Clarence

It's not contradictory. We did well for 3 years, but the last six months, I had become too tired. Life had become too difficult. The little time I had for myself, I completely lost because we adopted a puppy. I had too much to take care of and was feeling awful. It's not contradictory, it's just so difficult to do things perfectly for so long, especially without any break. We've not had a single day of rest this whole time. I stepped back because I was dying inside. I was still there everyday with her, but doing much less because of my health. Now I deeply regret not having pushed myself harder and not foreseeing anymore that she could die any time. I would have done better if I was thinking straight, but I had lost that capacity to see clearly. It doesn't change the fact that taking care of her was the right thing to do. The regrets and guilt I have are exactly for that reason… for the times where I failed to take good care of her. Thank you.

No… but I loved her deeply. She could not survive by herself anymore due to her old age. We cannot just discard people when they grow old, especially when they have done everything for us when they were able to, and when they loved us so deeply. Taking care of her was the right and normal thing to do. It was our responsability as her children and grandchildren, despite society making it seem normal not to care for the elderly. Thanks for your message though. I just didn't feel like this part was right…

However, you introduced the list by saying "people need to", rather than "what worked for me". That changes the whole meaning of your message.

That's good, but you already have to be pretty functionnal to start doing any of these things. Sometimes people need external help to start with, to unlock the ability to do these things. I don't necessarily mean help from psychologists though, as their capacity to help is pretty limited and that kind of therapy is extremely slow, but to find the right people at the right time to do the right type of work/healing, can be the most helpful events for some people towards healing, as it can help unlock deep blockages, causes of fatigue, suffering, and so forth, when they can't do it by themselves. It's quite common to be unable to access parts of the subconscious and stuff at the soul level as a human. Issues are not always coming from the human mind only. We are much more than just the human mind. At least, from my experience and the experience of people around me (which are not necessarily dealing with depression), problems can come from other places than the physical body and the mind, though everything is connected. In the end, it all depends on the depth of the issue and the level at which it is truly located.

Haha, no, I meant that I don't understand why you are so invested in me. What difference does it make to you what I get out of a course? Absolutely nothing. You are getting triggered over things that don't even concern you. But thank you for caring. I don't know what would happen if you weren't there to share your wise words.

@NoSelfSelf Well, good for you if you don't overthink. For me, that wasn't enough information. I don't even understand why you get so negatively reactive to what I write. Maybe you should reevaluate yourself after you're done finding faults in me.

@NoSelfSelf I don't question buying them; I will buy them regardless of the answer. I just wonder if there is an ideal order to complete them. It won't make much difference to wait three more months if it is better to work on programming the subconscious mind first. The way I see it, it might make sense to do that if it could help complete the Life Purpose Course more effectively, as some fears and blockages could prevent getting a clear vision of one's life purpose. But this is just a supposition I have, which is why I was asking if there was an ideal order. If there is none, then I'll know it's best to decide based on my current preferences and desires. I also know now that doing both at the same time is not a good option, which is pretty valuable information to take into account. It would certainly be beneficial to reprogram my overthinking tendency and my need for perfection. It doesn't turn me into an idiot, but definitely slows me down. I'm conscious of that. I think for myself constantly and I also constantly question whether what I think is right or not.

My question is not about buying. You can't even properly understand a simple question and you're being aggressive for no reason. Hope you can see that your text is disrespectful and completely useless to what I asked.

For those who haven't taken the Life Purpose Course yet, would it be better to take this one first? Maybe there's an order that would facilitate the next course. Or, since you said they synergize well, would it be a better option to start and do them both at the same time to work on both fronts right from the start? (I'm an overthinker, but maybe I'm not alone with this question).

I believe it should help get past blockages and fears we hold? I personally have a deep blockage around money, especially around spending money. I absolutely hate spending, but I love having a bit more each month in my bank account. I currently have a low income, but despite that, I have a decent amount on my bank account which I'm not doing anything with (maybe also because it feels safer to keep hoarding). But I'm aware that I should invest more in myself as I can afford it… but the fear and discomfort of spending is so strong that I keep holding myself back. It literally feels painful in my whole body to buy something… even something I find very meaningful or highly needed. Still, I've recently started to spend on all kind of therapies and I've been feeling some improvements in my mental state already, but I haven't directly addressed that issue yet. I guess it could well be addressed at the subconscious level through that kind of course, as I consciously know that I should be more relaxed around money, but I just can't, as I'm not directly in control of my fears and blockages, it feels. I'm sharing a lot, but basically, I'm just wondering if the course will address those kinds of issues or if it will be geared towards people not having strong fears and blockages to start with, but who already are on a good growth curve in life.

Now that's motivating. I want to eat them fast!

But the advanced stuff gives purpose! In that sense, it's what drives me the most to live and improve my human life. Without passion and purpose, it's hard to find interest in human matters in the first place. I wouldn't be suprise if my life purpose had a lot to do with understanding consciousness. At least, that's what makes me want to deal with the human shit. So in that sense, it does a lot for my human life… But I get that alien consciousness is not directly going to improve one's life and that grounded self-help is highly needed still. That sounds amazing.

I am finally starting to feel ready to buy and start the life purpose course. I guess I'll have to take two courses now… I'm pretty indecisive, so I don't know which one to start with. But thank you! I've always felt like programming my subconscious mind was the kind of self-help I needed, because I've often felt frozen to take action due to my mental health conditions. Though, I've seen some improvements lately, which is why I can now contemplate starting the life purpose course. I'm pretty happy also to be here for the launch of this new course, as I had to quit Actualized.org more than once because simply watching videos and having them in mind was causing too much pain for me as I was struggling so much with basic stuff. I must admit however that I was expecting a course on alien consciousness and psychedelics. So I can't help but feel a bit of disappointment that it's not the one coming. But at the same time, I was not expecting (or wishing for) it to come that quickly either. I'm still very excited to explore consciousness on my own right now and hopefully build the life that will allow me to make the best use of this course when it will be released. If it is still on your mind :).

In relation to this topic, I highly recommend watching a few interviews of Matias De Stefano. I think he gives coherent explanations about the construction of the pyramids. He also talks about pre-Egyptian civilizations and that the people at the time were the technology, meaning that they would become the elements to construct the pyramids. He says something like this in this video at 1:25:25 (paraphrasing): He talks about many other interesting things in this interview, for example, the origins of the words magic and alchemist and how he's been Calling Forth the Rain, both as a child and later in Egypt at the pyramids. The entire video gives more context to the quoted passage. I've also watched this video in which he explains the Original Purpose of the Pyramids. Once again, the entire video is worth watching for context, but he starts talking about this particular topic at 33:06. Lastly, in this video, he mentions that the Egyptians did not exist when the pyramids were build (18:05), but he starts talking about ancient civilizations at 0:47 and also says, at the very beginning, something along the lines that humans created them and not aliens. He also talks about aliens traveling through time and not through space (among other things about aliens) in other videos. I think he's worth researching. I'm not dogmatic either about these topics, but it seems to me that Matias gives relevant answers - which could be correct or incorrect, but they at least make a lot of sense. It would not be surprising to me if he was correct in most of what he says as he has incredible spiritual gifts and as nothing I've heard so far from him is incoherent with my current understanding of reality. Though of course, I'm still at an early stage of constructing and expanding my own understanding of reality and I don't have direct knowledge and memories of those time periods like he does. So I keep an open mind about all this.

Do you think there's a chance you'll ever be able to use psychedelics again? I guess you might not know at this point, but that sounds like really tough news.

What I'm trying to say is that sometimes you might need a friend who will give you a new perspective on your situation, or a therapist who will show you patterns in your thinking which you can't see, or you might need to take a psychedelics that will reveal to you parts of your psyche that are unconscious. Awareness and understanding are of course crucial, but it's not always that simple to get them. You may believe you have made all the lights on your trauma and causes of your suffering, but there might be things that are still hidden from you, running unconscious, and causing reactions you don't understand. You might react to certain triggers and have no idea where they come from. Maybe they stem from the day you were born, or perhaps they aren't even yours but your parents' fear and needs, which you have been living by your entire life. So I think the issue is much broader than you make it sound to be. You might have all the awareness in the world, but there can still be things that remain stuck in the unconscious and nearly impossible to bring to the conscious mind. You might be able to resolve certain issues on your own with your awareness, but still be missing a deeper resolution. Also, awareness alone is not likely to be enough to bring bliss and happiness. People might be in pain because they are not living the life they know they should be living. Having awareness and understanding about that is not likely to be enough. Having food and shelter is just a beginning. Most people will also have to change their lifestyle for it to fit their deepest desires in order to be happy. Awareness and understanding are great, but they are like a first step you need in your life. And as I've just said, there are degrees of them. It's not just having them or not having them - of being happy or not being happy. There are degrees of all of these things which you don't seem to acknowledge.

The sentence "struggling with consciousness" really doesn't make sense to me. Trauma is more complex than that. It's not only the question "why me''. Imagine if your mother was shot and killed in front of you in the street when you were a child. Imagine you were also shot but survived. You might react (have a physical reaction of stress) everytime you hear a firearm for the rest of your life even if you are not in danger. You might completely accept that it happened to you and understand it is all consciousness, but still remain traumatized in that sense. It is more than likely that deep healing work will be needed. The trauma does cause suffering, even without resisting that it happened. It is likely to remain within your cells, in the memory of your body, and maybe even continue to cause physical and mental reactions every time you hear similar sounds, despite having awareness, understanding and acceptance, because it can be ingrained at a very deep level to which conscious awareness doesn't have access.

You can be deeply aware that consciouness is everything, and still suffer as some traumatic event is taking place. Being aware that trauma is an aspect of consciousness is not enough to resolve it. The suffering that it causes is more than likely to remain despite being aware that it is consciousness.

Everything is consciousness. What you are saying doesn't really answer anything.

Really? I don't exactly understand what you mean by that here. I thought it could be worked on/reduced, in a similar way that one can work on checking their beliefs or intuitions.

Do you also have specific understandings about intuition? Is intuiting something excatly the same as believing something? I think that I am highly intuitive, though I don't like believing/trusting my intuition because I always fear being wrong. So I acknowledge it and stay in an in-between state between intuiting and not knowing - until verified. So I understand the importance of validation, but I'm still a bit confused about the differences between intuition and belief. For me they feel different, even though they both need validation. So I wonder how you regard the two. Do you consider them to be the same thing?

Perhaps he studies also on his own; I don't know. But I think it is possible that he can remember hundreds of his past lives and have contact with guides who can provide him with informations about reality, the world, the past, that other people don't have access to. There are psychic people all around the world. I believe that at least certain things he says are true in the sense that I don't have direct access to the informations he has - so at this level, it is a belief. But I don't think that the existence of psychic people, or that certain people can remember their past lives, is a belief, as their claims can be verified in this reality. It could also be possible to directly verify certain things Matias says (like go to Egypt and in the pyramids with him to see if something actually happens - to feel the energy inside and to see if/how it starts raining). Maybe also it could be possible to verify certain things about the ancient past or things about this planet by developping psychic abilities. Though, that would likely be very difficult. But who knows, sometimes people get psychic abilities after near death experiences or wathever. You saying "You being God is not a belief." is a belief 🙂 I partly agree with that - that it could be a belief for some people. At this point, I believe Leo when he says he has reached Alien Consciousness. In a sense, I think he would like others to understand or believe him about that too - or I misanderstood him. (I just had my own tiny experience of it two days ago, but that's it). I've also always believed him when he talked about reality and God, far before having my first awakenings. Was I wrong to believe him? I don't know. In the end, I checked that for myself. But in a sense, thinking that you are God is a belief until you've checked it for yourself (am I wrong, @Leo Gura). Still, I was not incorrect to believe it was true. Actually, I even knew prior to my experiences that it was true as my intuition was so strong. What's interesting about Matias is not just the pyramids, but all the aspects of reality he talks about that give understandings about reality and this planet on things we cannot see - which maybe could be verified by developping psychic abilities, among other things. The thing I agree here with though is that understanding God and Consciousness and how you are creating your own reality through direct experience is more fundamental than all this. But for me it's worth looking into those things still, as we are stuck on this planet there are certain things I want to know/understand, which psychedelics are not likely to give me answers on.

@Rafael Thundercat I think my topic fits better in this section. You may add yours here if you want, it also makes more sense that way as I created it first.

Of course. I agree. I don't say I know how they were build, nor do I think that. I see it as a possibility that may or may not be true.

Correction: This is the actual Mexican Day of the Dead pizza. I may keep my initial Alien Intelligence pizza, whose skull and design are not human at all