Yimpa

I’ve only ever done cannabis and ketamine! They both work as medical and spiritual tools for me. And both are significant. The ketamine (2022-24) was a lot more structured, as I did it in a mental health clinic. The first 6 trips were with a therapist, then I was able to do 2 or 3 solo (still being monitored, of course). Ketamine was invaluable for helping me face my traumas head-on; directly. And, of course, experiencing deep mystical states. I don’t use ketamine anymore since my physical body isn’t as strong as it used to be, and I don’t want to stress it more. Cannabis is something I used to take daily, especially to help me cope during an intense period of my life (2021-2025). Nowadays, though, I’ve found that infrequent, deep tripping is better suited for me, like how I used it back in 2018-20. But, unlike in 2018-20, I now use a MUCH smaller dose (more on that in the next paragraph) In terms of preparing for my trips… nowadays, I just go with my intuition when it comes to when and how I take it. I now take it only 2-3x a month. I don’t feel a craving to take it…… quite the opposite, actually. Only a SMALL amount hits me so hard and lasts much longer. I intuit that my hormones transitioning over the past couple years and finally stabilizing this year is one major factor as to why my relationship to cannabis has changed drastically. The same dose and medicine just last year would have been a mild trip. Now, that will send me straight to the moon. So I have to take half of what I used to. While I am tripping (not balls deep), I like to write and contemplate for hours and I walk a bit outside. Other times, I’ll be at a concert and let the music move me. As time goes on and things continue to evolve, I don’t doubt that I’ll go much deeper again, and that’ll surely change how I approach tripping. But, for now, since I just recently came out and I’m still getting used to and understanding this “new me”, I am taking it slow, safe, and strategically. I’m also using the breaks in-between sessions to stabilize and integrate the lessons and insights properly in a much less chaotic way

I will never have a baby since I am asexual and only do myself.

I’ve been following this Actualized stuff since 2014 💯s of trips (started in 2018). Seriously, this is the highest teacher, no pun intended. going thru the dark knight of the soul MANY times therapy. shit load of that (since I was a kid. been disabled my whole life) caring about Truth/Love/God and making that my top value I still struggle greatly with survival, I definitely suck on that front. Thankfully, I had huge gains starting around 2023 (you can read about that here if you’re curious). Despite the survival challenges, I would consider myself spiritually gifted. So genetics play a huge role, too. It truly is a gift and a curse for me! I am ruff around the edges 🐶

in conflict with your own self: https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbbA9XmOXVL

self-bias

I like to frame it as this has been going through a metamorphosis. The forum’s a stage and all the users are merely players. Also, keep in mind your state when you come here, and also how you relate to it.

@Joseph Maynor I am surprised you have more posts than me! I looked at your posting history and noticed you took a 6 year hiatus (from 2019-2025). If I may ask, why did were you gone for such a long time, and what made you come back regularly now?

It’s a me

Reminds me of automatic writing: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Automatic_writing

“When the Buddha Awoke, the entire Earth shook in recognition of His Awakening.”

https://youtu.be/Ox731wwl35A?is=jyIURu7ibe0ig1FW

Thank you for asking for clarification! Initially, no. But now I’m starting to intuit a connection. I wish I could articulate it with words, but words are failing me. I intuit the connection but I cannot formalize it. Sorry to disappoint 😅 Edit: It’s as if my mind is becoming more fluid and less rigid.

I advocate for pure understanding that is rooted in holism and a lack of self-bias

That’s all I need baby

“We'll keep fighting together. Be unabashedly proud of who you are.” -Gene Wu (woohoo!) https://www.actualized.org/insights/blue-zionism

Thank you for taking my report on here recently seriously. You’re an amazing moderator. We have both come a long way since we first met. Love ya, too

You are an infinite shapeshifter and you are revealing yourself through everything and have been this entire time. I don’t control this process. God does.

Godspeed

The point is for you to take it and realize that you are imagining everyone.

Everything is made up of Bananas, not atoms. (this is not a literal statement, it’s a translogical one)

“And all of a sudden: BOOM”

No. Your head is absolutely nothing. As is the tree. As said before, nothing is needed for God to exist. And existence is God. The human brain cannot grasp this. And, yet, somehow you are imagining that it exists. I’ve had an experience in which I’ve focused my awareness at a picture of a tree in a deeply concentrated satori state, and it was more profound than looking at a “real” physical tree. This experience has always stuck with me. I can no longer unsee what I have seen. I realize there is reality greater than a physical reality. Even though everything is ONE, this ONENESS goes waaaay deeper than our conventional view of reality as a human.