Schizophonia

Day 6 My next major post was supposed to appear on this journal but i decided to actually make it a post: It will be about masculinity and maturity in general, it will basically be about popularizing psychoanalysis. I could define myself as Lacanian, because most of the ideas, concepts of the little paradigm that i have built up have been borrowed from him; But i actually happen to prefer Freudian notions, or even Jungian ones here and there out of ignorance, or because it seems more intuitive to me: Out of comfort in general. I'm tired and want to apply myself so this post will be out by Sunday, probably before.

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Me i would rather be this guy who becomes Mod after having threatened Leo with a massive DDOS attack 👺

Me too i’m twisted 👺

Cool i appreciate him.

This is what i would have done to cover me if i had another account, in addition to using a VPN. I would have even asked a friend of the opposite sex to pretend to be me in a video and sent it to the moderators as proof.

It seems, like Buck Edward lol. I have nothing against her because she is not hostile to me but she must have strangely twisted beliefs to feel the need to do calculations like that, a strange way of symbolizing reality as Lacan would say 😅. Idk nevermind. 👍

So it was another Pretty India account?

I don’t care about all of this i just say i feel better by eating like that and my blood tests are good. Also i like cooking and eating what i want so i dont wish follow a diet.

One of the biggest suppliers to most onion markets. Probably more reliable than your rc sites, a lot of rc sites are run by mentally ill people who exit scam or lie on the compounds lol

Humans are monogamous in nature. You want to find a good quality girl, kind and intelligent, caring and with common interests, to please you and possibly help you survive, if possible with a gendered division of tasks (the woman does the cooking and chores, the man works...). If you are neurotic then so you will use your libido to calm the excessive castration anxiety and you will end up with a superficial sex life and bizarre sexual fantasies, often of a racist nature.

Who cares. On deep web i can have like 50 blotters of 300ug for 80 euros from a very good source.

If i am euphoric or on the contrary upset, manic in general, it will tend to increase my appetite. If i am quite serious/neutral most of the time i will have much less and tend to be thin. I can most of the time be satisfied with one or two meals, especially if they are whole foods. It’s astonishing you feel « super energic » given that your medication lol.

Because coffee is stressful while food brings you energy and nutrients.

It can also be the need to fill a hole as a demonstration of having the phallic position (power).

I have no hostility towards transgender people, but I am not a demagogue. Moreover, there is a strong correlation between gender dysphoria and schizophrenia, and even probably (i have not seen any direct studies on this, it’s a subjective deduction) neurosis.

Women want a powerful/available libidinal force. This can be translated in many ways, money, physical confidence, humor, anchoring, intelligence, availability, etc. A woman's needs will then vary depending on the overall context (are you in a poor country? for example) and especially their personality, and therefore their need (hole) when it comes to their personality.

It's too weird because beyond appearance most transgender people I've seen still have an energy typical of their original gender, they have to force themselves to appear like their new gender. Gender dysphoria is probably just a trivialized mental illness in most cases.

No, i was the most sharp when i was young and more healthy. That said i have become way less « aspie » as i got older. I wouldn't be able to say exactly what it's due to. Overall I would say that psychedelics are very overrated for mental health, for most people.

Day 4/5/6 I’m at Toulouse for some reasons for 4 days. I "voluntarily" relapsed (👺)to see if all this was just a placebo (and also because i was at a point where i lacked willpower, i was unhappy for some reasons, nevermind) but it was clearly not worth it, i lost motivation again, i feel more miserable; I am clearly going back to seminal retention for an indefinite period. You can't watch pornographic images in seminal retention, it will break your defenses, same story for any addiction in fact; I'm not addicted to pornography at all, but i haven't identified enough with seminal retention yet either. Ultimately this is what the will is based on: conditioning, the concept of self. Seminal retention is a gift from God granted to men. It is a driving force that accumulates and which alone has therapeutic effects on the body but also and especially the mind: It removes learned helplessness and bad karma in general, contrary to what one might think it will not push you to want to fuck a goat or a keyhole lol 🫨, but on the contrary it will break limiting beliefs, and make you more quarrelsome, demanding; Seminal retention will make you a man, it is more important than meditation, and it is just as hard or even harder (if you have normal testosterone ), in a different way. Sleep is ok, oddly enough I can fall asleep well now. I feel depressed, lack of sleep “artificially” increases the levels of certain neurotransmitters/modulators (glutamate, catecholamines, histamine…) and i guess that by sleeping better it gave rise to a crash; At least i feel it quite well. When i get back on Thursday i will make a post to explain psychoanalysis ideas, i didn’t have the courage (=motivation, it is a French expression i hit) to put into form my ruminations (=thoughts) on the subject; I am mainly interested in Lacan and Freud, i sometimes call upon notions of Jung but it is not what interests me the most: I find his system too abstract, even cumbersome. There are also other psychoanalysts still with their system, their point of view (Reich, Fromm, Deleuze, Arthur Janov, even Ken Wilber it seems eheh) in which i have not yet been interested.

It’s pleasant for a man to pay, if possible.

Eheh. 👍

Ahah thanks i don’t take supplements, it’s genetic. Maybe one would be interested on modafinil, lion mane or cholinergic nootropics if it is worried about memory.