Schizophonia

What do you call "OCD" ?

To do what ? Can't empty your bladder before or during the trip?

Are you manic or depressed? both (bipolar?) How do you react to pure dopaminergics? (cabergoline, metergoline, bupropion, nicotine...), I have difficulties to understand. Have you tried or thought about trying progesterone? it has a euphoric AND calming effect on the brain (by increasing gaba signaling).

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Modafinil "It is not recommended in those with an arrhythmia, significant hypertension, or left ventricular hypertrophy.[14] Modafinil appears to work by acting on dopamine and modulating the areas of the brain involved with the sleep cycle.[3]" So must be a bit more like LSD, which is a dopamine agonist.

It's not really what I would call "a raw desire to fuck".

When I'm in the illusion and my fixations, my head in my diary, life is ok. But as soon as I become excessively "free", in contemplation, isolation, call it what you want, it all becomes excessively indigestible. And it's actually indigestible most of the time and we spend most of our time with our heads in the sand waiting for the next illusion, fixation, which will make us forget all that shit of being a consciousness trapped in the 3rd dimension etc. . All this has an excessive weight, why God does not commit suicide/is obliged to exist so as not to leave room for an eternal rest, devoid of love but in any case without the possibility of contemplating it?

Can someone explain to me if achieving solipsism has any point or if this is just a potential way to piss you off ? Apart from the entertainment of spirituality.

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I hope you're gf isn't a BBW lol lmao.

You may be a little hypogonadal. Try cabergoline or meteroline to decrease prolactin, and push the positive feedback loop: more testosterone <-> bigger dopamine/serotonin ratio. Can synergize with high niacin supplementation and other supplements to decrease methylation and increase dopamine + acetylcholine dominance and decrease serotonergic (which increases prolactin), noradrenalinergic, and adrenalinergic signaling. If that's not enough to increase libido, go for trt. like 100mg testosterone cypionate + 250ui of HCG, HMG if you have the money. Two intramuscular injections per week.

Some people think they can't be scam.

What is the point ?. I walk a lot and my feet are strong despite i have random low cost shoes.

Can a mere human brain really understand God?

I feel like there is often a balance in suffering. Like incarnating yourself in a simple life but ending up on bestgore, or in a Westerner bathed in comfort but ruminating your whole life. Something like that.

I believe that you did not know "bestgore", no ?

Women want to show off their whole body, men just want to show that they are lean/have a good body composition by possibly wearing skinny jeans, sweaters that widen the shoulders etc. Make-up is also a way of pretending that you are more estrogenic than in reality. So there are more men's clothes that look good on women than the opposite.

Evil does not exist. Gilles de Rais is not "bad" as we can hear, he's just a human with an excessively anti-social and sadistic mental programming. Humans aren't normally sociable and kind because that's good, it's just a survival strategy. You would have been a lion to take pleasure in tearing the belly of your prey to nibble on its organs while it was still alive and dying.

Why be so concerned about awakening and spirituality in general if there are so many pitfalls and side effects? what is the benefit? You don't even have concrete proof that you are right and that you are just not crazy on a forum lol. It would be too easy if "the crazy people are just the others, I have deciphered reality and the traps under x substance". But to come back to my real question: Why not just live your life like a normal human, and see what happens when you die?

Yes, but no fap can make you do unreasonable things.

I wouldn't be so sure

Ty, I will see ?. I tried with oatmeal porridge and lots of sugar No, it’s rather a kind of OCD, and probably cortisol (circadian) issue. Too awake/euphoric on afternoon, too sleepy on the morning

Why would anyone take such a hepatotoxic substance orally. Rather than ordering a straw on the internet and snorting.

easy answer

I already tried and it didn't work

Ty, I'm going to try these videos before bed. Right now I'm listening to Mozart, doing pretty well I think