I recently broke up with my boyfriend who I'd been with on and off for 8 years. It was a moment of being overwhelmed and I overreacted and broke up with him. After 3 weeks of no contact I did call him and left a message to say that I had cooled off and can we talk about the relationship. He never responded. Over the last 4 months I have sent him 2 heart felt emails explaining what I had been going through, telling him I want us to be together again etc. but he has not responded at all.
The truth of the matter is, I had become overwhelmed because he is an alcoholic (albeit functioning, attorney, responsible, etc). But he does not drive so I had been left with the task of shuttling him to and fro, quite often. Honestly, I'd walk to the ends of the earth for this man, but he gave me nothing in return other than a comfy friendship and occasionally sex but even that was very sterile. No kissing, foreplay. I realize he has issues but after giving giving giving and getting nothing in return, I finally cracked. the good parts of the relationship really made me happy and I miss him in my life so much.
He had a little dog that absolutely adored me and I adored it. This is also very, very painful. I know he knows how much he is hurting me by ignoring me and I question why I would even want someone around that could hurt me this much. However, I suppose me coming out of nowhere and breaking up with him probably caught him off guard and really really hurt him.
I guess my question is . . . do I keep trying by professing my love and hope that eventually he'll come back . . . or do I let it go?
