Schizophonia

Women and relationships in general are essentially lose of time.

You will develop gynecomastia and become boring and stressed from all this e2. But you're never going to turn into a woman, all you're going to do is trigger serious long-term endocrine problems.

I had the same thing with Remeron. Which SSRI was it ?

I want become as intelligent as William James Sidis.

Honestly, I didn't understand your story. If you didn't try to flirt with them, then you clearly didn't want them, case closed. I don't know what your ego is playing and why it comes to this, the subject is manifesting a partner, something you want.

THIS PLANET IS PERFECT AND YOU WILL HAVE PROOF OF ALL POSSIBLE BELIEFS. I CAN PERSUADE YOU THAT THE MAJORITY OF MEN CERTAINLY PREFER OLDER WOMEN, I CAN MAKE YOU BELIEVE ANYTHING. LOOK. BUT ULTIMATELY, YOU KNOW NOTHING, YOU HAVE NO SERIOUS PROOF OF ANYTHING AT A CERTAIN LEVEL, AND ULTIMATELY YOU ARE ALONE WITH YOUR CHARACTERS, YOUR MASKS.

This is what everyone pulls out of their hat as if it were a valid argument in itself lol. Now let's not be afraid of words. -Either she is simply too stupid to be able to reason and be led to the various obvious conclusions, that is to say that there are plenty of men if not the majority who like mature women, or in all cases who are not going to cheat on their partner by growing old just for that etc. Generally, everyone here suffers from advanced mental retardation and random behavior, and Schizophonia can only clumsily "project" itself here and there. -Either, she creates a character (victim in this case) to give herself importance, reinforce her ego in a clumsy way. And so, she carefully chooses the representations that allow her to create that. Since OP seems intelligent, the second solution seems obvious to me.

You've had the experience of "meeting and failing to seduce a woman who seemed like the one for me." It is not a failure, or rather it is an illusion of failure. You had a full-fledged normal experience. Now you want to experience how to successfully seduce a woman. Finally come back down to earth, obviously if you "failed", something was wrong somewhere. You have to work on these things. If you really want a girlfriend and a dream life in general you will make the necessary efforts.

You have too much time to ruminate, that's the problem. Work, have a meaningful life plan and this little self-destructive game will tend to stop.

It's useless rumination, you play the persona of "the poor women who will be cheated because of his older body blahblahblah..." Btw you have only 22 years old, 22 yo and you're already invoking a stress what you "must" only have at least 20 years later.

They play to an other game.

I don't know you and don't know what you mean by "I let myself be guided". But there are books and even training courses for this kind of phenomenon, plenty. Courage 👍

I just connected to God for my case (I'm half psychotic, like Carl Jung), he laughed and explained that I'm still too unstable, and a little immature in general and that "there's still certainly a significant amount of work.” Mhh...

I imagine someone with a strange haircut, a scarf, who watch sadghuru on youtube and who talks about astrology, numerology, human design or that sort of thing. Congratulations, in any case.

Because you don't make the necessary efforts, you don't let yourself be guided.

He looks better now.

Thank you

Any one in particular to recommend? I need to complete my list of books to buy for the next few months

Even very high doses of testosterone will suppress melatonin and destroy certain organs after a few years.

A "discord friend" has developped a terrible chronic insomnia because of a trenbolone cure. I believe it's probably still in the tricyclics/benzodiazepines/adaptogens loop. In fact, perhaps only certain steroids which do not aromatize too much and are not very stimulating (nandrolone, DHT derivatives, etc.) will not particularly cause insomnia. Even testosterone will give you terrible insomnia unless you suppress massively aromatase and feel like you've become an old man.

Spending two weeks to a month on vacation in the middle of nowhere without any form of new technology allowing access to the internet. Guaranteed effect

That is true but puck up or not androgens by themself will break the desire to have feelings of love in a man within time. Or rather change it into another form based on the feeling of conquest and possession, from that moment being insensitive does not matter, because it is mainly up to the woman to be enough sensitive to enjoy your presence, sexual energy as a man.

Tommy needs some mindfullness meditaion.

But why limit yourself to intimate relationships? Also, that doesn't mean things are delivered like that, there is a complete process that can take decades. It's more "being pushed on the path"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9ABjeKMq8I0&t=80s