Yimpa

what do you mean by letting it ride?

I am Weird, and I know it. Furthermore: - following mainstream social norms 🗑️ - seeking approval from others 🗑️ - not speaking up due to fear of being rejected 🗑️ - masking who I really am 🗑️ - judging others based on their appearance 🗑️ - following rules by the book 🗑️ - appeasing to authority figures 🗑️

Have you ever had In-And-Out Burger? It is a must if you have not yet. There is even a secret menu: https://www.in-n-out.com/menu/not-so-secret-menu

Opposite problem for me. There’s probably thousands of posts that I’ve made that deserve to be hidden. I just ignore it and move on instead.

That is no longer necessary. I’m becoming aware to not even take the bait to begin with. The trap is in giving it any power, period. That’s how shit spirals out of control, giving it any authority over You. Instead, I am practicing grounding myself and then take action from a place of clarity and wisdom, not reactivity and deceit/falsehood. One that is grounded isn’t overwhelmed by the nightmare spiral, they awaken from and rise above it. This is my practice now. This is how I want to live my life from meow on.

I am learning to no longer give my attention to trolls, haters, and selfish minds. I used to have no boundaries with them. Now the buck stops with me. If you dare mock me, put me down, or pervert me, you’re gone. No compromises. No discussion. I will not be raped by devils anymore.

Feel free to share about your journey, no filters, and ignore haters. This is what will strengthen you. I feel like the goal is to understand ourselves better, not about educating others dogmatically. Those who resonate with your journey will organically come along. I haven’t read your journal entries much, but now I am curious. Thank you for sharing. finally,… sharing openly about stuff that has so many misconceptions and stigma is really uncomfortable. but discomfort doesn’t necessarily mean something is wrong. it just means you’re being honest in a world that isn’t used to it. vulnerability hangover is real, but it’s not always a signal to stop. it’s just the cost of being authentic. baby steps.

That makes sense, otherwise a finite form would try to monopolize Truth. Actually, it tries to, but ultimately fails.

They've transitioned. Hallelujah!

Here is my ER visit report from when I had my second solipsistic awakening, March 2019. I became so conscious of the nature of mind that I literally convinced myself that I was dying. Hell, I was so dead that I realized there was nobody that could die, and therefore I need to prevent myself from dying a death that is impossible to die. Suffice to say, when they finally admitted me and laid me on the hospital bed, I DID die on the hospital bed, in pure bliss, to the nature of what God is. The nurse who took care of me, though, was judgemental and clueless, convincing me that I was wasting valuable resources and being a burden to her. So I stayed quiet. Conformed. Shut my mouth. I was too afraid to tell them the truth, out of being shamed. But you know what? They probably wouldn't be able to handle it anyway. Imagine me telling that nurse, "you're wrong. I'm not wasting your time. I'm not a drug addict. I'm GOD realized." Honestly, I have no idea how they'd respond, but I ultimately let them gaslight me into thinking I'm an idiot. And then the doctor diagnosed me with anxiety disorder. CORRUPTION!

Everyone who doubted me, dismissed me, or refused to see me fully — they helped too. That’s a core feature of true transformation. Every challenge, every moment of going against the herd, played an integral role. The question became: will I let their authority dictate my own sovereignty? The discomfort was feedback; a signal to feel into the wrongness. Masking was the short-term solution. Breaking free didn’t require changing their minds. It required me to stop allowing their influence to corrupt my authentic self. My role was never to change them. It was to free myself from them and ultimately realize only I can verify what is true for myself and no one else.

Many might assume that I transitioned and it was an easy decision. Fuck no! This took a ton of contemplation, work with a professional, deconstructing my childhood, emotional labor, nearly killing myself, my physical body on the brink of failure, gaslighting myself that I am just a guy over and over again, hating on trans people for being disgusting, you NAME IT I did it all. F those before and after photos! That’s just a shallow idea of what transitioning is. It’s war against myself. And F passing as a Woman. All your ideas of what a Woman is is garbage. If you reduce a Woman to their physical appearance, you have failed the test!

@Beans You have such a high tolerance for hate it’s insanity. Respect

The truth is I quit threads cus a couple of dorks harassed and bullied me. I lost my poise! But then if I rejoin threads that is conformity! Doggone!

Let’s slow down and bask in the Love, which is You.

Poise and Conformity are my new favorite words. PC. God loves PC

Sick!

I have a reference for you about this as well:

Today I reconnected with my body after weeks of rest and healing. Injuries I suffered from a couple weeks ago was intense. The recovery especially brutal. But today, feeling ready to be active again, I tested that trust. Gently and cautiously. Fear came up. Insecurity. Of course it did. Fear of re-injury, fear of my own body betraying me again. But I moved through it anyway. And my body and soul held me. I’m learning to trust it again. Not blindly, but with presence. Not judging or jumping to conclusions when the intrusive reactions tell me I’m wrong. Instead, I listen to my higher wisdom, and trust the process with care and patience. The fear was still there throughout the process, yet I was willing to reconnect with myself anyway. I am glad I did. Slow and steady is the way to go. Let’s keep going

things are not as simple as they seem…

SOOOO cute ^___^

https://www.actualized.org/insights/cosmic-horror https://www.actualized.org/wordpress/wp-content/uploads/cosmic-horror-01-1.png

Which continent is she from?