Basman

Interesting read. Be careful of trying to make social workers and AI into your friends. They are merely transactional/a tool. Don't go making love to a toaster.

To get that amount of wealth you have to assume so much responsibility that its hard to relate to for average people I believe. I can see experienced wellbeing dipping slightly after a certain amount due to the amount of work and stress you generally need to undertake to reach and maintain those levels of wealth.

How did you run out of money in the first place? Gambling? Drink? Lack of employment? It sounds like your an addict to be honest. Stealling your sister's shit to make a quick buck sounds like just an excuse to gamble. Your lucky she still tolerates you but that won't last if you don't shape up. Make it up to her by getting out of this mess sharp.

Is that because your expectations are high or low?

So many Germans seem to be scared of instantly turning into Nazis the moment the put a uniform on. Like their an addict around alcohol. They need to chill. Germany today is nothing like Germany then.

Try doing nothing. Maybe it will reignite your passion for your goals as you starve yourself of superfluous content assuming your not just burnt out.

Unless you've been ordered to by like the courts or something you can just refuse to attend these sessions. There's no reason why you have to and I find it peculiar that you don't seem to have been consulted about it prior. That said, it could make the family closer but it doesn't seem like your interested in that. Figure out a way to put distance between yourself and your family. Just setting a plan to move out in motion if you live with them will make you feel better even if it takes a long time. Your doctor might be correct in saying that you tend to ruminate considering the wall of text that didn't provide much brevity, no offense. In my own experience, distance and acting on my interests and growing as a person has qualled all rumination I've felt in a relatively short amount times (3-4 months) though I think your on a different scale compared to me.

A part of self-esteem is not suppressing how you feel. You clearly feel insulted but your doubting even just that as if your supposed to feel a particular way. An insult is meant to be hurtful by definition. If you don't have the ability to do anything about this bully consider changing your circumstances so you no longer have him in your life (change school for example).

If you want to make easy friends get into motorsports. Then you can always bond over how broke you are with your car mates.

Friendship is a mixture of aligned demographics and hanging out. If you haven't had many friends up to now you most likely just haven't prioritized them assuming your a normal person. Perhaps you have some neurosis surrounding socialization that has made you avoidant. A way to make friends is to simply have an interest that has a social component, like for example martial arts, yoga, wargaming, kayaking, etc. You'll become familiar with the regulars there as you yourself become a regular which gives you opportunities to hang out in primarily small ways and invite people if you got chemistry. Try to curb your neediness if you have any. It will cause you to languish over socialization and sour your relationships. Just treat socialization as completely normal and just be yourself. Just be chill.

I have no idea what your on about.

Who was it again who said that women are like the half-way point between a child and a man? Of course they are drawn to strong leadership if they behave so dependently.

I'm under no illusion what nation building entails. I'm more concerned about the weakening military deterrence that Trump has caused. This could lead to war that would have otherwise been prevented. He's unnecessarily weakening our alliances and Stage Blue/Red countries will jump on that opportunity.

Female abuse case in point: saying your not hungry then stealing my food like a racoon.

I'm starting to feel that Trump in power is actually quiet dangerous (some of you will say "duh"). His behavior is undermining western hegemony. Completely backwards.

I guess I shouldn't feel happy when my mom tells me she is proud of me. Its like accepting a compliment from a cardboard box.

How many women do you talk with in general? Family, work, etc.? Its obvious that they are just people when you interact with them in my experience. Like, is the nurse that is just doing her job when she helps you at the doctors just an object? genuinely? Or when your mom is talking about how exhausted she is from work? perfectly normal interactions. It seems to me that seeing women purely as objects might have a practical element of not having to consider their thoughts and feelings as significant. It could protect you from feeling vulnerable and help justify exploitation (manipulation, rape, violence, etc.)

In my understanding, brutality peaked with red and there has been a general trend of violence becomes less and less as different groups become more interdependent. Orange to Green will be nothing like the example of tribal warfare but there is probably still going to be victims and necessarily so. Transition tends to come off the back of suffering. People have to be squeezed so hard by Stage Orange that their hair literally falls of from pollution and stress, etc. such that the old paradigm becomes definitely untenable. Likewise, Green will transition into yellow when people start dying from political incompetence.

Peaceful transition I believe to be a-historical. Stage Orange is itself not peaceful (industrialized warfare) and didn't truly flourish until after WW2, when European Blue became too exhausting and destructive. Chinese capitalism came of the back of communism where millions died. Currently Stage Orange countries, the US primarily, are keeping current Stage Blue countries in check, primarily Russia and China, from invading their neighbors. Peace is more a feature of geography, interdependent needs and shared values rather than an innate feature of mankind. Conflict is a pervasive feature of this reality and humanity is not a peaceful species. Before man was, war waited for him.

One thing you aren't addressing is how violence is the main driver of societies "merging". For instance, a tribe "merging" with another tribe usually occurs in the way of massacring all men, gangraping the women, killing the babies and abducting the young children so they then can expand the tribe with new members. Its only really the last 100 years that societies forming greater holons tending to be more peaceful, but that is of the back of 100s of years of conflict. Many modern countries and ethnicities where built of the back of ethnic cleansing for instance, like the US or Israel. Conservatism isn't inherently wrong in trying to protect "their" version of society from a human survivalist perspective. The alternative might be destruction.

People are complaining but if this happened during any other time in human history these migrants would simply have been massacred and the killers would be celebrated as heroes. The fact that it is at all a question to use violence against these migrants is itself evidence of how far we've come developmentally.

Geopolitically, humans are kind of like ants. Individually quiet worthless with the exception of high value leaders and personal. A couple of hundreds or thousands annihilated is acceptable in the context of justifiable actions. When it comes to understanding morality in relation to the business of human survival I'll say this, give to Ceasar's the things that are Ceasar's and give to god the things that are god's.

Migration is allegedly being used a tool of war by Russia to pressure and undermine Poland and the EU via Belarus to the East, with the Belarusian president urging migrants to cross the border into the EU. https://www.politico.eu/article/poland-donald-tusk-asylum-right-border-migration-belarus-russia-hybrid-war-eu/ In my opinion, Poland has a right to determine who it lets into its borders. If you are illegally trying to cross into a country then you should expect resistance. The use of force is permissible in my opinion if waved appropriately, like with the this article that states that border may shoot in cases of "self-defense" or as a "preventative manner". There will inevitably be cases of unjust violence but have to see the big picture of maintaining internal security. This is an aspect of Polish society that is not at peace so human rights have less of a say by default (like during war). Its easy to criticize Poland when its not your problem to begin with. The majority of Polish are in support of these policies for instance. https://www.infomigrants.net/en/post/58618/poland-allows-police-to-open-fire-on-migrants-at-the-belarusian-border