significantly influence your neurotransmitters in the long term.

We all have fairly gigantic coincidences on a regular basis. Are these just coincidences like others or complex attraction/energetic games? (I do not know if it's clear) More than that, is it just God who divided himself into a finite universe in such a way that such a perfect logical sequence faced so that his limited avatars (human consciousnesses or not) lead the most complex existences possible so that God can "have fun"? Which would give us as an ego, in fine, the regular sensation of being subject to a superior interventionist entity?

lol I imagine a pedantic guy logging onto a personal dev forum with an avatar of a buddha, going to a topic about political opponents scolding certain leftists, reading diagonally, and basically posting the most insulting and condescending message in the whole topic. "You guys are too selfish to see beyond your own bullshit" Ironic

does anyone has any proof of the veracity of his experience ?

No. The vast majority of my advances in life have been made through experience and/or a lot of honest introspection. The real breakthroughs that psychedelics allow have actually been, for me, very subtle.

It just feels like some psychotic delirium you had on a psychedelic.

The children are mean or even ruthless, they used your origin/your culture to be mean, that's all. It could have been any other singular characteristic, you just want to inflate your ego by talking about "white supremacy".

I did the first time with 5 meo dmt (40 mg in snort) and instantly regretted it, basically spent the 20 mins of the trip fidgeting around lost like I was going to die. I redid a smaller dose of 20 or 10mg (I don't know) and it had absolutely no interest, just ended up putting myself in a "fetal position" in my bed as if I were very sick, a kind of very weird and unpleasant bodyload/feeling. Am I a big fragile or just not ready for the 5 meo dmt? even huge doses of lsd weren't as bad.

you're french ?

Is it supposed to have a "use"?

What I don't understand is where consciousness goes when the body "better", when the brain becomes hs. Where is "God" the projector going?

I tried 750ug, and had a "blackout" somewhere around the board, only to "wake up" mid descent. This is common when I do heroic dares. I don't really know why.

I want your TR With you tried ketamine? how would you compare it to 3-meo-pcp?

Masochistic and misanthropic message.

Lauric acid is a strong 5ar inhibitor. I've seen some people getting less powerful erections and globally seems less androgenic because of abusing coconut or sub-products. Incidentally, some countries having high consumption of coconut also seems having higher percentage of transexual people with again, globally, less androgenic population, typically thailand and polynesians. Polynesians mans in tributs with very high consumption of coconut seems fat, beardless with a unchiseled face. Also, the poorly prepared coconut will quickly turn your ass into a volcano.

Intuitively I might avoid psychedelics with high affinity for dopamine and glutamate receptors. So typically lysergamides (LSD, al LAD, LSA...) They're very effective at high doses are very effective in inducing a strange state of psychosis/acute schizophrenia, for me.

@OBEler I will eventually drop 10mg of 5 meo mipt this weekend. I want it to be less strong but more manageable, try to handle the energy in "meditation" to enter into ecstasy. I had a feeling of ecstasy/bliss under lsd, I want to recreate it by going further. do you have any advice?

Idk, all of my psychedelic experiences have been enjoyable. But I have this strange head... I find myself most physically agreeable and confident the next day, when I'm much "drier" with low serotonergic activity, small pupils...

Free will is an illusion

You're right, I thought a significant portion was going to go down the throat. But even 10/20mg feels like pure psychic and physical poisoning. That's mostly what I wanted to say.

The visuals and sensations are very similar

I really like 4 HO MET, I take 40mg each time for a good trip. + Quite erotic, round, enveloping, with a feeling of bodily pleasure, especially in the legs. + Very visual, especially internal visuals. + Difficult to have a bad trip, unless the conditions are deplorable, psychedelic euphoric/funny. +Mental, allowed me to realize things about my life in a very deep way, so good for introspection. But don't wreck your psyche and make you drool on your bed like LSD for example. - Didn't take me very "far" even at high doses, unlike LSD, magic mushrooms... No seeing God, no unbelievable feeling, no ego death, no reverting to childhood memories, past life or that crazy stuff. But maybe it's just me.

They make me ugly, especially LSD. A kind of crestfallen face while being stuck in an exaggerated smile.

SERMS + more food