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Yyesterday I watched Leo's video 'Guided Exercise for God Realization' while smoking weed. Here you have the report, written a couple hours after: This morning I put some things together. Here we go: -I understand the difference between CONCEPT and REALITY/ACTUALITY (seems like no big deal, but this is H-U-G-E) 24 hours after Im still baffled. Is a HUGE shift. -Im not a biological entity. I'm imaging it. My first glimpse was at: 'you weren't born, you are just imagining that', and 'you are not going to die, you are just imagining that' WOW. That hit me hard. That was the first crack. Then: Atoms doesn't exist! 'You are not a biological entity', 'you are imagining biology'. FUCK. I was already on the floor on my knees by this time. And the objections started 'well but when I go to sleep in an hour from now, there will be no consciousness there.' And I got it! 'I'M IMAGINING SLEEP!!' Consciousness is not something I experience, is WHAT IS! I AM THAT! -I was emptiness. I was nothing. It felt like there was nothing to hold to (like materiality disappeared). there was no I. I/everything was pure imagination. 'I' was imagining reality! So... am I consciousness creating itself? God creating itself as reality? I was scared. I felt anxious. I felt I had no control. My heart was pounding HARD. It felt like I could get into an existential crisis. There was no sense of future and past. -I felt a big sense of aloneness. I even grab my phone to look at pictures of my girlfriend. This shit scared me. I never read anything about solipsism, but I think I 'experienced' it. But even then... 'solipsism' is a concept.. is not what IS. -Dying before dying. I got it now. -Now I get why Leo bashes scientist so much! @Leo Gura you sneaky bastard I remember he wrote once that science was like having sex with a condom. And true spirituality was having raw sex. hahaha yes yes! Pure direct experience! Experience itself. ACTUALITY! Just what IS. Isness! Absolute Truth. What else could it be? -There is only an Infinite field of consciousness That field Rumi talked about. No separation. No fragmentation. I was all. Life unfolding. -That infinite field of consciousness is Perfect. Pure objectivity. hahah of course! How could it not be? There is just One! Infinite. There is nothing to compare it to. There is nothing outside. Infinity is Perfection. Life is moving from Perfection to Perfection. Only by the distortion of the mind, only after the fragmentation of reality by the ego, can something look imperfect. 'Something' is imperfect for ME. 'Something' is imperfect for my finite form that is programmed for survival. Only selfishness can occur when there is fragmentation. Oneness, Infinite consciousness, the Infinite field is selflessness. -It cant be faked. Is not a belief, a dogma or a rationalization. -Is a realization. A recontextualiztion. A radical one. Some times i thought ‘what if all this 'enlightenment, 'there is no you', 'you are the whole universe' is just BS that people parrot, and is just a word game? What if this is just an scam? Ok, now I KNOW. I know Leo and other teachers are talking truth. Not just babble, no parroting. Today I watched some Leo's metaphysical videos thinking: 'Of course. This is evident.'' Even before I hit play I knew what kind of things he was going to say. Describing what Is. Seems obvious now. - I felt that there is no reason to read more books or watch more videos. No words, no quotes, no guru can teach me anything. There is nothing to teach or learn. Just reality to experience. For sure Im going to watch more videos and read more books. I understand that Im going to read about just mere concepts, fingers. But I already saw the moon! In this metaphor, the moon is Absolute Truth! Thats what the finger is pointing at! I got it. The map is not the territory. Is not a just a cute quote. Is Truth. I am the territory. -I understand all these Rumi quotes: 'Out beyond the ideas of wrong doing and right doing, there is a field. I will meet you there.' “I have lived on the lip of insanity, wanting to know reasons, knocking on a door. It opens. I've been knocking from the inside.” 'Why do you stay in prison when the door is so wide open?' And the famous: before enlightenment carry water chop wood, after enlightenment carry water chop wood Not claiming Im enlightened but makes sense now. Reality didn't change, just the context! -I truly understood what the present moment is. Actuality. -I understand zen devilry Awakening doesn't mean being a nice, loving or generous person. You can still be a piece of shit. -I understand why illiterate people like Nisargadatta are able to awaken. No reading necessary. Just pure direct experience (being). No need to understand anything. It is very rewarding, like if I achieved a goal after all these years. But what I realized... is that this is not the end, is probably just the beginning. Im open to constructive feedback.

I had my first awakenig a day that fapped twice.

I just read yesterday: ''Adversity introduces a man to itself'' Wise words.

The essence of shadow work, with some practica exercises (and links to past episodes related), eliminating the all the woo woo fluff is out there.

This guy (president of El Salvador, stage red-blue country) unconsciously understands spiral dynamics better than stage green UK liberal journalists. Specially last half of the video. Happy to some some politicians thinking outside the box.

Yes! had that aztec face: 'she' moved a finger and whispered: 'follow me' And bam, into hyperspace!

Deep work and digital minimalism can change your life in you APPLY them, especially for people who loves forums

Is not bullshit. Is just a model. If you are into politics is a great guide. It can help to improve yourself, living with more understanding, compassion and love. The problem if you want awakening is that can lead to error, thinking you have to reach turquoise for that, or when people confuse it as a spiritual staircase. Is great info, and has great practical application, but at some point you have to drop it.

A book gives more status and positioning in the niche. And most self-help authors nowadays just publish to build a brand, make noise in the marketplace with the intention of charging premium in the back-end (videocourses, retreats, 1-1, speaking gigs...) For most the book is just the front end offer.

Stupid in the sense of not being able to learn new things? Sure. But wisdom? Thats another thing. It seems like a tradeoff. You lose intellectual/mental capacity, but if you had a wide variety of life experiences, contemplated and studied top tier info, the wisdom you'll have will be worth it, even if you are a bit slower.

Exactly. One of the best things money can buy is time. And the possibility to think and work in the things you really want.

Is not a 1 time read book. It has the potential to change your life. Like rich dad poor dad. It completely changed the trajectory of my life, but I understand why some people say is bullshit. Same with 4HWW.

Guys come on. There is some truth in both POVs. (and yes, I travel and dated women from all continents, so Im talking from experience). Is easier to get girls from Latin America, Asia, Eastern Europe, Africa... thats why horny guys go there. It even has a name now lol: passport bros. Is also true that a lot of women from those places are more feminine, sexual and less pain in the ass, BUT thats for short term flings. For long term relationships it may flip. Go read stories of western guys married to Japanese, Russian, South American women. Not good. And what EddieMurphy said is right. Girls have lower standers in less developed countries. Thats why a lot of guys if they want to marry they stay in the country of the woman. If she comes to America/Western Europe, she will raise her standards! Also understand that most passport bros and low tier in the attractiveness spectrum, and orange at most, so they are ok with more religious, traditional woman.

This one is also great.

Word! As they told you... Beware of what you may find! PS: I read you have mental health issues in your family. Proceed with caution. It can get freaky.

@soos_mite_ah Is realistic, but it can take a few months. An online marketing agency (selling websites, SEO, social media marketing, paid ads...) can be a good idea. Pretty fast to set up, and you can outsource the project if you are not at expert at it. That way is not very time consuming. (I know because a I ran one). Nowadays there is a lot of info on youtube and on paid courses.

Sounds awesome! Rejoice in it

This. Income is king. You can have all the saving and investing strategies you want, but if you have low income, nothing matters. On the other hand, if you have a high income, you don't need a lot of saving and investing strategies, just some long term vision and not being stupid. Money is more a game of offense, not defense

I find there is a problem dividing between materialistic desires and spiritual ones. It can lead to confusion. A lot of things you mention sound spiritual /life purpose: Traveling, education, having children, living in a nice area Making a lot of money can be the most spiritual thing you can do, since being short of money, working in a shitty Job, worrying about the bills, being stuck... is going to be a burden in your spiritual journey.

hoooly shit

Maybe you have this issue backwards. Read: 'So good they can't ignore you' by Cal Newport Maybe this book shifts your mindset around the issue.

Haha never claimed that. It was an awakening.

Is not about the substance. People reached enlightenment or awakening with different kinds of substances. And a lot of people reached it sober. Either way, after a few weeks I now understand what happened. I saw the tail of the bull (10 ox herding pictures). When I read the descriptions (and Leo's video about his first sober enlightenment experience in a retreat), is clear.