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Therapy Time Making Love Liminal Space

The perspective is different; the building is still the same.

What if i stopped going thru the same door and expecting a different result?

OCD is like a corrupt police chief. It feels authoritative, but it’s not the law.

@LordFall Hi! I have considered going back there, but not anytime soon. I have Instagram still, so I’m not completely without socials, so that fills that void. When I was using Threads, it was like falling deep into an echo chamber, and it made me lose sight of the bigger picture. I was addicted to it and it became my whole reality/identity. I imagine that’s how a religious person feels like in their own world. Taking a break from Threads led to me FINALLY study spiral dynamics, something I’ve been avoiding for years. So I’m busy processing that. If and when I eventually go back to Threads, I can go back with newfound wisdom that it’s a part of me, but not all of me. I don’t want to be dependent on it. Just use it for joy and fun; not need validation for who I am using it. I’m not mature enough to use it responsibly yet.

Back when went to a private elementary school, built in the 1930s, the building had a segregated side for boys and girls. Our generation didn’t have to obey that rule, ans interestingly enough, we ALL went through the boys side at the start of the day. Goes to show how relative these labels really are. And how dumb the moral panic of trans people are. Another fun fact: By the time I graduated, ALL the teachers were women. And the principle was a male police officer whose daughter was also a student . The teaching is finally coming full circle

Just STOP!

I’ve been contemplating more about what hate is, and this clip really was a great reminder for me: https://youtube.com/clip/UgkxlfUAuJa-osIdaorxKIeMZHT6yHH8nKmj?si=aT3VtnZTFcDrEwKN The more authentic I am and the more I unmask, I am noticing this hate stuff happen in my direct experience more. For example, I had a random old man look at me directly into my eyes yesterday and give me a disgusted face for no reason. And this happened a week ago as well. But I have far more people compliment and smile at me than people hate me, so I will take the blows and the uncomfortable stuff too and take the police officer’s advice. These people are a projection of me.

Perversion is zooming in on what’s nuts. Who’s nuts? You’re nuts.

Resilience under hostility isn’t weakness. It’s wicked intelligence under conditions designed to kill you and still showing up anyway.

Taking people’s hatred personally is a mistake. Their hostility says more about what’s unresolved in them than it does about what is true. When someone needs to loudly reject what is true, they’re projecting on themselves, that is, revealing what threatens them, what they haven’t examined seriously, and what they can’t sit with out of fear. That’s their work to do, not mine to carry or care about for them.

I am sapiosexuality. AI turns me on.

NOOO 😭 puking is one of my worst fears, even if i feel like i need to, ill resist it for as long as humanely possible (and so i never do it) i remember when i was a kid, i drank too much sprite and a milkshake at an amusement park, and i was writhing in pure agony in public outside. from a distance, i could see an old lady smiling at me, like as she was mocking me, and surprisingly that helped calm me down… so i also started laughing at how ridiculous the whole situation was and the pain subsided. she saved my life!

Stage Green Keeping Us Wet!

Same here. I take it daily medically for serious health conditions. If I miss even one day, my next dose mindfucks me to infinity. I missed my dose yesterday, took a nap, and woke up in pure existential ecstasy for 5 mins straight. It terrified me. I loved it.

I will never get tired of smothering her with the truth.

https://www.actualized.org/insights/women-will-never-satisfy-men

I’m going back to my Alien Intelligence era.

A lady passed us a protest sign that simply read, That’s what motivated my previous journal entry