Clarence

Thank you! That will be highly appreciated.

@Leo Gura Thank you.

Have you found what works best to overcome this? Are there ways of thinking that can help, or some kinds of life experiences, or strategies? I really don't know how to accept everything as it is from a human perspective. From a higher perspective (God's point of view), it is easy. But this isn't the same as full acceptance from all levels.

The real challenge is to not become too discouraged and depressed. Not being too emotional must be of great help to find balance in this level absurdity and stupidity human beings display. I tend to wish too much that this reality was different that I tend to lose interest in it all. I don't expect things to turn out different, I wish they were different already. I geniunely don't know how to drop all of my desires for a different existence and accept things for how they really are. I don't know how to ground myself in this reality. Parts of me hate it. The road to acceptation is long for me.

@Leo Gura I currently stay single because relationships are very time consuming and I first need to discover who I am and what I want more deeply. I find it much harder to change and work on myself while in a relationship. I get distracted, tend to please the person to make things work, and I don't fall in love easily, so it is frustrating to waste time and energy for someone I end up breaking up with. I could feel okay in a long term relationship, I think, but it rarely comes easily or quickly. So I admit I'd have some interest in building a serious relationship with someone, but not enough at this time to invest a lot of time in dating. My priority is to develop myself. I might be some kind of a freak as well, though. I've always been quite different than the people around me, and I also am a philosopher at heart. As a matter of fact, I studied philosophy at university before I knew about Actualized.org. Overall, do you think women stay single for better reasons than men?

Don't you decide to stay single?

Thanks a lot for sharing your slideshow! That gives us a glimpse of the work you are going through to make a video. This is very interesting (and I've always loved behind-the-scenes). Maybe you could ask us once to try making the list before you make the video. That way, our motivation to sit, brainstorm, and write down our ideas would be stronger. We could also read others' answers and see if we can get somewhere. Making those videos must be an important factor for you to stay focused and diligent to do this type of work so exhaustively. Would you still do it if you didn't have an audience, were not making videos, or were not writing a book—so if you had no one to share any of your work with? Maybe you would, but for me, it is hard—I have an undefined cloud of answers inside of me which I can't articulate when you announce a new topic, but I also struggle to try harder to articulate it, especially when all the answers are just one click away. I am two hours into the video. Once again, it is great work. Even as I read through the slideshow, I can’t believe there are so many points that could be articulated.

I don't know the spiders from other countries, but here in Europe, the Tegenaria Domestica is very common. They can be quite big, but they are harmless. I'm quite scared of spiders, but when they appear, I know it's just temporary and that they will soon find a place to live and hide. So I just try not to disturb them and I avoid them. It can cause some me bad nights when they appear in my room before I go to bed, but I tell myself that they won't stay there and that they are as scared of me as I am of them. If it was an unknown spider, and potentially a dangerous one, I would catch it to release it outside, just to make sure.

That's a very deep experience you've had. I'm sorry I can't give good answers to your questions, as I've not been through anything similar. I've never tripped with people around, and the only time I kind of blacked out was on 5-MeO-MALT. The only downside of this trip was that I couldn't remember much of it, but nothing weird happened. Since then, I've been taking lower quantities of all psychedelics. Out of interest, as I also take this substance, may I ask what your dose and method of administration were? I also wonder how experienced you are with psychedelics and what your sensitivity to them is usually like.

@Leo Gura Thank God

I didn't know there were two different concepts and so two different meanings. It makes sense now how I got the definition so wrong. Half-jokingly in the sense that you didn't make it sound serious while it should have been made serious? I never got that you were half-joking. I always thought you were being very serious. Or in the sense that you agree you were speaking seriously, but we should have got that you were half-joking (which I missed entirely). I'm very confused about the true meaning. It isn't obvious to me which one it is.

Oh wow, with this definition, it’s obvious that I am not. Thanks. Then, is that also what you pointed to when you talked about content that could blackpill us? I don't know if it is the right place, but I also wanted to apologize for my reaction (if you remember it). First, I didn’t imagine the right kind of content, and second, even if I had, it wasn’t wise to respond while under the influence of my emotions.

Ok, but I still don't get it. I've dated people and made both male and female friends despite being blackpilled (according to this definition). This lingering feeling of depression is obviously hard to live with and has an affect on my life, but it doesn't fully prevent socialization. Actually, meeting people with a different outlook on the world has been highly helpful to me. It at least helped me recognize that there were other ways to live. I guess it can reduce socialization, but not always, as both are not incompatible. I'm currently very satisfied with the friends I have and am not interested in romantic relationships at the moment. But when I desired to date, I did.

I thought Blackpill was a form of depression and negativity caused by the overwhelming suffering and injustices in the world, such as wars, animal and human torture, pollution, environmental destruction, humanity's low level of cognitive development, etc. As long as this dark lense of viewing the world isn't completely out of control and proportion, I don't see how it would directly affect one's ability to socialize. I perceive it more as a lingering sense of sadness, despair, or anger. Of course, it can intensify at times, but it would broadly affect one's life and not necessarily prevent socialization or talking to woman. Did I get this wrong?

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