Yimpa

Note to my Actualized Family: I Love Truth!

Nobody's watching me. Living in make-believe. All of my secrets deep. Dancing with childlike freedom. Awake, but still I Dream.

Trauma is a bitch. I’ve been ruthlessly studying it, living ’it, and now I’ve come face-to-face with how deeply pain and suffering have shaped me. My ultra-conservative uncle once told me a story from his childhood, when he was ~5–7 years old. One night, after misbehaving, his mother pulled out a Bible and a large kitchen knife, held it to her child, and said: “If you don’t behave and follow the rules, I’ll slice your palm with this so you’ll learn your lesson.” Decades later, he grew up to become a Bible study teacher.. preaching its stories while privately condemning and mocking anyone close to him who broke those corrupted rules. I was one of his victims. I haven’t spoken to him, or to those family members, in over five years. That’s when I began exploring who I am, outside of the rigid systems I was forced into. And for the past 1.5 years, I’ve been transitioning—something I knew in my bones as a child ~5–7 years old, but had no one safe to turn to back then. Actualizing has saved me from spiraling into a life of complete misery. Had I stayed tied to those toxic dynamics, I could have been easily twisted into the same darkness we now see in this assassin, or in the countless mass shootings that scar us today.

Good thing I am not in charge. I would have renamed it "Department of Divas"

I remember watching this viral video as a kid back in the early YT days... I thought I wouldn't be able to find it again (tried using YT's search bar initially) Thankfully, ChatGPT was able to locate the video after thinking longer ^__^

Dunk!

Love

Yes. The path has been storms, fire, and tsunamis~~~tearing down walls I once thought kept me safe. What feels like loss is really the mask burning away. And it doesn’t burn just once. No, it burns over and over and over again. Each time it strips away fear, each collapse reshaping me into something truer than I’ve ever been. I choose to go deeper, because I love discovering myself at ever deeper layers. This is not “normal.” And every sane person think I am unwell. Oh well. No more giving my authority to ableist fear-mongering control freaks. Pretending to be anything less than Good only keeps me asleep. I constantly get my butt whooped in conscious ways, and that leads me to higher forms of understanding, love, and connection towards myself as God. Good God, what a time to be alive

I'll try this with someone I love. Thanks!

Has becoming a millionaire at 23 brought any major challenges in terms of relationships, identity, or finding purpose?

U are Truth!

Good!

I am Woman

I choose Truth, even when it’s uncomfortable, over Falsehood that betrays me.

It’s assumed by most that “single/taken” are the only two categories. But that framework doesn’t capture everyone’s reality. My own relationship dynamics go beyond that binary. I have multiple partners now—but that only became possible because I first learned monogamy well: trust, communication, respect. From there I transitioned into polyamory/ethical non-monogamy, which simply means having more than one relationship, but always with honesty and consent. And it’s not just dating separately—I also have partners who are in relationship with me simultaneously.

Yippie! I finally gave birth to my Self, as Love!

Staircase to Hell