Yimpa

That’s the beauty of life. As you mature on this journey, you begin to let go of expecting life to be a specific way. You allow all ways (not ignorantly, of course).

Love this. My therapist also recommended to speak to my intrusive thoughts like that. Master trolling at its finest

Have you seen a mental health professional before?

Sounds like that’s coming from thoughts and beliefs.

I’d like to take it a step further… what about matcha powder

I can assure you I have several mental illnesses, and despite that, I’ve been able to access deep states of love and connectedness from time to time. You’ve got this.

On the “meta level”, the person and the psychedelic are both imagined.

Love

The answer comes from the heart. Searching for an answer in the form of a thought or a belief won’t get you very far.

“might be” are the key words here.

I believe that I’ve experienced what you speak about very briefly, but I was too damn shocked and didn’t trust myself to dive any deeper. It’s beyond a psychedelic state or non-dual state. Kudos to you for diving deep. Meet ya there, bud

Yeah, I get those thoughts from time to time. Notice how those thoughts come and go, yet you don’t.

I’m also 26 years old and have been eating Lindt dark chocolate for years, haha. I’ve had so much heavy metal and toxic exposure since I was a kid that it’s become a parody at this point.

Nice, I also have depression; I’ve been taking Vitamin D supplementation for the past 8 years. Optimal levels yearly since ?

Have you considered if you might have OCD? I have it.

I take medicinal cannabis twice daily for medical conditions, and I don’t consider myself addicted (nor would a doctor). With great power comes great responsibility.

Not true. I have a really low pain tolerance.

Remember when we thought this COVID pandemic was gonna be over with a year ago? Lmfao.

Yes… you will go on a journey to collapse the duality and succeed in doing so… only to go back into duality and wondering what went wrong. What is beyond duality and non-duality?

When you believe in a lie deeply enough, that becomes your reality.

In the beginning, the task of the shaman was to guide me on how to set high quality intentions for the trip and what to do post-trip so that I’m not caught off guard. A few sessions later, the task was to guide me on learning how to trust myself and derive the answers for myself. I don’t think mentally unstable individuals who have no experience with tripping should be tripping on their own (in the beginning, at least). Case in point: I’m mentally unstable; my first “trips” were on cannabis a few years ago, unguided. While they were beautiful, I still had to call for mommy and daddy to save me due to it being way too intense (they don’t have any tripping experience, which makes it even more challenging). Counterproductive in the long-term, in my opinion. Setting was in a small rectangular room. I was lying down on a couch with a weighted blanket, an eye mask, and shamanic music playing on a speaker. I had a heart rate monitor on my index finger and a couple ECG leads near my collarbones. Shaman/therapist was sitting next to me. Also, an “improv setting” was during one of my sessions when my therapist happened to be under the weather and coughing a bit that day. It was unplanned (and ironically perfect) because I have contamination OCD, so it actually exposed me to one of my fears strategically. There honestly was no set. When you’re dealing with mentally unstable individuals, that’s the set.

Getting into a major car crash on the highway can also provide serious baseline changes.