ActualizedJohn

I have a philosophy professor I am emailing and need advice on how to explain to him that truth & experience comes prior to ‘proof’, weather that be scientific or not. I need someone’s help to explain it better than me.

People are saying all of this stuff like “yes you can are alone and when you imagine others that is just you the only one existing and imagining others” and than others say “god needs to be unlimited by definition so therefore we all can exist Independent but just act as one” but where is the real answer. Common now. If I am with someone and we go into separate rooms is there an active consciousness experience of that room the other person is in, or not. I need a yes or no answer.

As I lay awake at 3:14 pm, I cannot sleep for I am not tired. Three years of inquiry, lead to a spontaneous 40% awakening that scared the shit out of me, and I promised to never do it again, yet my mind is the definition of curiosity killed the cat (ego). This has happened a few times at night now, deeper each time, assuming it is because my brain relaxes when I am trying to fall asleep, but instead of sleeping…. BOOM. Detachment from the body. Freaky as hell. But what comes next is indeed VERY present. All of the bodily stress: stress in the face, sinuses, back, shoulders, muscles, and (craziest of all), the BRAIN just disappears. It is as if I have been flexing my brain ever since the end of childhood and could not find a way to stop, until now. To actually be able to UNFLEX you brain is the calmest feeling, and all of those pesky background noise thoughts just disappear, and you can focus so much more greatly in the present moment. I am not tired because of how relaxed my brain is. I’m seeing things the way I did as a kid again. Stress is PHYSICALLY not allowed in this state. Maybe I will go further, we shall see. I have to surrender more first, sometimes I am afraid to let go.

So when the body physically dies is it just not scary because you ego is completely killed so there is nothing to freak out? Apologize for all the questions about this, I’ve always wondered about a lot of this stuff since childhood, and you seem like a pretty cool guy so I’d figure I ask someone who seems to know what they are talking about. I wrote this one too about examples of being ‘woke’ as a child, feel free to check it out here: @Carl-Richard

@Carl-Richard I am 21, so yea still young. I read something someone wrote on a forum: This guy summed it up pretty good, the “Awakening to an infinity of gods” video that Leo did. Would you agree with what this guy said?

you didn’t disagree with anything I said here. My statement was that you can do whatever you want, def use it as a tool. But when it is taught in the ‘red pill’ ideology is that you need this to ‘be a man’ or to ‘be whole’, and it can cause the root of depression for many people, lowering their self esteem, which results in a downward spiral which hurts their chances even more with women.

This is by FAR my most valued insight for escaping spiral dynamic stage orange (the materialistic stage), and how I overcame all of my depression for good, and I want to solve it for you. The trap that keeps materialistic like minded people stuck in this stage, worshiping entertainment, pickup, money, power, and status. Here we go. For a while I was very depressed, because I was trying to become self Actualized, yet I lacked the proper skills to talk to women, to become a pickup artist. I took this as a physical fact that I could not be my highest, whole-st, most complete self until I hit all these milestones for becoming self Actualized, and only THEN could I become whole and complete. I was taught, as a gen Z kid in a public school, surrounded by all stage orange friends, that this was the TRUTH of how you could achieve full confidence, my whole and complete self, through HARVESTING these external things (sex, power, status). I did not believe yet that this was simply a chosen BLUEPRINT for whole and completeness, but that it was a REALITY. When you talk to a therapist of some sort and they start talking about how this is a blueprint, you simply can’t understand what they are saying, because as far as you know this is not a BLUEPRINT, but a physical fact. The problem with this false model is the amount of harvesting & suffering this creates. If you are successful in hitting these milestones set for yourself, you will start to notice that not only do you have to MAINTAIN these things to NOT be depressed, but that you constantly keep raising the bar on yourself. Example, getting with ONE girl satisfies, until later where you raise the bar where you need to sleep with FIVE girls to be satisfied. At first making your first thousand dollars is enough, until it’s not, then you have to raise the bar to 10,000. You think that eventually you will be ultimately satisfied one day with what you have, but this will never happen. You will constantly treat yourself like a dog for the rest of your life until the day you die, having to harvest validation. But as Leo said, within this pickup community I always found it a little fishy, and could never quite put my finger on it, only until after years of suffering. And here it is: You think you are a loser if you don’t have that one thing, in order for you to be whole and complete. But actually, think of the loser you currently are for thinking you need something, ANYTHING outside yourself to be whole and complete. Take this for example. Societies blueprint for men’s happiness is you need to sleep with girls to be whole and complete right. That’s their blueprint, which you don’t believe is a blueprint, but a physical fact. And people who don’t subscribe to this blueprint are called “losers”. However, let’s say I come in one day with a different blueprint: the blueprint that says if you DO get with, or actively TRY to get with girl, YOU are now the loser because you are a ‘try hard p*ssy’, and believe you need something other than yourself to become whole and complete. So what I do is I get a bunch of friend, we post this new idea on social media, say it around the school, until now it becomes a, ‘TRUTH’ that everyone who attempts to get girls is a loser. But even in this case, are the people who get girls really now losers? NO! That was just a blueprint that I merely adopted, and then proceeded to spread around! Everyone is whole and complete RIGHT NOW as they are no matter WHAT they have, and there is nothing that you could ever do to make you MORE, or LESS whole and complete than you already are. So now that you are reading this message, you finally think: “YES! Now I know that I don’t need a single thing to be happy, so now I can finally go out and get girls, or friends, so I can be whole and compete! Thanks John!” But you don’t understand what I’m saying: you don’t NEED any of those things to be whole and complete, so there is nothing for you to DO anymore. You can sit in your room alone, right now, for the rest of your LIFE and never leave your house again, and be not equal to, but MORE whole and complete than the most ‘materialistically sound’ celebrity you could think of. These celebrities are dangerous by the way, because they teach harvesting validation, showing millions of people further from the truth, creating more suffering. So apply this teaching with that one thing that you want but feel like you lack to make you complete, and CONTEMPLATE the words I have said today. Read this over and over, dissect your mind as Leo teaches. You’ll only regret that you didn’t try sooner

@Aaron p I have discovered this myself. Have you had any enlightenment experiences?

@Carl-Richardas I read that story, it just happened. The pressure in my head just disappeared and I detached for my body, got up and just paced around for a sec, but I repeated to myself ‘emotional intelligence.’ To remind myself to be level headed. I’m in it right now. I’m okay with the headspace, but don’t want to go any deeper. I’m realizing I have some more fundamental things in my life to work on first. I have two questions for you, one asking how old you are, if you okay with disclosing that, and the other is what is your view on solipsism, and how does it exist if it does?

@Lila9 This is pretty crazy. Even crazier that there is actually an answer to what this is and what we are doing here, and how this is all nothing, but it’s equally as easy for there to be a “black void” as there is shapes and colors and stuff. Did you ever realize this?

As a child I was very spiritually gifted, like most children, but where I won with it was my great long term memory, so I can remember to this day all my childhood insights. Here are some of them to state Why can’t my hand pass through this? I remember being confused as to why my hand couldn’t pass through objects, because I knew it was somehow a “hologram” (made out of consciousness) but didn’t know the term for consciousness yet. Switch perception from in the head to outside I remember being able to recontextualize this perceptual bubble as , “being inside my head” (false), to being actually outside of me not in my head but only external reality existing, and being able to PHYSICALLY flip back and fourth between the two I am here now I remember sitting in my kitchen as a kid and saying “I am here now”, as in this is my new incarnation into this life, implying that I left a past life, but have sat in the MIDDLE OF IT unmoved, in the same place both times. having to decide if I believed other ppl existed I remember having to make a conscious choice if I believed that the other bodies moving around with me in my house had consciousnesses of their own or not If I ever am going to cease to exist, I wouldn’t be able to remember this moment No idea how to explain this one. I just concluded that ceasing to exist is impossible because I wouldn’t be able to “remember” this current moment now if I ever did This experience occurs nowhere I remember being in my bathroom and realizing this experience was not occurring anywhere, comparable to floating inside of nothing. Just to share some experiences for any help

@Carl-Richard It’s funny, because in the beginning all I wanted was out of the matrix, but of course when you never knew actually what it feels like to escape, the second it happens it’s something you were never actually prepared for, or genuinely wanted to take seriously, you knew you were just kinda ‘messing around’ doing exercises the whole time. It’s a little bit of an unfair reality to not be able to know what it ACTUALLY feels like until it happens, if you know what I mean. So part of me wants to stop the inquiry before I REALLY scare the shit out of myself, cuz I haven’t hit 100% pure emptiness yet, maybe around 70% at most. But the other part of me realized that If I do hit 100%, it’s not like I’m gonna become something “new”, I have always been just the universe my whole life, the only difference is that I just didn’t know it, so therefore there is no reason to be scared. I want the benefit of being more present, more happy, being able to transcend physical death But it’s unfair to ask me to choose one of these pills, because I don’t know what I’m getting myself into if I’ve never experienced 100% enlightenment before. Kind of paradoxical. At the end of the day, it’s not really emptiness or enlightenment I fear, it’s the solipsism. If I could somehow be promised true solipsism is false, I would jump down the rabbit hole balls to the walls. But at the same time, I know I’m one of those people that as soon as I reach like an 80% enlightened state, I’m gonna freak out so hard and swear I never mess with this stuff ever again. Besides, my goal was to transcend physical death, and I already know now that death doesn’t exist. So maybe I just stop now before I get too deep? So your a moderator, huh? Do you know Leo personally? I would love to hear your full story of how it took you three years to get out of it. Interesting that your a moderator for Leo but wanted to escape the rabbit hole, I would very much like to hear that story.

@omar30 Defiantly not as a kid. It all just came as I liked to have existential thoughts as a kid.

@Leo GuraA little too coincidental, it seems. I was interested in talking with you about this, I submitted a request for an interview through your contact tab, I’ve managed to gather an audience of over 70 thousand people on TikTok (@actualizedjohn), thus intending to spread this information to a younger audience. See my message if you are interested. (Also can do lots of editing work for all social media) (johnsrosania.myportfolio.com)