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Notice how biased you are when it comes to your survival benefits. For example, if you want to become enlightened, then you need to find enlightened people to learn from. If you want a hot girlfriend, you’re going to seek the hottest women and completely ignore anyone who is below your standards. Do you not see how selfish you are?

Certain standards that are coming from outside of you; that were indoctrinated onto you. You believe that if you reach someone else’s standards then you’ll be happy. Don’t you see the problem with this?

To be finite is to make distinctions and have biases, so that’s how you’ll view reality. The consequence is needing one thing over another thing. For example, alone vs. together right vs. wrong us vs. them me vs. you certainty vs. uncertainty absolute vs. relative real vs. imaginary Contemplate what makes one better than another and how it fits your survival strategy.

There comes a point where absolute = relative. There’s no difference. Of course, for the sake of human conversation, this seems absurd and wrong… but from the absolute point of view, it makes perfect sense. When I experienced the Godhead, I didn’t have to leave my previous existence or ideas about God to get there. It wasn’t like running a marathon and reaching a finish line (which requires time and space). All your left with is pure understanding of reality. There was never a “you” attaining anything. Complete selflessness and free from all biases.

It’s utterly intelligent. If there weren’t billions of religious adults, what’s the alternative? Billions of Simpsons characters?

When I experienced the “Godhead”, it was like experiencing nothing and everything simultaneously. There are no words to describe it, really. The idea of having an identity or details… doesn’t compute. You realize that everything you think is real is completely imaginary. No time, no space, none of it! But somehow, you are all of it. It blows my fucking mind just thinking about it.

@Breakingthewall My family were raised Roman Catholic; many of them are also hateful, oppressive, and fearful. They’ve gotten better as they got older and their survival needs were met, but I can tell that they still have a lot of suffering. Their religion has conveniently masked all of their suffering, and they’ll an endless supply of justifications as to why they have their beliefs and won’t change. They’ve made their religion their master instead of discovering the master within themselves.

@Breakingthewall very wise of you to hide your post. Religion is not all bad and evil. As much as I don’t like how I was brought up religious, it could not have been any other way. God wants to explore all kinds of aspects of itself, and religion is surely one of those ways. One thing that is commendable about religion is the unwavering commitment to understanding what God is, even if it’s done in an extremely limited and selfish ways. If one can leave their religion and seek higher truths, that’s even more commendable and extremely challenging. Expect a ton of trials and tribulations by doing the latter.

Stop comparing yourself like that, first of all. You are on a unique path and don’t need to be like everyone else. Wanting to be like everyone else is a distraction. Be your own self and bring unique value to the world.

By this logic, loneliness, separation, and feeling bad are details. So I see no contradiction.

Yes. They actually aren’t as dogmatic as my other family members, which I am grateful for. I’m now helping them open their minds organically just by me being more authentic. All of our growth looks so different, which makes this process so beautiful to explore!

That’s honestly one of the nicest things somebody has told me in a while. I also totally forgot I came up with it. Thank you!! I honestly have no idea.

Yep, me, me! I actually am pretty terrible when it comes to art, but I do like someone who is extremely talented with art, and they think they may be autistic.

You’ll get back to it when the time is ripe. No need to set a deadline or an expectation for when it should be the case. Whatever you’re focusing on currently hopefully is bringing you joy!

Nice one. Always nice to see different parts of yourself for once

@AerisVahnEphelia There is a condition called BDD (Body dysmorphic disorder). I have it to various intensity levels. This is a good example, since I can look at something and see a body part that looks completely wrong or disgusting, whereas someone without BDD would look at it and probably not even notice anything wrong until I pointed it out. And even then, they would not even see it as a big deal. This goes to show that it’s not the body that’s the issue, but how you interpret it.

I’ve personally lived most of my life being told how I should be and what is the right way to live. Oppression. This is what should be realized as miserable and terrifying, yet most see this as something they want to protect. Imagine that! The closer you are to truth, the more freedom and love you will embody. Even the freedom to be in pain and to hate yourself, more consciously. Trust that you are more powerful than you currently believe yourself to be.

@TheWind Fun fact, when I was child, I was part of a totally different forum. I went by the username silverwind1012

It’s good to hear that you’re doing better as well; haven’t seen you in a while.

The sequel should be titled: But Leo!

I’m noticing a circularity here….. it’s as if I was meta observing my own judgement through the lens of my friend. Because prior to this, I actually was judging them prior to them saying it. I’m constantly judging myself in different ways!

I was with a friend and they said something similar in nature about a group of people that we passed by to me. It honestly made my heart sink. I wish I said something about it in that moment, but I was too afraid. I also need to watch my own biases, though. I, too, judge peoples’ appearances still.

Nice. When I was a kid I was obsessed with Dragon Ball Z. The scene with Frieza beating the shit out of Vegeta, then Vegeta explaining to Goku what Frieza did to their home planet… very symbolic. And I enjoyed watching him get tortured. It’s as if something in me as a kid knew I was going through immense suffering and was trying to figure out what pain and conflict meant.

I honestly think sports in general is super gay to begin with. I mean, c’mon. American Football is a bunch of dudes touching each other for hours on end.

I am respectfully resisting the urge to come up with a joke for this.