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@OBEler Sure, if you mean my higher dose with vaping I think it's around 10mg weighted. I don't always weight it and I probably did more than this sometimes. The reason I don't always weight it is, during my experimentation with 5meodmt, I used to microdose freebase, I would put only a tiny grain or two then vape it. I did this quite often during this time to the point where I would rather trust my gut feeling than my balance, I believe that you instinctively know how much you need for your dose.. That being said, I feel like the 4mg experience I described above was more intense than the 10mg one weirdly enough. I'm sure everything was perfect when I vaped the 4mg and not with the 10mg. Something important to notice though is that I waited months before trying 10mg, there are probably other factors that we are not taking into account because this substance can sometimes feel random

@OBEler I would highly disagree, 5mg is starting to be a serious dose when it comes to freebase @Raf I am in the exact same position as you bro, I use a GVG (glass vapor genie) and when I first smoked the 5meo freebase shortly after receiving it 1 year ago, it was really really strong! I didn't put that much though (4mg) but still it was super effective to the point I realised I was not ready to die or that my ego was really comfortable like a warm blanket during winter and it's cool to have it you know.. I could never recreate this experience even though I slowly worked my way up to even higher doses, it seemed to become ineffective or slightly less effective at least.. I stored it in the plastic bag in a dark place for months then I stored it in a little glass container before trying to re-x (which was not a good idea). So I don't know if it's the pipe or the method or something else but something is missing for me too even though I had great success vaping nnDMT multiple times in the past with the GVG.

@OBEler Okay so here is the update! Today I went for 35mg rectal, I did everything like the previous time except I put an elastic a little before 0.3ml mark on the syringe (equivalent to ~2.5cm) instead of 0.6ml before. It went smooth but it wasn't that strong of a dose tbh, in the begining of the session, I started remembering a song I used to sing with my shamanic circle, everytime I would sing this song it would open my heart. I started crying as a result, I felt compassion for myself and understodd that I had traumatic stuff happened to my heart in the past, I still don't know what it is but I know I have trauma. I then proceeded to acknowledge this wave of crying as the medicine working on me, it felt really great to cry. Usually, the medicine makes me cry during the days after, I understand this as a form of transmutation of deeply stored emotions but this time it was during the comeup. Some people throw up, laugh or shout loudly to purge, my purge is crying After this, the wave went away and I was just left with peace. I silenced the mind and just rest in peace for that moment. I let the medicine do its work upon me and was feeling great but I still had a body at this moment, if I wanted I could have moved but I decided to stay perfectly symetrical as I usually do. It wasn't that strong but the purge felt great, also the after effects are better than last week. I didn't have a breakthrough like I was looking for but I will keep pushing. I'm considering snorting next time as 23mg this way was waayy more effective than 35mg rectal, I might have a bad absorption rate from the back, I don't know..

Last week I decided to take a dose of 5meo-dmt after a long pause and for the first time I had trouble sleeping that night, I woke up multiple times in the morning before getting up. What got me to a more "normal" sleep was weed, I decided to smoke a joint at night maybe two days after 5meo dose and I was back to the cannabis sleep (which is not really better restfully speaking but at least I could sleep). So knowing the effect of cannabis on sleep you could give it a try if your problem persist, but don't get attached to smoking weed all day because your sleep could easily get worse if you do so.

@Leo Gura Ahah for now it's just in the form of a belief for me, I believe that this higher force is Me or that I am the universe etc.. But it's still a belief, I need to know and to experience it for myself now to be sure ^^' Yeah, I like to play hide and seek with myself, this is a really fun game, been playing it since the very begining of time itself

@Leo Gura Yeah will do it, I did increase dosage gradually over time so will continuing doing so. Also I've got this belief that the breakthrough will happen when I'm fully ready, for some reason when you are not absolutely ready for it something tend to happen, you don't vape your dose correctly, you burn some of the material or you don't absorb everything through your nose etc.. It's like some higher force is at play here with this substance, I had some weird sensations in the past while vaping it that, in a sens, it was not me vaping it but like something made me do it, like it was predetermined in a sens. Made me think about the illusion of free will but yeah, this happened a couple of time then stoped. Right now I don't really feel like taking more but when the time is right I'll go for 35mg. I can feel a much stronger after glow than usual so 30mg was still effective but it's like it's been distributing over time inside of me or I don't know.. Also it is the first time I didn't sleep well that night because of 5meo, woke up multiple times in the morning but no reactivations, this never happened to me.. @OBEler Sure, will report here bro'

@OBEler Waoh, I had already checked this post before but I didn't realised 1.5 to 2.8cm was so low in the needle, for some reason I thought it was barely the middle of the syringe but after mesuring it accurately, it turns out it's located between .1 and .3 in the 1ml syringe. Here is the interesting quote from the reddit post : "The area with the most absorption is located in the anal canal, starting approximately 1.5 - 2.8 cm before the exit and continuing on in for another 1 or 2 cm" So I think you are definitely right, got too deep inside and that's why I got a mild trip. Will update here next time I try but for now I'm still feeling a bit exhausted from the trip so I'm taking it slow as always Thanks for your help bro

@OBEler I made sure to watch Leo's rectal administration vid before going to make sure everything was great, I mesured 0.2ml of water then poured it on my dose then mix. I didn't find an elastic so I went with my usual method when going rectal which is to put my finger on the middle of the syringe as a landmark except this time I put my finger on the 0.6ml mark range. When finger touch my end I'm in the right zone then administer. I felt the usual wave of 5meo but really sweet, it felt like gently being scanned by the medicine, being put to energetic equilibrum but it failed to get stronger, you know when you wait for something to kick except it never gets stronger..? So yeah, this feeling, a bit like a ruined orgasm is what I felt At one point I wanted to get my pipe, load it with freebase then really blast off but I tend to avoid this kind of behavior + I don't have the right lighter for now (flame is too strong and burns the medicine) and there's still some traces of Heptane left in my freebase from bad re-x so I try to avoid this Roa..

Mdma is a really transformative experience that can bring lots of positive changes when taken responsibly. Here is a literal gold mine for a safe consumption of mdma : https://www.reddit.com/r/DrugNerds/comments/15m9sf/mdma_supplementation/ If done correctly, you're not supposed to have jaw clenching or even a bad hangover on next days, you just need to prepare the body before and during the event.

It is said they feed the mycelium with 5meo-DMT hcl, as a result, the fruiting body produce an entirely different molecule. I personally have a batch of psilomethoxin at home, I also have regular mushroom and let me tell you they absolutely don’t compare, this is a totally different thing. When I take regular mushrooms, I always get insight about life, it’s like my consciousness is increased, I get CEV and OEV depending on the dose and it creates a tolerance, if I take some the next day, it won’t work or barely work at all. With PM, there is no tolerance building, I could take it everyday and still feeling it. I rarely have lots of insight with pm or feeling of expanded consciousness, I’m just feeling pure Love and wellbeing, it is really helping me to shut off the internal dialogue and opening the heart. Also when I take it, I feel some tension on my temple, same way as when I take 5meo. In my experience, psilomethoxin is much more like a rectal 5meo administration (but way longer in duration) than a regular psilocybin experience.