Schizophonia

He should go to France No OCD will resist.

He eats like 2000kcal a day at most when he is particularly active, and they're "whole vegan" foods with relatively low bioavailability (beans with olive oil, broccoli...) Also aswhagandha is supposed to improve sleep since it inhibits HPA axis.

The salty forms are suitable for snorting, and you don't need an MAOI it's like smoking it. What would worry me is the taste.

I don't even know it existed ? Can you snort it ?

Yeah that makes sense since it increases motivation. I might make a post about it but i also noticed that it actually decreased the stupid (neurotic) karma and made me fall back on healthy and balanced desires.

Day 3 Today i was able to sleep relatively well. It is a mistake to say that masturbation helps you sleep, orgasm is indeed sedative (in a dirty way, through prolactin) but actually increases anxiety in the medium term, and in the medium term i am talking about, without even needing to contemplate too much, just with a little attention, a significant increase in anxiety only a few minutes after orgasm. Seminal retention allows you to stay in a more grounded psychic state that helps you sleep. I thought about experimenting with Ashwagandha but it actually risks inducing dependence, since it acts as a mild gabaergic and antiglucocoticoid, i will stick to improving sleep hygiene by avoiding blue light and practicing a little visualization/meditation. There was a time when i was constantly sedated in the hope of being able to sleep, but it was systematically a trap because it only takes one dose to suffer a rebound effect and sabotage falling asleep the next day. Mirtazapine was the drug that worked best, but it was so sedating that i felt like an old rat hollowed out at the bottom of a drawer the first few times i took it, the other times were better but it was always very sedating. Pure and hard antihistamines (doxylamine, cyproheptadine ...) are less bad, when i was traveling or generally had to get up in the morning for some reason i often took them systematically, the last time i had recourse to it was during a trip at the end of 2024, it is effective but it turns me a bit into a boring and bloated zombie. Benzodiazepines are the ones that sedate the least and have the least effects on appearance or mind, they are mainly anxiolytic, but suddenly they tend to suppress libido more and sleep is of poorer quality under benzodiazepine, it feels a bit like teleportation the next day without remembering dreams lol. It is also not rare, i do not know if it is because of the peak of the medication or on the contrary the fall, to have horrible nightmares because of sleeping pills, like dreaming of being or seeing people being massacred. I'm going to manifest a Peugeot 208 for the next Christmas 🫨, as my parents would say it came to me like a desire to shit lol. It's a French car, I want to support the French industry which exists less and less because of the tax hell, bureaucracy, and inflation. But if most French cars are ugly shit worthy of a communist hell, the new Peugeots for a decade have been able to adopt modern bodies that increasingly compete with German cars. The Peugeot 208 is magnificent, and it's a versatile city car that's not too expensive. The pureteck engine is suspected to be particularly unreliable but the electric version doesn't seem too bad.

If you do this you will condition your brain even more to function in a feminine way, it is to push back the Oedipal detachment even further. With seminal retention, the motor drive occasioned on the contrary pushes one to undertake actions, make decisions and this progressively reconditions the brain/ego/persona towards a more masculine and tough version.

You are my half Asian hidden brother ahah My neck is normal, maybe it's the photo that give you the impression otherwise.

Stop cumming + do blood tests.

Eheh

I often do push-ups so if I have energy i can exceed 50 push-ups (real ones) in a raw. But i never do pull-ups. When i trained a little to do them when i had the opportunity i had managed to exceed 10 but only in supination. Today i could probably do few pull-ups in supination and one in pronation lol.

You can't make a family in the first case.

In Lithuania?

It's a too complicated egregor lol i don't want to get into that. I know a guy who supposedly got depressed after being cursed and was cured by Filipino healers. What a mess for nothing.

Day 2 I'm proud i has been able to sleep 5/6hours tonight, not because i didn't success to sleep more but because i agreed to get up at 6:30 instead of staying in bed like i usually do if I wake up early; It's almost like i could hear my higher self whispering "Hey, do you want to go back or not?" in a somewhat yang way. The biggest message of insomnia is detachment, the typical energy of self-abandonment that i can find in my father who also sleeps extremely well. Sleep doctors don't go far enough when they explain to you that you must "agree to don't sleep" to actually break the sleep anxiety and finally be able to eventually fall asleep, they are bad psychoanalysts lol. The real question is, are you ready to give up everything? Are you ready to never have a job or to suffer there, maybe never have a girlfriend, maybe never do "important" things in general because of fatigue? And it is paradoxically when you have answered yes to all these questions, all these morbid eventualities, that sleep anxiety and compulsive thoughts finally disappear enough to be able to finally sleep and allowing you to habe the energy to conquer your life. The key is really to stop worrying too much about anything, anything stressful, that involves a power process. Of course this doesn't happen in one day, it's a whole set of fairly neurotic patterns that need to be gotten rid of, i should have seen a psychologist a long time ago but I'm stubborn, i want to manage everything by myself. This is the big difference between "yang" , masculine energy, and "yin" energy, feminine; Men are not more attached to their life than to their power and the libidinal force (who is actually stress, technically) is essentially redirected to cultivate its own deadline. The man wants to cum and if he deprives himself of masturbation, he will lose his mind in work, he will make sure to buy big cars to feel as comfortable as possible, he will naturally seek to find his "cocoon", men are also more comfortable becoming homeless because the worst is not to lack comfort but to be free, but potentially to have comfort but to be a slave to another man. My new goal for today is to practice one hour of visualization per day, and half an hour of meditation. I want to be financially prosperous but also, as i already said in my first post, physically. My maya is a bit at the level of Temu when it comes to what he has to offer for health lol; I know all the nootropics and supplements possible and especially for brain health (NSI 189, Dihexa, Cerebrolysin, Semax, Isoxazole-9, Racetams Nicotine and other cholinergic compounds, Methylene Blue, megadoses of vitamin b1, Melatonin...) but all have a certain financial cost and potentially unpleasant side effects, and none seem to have miraculous effects. It is indeed Joe Dispenza who is the only personality i know who can make people recover their full health even when a stroke has exploded part of their brain, they have had terminal cancer, they suffer from infertility or any autoimmune disease. Joe is a scientist who rationalizes as much as he can via relative concepts like the placebo effect or epigenetics, but behind this mask which is now essentially there to attract skeptical people he is essentially a non dual thinker and explains here and there that beyond appearances, duals and relatives, it is in fact about becoming sufficiently conscious again via meditation exercises to return to a more divine state and manifest, even materialize results in the maya, even in an urgent condition (from the ego). Joe or no Joe, meditation seems to be the only practice that yields powerful physical and mental results depending on how it's done, meditation doesn't mean much in itself, and it's free.

😬 That's why i have pianist fingers glove snap* And me the limit of dirty jokes.

You can stalk me i don't care lol, as long as you don't annoy me by spamming me, being insulting or something like that. I actually think most people are flattered that someone is interested in them.

I would keep the food and remove the coffee.

I was teasing because a normal person wouldn't bother going incognito to not be seen or something like that.

Thank you. I actually want to do videos, but as i've already said to you once i don't want to lay a cringe shit. So it will be a surprise. Oh thanks, you're smart too ; A very classy women in general. No it's because you don't produce semen (i hope).

gnegne

I confirm the autism.

Becoming ~stinky~ This frog needs the best care. Ok good scholarship* mea culpa

Because of your futur knowledge in biology. Indeed the bailiff must squeeze to test the prolactin level 🤏🤠👌 Ok too much lame joke for today. You mean you're self-studying while working or you're joining university this fall while receiving a scholarship? I don't know how the stock exchanges are in Sweden, probably bigger than in France.

The only advantage of neuroleptics is that they are less addictive i guess, especially compared to benzodiazapines. I know someone who had cyamemazine instead of benzo for that reason. You'll be able to manage to have even bigger breasts ahah. Still planning to go to nutrition school when the situation is better?