ActualizedJohn

How would I find a relationship with someone in stage turquoise?

Correct however I would like to surround myself with people better than myself

I have never done psychedelics before. I am a videographer. I recently submitted a proposal to a retreat group to film a ceremony. They said they would give me a free ceremony. This is a big opportunity for me, so I definitely want to go to get a video on my portfolio, and meet new connections. Problem is- should I do the ceremony? Ceremonies are what I want to film for work. I have no ceremony videos under my belt. Would be great for connections, networking, and a vid for my portfolio. However, I don't know if I should except a free ceremony. This place seems legit, but I feel like my sanity could be at stake here, or even my life. I have'nt gotten heart palpitations in a while because I have been leading a healthy lifestyle. However I used to get them when my lifestyle way bad. Premature atrial & Ventricle contractions. Also my blood pressure used to be high, but I have been able to bring that down to normal numbers. I got all of the cardiovascular tests and they said everything was fine, just lead a healthy lifestyle. I have heard that from two different cardiologists. But I mean mentally as well there seems to be much at stake here. I don't need to go into details, because you guys already know. The one thing that makes me want to do it is I need to trancend death and realize god through 5meo. This is my ultimate bucket list item. No matter what, I have to take 5meo before I die. I just don't know if I should wait till later in life when I feel more secure about the whole idea. Im only 23. However, all around me people are dying. Tomorrow is not promised. I could be diagnosed with anything and be dead in two weeks.There is no telling/ like DAMN dude this is a lot to think about. I have already had direct experiences of the truth of no self, so I already have verified death to be false, but still would like to experience the toad. I would love to hear some wise advice from anyone out there if anyone cares to share, would mean a lot to me.

Last year I experienced no-self after three long years of contemplation exercises. I realized I wasn't ready and in the right mindset for this massive shift yet, until I got more of my life together. I now am ready, and am currently doing all of the contemplation exercises, however need some help getting that traction. Anyone have any contemplation exercises or thought experiments to share with me to hopefully help me make that leap?

Smoke a shit ton of weed and watch this vid

I have experience with astral projection many times. Have has many experiences. My first experience I tried to attempt tempt it in my bed around noon, and then like half an hour later I sat up and it was pitch black outside, and I freaked out because it wasnt suppose to be dark out in the middle of the day. So then I woke up for real. Then I tried it many times after and realized I was good at it, tried to run experiments where I would try to see a detail in my house during the projection, and then after that I would go to that part of my house in real life to see if it was true, like one time I projected into my kitchen and saw my sister sitting at the kitchen table, then I woke up and walked into my kitchen and actually saw my sister in real life sitting at the table. It wasn't in the same chair, but the chair next to it. I did experiemnts where i tried to talk to deceased relatives, and I would see them from time to time, but theres no way to validate if its true. Unless I asked them a question that only my mom would know the answer to, get the answer from the relative, and validated it with my mom. But I never got that far. Another time I was falling asleep on my stomach for a week stretch, and I would astral project, wake up, and then wake up a second time, and I didnt know why that was. But then I realized that i was actually astral projecting, didnt realize it because my face was in the pillow so my astral body would come out with its face in the pillow, therefore wouldnt realize i was projecting, would keep trying, and then astral project WHILE having an astral projection, which would cause me to wake up twice. as for a book i read, It says that the astral world isnt in the same world as the physical, its more in a parallel world, where details are slightly different. Hence my sister sitting in not the exact chair, but the chair next to it.

I get that solipsism is technically true because if there are multiple consciousness bubbles, no matter how many conscious bubbles there would be, they would all only be made up of the same consciousness, and there is only one consciousness. However, my question is if I have a friend of mine step into a closet and shut the door, and I step into another closet and shut the door, are there two seperate consciousness bubbles existing, one in each closet? And if you answer no, why not. Why couldn’t god split itself off. I have not seen a convincing argument that explains why god could not do that. It makes no sense to say that it couldn’t.

I get how there is only one god or consciousness and there couldn't be "two" gods, but why couldn't god split itself off into multiple different consciousnesses, in a way where if me and another person each walk into different rooms and there are two bubbles of consciousness in each of those rooms?

For those of you who have seen my other enlightenment guides before, my apologies for yet another updated version, my apologies but I always continue to learn more. I added an extra 3 pages, and had a vision of combining all the teachings of classical-no self, god realization, and materialism/identity theory debunking all into one mega-awakening PDF guide in order to tackle all sides of enlightenment at once by merging all angles and insights into one. For those of you that are new to my guides, this is for you: A while back I posted a guide of how to practice enlightenment work for my friend, then made an updated version, and I recently made an 11-page long third version so I figured I would post again. It consists of multiple sections, one being a summary of what enlightenment is, another being my most powerful guided contemplation thought exercise, visualization exercises, materialist objections, and a list of some of Leo's videos in chronological order of how they should be watched and contemplated, and how to go about contemplating them. Highlighted portions are to be most contemplated and important. From my years of studying and contemplation, I believe I have nailed the instructions and made them more accurate and more easy to understand than Leo himself, although I owe my life to him for teaching me in the first place, and being responsible for my first enlightenment experience. As always, feel free to share questions, comments, or enlightenment stories & experiences below, I love to hear feedback! John’s Practical Guide to Spiritual Enlightenment V 3.0 (2).pdf

I just graduated and need some sort of social life, hoping I can find something to meet people who are into spirituality, metaphysics, enlightenment, etc. So I can sort of kill two birds with one stone by being social while increasing consciousness and my levels of personal development in a spiritual way. Maybe enlightenment workshops or some sort of retreats or any type of social community? Stuff focused towards meditation, breath work, consciousness, things of that nature? Would love to hear any ideas.

I mean technically Leo would say your imaging reincarnation, or any future reincarnations or past reincarnations. Reincarnation is imaginary, the past is imaginary, the future is imaginary. Almost like you constantly only have existed for one second

-How unconditional self love can help you achieve goals (relationships, career goals, health) -Achieving a high enough level to not need relationships -How self love can help to avoid chasing external validation

This is going to be a LOT right here. backstory: my whole life I feel like I have never really been truly happy and always have said “when I get THIS thing I will be truly happy”, but when the thing comes it’s like a high for a little bit, and then I raise the bar of what will ACTUALLY make me happy, and the cycle repeats. Today I was exceptionally upset. I had been in my house for three days straight and hadn’t really been doing much since I just graduated, and idk if it was just from being alone and my thoughts getting worse and worse, or if my feelings were ACTUALLY being validated, but I had been feeling like shit recently and have felt like she has been pulling away recently. Like I said Idk if she actually has been or if it’s just my thoughts building up and getting worse, but that’s how I felt. And I was just thinking all of these ideas about how I need to have a good relationship and I NEED to make sure she’s not cheating on me and I NEED to make sure we have sex and I NEED to make sure she is always 100% in love with me all the time and I NEED to make sure she’s constantly messaging me or else it makes me feel like she hates me and I get super depressed. I have always heard about how if you experience truth of no self it will end all suffering completely and it will end your attachments to external things such as thinking you NEED something in order to be whole and complete, but in reality I never thought it was possible, I never really believed it. After this I was sitting in my shower and had like a 30% enlightenment so-self experience, which happens every so often because I did Leo’s guided contemplation for three years so I can sometimes just slip into enlightenment experiences, and it felt like all the sudden all of the pressure and tension and depression was RIPPED out of my head. Like LITERALLY my brain, like I felt my brain unflex. And my first thought I had was “woahhhhh, this shouldn’t be possible. The only way I can be less depressed or ever loose depression is if I talk to my girl, make sure she loves me, has sex with me, I can be with her forever, and my life would collapse if I lost her. So therefore, the fact that I feel like I’m loosing depressed feelings is impossible”. But I was possible, and it was happening right then. It was like the first time I realized that maybe all the problems really WERE created by me, the blueprint of thinking I need someone to be whole and complete was created by me, and no amount of external validation from other people could actually get me there. I have an AMAZINGLY gorgeous girlfriend, and was recently looking at really old pictures of myself, and thought for a second “if 10 year old me saw pictures of my girlfriend now, he would loose his SHIT. He would say that there is NEVER a reason to be upset ever again and that I would never even HAVE the right to be upset ever again with a girlfriend like that, so WHY AM I SO DEPRESSED?” So is it possible? I mean is it REALLY? Like is it REALLLLLLY possible. As in a true honest 100% possibility that if I become enlightened, I would reach full unconditional happiness? Feeling 100% happy, 0% depressed 24/7 and TRULY never need anything external outside of myself to feel whole and complete ever again? Or even more, is it true that no amount of external things that I gain will ever make me happy? For god sakes,I know my 10 year old self, and he would NEVER allow me the right to be upset ever again if he saw my current girlfriend. Can any enlightened people confirm this? People who have shared experiences? Could this ACTUALLY be possible?

I am very interested to know how you discovered transcendental solipsism, what it is, and how it contains a male-female like pair. Could you answer these questions?

I recently created a guide of how to practice enlightenment work for my friend, and I figured I would post it to the forum as well. It consists of three sections, one being a summary of what enlightenment is, another being my most powerful guided contemplation thought exercise, and the last section a list of some of leo's videos in chronological order of how they should be watched and contemplated, and how to go about contemplating them. Highlighted portions are to be most contemplated and important. See attached doc below. John’s Practical Guide to Spiritual Enlightenment.pdf

Yes, it is in fact on my bucket list, it is going to happen for sure, I just hope it happens very very slow and gradually. I appreciate the media and feedback. May I ask about your story and if you have crossed over?

Couldn't agree more. Thanks for the reply.

Couldn't agree more. Thanks for the reply.

Lots of people believe that there is an incredibly small percentage chance that even if you pursue enlightenment as hard as you can, that you still wont get it. From experience however, if you try absolutely with 100% effort as hard as you can, there is a 100% chance you will get it. If you can't get it, you aren't trying 100%.

@cosmic fool Great stuff right there thank you for replying to my post and giving me some good content, I very much appreciate it. I just read Steven Norquist's essay, and it makes me want to pursue enlightenment so badly. However, this leads me to my next point, which is I have NOT permanently crossed over, because after my first couple successful enlightenment experiences after three years of practicing Leo's enlightenment contemplation exercises, I got the shit scared out of me, and told myself never again. To feel yourself physically start to disappear, well, that is some extremely heavy stuff. It made me realize that I have a lot more fundamental things to work on in my life before I attempt a strike at the top of that pyramid again. Since then, I have gotten a lot of shit together in my life, and am almost at the point where I need to be to try again. This is the second ultimate thing to realize on my bucket list, the first being god realization. Now, because of my 3+ years of only contemplation at this point (no real meditation or psychedelics), my mental contemplation muscle for enlightenment is basically on steroids, meaning that with a simple hour of contemplation at any moment, I could spill into enlightenment at any time. It is difficult for me to keep myself at a level where I do not start to forget what I have learned which could possibly take me further away from enlightenment causing me to forget the means of getting back there, while at the same time making sure I do not spill into enlightenment when I am not ready, and have dropped all attachments to the small self. As I have said the article you have sent gets me very excited, but I know not to be fooled: this is some serious heavy shit, and I have to be extremely careful.

I have a philosophy professor I am emailing and need advice on how to explain to him that truth & experience comes prior to ‘proof’, weather that be scientific or not. I need someone’s help to explain it better than me.

People are saying all of this stuff like “yes you can are alone and when you imagine others that is just you the only one existing and imagining others” and than others say “god needs to be unlimited by definition so therefore we all can exist Independent but just act as one” but where is the real answer. Common now. If I am with someone and we go into separate rooms is there an active consciousness experience of that room the other person is in, or not. I need a yes or no answer.

As I lay awake at 3:14 pm, I cannot sleep for I am not tired. Three years of inquiry, lead to a spontaneous 40% awakening that scared the shit out of me, and I promised to never do it again, yet my mind is the definition of curiosity killed the cat (ego). This has happened a few times at night now, deeper each time, assuming it is because my brain relaxes when I am trying to fall asleep, but instead of sleeping…. BOOM. Detachment from the body. Freaky as hell. But what comes next is indeed VERY present. All of the bodily stress: stress in the face, sinuses, back, shoulders, muscles, and (craziest of all), the BRAIN just disappears. It is as if I have been flexing my brain ever since the end of childhood and could not find a way to stop, until now. To actually be able to UNFLEX you brain is the calmest feeling, and all of those pesky background noise thoughts just disappear, and you can focus so much more greatly in the present moment. I am not tired because of how relaxed my brain is. I’m seeing things the way I did as a kid again. Stress is PHYSICALLY not allowed in this state. Maybe I will go further, we shall see. I have to surrender more first, sometimes I am afraid to let go.

So when the body physically dies is it just not scary because you ego is completely killed so there is nothing to freak out? Apologize for all the questions about this, I’ve always wondered about a lot of this stuff since childhood, and you seem like a pretty cool guy so I’d figure I ask someone who seems to know what they are talking about. I wrote this one too about examples of being ‘woke’ as a child, feel free to check it out here: @Carl-Richard

@Carl-Richard I am 21, so yea still young. I read something someone wrote on a forum: This guy summed it up pretty good, the “Awakening to an infinity of gods” video that Leo did. Would you agree with what this guy said?