Schizophonia

Yes, narcissism and the life drive as the Lacanians would say. I PM him a while ago to ask him questions about insomnia, and as I'm very curious I continue to ask him questions here and there. I don't really know what was going on in her head but she just ghosted suddenly without a little "explanatory" message (a few words would have been enough). She's a random on a forum so I don't care, but there's no doubt she definitely has a vagina

People stop ruminating on psychedelics, it has nothing to do with the psychological aspect of it but it's good because psychedelics increase the perception of energy. Even a purely serotonergic tryptamine like psylocybin potently increases OXPHOS. LSD, an agonist of most dopamine receptors, can make you ultra elitist and obsessive-compulsive for a few hours.

It's even simpler, your nervous system pushes you to victimize yourself because it doesn't have the necessary energy to cope with failure any further. No one really ruminates on defeat, it actually takes the form of victory. Winning is being important in the eyes of others, being "the victim who never has what it takes" remains an energetic victory.

I was going to veer into something particularly negative, but actually I just wanted to be negative. I am very often very isolated and I work a lot even though my health is poor, so I can quickly veer towards this twisted, strange, unpleasant and even tyrannical character. As if the brake was broken in survival mode. I'll stop there, mea culpa. Don't particularly trust me, trust leaders who have real experience and strong energy. In fact, don't even think about tomorrow

Women and relationships in general are essentially lose of time.

You will develop gynecomastia and become boring and stressed from all this e2. But you're never going to turn into a woman, all you're going to do is trigger serious long-term endocrine problems.

I had the same thing with Remeron. Which SSRI was it ?

I want become as intelligent as William James Sidis.

Honestly, I didn't understand your story. If you didn't try to flirt with them, then you clearly didn't want them, case closed. I don't know what your ego is playing and why it comes to this, the subject is manifesting a partner, something you want.

THIS PLANET IS PERFECT AND YOU WILL HAVE PROOF OF ALL POSSIBLE BELIEFS. I CAN PERSUADE YOU THAT THE MAJORITY OF MEN CERTAINLY PREFER OLDER WOMEN, I CAN MAKE YOU BELIEVE ANYTHING. LOOK. BUT ULTIMATELY, YOU KNOW NOTHING, YOU HAVE NO SERIOUS PROOF OF ANYTHING AT A CERTAIN LEVEL, AND ULTIMATELY YOU ARE ALONE WITH YOUR CHARACTERS, YOUR MASKS.

This is what everyone pulls out of their hat as if it were a valid argument in itself lol. Now let's not be afraid of words. -Either she is simply too stupid to be able to reason and be led to the various obvious conclusions, that is to say that there are plenty of men if not the majority who like mature women, or in all cases who are not going to cheat on their partner by growing old just for that etc. Generally, everyone here suffers from advanced mental retardation and random behavior, and Schizophonia can only clumsily "project" itself here and there. -Either, she creates a character (victim in this case) to give herself importance, reinforce her ego in a clumsy way. And so, she carefully chooses the representations that allow her to create that. Since OP seems intelligent, the second solution seems obvious to me.

You've had the experience of "meeting and failing to seduce a woman who seemed like the one for me." It is not a failure, or rather it is an illusion of failure. You had a full-fledged normal experience. Now you want to experience how to successfully seduce a woman. Finally come back down to earth, obviously if you "failed", something was wrong somewhere. You have to work on these things. If you really want a girlfriend and a dream life in general you will make the necessary efforts.

You have too much time to ruminate, that's the problem. Work, have a meaningful life plan and this little self-destructive game will tend to stop.

It's useless rumination, you play the persona of "the poor women who will be cheated because of his older body blahblahblah..." Btw you have only 22 years old, 22 yo and you're already invoking a stress what you "must" only have at least 20 years later.

They play to an other game.

I don't know you and don't know what you mean by "I let myself be guided". But there are books and even training courses for this kind of phenomenon, plenty. Courage 👍

I just connected to God for my case (I'm half psychotic, like Carl Jung), he laughed and explained that I'm still too unstable, and a little immature in general and that "there's still certainly a significant amount of work.” Mhh...

I imagine someone with a strange haircut, a scarf, who watch sadghuru on youtube and who talks about astrology, numerology, human design or that sort of thing. Congratulations, in any case.

Because you don't make the necessary efforts, you don't let yourself be guided.

He looks better now.

Thank you

Any one in particular to recommend? I need to complete my list of books to buy for the next few months

Even very high doses of testosterone will suppress melatonin and destroy certain organs after a few years.

A "discord friend" has developped a terrible chronic insomnia because of a trenbolone cure. I believe it's probably still in the tricyclics/benzodiazepines/adaptogens loop. In fact, perhaps only certain steroids which do not aromatize too much and are not very stimulating (nandrolone, DHT derivatives, etc.) will not particularly cause insomnia. Even testosterone will give you terrible insomnia unless you suppress massively aromatase and feel like you've become an old man.

Spending two weeks to a month on vacation in the middle of nowhere without any form of new technology allowing access to the internet. Guaranteed effect