Clarence

@Leo Gura Will you teach us (maybe in the course) how to properly trip for 12-24 hours in a row? Also, do you consider sharing with us details about your most dangerous experiences and other things you haven't yet talked about?

What I meant was between high/heavy doses and extremely high doses. For me, 25-30 mg is a heavy trip. I’ve never tripped above 35 mg and never got into such dangerous territory. So I would guess that those kinds of experiences could happen at even higher doses, such as 45-50+ mg (for me). But I could be wrong. It would be quite a leap to go that high. 35 mg of MALT was extremely intense for me. I couldn’t tell the difference between past, present, real, and imaginary at all anymore, but also, I didn't retain much from this trip as I think at was too high. My clearest and most profound trips and awakenings happened at 25-30 mg.

@Leo Gura Thanks for the clarification. That’s really intense. Does the deep tripping you’re talking about here refer to really high doses of psychedelics, such as 50+ mg of MALT or 5-MeO, or to something else? I’d like to know what you have in mind when you talk about serious tripping.

At higher doses, I also tend to experience what @LambdaDelta is describing as I dive deep into my mind. It also happens that I stop seeing the room I'm in. Once, during one of my first experiences, I fell off my bed and hit a wall. That "woke" me back up into the room. But that is very different from what we're talking about here. I think it happened because I had fallen asleep before the trip started, and halfway through, I moved my body without realizing it. Otherwise, I mostly stay still and don't get the desire to go out. One reason is that it is quite hard to walk around on psychedelics, but also because my focus is elsewhere. I observe my thoughts, my mind, and my consciousness very deeply. I also experienced the shift you're describing, which twists my mind in a similar way, but I stay under the blanket and observe it. I bask in how funny it is that everything that makes me "me," especially my own rigidity, collapses. So I observe, laugh internally, and ponder how to keep some of that at play when the trip is over. At this point, I just can't see how I could want to use a knife, my car, or anything dangerous while tripping. Maybe someday I'll find out how, but it's very hard to imagine, as it feels so foreign to what I've experienced so far and as I'm proceeding with caution with each trip, increasing the dosages bit by bit. Thanks a lot for the video! I'm glad I could listen to it again, it’s so deep and beautiful.

@Vynce There really was no way you could have refrained from doing those things?

@Leo Gura It is hard to understand as I haven't been close to doing something stupid yet. During all of my trips, the idea of leaving my bed doesn't even cross my mind. So I basically lack experience of being close to actual danger. If I remember correctly, you once talked about being able to trip with a gun on your lap to face the fear that you might kill yourself (to not do it and gain trust). This is very old memory, and I don't know which video it was in, so I can't listen to it again to know what you said exactly. But I remember something like that, if I'm not mistaken. I hope to learn more about your personal experiences someday in the course. Real stories from you are the most effective eye-openers. I’m always interested to learn in more details about what you’ve been through and experienced. Sometimes I don't exactly know how to proceed with my tripping, so looking up to you also gives me a foundation and trajectory, even though you are extremely advanced.

Did you used to do all that? It sounds excessive. I tend to trust myself enough not to re-dose, use my phone or handle dangerous objects.

Thanks

@Leo Gura What about pots and saucepans? Is it also important that they are all stainless steel, and preferably of good quality? I'm currently looking to replace them as well. I'm not sure about the quality or even the materials of the ones we use.

In case it helps anyone, after doing a lot of research on stainless steel pans, I decided to buy this model : Demeyere Industry 5. I still need to try it out as it arrived yesterday. But from my research, it is of very good quality. @Leo Gura I'd be interested to know which models you use or like?

@Leo Gura Thanks. I'm not familiar with this method, but I'll look into it if I can't get one from my doctor.

Thanks. Though there isn't much cure at this point, except maybe Naltrexone which might be one of the best treatments, as you are reporting. What kind of doctor can prescribe this medication for Hashimoto's? I guess my family doctor won't know about it. Is it about convincing any doctor to give a prescription?

Do you also enjoy going out with a close friend from time to time? I have a few close friends, but there is one I feel especially close to. We don’t talk or see each other very often, but I find the moments we spend together very meaningful. I wonder if this kind of connection is also important to you as well.

It’s already destroying my life. I’m fighting back not to kill myself. I’m seeing a psychiatrist, a neuropsychologist, and alternative healers, but nothing works. Sometimes I experience a few days of reduced symptoms after a session, but it never lasts longer than that. It’s hard to believe that it could be caused by an autoimmune disorder because I’ve grown to see all these symptoms as part of "me" — as me failing to change my state of mind and get into a good mood. That’s why I was hoping to work on it with the upcoming course on reprogramming the subconscious mind, thinking it was the only cause. It’s hard to accept that it could come from Hashimoto’s, because that would mean that my difficulties aren’t all directly caused by me failing, as I've come to believe, but also by a physical condition. It feels wrong to place the cause, or part of the cause, outside of my mind, as if I’m not taking full responsibility for it. But it would be a relief to know that this is the case, as such a cause would reduce the guilt I live with. Even if curing the condition isn’t simple, accepting that it plays an important role would improve my self-image and ease the despair I’m in.

Not that I know of, at least for the physical symptoms. But for the mental ones, it’s more complex, as I am an extremely anxious person. So I don’t know if anxiety is the cause of all the other symptoms, or if anxiety is itself heightened and a symptom of Hashimoto's. I can't remember how things were before I learned I had the disease, but somehow, it feels like it's getting worse as time goes on. Good to know. When I read the book, it sounded promising to apply what they said to reduce inflammation and improve overall well-being, but I didn’t do it because it was impossible for me to put it into practice at the time. I'll keep in mind that my results could be different.