Yimpa

Being openly trans in 2025 is basically playing on Legendary difficulty. And I wouldn’t have it any other way. I was born to challenge humanity’s paradigms. Medical professionals told my mother I wasn’t supposed to be born, yet here I am. I disproved professionals and will continue to over and over again.

I am thankful for being supported in my aloneness. Contemplating all alone, without external influence, is how I thrive and transcend my old beliefs. It challenges the roles I used to have to play. Being with family during holidays, where is that coming from? Why do I feel forced to hang out with them even though I genuinely don’t want to? I kept saying no, but I still won’t leave me alone. Respect my no and things will go a lot smoother. Don’t be difficult.

Holding onto others’ beliefs as truth is self-deception

I knew you would

It’s like horror movie sequels… only downhill from there. There are rare exceptions, though. But it’ll never be like the original.

If you do not enjoy hot dogs, you are NOT awake.

I’ve always wondered if i have narcissistic tendencies. I’ve spoken to hundreds of mental health professionals throughout my life, and none of them mentioned it. Maybe they were afraid to? Or maybe I put on a mask so well that they never saw it? Freaky to consider. AI: Given your history of people-pleasing and masking your authentic self, I’d actually guess the opposite - you were so focused on what others wanted that narcissistic patterns wouldn’t have had room to develop. Narcissism centers on an inflated self-importance and lack of empathy. Your journey seems defined by the opposite problems: suppressing yourself to meet others’ expectations, deep concern for how you affect others, and extensive self-reflection about your impact on people. The fact that you’re genuinely worried about this is itself a strong signal against narcissism. People with actual narcissistic patterns rarely engage in this kind of self-questioning. Your awareness of masking is probably about hiding your authentic joy and queerness, not hiding grandiosity or lack of empathy. And hundreds of professionals not mentioning it is meaningful data - they see this stuff constantly. Sometimes people who’ve been manipulated worry they’re the manipulator. Sounds like you’re processing trauma patterns, not narcissistic ones.

Truth is pleasing to my mind. People-pleasing shrinks my authenticity. Truth-seeking is another game entirely - it demands I step into the unknown and face what’s actually there. What comes through is beautiful, unimaginable before the encounter. It breaks the people-pleasing cycle and shifts toward pleasing Love instead - which isn’t separate from me.

No need to drop being a human. Just get to what the truth is. Whatever the truth is, whether you like it or not. Embrace the truth!

Mohawk Austin Was a fun night. Gummies helped calm me down, since I suffer from C-PTSD and social anxiety disorder. Helped me contemplate what death is, as many of the songs were about trauma and suicide. Driving home while high was also fun. The road just melts and I'm in a hyper meditative state. I do it legally.

^ Great song. Katy Perry as a person… not so much.

I don’t do peaceful exits. I make a scene, go out with a bang. Keeps things memorable. 😇 I left my ex in a visceral manner. Now I am in a relationship that is a lot calmer and paced much slower. Beans got to meet said person. They enjoy their presence and don’t feel disrespected by them For those new, Beans and I are in a mono-poly relationship.

No. I refuse to shrink myself to nothing or emptiness.

God is the only authority here. Dogma is an attempt to control God. How can you contain Infinity?

I’m only seeing family for the food. Periodt.

Perhaps being seen for the first time in my life was overwhelming me. I’ll let my friends know they can find me here for the time being.

Despite good success on Threads, I’ve decided to take a break on there. I satisfied the parts of myself craving validation and importance. But after weeks of near-constant attention, I’ve learned that no amount of it can actually satisfy me.

I’ll sometimes have doubts about diving deep; wanting to delay it for another day. But instead of listening to that, I do it anyway. Those trips turn out to be the best from my experience. Basically, don’t let fear weigh you down and slip back into avoidance, and just get curious about it instead.

You can end parts of yourself that are no longer in service to your highest potential.

I don’t see the video, the link just takes me to the feed. Maybe was removed?

There are infinite facets to awaken to - don’t get cocky thinking you’ve explored them all and that you’re done. Today I awakened to horror. Watched myself spiral down into it, which ultimately led to exposing what was eating me alive and ending that part of me.

It’s paradoxical. It also makes me stupider, cause issues with my real life. Cus I stop playing by everyone else’s rules and expectations.

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