Clarence

I believe reincarnation is true — and also agree that it is a relative truth. There are well studied cases of people remembering past lives in extreme details. But I also think that reincarnation doesn't necessarily have to be bound to Earth, that someone's consciousness could choose to keep evolving, after a life on Earth, in a different world or reality, such as in a non-physical reality. I wish to understand in great detail how God/Consciousness proceeds to divide itself and create realities and independent conscious beings. I understand at the Absolute level how it is possible, but a lot of pieces are missing to precisely know its design. It's like I understand how a skyscraper can be build, but I don't master how all the parts are put together to make it stand perfectly. I also wish to understand who we are and what we experience when we are not limited to a human life like this one. I think this avatar is just a tiny part of ourselves, and that we will expand back to our higher, vaster consciousness once we die. That's such an interesting topic, even if it is part of the relative domain.

@Salvijus Their situation is very interesting indeed. It's mind-blowing. I also gained insights on my own life experience which stem from my soul's purpose, or something along purpose those lines.

That's an insane case. It goes beyond transgenderism. Do they even consider themselves transgender? Did you specifically hear about this in the video?

Thank you to everyone who contributed to this thread. I'm really happy about all the positive messages that were posted. I tried to reply to all, but I'm a slow writer and wasn’t quick enough to post all the messages I wanted to. Still, the vibe was very positive, and I really appreciated that. So, thank you!

@Salvijus Glad you finally realize that your interference isn't needed. There were many contradictions in the way you conveyed your message. This alone, you know, was sufficient. It says it all clearly and simply, with no egoic agenda being pushed forward.

@Salvijus Wasn't it clear to you, from my opening post, that my motivations come from the heart? I honestly don't know how it isn't obvious to you.

You are literally changing your own rules along the way to suit your ego as best you can.

You are telling people how the game of life is made to be played, and that: « the role that has been given you cannot be changed and you should honor it, that's what truly defines you. Start focusing more on your life purpose than your appearance. » And you defend your view with a passion. But, your vision of how the game is meant to be played is yours — perhaps also the one of people around you, but it's not universal. I don't have the same vision as you. I believe people can change, and that they have the right to focus on whatever they want in their life. I needed to focus on my identity before focusing on my life purpose. Why should I not, if it brings me peace for the next 60 years of my life? Who are you to tell people what they should do with their life, and to think that you know better than them? This is your ego speaking. If your heart were open, you would realize that people transitioning is about bringing more harmony and peace in their life, and reducing chaos. Isn't love about wanting peace and harmony for people? You brought up the example of people detransitioning, but do you truly care about their suffering? Wise, loving people do. They don't use these cases to spread fear or hatred toward all transgender people, wishing that they didn't exist for their own selfish reasons.

Do you realize that you're acting out of ego and fear?

Not much has changed for me, actually. The most striking differences I have noticed so far are that: - I'm always served last when I'm with women in a restaurant, whereas it was random before. It is weird to me, because I am the exact same person - Strangers always assume I am with my girlfriend when I am out with a female friend, which is something I have a hard time getting used to. I'd rather have them assume we are just friends, as it feels a bit awkward for me. I've met my friends long before transitioning. - All of a sudden, I felt like I expressly had to open the door for women and my female friends, and let them go ahead of me in various situations. I used to do it out of politeness, or simply go first if that was how things flowed — but now I feel like I have to let them go, because that's what's expected from men. I like to do things because I want to, and I naturally care for others, but now I feel the pressure of society every time I open a door in a social setting. - Quite a different story, but it happened to me once that a man, who was a total stranger, used gross sexual or vulgar language in my presence — he was actually talking to me (but not about me). I can't remember what he said, but I was shocked, especially since it happened at the beginning of my transition. I'm confident he wouldn't have said whatever he said if I had been a girl. However, this was a one-time experience. - I've also noticed that it's now uncomfortable for me to talk to girls my age who are strangers. It used to feel normal, but now I'm concerned about what they'll think my intentions are. It's unsettling. - The atmosphere is nicer and more relaxed in the female bathrooms. Other than that, it's quite the same for me, but I'm still in the process of getting used to my new identity. A part of me still tends to think that people will assume I went through a transition, even though they totally can't. Male and female genders, and gender roles, are still difficult for me to deeply understand. I've technically experienced both, but I’ve never had a typical male or female psyche, so my perspective remains external, like studying the opposite gender — for both. I have a very hard time to understand how people can feel like a man or a woman, as this isn't part of my reality.

I think it comes from a higher place than the human mind. But in my case, neurodivergence, ancestral lineage (the memories of our ancestors that are transmitted to us), and my karmic history are at play.

I honestly don't know where else you think it could come from. Do you really think transgender people want to be transgender? You can't imagine how hard it is. Who would go through that if it weren't for very deep reasons? No mature person would ever make the decision to transition if it weren't an absolute need.

Because your mind is closed. You don't want to hear anything, you just want to persuade others that you are right and everyone else is wrong. If you were wiser, and if there was a slight possibility for you to admit that you might be wrong, we could have a conversation. But honestly debating you feels like a waste of time to me. You want to fight, and I am not a fighter. Is it masculine or femine: I don't care. As I said, I am neither male nor female. But that, you understand even less. It takes too much energy for me to debate, and in the end, I really don't care what you think of what people should or shouldn't do. You don't speak in the name of God, as you're implying. You don't even understand God. You know what? I followed my heart.

Thanks, @Nemra. I appreciate you saying that. Thank you also for your honesty. Yes, indeed. That's true, respect is crucial. We know so little about each other that we should remember to act as respectfully as humanly possible, even when we don't understand something. That requires a lot of awareness and growth, but we can all improve ourselves.

@Adrian colby Thank you for sharing. I've read other posts from you, too. Your contribution is very valuable. I'm also working toward fully integrating the masculine and the feminine, and especially understanding why I was born female but felt the pressing need to be male. I think there are deep reasons beneath both, but it is a long process to uncover them as they play out in dimensions of myself I have no easy access to. It requires sincere dedication to get to that kind of information, as well as meeting with the right people. But working to gain that understanding is highly beneficial to me, as I have a deep need for answers.

@ExploringReality @integration journey @Natasha Tori Maru @Applegarden8 Thank you!

Your entire life is an illusion, but it's still very real.

Yes, it doesn't really matter when it's just the costume of a video game character. But when you're entire life is at stake, it gets much more serious.

The transition to me felt like a slow realignment process, of moving toward my most authentic self. I had to drop the mask I had been forced to build by the end of my childhood to fit others' expectations of me, so I could become who I truly was again. My gender identity didn't change; I finally aligned my appearance with how I felt inside, as fully as I could. The word transgender is confusing, as it sounds like people change their gender, but that's not the case. The deepest desire of transgender people is to align their external appearance with their inner being, which is very different from changing gender. It is exactly the same for me as it is for you: I can't see myself living as a woman. The distress you would feel if you had to start dressing as one is the distress I felt when I had to. I literally desired to tear my skin apart to escape this body that didn't feel like mine. Aligning one's body with one's inner identity is like finally wearing the skin and the clothes that belonged to you all along.

@Ulax @Beans @Daniel Balan @shree @Emerald Thank you, everyone. I appreciate your kind words.

Thank you for expressing that!

@Yimpa Lol

@Leo Gura How do you handle the frustration when creative thoughts or profound new insights come to mind, but you need to continue meditating and have to let them go? This is a very challenging aspect of meditation.

@Leo Gura Powerful one.

@Leo Gura I agree with MsNobody. I wrote about this a little while back too (here above). I also understand that you might not want to reveal topics beforehand. But it's very difficult to take time for contemplation when the video is already available Plus, we're not masters of contemplation — it's very difficult. It might help to learn (or simply try it out once) in a more interactive way. I'm curious to see how it will turn out.