Yimpa

The good news is that version of me died and I am in a much better place now. The trauma resurfaces from time to time, but nowhere near where it was before. Godspeed to you

Truly. I (and my medical team) had to fight with the insurance company to get me life saving medicine (injection shot). They refused it at first and bullied and gaslit and made me the problem. “Try harder” is basically their rational. “You haven’t tried all the drugs we want you to.” Meanwhile, I am suffering with 95% severe eczema all over my body. There’s no way you can just put ointment all over your body and for it to go away. You need something stronger to survive. I didn’t try hard enough? Get the fuck outta here!

@Salvijus Welcome back.

Ego death is only the beginning of this journey

It’s gotta get worse before it gets better. If you can work with someone who is experienced with psychedelics it’ll make the surgical operation of your mind go a lot smoother. Not pain free, but easier. I’ve had countless panic attacks when I first began using psychedelics, but I cared about Truth so much that I kept exploring. And I had the proper support system to prevent me from taking it too far.

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@VeganAwake 🎯🔫🎉

I get that, I’ve had plenty of shit doctors in the past. Raising my consciousness and development over the years, and understanding my needs better led to higher quality providers. It’s not easy by any means, but things do get better with work.

I’ve had eczema flare ups in there before. Not fun! Thank God for doctors. That part was fun for both of us

So this is how wars start, huh? I ain’t biting.

Your work here is to crank up your consciousness so that you will derive the answer for yourself. No one else can do it for you. Notice what happens when you give your power to people, with biases, with survival agendas. You won’t be able to tap into the highest truth of reality this way. You’ll be lost in the dream of maya without realizing that you are hallucinating all of it. Anyway, that my hallucinatory thoughts. Test for yourself if what I am saying is true or not.

Paradoxically, you’re not alone with feeling shocked, as I have described in another thread recently : Please feel free to share if you relate to the above experience. I am glad I am able to share such radical stuff without being told I have lost my mind lol

@PsychedelicEagle That reminds me of medical weed. It truly works in mysterious ways. It is prescribed here for people who are debilitated with life threatening disabilities. My doctor gave me freedom to explore the cannabis realm after determining I use it responsibly (other patients need to be told how and when to take it. I was in that category in the beginning.) Certain doses and products help me live my life easier, while other methods shoot me straight to Infinity. There is a delicate balance I am still figuring out, as using too little medicine still leaves me stuck in my disabled state and too much REALLY kills me, so to speak. So, yes, I am in a unique position where my life’s on is on the line and I kinda don’t have a choice with having these mystical experiences, since the medicine that saves me is also the medicine I am super sensitive to having spiritual experiences with.

TA-DA!

Batman is one hell of a drug.

If it matters to you, then that’s what is real for you. It’ll stop mattering when you die.

CBD with THC is like bread and butter to me. Only way to know if it works for you is to try it. How it affects one person and how it affects another person will be very different.

Hell yeah, I was dealing with self harm issues a few years ago. I punched myself in the face one time and enjoyed it. I was fucked up back then.

“Human beings are deep asleep. Nature is awake. Go talk to her. She knows you.” -Shunya

Perhaps I am hallucinating you asking this question.

beautiful survivor