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Thanks for sharing.

Did you have a lot of trips that were too much for you? I remember you said it was so potent you had to force yourself to do it. I'm wondering how the trips were when you had to force yourself, and how you manage that kind of fear. Would you go back to tripping on weed if your health allowed it?

@integral I have experience with psychedelics, just not with vaping them.

@integral Why do you ask?

@Leo Gura I’ve never smoked weed or vaped any psychedelics, so it’s hard for me to estimate. I was thinking of making a 1:2 cart and experimenting from there. Do you usually take just one inhale, or a few like with DMT?

@Leo Gura What ratio do you think works best when mixing THCA isolate with Liquify Pro for vape carts?

Dimmed light, eyes open. Music to help with the come-up. Sitting up, then lying down.

I start to feel the first effects after about 2 minutes, reach the peak in about 4 minutes, and the peak lasts for about 30 to 40 minutes. Then I experience a sudden drop from the peak into much lighter effects.

This one is too: https://youtu.be/7xboEsXt_a0?is=JE6QzLcl8kdi8xd3 (Apparently, YouTube doesn't allow embedding of this video).

@Leo Gura Have you seen my post in the Blog Discussion Mega-Thread? I’ll link it here. I hope you’ll take the time to read it and watch the videos. I totally get your point that trans ideologies are a real issue. The point I raise in my post is not about that, but about the way being trans itself is framed in your blog post. I hope you'll see what I’m trying to communicate and understand why I think the way you conflate these different realities in your blog post is problematic.

Trans Sports Deciding to transition in a transphobic society can be an act of self-love and self-acceptance, similar to accepting being gay in a homophobic society. I've transitioned and I'm not at war with myself. I'm increasingly accepting that I wasn't born cisgender. I'm also on a journey to understand reality and to become as truthful about it as I can be. As a trans person, the inner work I had to do was not accepting my sex assigned at birth and the gender associated with it; it was accepting that I wasn't born cisgender and that my body didn't match how I felt inside. My work was to accept myself as I truly was. It was not to accept myself as a girl and keep living as such when it was clearly untrue to me; it was to accept myself as a person born in the wrong body and to accept transitioning to align my body with my mind. I have to accept scars, the lack of male sex organs, as well as other things related to being trans, but top surgery and HRT have completely transformed the relationship I have with my body and with myself. It has helped me become a more secure and grounded person in ways that wouldn't have been possible otherwise. That is not the full picture of what accepting reality entails for a trans person. This whole matter is not as black and white as you depict it to be. I'm not denying that some people transition for the wrong reasons or that surgery or the use of chemicals can be misused and overused in various ways. But a transition can also be a very thoughtful process, a process towards self-love and authenticity. Generalizing that all trans people are at war with themselves, have unstable minds, and can't understand reality is just wrong. This narrative applies neither to me nor to many other trans people. I certainly am not perfect, but I am on a journey towards deeper love, deeper acceptance, and deeper understanding of reality. I've been seriously engaged in spiritual work. I worked through a lot of things just to know that transitioning was necessary for me. Being trans does not amount to being that kind of person you describe. I encourage you to watch this video, just to broaden your perspective. The author is trans, yet he's mature, grounded, loves reality, loves his life, loves his body. A few more: Why I Love Being Transgender My Seven Favorite Parts of Being Transgender Emotional FTM Transition Timeline (2 Years on Testosterone) That being said, trans activism and trans people in sports is a whole other issue. I'm not an activist myself and I deeply care about fairness for everyone. So of course, trans women shouldn't play sports with cis women since they have a clear advantage.

If she's open to it, meeting with a medium after some time to try to contact her mother could be of much help. We've done so when my grandmother passed away and it was really helpful. The contact went very well and it helped ease the pain a lot. The medium however needs to be really good. One sign that they're good is that they won't ask any question about the deceased person and will provide very specific details that are impossible to guess, while making hardly any mistake or approximation. Even if it's not for now, just knowing it’s a possibility can already bring some comfort and reassurance, as she might be able to get answers to some of her questions someday, and simply have one more contact with her mother.

12 mg → 17 mg → 20 mg → 25 mg → 30 mg. It was over a three-month period, but it didn’t need to be that long. I was discovering 5-MeO-MALT at the same time and didn’t have much free time.

@Davino Thanks for sharing! Is anyone else using alternatives to Liquify-Pro? It's not as easy to get in Europe.

@Oppositionless Thanks for your input, that really helped clarify things.