Schizophonia

Gemini is the most ass-licking AI I've ever tried. It's willing to invent anything to get your way.

lol

Too bad. I'm mischievous so I want to try it; It's supposed to be recreational and at the same time much less dangerous than most opiates. High feeling + pleasant warmth in the body similar to that obtained after sport or a hot shower. I need to find a source on the deep web, I know a seller who sells XTC in the shape of a swastika or other Nazi symbols, no joke lol, he must be reliable. 🫨 I think the world is a projection of beliefs. So if you believe astral travel is a hallucination you have proof of it, if you believe it is true "but in a different way than usual, in the real world" you have proof of it, and if you believe it can be the same you have proof of it; I believe we live on a sphere of probability structured by the beliefs that shape the sense of self. As one of my masters Franck Lopvet would say, "that's why spirituality is not provable, because those who think (want to think, moreover) that there is only matter will have the proof" Sometimes I speak of "egregor" to speak of experimental belief blocks on earth; It can be voodoo magic as well as class struggle. Aw but me too honey. Not easy when you have this goofy alien nearby. Ditto. I read part of the book "Autobiography of a Yogi" and in it they talk about yogi being able to be in several places at the same time or that kind of thing. Personally I prefer the siddhis of eating as much as I want without getting fat lol but it's a nice egregor too. Yes exactly. From what I have observed it is essentially a combination of strong physical and psychic relaxation/fatigue and strong attention (not diluted/manic). If what I say makes sense. Yes indeed I am cowardly lol so I prefer to wake up right away, except once I described and the results were not so scary but above all strange. Yes This is my job as a great intellectual. picks his nose* Yes. The illegal stuffs are things like magic truffles, magic mushroom grow kit, LSA seeds (a psychedelic close to LSD/AL LAD), Salvia, kratom extract (that are quite weak there unfortunately) etc.

Both.

Lol that's curious.

@Sugarcoat Kratom too can generate special vivid dreams. https://www.reddit.com/r/LucidDreaming/comments/10d7f1t/kratom_and_lucid_dreaming/?rdt=37351

Yeah It's curious. Visit me next time, i have astral cookies. Yum.

Aww another synchronicity It's a sign I can manifest her breassst 👺👺👺 No, seriously, I also had bits of lucid dreams last night; like concentrating on a scene (for example a cathode ray television) until, in the hypnotic state of pre-sleep/fatigue, I managed to switch, to finally say to myself "um I'm dreaming" and wake up. I once managed to explore a bit of a lucid dream without being afraid, although it was confusing and even psychedelic. Ditto On Zamnesia you have plants for that. They sell products that are not necessarily legal, like magic truffles, which usually cross the border anyway lol, but these kinds of herbs are legal.

Do you still have as much lucid dreaming/sleep paralysis btw ? 🤔

Lol, you posted this the second I logged in. Nevermind.

lol

Yep, I have never had any personally but there are often some in hotels, even not very expensive ones.

This is just my opinion thrown out there for free to talk to myself, I'm not saying it's the truth, but to me this kind of frequency looks like a kind of compulsive denial of sexuality, aggressiveness, and the taking of power by virility in general. Because, ultimately we are human and all our efforts even if it is denied are oriented to obtain power in accordance with limiting beliefs; Eating only fruit and going to the other side of the world is a way to have power, spirituality is a way to obtain power. But, and here again this is just my opinion laid down on the ground, it seems a little miserable; In fact the vast majority of people I have seen in this rabbit hole are miserable, people who have been bullied or who have grown up in problematic family environments (usually a privileged relationship with the mother) and cling to this strategy of "flight to the top". It is good to use spirituality, to take advantage of a higher degree of consciousness to have a more intelligent and sustainable point of view on life, and ultimately to enjoy more; But precisely the most fundamental enjoyment comes from the lower layers of consciousness, a bit like a cake in several layers of smaller and smaller, and well the biggest piece is always the first. I would be unhappy to live like that, where there is the most glory, enjoyment, rise of kundalini, it is in entrepreneurship, sex, love, food, cigarettes (I do not recommend smoking lol), team sports and that kind of thing; The more rustic it is, the heavier it is, the more glory and euphoria there is (the fundamental layers of consciousness). Hoping not to come across as arrogant or something like that, in fact it certainly is arrogant lol, I am the intrusive mirror that plays the caliph in place of the caliph, but that's what comes compulsively when I come into contact with your structure. A word to the wise👍

Yep, or with a quicker roa (so vaping or injecting). Ahah lol no I mean dishes with gold trim. https://fr.123rf.com/photo_61554120_vaisselle-blanc-serti-de-garniture-dorée-sur-la-table.html +Oh yes and the king size bed ofc, very important when you are 1m82 tall

It's like anxiety is an asymptote at a point of no ego. A lot of ego = Little fear. Less ego = Always more fear until I go beyond the threshold of my ego death. For me 5 MeO DMT is fear powder, because of the loss of control. Maybe it would be better to vaporize it, thanks to the speed of the rise; There is also the foul taste that contributes to the bad trip. Consider getting some gold dishes, I like them. Jk.

5 MeO DMT calls you.

To play !

By erectile dysfunction I meant the inability to have erections even when aroused. 🤔

Day 28 I came home late, no post for today.

No.

Leo has talked about masculinity here and there, even made videos about it, but he hasn't particularly tried to theorize it. In fact, apart from psychoanalysts, I've never seen anyone who has done it. Masculinity is a biological process, therefore "automatic", but it is also psycho-social normally driven by the normal environmental conditions to which a human is exposed in a Paleolithic tribe. The masculinization process is mainly initiated by the Oedipus complex; it is an early childhood event common (even if forgotten/repressed) to the vast majority of people who grew up in a mononuclear family, of course in absolute terms each scenario is individual and will or will not cause anomalies in the process. During early childhood you are in a fusional relationship with your mother, but the ego develops and in the sexualization of the libido (=set of impulses, to put it very simply) pushes you to compete with your father. Seeing that the father is much stronger than you, and that you have (normally) a more or less favorable relationship with him, you decide (unconsciously) to accept finally not to be the phallus (the power, to put it simply) of substitution of the mother (the man) but also not to have it (the insignia of the phallus, that is to say the big car, the beard, the house ...) and, always in the logic of having the mother then a substitute (after internalization of the prohibition of incest) you will identify with the father to try to take his place. The reason why you have so many non-masculine and immature people today, is that men have had, especially during their youth when they were developing and with the highest neuroplasticity, a bad relationship with their father or failing that the substitutes of this one (teachers, friends ...); And certainly a relationship too strong with their mother, often unsatisfied. The more you are in this situation (it is a spectrum! we are all more or less in this case) the more you have not had to accept, overcome the cognitive dissonance of not being the substitute phallus of the mother; The direct consequence is a hatred (repressed) of the father (or substitutes) and an anxiety of being castrated by this one of the imaginary phallus, because of the Oedipal temptation. What we call masculinity is essentially about abandoning the imaginary phallus (the illusionary power that comes from the fusional relationship of early childhood, = primary then secondary narcicism) for the symbolic phallus (the one that is real, palpable) and the supremacy of the symbolic order as a general rule in the relationship to reality. Technically it is about the heart of maturation in general, but women (or men who are too neurotic and regressive) are closer to the child and have one foot in the imaginary. If you cannot overcome the attachment to the imaginary phallus, then the castration anxiety of this phallus will induce regressive defense mechanisms, as well as a fight against these defense mechanisms by the superego and the ego: Men who are completely in denial of castration anxiety can be hysterical, but in the other case the spectrum of defense mechanisms is gathered in the principle of obsessive neurosis, we are all more or less neurotic, men and women (hysterical in their case, generally) and this is once again the main obstacle to masculinization (because it induces feminization by refusal of the symbolic order) or simply being a normal functional adult: The inclination to be passive and to "live in loops", in a repetitive way, is the main symptom: the objective of this tendency is to avoid realizing that you are fundamentally nobody, which is threatening to your ego if it has structured around the imaginary phallus. Spirituality is full of neurotic people, because it is often, unconsciously, about proving to oneself that one has the imaginary phallus. The reason why you run after mystical experiences, that you take lots of psychedelics, that you have a spiritually connoted avatar etcetc. can (I'm not saying that it is the case) be a strategy to deny the needs or even rather the inclination in search of the symbolic penis (money, car, women, children, sports, activity including spirituality, spirituality of course). Very neurotic people also often have BDSM fantasies, the submissive (usually a man) unconsciously does not want to have to fantasize, to give himself to a woman he judges too inferior according to the belief system of the moment even if it is normally the most obvious choice, and will prefer to be dominated, even if it is less obvious and more masturbatory, by a "bigger phallus" with which he can identify. The dominant is usually a woman, hysterical, who cannot bear to confront the idea of having to enjoy being sexually dominated by an inferior man. This is why people with lots of tattoos, a big beard, who are on steroids etc. are associated with neurosis or even repressed homosexuality; In the same logic as women who add things to themselves (long hair, long and colored nails, long black eyelashes, dresses, suspenders) it is a question of tacitly signaling wanting to be the gear, the proxy, and therefore submissive of stronger egregors. A normally developed man will prefer to castrate himself (shave his head, dress simply in monochrome) because he does not seek to present himself as someone who looks "upwards", but rather as someone who looks "downwards" and serve as an anchor for a woman, children, his business... I myself had some a little sadistic fantasies when I was on testosterone cream, probably because it increased my estrogen, made me anxious, and triggered this process. My fetishs have always been quite normal lol, apart from that but the biggest neurosis syndrome in me was the inclination to think all the time rather than act to the point of causing insomnia; Insomnia pushed me to learn to forcibly suppress the imaginary phallus; When you are insomniac, to suppress anxiety, you have to go to bed assuming that maybe you will not sleep and therefore ruin your life, and only then paradoxically you can fall asleep, you can no longer allow yourself to be too much in the imagination. Nevermind. The masculine character comes directly from the acceptance of embodying "the big fish in the small pond", rather than "the small fish in the big pond"; The first configuration is where there is the most pride and enjoyment, but can in a neurotic configuration trigger a narcissistic rage, because it requires no longer identifying with "the big rich pond" and to concentrate on supervising what is underneath and that one can really control (symbolic phallus). To give a recent example common to the people here, @NoSelfSelf typically got banned for refusing to enter the symbolic order. That is to say that to be able to play the moderator (= symbolic phallus) you must accept that there are rules (be professional, stoic...) which automatically castrates you from the imaginary phallus (= childish omnipotence). @Leo Gura(who tends to play a "super phallic" character btw) criticized NoSelfSelf for being too aggressive (because of the projection of the anxiety of confronting castration by the father, when you are castrated from the imaginary phallus, that you are finally in reality, there is no longer really any reason to be aggressive, because you recognize your potential impotence in the other, you recognize the supremacy of symbolic order). I don't even say @NoSelfSelf is particularly neurotic, we all do, in different ways and to different degrees, the point is that the regressive trend generated a situation where he unfortunately had to get banned. To conclude, to become masculine and mature in general, you simply have to start generating things, seek to create. But to become holy, you must accept to be only (=castration of the imaginary phallus), that is to say to be "only" the grocer, the guy who tries to lose weight, the one who has an account on a forum etcetc; In other words the one who looks "down". The less you accept these solitudes, the more you will be tempted to regress libininally and without going into details end up with the "typical immature behavior".

The tropical nature seems beautiful.

It's still not a specific example. 😅 Nevermind, not a big deal.

@MarkKol ED or just no morning erection ? It could just be lack of REM sleep, stress, and general exhaustion. I would stop ruminating as much as possible, stressing about nothing in general, I would meditate, take vitamins and juices rich in antioxidants; @Jason Actualization recommends pomegranate juice from what i remember.

Yep. I see.