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Had i thought of it originally, id actually be working on a whole thing, based on just that, or something just like it, cause wen you find somethin like that, ya gotta build a whole thing round it, like those are some rare things that come together... like it would then be working out also the rhythm between words and stuff like that, like the more abstract mechanics no one thinks of, but that add to it when spoken out loud (probably. i actually never really thought about it myself)

"Prince of the Word, you built so good a castle out of sound and name— but what walked through it, phantom-hued, ... said it was 'creation from nothing.

@Joseph Maynor In a hundred years time, i might return, and be like "Ay... Yous are always creating from nothing... its still ever present, evermore stuck in my head and relevant, such that i cannot resolve the way it has encapsulated everything", right, like it could be that much of just an impression that i feel, But i def feel like, its the premise of something else, that which others can experience, whatever it may be too. I think i like it so much especially cause i always think about 'that almost unsolvable riddle / game... And how that ability to try to solve an unsolvable dilemma has always been at the forefront of my mind, but im not sure its ever been combined to be the idea of creation from nothing, in my head. Its probably the context too, As its not like "oh, we all just invent from scratch", it felt more like, the emergence of creation, and in the context where creativity is the topic, and we are sortve falling into the idea of creativity. But it also makessense, just creating from scratch too. Its like a catch22 that works everytime, favorably, lol.

Thats a great term for what you said, 'aesthetics, nd how it all branches off from that. Thats a gr8 way to put it. p.s. theres def somethin to "Yous are always creating from nothing", like i see a spiritual eagle / sparkle / glimmer in there, granted, i could be off but i feel like that is something interesting in there, to me atleast, it feels like its the premise for something.

Hey man, im watching your video, As what i just realized is, for some of the more direct and strict minded individuals, who possibly came from a strict, hierarchical home and family, with rules and scripts to keep them in line, to ensure they are perfect most of the rime, possibly coming from a family in government or like government programmers, They would greatly benefit from this, of which falls under the more deconstructive, creative path, where you may have broad ideas of what you want to do, but in say, the case w/ music, You dont plan what to write (like you would when planning every step in comp. programming), you're, instead, jamming it out. Or, when writing or drawing, such as in many, if not all of the experimental works i do, you dont have it planned at all, As it all comes from "in the moment", from a heart felt realm, no less. Anyway, i jus started watching it, so let me actually finish it before i start going off on a wild tangent, ha.

@everyone, question, for everyone, Im taken a vers of the isolation sentiment via a brief hiatus as im seein quite a lot of possible ways to proceed — Like, maybe yous can help me decide this question here, How important... Or maybe i should phrase it as... 'rate the importance here, generally speaking, like are the "stories we tell" important / relevant? Because, we all enjoy stories, we find them pleasurable, regardless of its format. We live our stories each day. We also dream up, and think up our stories, And so, my question is, just how important our "explicit stories" over subliminal, sortve, less directed, less poignantly expressed stories? Like, Are yous tired of generating one story after another in the mind-f*#! of reality, or is it that, these Stories are PRIMARY, regardless, seeing as, they help shape the little details, etc , Like do yous feel like, the active philosophy/pathfinding stories are the greatest shaper in the tales to come subconsciously (like a song stuck in your head), or is it more of the drama, the great tricksters and dreamers that are shaping "what matters most"? They both are interesting choices, but its a real question, because, assuming everyone is tryina write a story, does that make stories sortve dulled in some way, in the holistic sense of looking down and choosing a direction? Or does it just mean, those good stories ARE really good, and its not about what reality is doing, its about how YOU feel and how to express what it is you have to say? Cause in my case, i feel like i could say what it is i want to say, in either direction, which is why i ask... So, anyway. Whatdyas think? Thoughts? p.s. i dont know if i added a downside to the second option, which is that, in the realm of a lesser stressed, or lesser made "storytime kindve story", or like think of it as "experimen tal descriptive language", it limits what you can say — thus what you "feel" through that reciprocal process is also a lesser mainstream direction, that may be unfamiliar to yourself and those who read, like it may just be ramblings.

On the original premise - ego - Ego... Iuno... Ego... Im looking for singular words, to just say "This ones interesting" (e.g. "ego"), And for the sake of demonstration, *ego mightve been that singular word that we all melt into, to see what it feels like... Then again, that sounds nice, but iuno wtf i just said... Like when i invent things... I dont always know what it means... for awhile... Cause these things are like... Like i cant tell if its like the most annoying thing in the world, or if its the waterfall that keeps on giving, Like, i only know, for myself, i have this whole idea of, for example, "ego".... ego... I dont wanna taint the ego yous are all talking about, which is that communion around ego, and its meaning. Im looking for songular topics.

Im def seeing something new, on the topic of... watchamakalit... I mean, im not calling it god or God in my own ... way... because, its only a single component of an Absolute... This one, im still researching in my head, not about answering "am i 100% god", but to answer... or to understand this \*new thing, that i believe is a kindve "non-judgemental placement in [...]". I just dont feel like ive found a way to use the word God. Maybe yous will teach me, but i also kindve doubt it. Crucify me over this, but i can only say what i know in the moment. If i dont know it, then i might not understand it yet (Like, i dont know what the word God means, is what i mean) If i Do know it, ill lay it out as plainly as possible, as imaginable, in the foreseeable future of what can be imagined. For now, im tryina work this thing out (its not about god though, however, Leo, i believe once said God is infinitely intelligent, so in that way, yes, then it is about god in that way) We can connect things in alot of ways, to make it work. Likewise, we can receive things in a lot of ways, to make it make sense.

Theres two ideas idling in my ear, or jus, two words i could see happening very close together here, Maybe... And one is a phrase, like "a sense of enlightenment, that we gift ourselves", then the other is, the closest equivalent source of "thoughts arising", And that, to be thinking, is to be actively interpreting, engaging in a thing we "misunderstand", and so, it makes it sortve difficult to found an understanding, however, functionally, we dont care about understanding. We dont care about distilling this thing into some impossible place, cause that sense of enlightenment marries that sense of interpreting, and they are irreversibly linked at that point, So all thats left is founding the hierarchy, which is synonymous w/ Consciousness or the conscious truth, and that is, 'that which we are to appreciate in the pursuit of ultimate realization (a continued, conscious truth) Like, to die is to be in the pursuit of the unconscious truth (this is an Absolute description), wherein its Mind for mending, mind for minding, but not full blown realization, for that lies counter to death. Like death isnt also 'the realization of living, like, you dont have any option to challenge "life" as "not-life", like... Its embedded in the proposed rules you're actively making. But anyway, the function — It can be whatever yous want / Do you want a unicorn? Then ground the very thing inbetween, and let it all be 'a unicorn. I mean, yous are "grounding the very thing", its reflective. People use to say that thing like "Ooooh, i know a cool word — Mirror!" (*disappears, exits the chatroom*) Theyd say that word they thought meant something, then they wouldnt explain theirselves, and it would all fall upon everyone else, like it even applied to anything in that moment. Thats the sortve bastard child version of what ive said, but without all the suckass disconnected circumstances around it, where its not even applying, and its like this dark knight / batman flying in like "I am Batman"... And then, our response, "O Good... why are you Batman... or?... what" Like weve entered into the adult realm, And we are either finding everything to be the childs play drawing of reality in comparison, or we are living it, astounded by the adult level thought happening, which doesnt necessarily mean its perfect, its just like, trying to poke at the infinite boundary, like theres quite alot of boundary it covers. And at any moment, we can dream the dream that challenges it all, by recircling backwards, entering into a whole new world. That unconscious thing becoming conscious, towards Consciousness, Again. Its built into the thing. Its annoying.

(cont., ii., caution, as its a cautionary tale, experiental warning ahead... im not saying i would do any of this, its just a thought experiment) i would probably need to try a deleriant drug to confirm that the hallucinations even slightly resemble this pattern as well, This like forgetting, remembering, forgetting, and seeing and believing things arent there, or believing what the truth is, as its manifesting -thing, As a part of me is like, sure, all the wild scenes, Thats whats making it funny, but i also want it to represent... like... some semblance of a true story, like i couldnt make it on just the sole lsd and shroom experiences in my past, in the same way someone making a video game is looking for the experience of that process, not necessarily married to all of the amazing aspects that a game can have in it... if that makes sense.. Like the journey is more important to me than the product, to have the product possess within it, somewhere, atleast, some notion or semblance of a connection back to the journey it took to make it. Thats like, the pinnacle of thought for me, otherwise its not the right move, for me. Anyone who does posses the actual experience already can happily take the idea and run w/ it.

(cont.) Part of like, the super serious attitude also acts like a contrary element to make it funnier, Whether its David Goggins who tries to undermine everything by thattt "im too tough for this", or the super serious himalayan mountain, like a spiritual journey that requires serious diligence... All those things only make it more funny, cause its like this emotionally fueled experience. If it was like an obvious joke w/ an explicit jokey sentiment, wed prolly not find it as funny.

I knew eventually someone would laugh or smile, As i had had a long run of dry humor jokes happenin, but i couldnt tell if anyone had received em or what. It also sounds like a really sick shaman book in a way, As someone could really make it like a serious "triathlon, around the world, and back", like "Best seller, Shaman Experience", And the joke would be that, its like this guy whos totally out of his mind, and doesnt know where he is, or is just lost and doesnt know who, what or where he is at. And like, the audience tries to guess "What poisonous plant did he ingest, whats causing him to hallucinate like this", as it starts out in the middle of the trip, so its like, picking up clues along the way nd tryina piece it all together.

I really like old things now, Like, the difference / contrast of the Ad/Ai gen., is making movies that are 90 years old look and feel amazing in comparison,Likewise w/ D.A.R.E and "Just say no", etc., This is your brain on drugs. Iuno what it is, Like its like abominations that are raising up everything that had come prior, i dont get it.

Heres somethin im workin on right now, for this one poem, im tryina make this like, repetitive sound or worded poetry, Like 'An oval apple, an oval apple, an oval apple, an oval apple (this is the repetitive line) Where each line alternates between, first a normal, succinctly spoken / phrased line, then for the next line it begins what's called ἐπανάληψις (the repetitive line) which could just represent repetition (such as reocurring lines or words) or wat im tryina do, which is this constant iteration on the same turn of words, like im tryina find these phrases that can be iterated on, whether it be in English or anything else, so long as it has like, that matching quality to it like an oval apple or something.

"Νοοπλάνησις by Gog" New-oh-planesis, or No-ew-planesis, somethin akin to that, and one reviewer said that They did a word count, and the word 'vermin' was used 247 times.