octsober

At first, I was 99% sure nothing would change when I jumped right back in, but to be completely honest, It was pretty much a 'What am I doing?' moment that I had experienced. I forgot to mention that I've been meditating for just about 8 months now, Every day, for 20 minutes. I feel this helped open up my perspective on awareness a bit. I think this is progress? Not overly sure just yet. Yeah, I agree. I've been basically fasting for 33 days now. I've tried doing this consistently within the last year or so but I eventually run out of willpower and end back up where I started. It's extremely frustrating. If you've read my response to the first quote, you'll see I did indeed jump right back in, but I can't really explain it but experiencing it through the lenses of awareness I think has helped, at least to justify the current path I'm on regardless.

Hello everyone, Recently i've been dealing with two addictions that i've been trying to accept. Nothing drug related, more habitual. I've watched leo's two last videos in regards to how to stop practically any addiction, however after watching leo's latest video (awareness alone is curative), i'm a bit in the dark. From what I gather from his last video he saying that by just doing the thing that bothers you and being aware will eventually correct itself if you're practicing awareness in the process. To me personally, I feel If I attempted this, i'll be back where I started. Any and all feedback is appreciated !

Hm. I'm not sure actually. Not working dead end jobs just to pay rent? I'd ideally have to work another job in the mornings, which is generally time spent working on games for my company. And end up finding some roommates which is OK as well. I'm just unsure going out and doing so now is smart as the cost of living is kinda steep as I live close NYC. All and all it sounds like I'm just making excuses. Totally sounds like excuses. (it's excuses)

Greetings Gang, I'll just jump right into it - I'm 27, still live at home, I'm a waiter, I also own a business making card games / board games. Haven't released anything yet but my first game should be out this year. I feel like I'm wasting my life away as I'm still at home, working odd jobs with low ceilings in regards to growth. All the previous jobs I've worked is one of the major factors on why I started my own business. I'm at this point where I'm trying to find a way to leave the nest but still be smart about it. I've got some money saved up but I don't have a solid foundation to leave just yet. I really want my independence, but to me, leaving now while trying to get my company off the ground doesn't seem smart. I guess I'm reaching out to see if this is smart or just lazy. I mean I'm pretty comfortable, but unhappy. Any thoughts on the matter are appreciated.

Hey guys! Thanks for your guidance, I really appreciate it. I'm going to add 10 minutes to my 20 soon. I'm also going to try an hour sit down when I have the time on a weekend. Its good to hear that I'm on the right path, as I want to continue strengthening my meditation.

Greetings, I'm new here but I've been listing to Leo's stuff since November. I've always wanted to learn how to meditate, so I looked on the net and bumped into Actualized.org. I meditate for 20 minutes daily and have done so since November. I generally count my breaths in 1, 2 intervals, however I've been finding myself more distracted as of lately. Am I missing something here? I generally try and focus on my breaths, but most of the times I'll be distracted by some thought. I'll refocus back to my breaths, but it just feels like I'm missing something. In the next month or two I'll be adding 10 minutes to my current time. My question is, what else can I do to stay focused?