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@ElvisN Solve the issue a nother way, e.g., You can have local hallucinations, or global hallucinations. i only bring this up to point to a paradox of self, and how theres no way to draw a line, or separate "individual" (or shared, and/or group think) "hallucinations", from your own globally distributed hallucination realization, So you can talk about many things when talking about hallucination, but then it would not make sense from the global perspective, the globally produced vers., seeing as then, everyone should just say "its an hallucination" much like saying "its just all consciousness". Why not just get rid of that word, since its one of these base terms that dont signify anything else, besides for functioning as a local delusion. Try a different route around the issue, otherwise we are forcing the content of a locally-felt or sympathized delusion, onto the absolute perspective on consciousness. P.s. Understanding the little novel details and perspectives of the Absolute is something to aim towards, imo, as itll free you from being bounced between doublets of things. Consider the world could not exist as just a doublet, like... We clearly are not. Its a life-giving, life creating experience ~ Too much life, via those incessant differences in our life.

@ElvisN Meaning is a downstream phenomenon. So in further contemplating, the idea of hallucations and the validity of another being, etc., these are all secondary things, and relationship-dependent alongside thoughts, feelings, emotions and ideas. Your world view shapes it all at the forefront, and those imprecise layers are sortve subserviant to that primary directed flow, Which is to say, you build meaning from the question itself, like thats how it keeps changing, cause its not like its something set in stone, w/ one single conscious outlook. Nor is it something you can easily translate WHILE in the act of living it. You are finding "what works" and what doesnt, and trying to see from a more absolute perspective, such that it may broaden that whole limited, but necessary, conscious and unconscious experience. You are looking through the kaleidoscope window — looking for the right heirarchy on perception, like its the artist's challenge, Like how to understand whats happening, As it is happening, and theres absolutely alternate ways to get around that, to see it more clearly, or to feel what it is like, beyond settling on the simplicity of word:"hallucination", since its only a placeholder word towards an otherwise more truthful position, a felt-truth / positio youre most alignd w/ P.s. You might prefer to view as that, And thats fine. Its necessary. Thats something you use as a placeholder, a way to say something concrete in the moment. Because others will know *what you mean / or wat u meant to say, even though you may have ideas surrounding it or future ideas to connect back to it ~

Magic waterfall in time's space place. ∆s the windmill, for the mind of [us] specifically, yes? I make so specific. Magic hat that yous can try on off the rack.

^And if yous are into the idea but dont feel like investing in it too hard, For now, yous could use actualized for something like that, cause honestly theres so much crapola out there, i dont think we are gonna find many like, real, actual cooking enthusiasts who understand the idea, i mean, its incredibly simple: Food/cooking, herbs, plants, and like, technical discussions, like chemical things that you wouldnt have known -typeve things, discoveries ppls have made, stuff like that... flavor profiles, etc., Like hey, it could even turn intoa large part of what actualizing even means, in the future, cause what are we but the things we eat, right?

@everyone, Does anyone happen to know if theres a such thing as a "Food Alchemy" forum? One that isnt just like, "Der, here are cooking recipes" but rather like, intricate and delicate discussions around materials, chemicals, minerals, ingredients like herbs, plants, and these additives and such that you sometimes see... And how to cook, or diff methods, supplies, etc. Like, Technical food alchemy forum / but not reddit. And like i said, not just "Der, expert chefs, etc.", I wouldnt mind making the forum myself, Luke Warm Alchemy (i just made that up, thats not wat id call it) but yous get the idea... The reason being is cause, im real into like scientific lvl of food prep., however i dont really have enough $$$ to go hog-wild on it and try al sorts of things. Thats why i need one of yous to help me find a place for this, or make it and invite me. It could also include Psychedelics like DmtNexus, but obviously, that would be very minor, As the focus would be all about things like food, herbs, plants, and id even add all my Alchemy Latin to the page, cause why not, right? I added a bunch of esoteric books i read to Actualized book section, as i felt like it was a nice departure, a nice interlude into like, advanced meditations you might call it. Anyway. Thoughts?

(cont.) And it frustrating, cause we already went through what things and nothing was, only to realize now, theres really alot more ways that could be framed, details which stem on this question as well, and its quite frustrating.

What is a material thing? As it goes from a concept, a mental image, to a real, tangible thing, what then makes something physical? Like, when you have baby snakes born from little eggs, and at one time they were just baby sperm, prior to which they were baby protein or whatever else, what makes something physical as it goes from the conceptual forms to these physical ones we call the material world? Like how do you draw a line in the sand, in order to talk about form and whether its just an idea, or a physical one? Iask because, i wanted to redefine / redescribe ideas around a thing, as well as nothing, only to realize that it really stands on the fact that theres stuff that we refer to as \*mental and physical, and that is whats redefining our ability to talk about "things". Like, forget about the psychosis element that you feel, in living out a kind of felt~psyche, what even is the psyche, and what then nakes it a physical thing in material world? In a conceptual world, what makes something an idea? Like is there a clear line that makes those two things distinct? I ask for myself, not knowing what the answr is

Speaking of dreams, i just thought i should mention last nights, cause i found it to be impressionable (along w/ 3-4 other dreams that happened in sequence together) JC and his associate (John, or whoever was an adult male follower) were in my dream, but as regular people, two peas in a pod — Desert people, and not like, blown-way-outya-proportion people. And they were on a journey for, what i assume were hermetica, or they are just mystical teachings you might say, maybe what they did in the bible, which was sortve make it out to be "What JCs teachings WOULD have been, had he did <X>" kindve thing. So that was the first dream, just sortve two homies stepping on piss clams, rubbing sand on each other, talking to people as regular human beings, one on one, mostly traveling for these stories. No hanging involved. Then, we get to this second impressionable dream, which, when i woke i said, "Ah, this will be easy to remember", And now i forget, but it had something w/ language in it. I think. They were both total perspective flips, like... iuno, originally i woke up ~ forgetting the first dream, the JC thing, and only remembering the second. But now i forget the second and only remember JC's. P.s. it doesnt discredit history, its just a perspective switch, e.g. all of this can make sense, Galatians 2:7-9, Paul describes an agreed division of missionary focus, hes entrusted to teach the gospel to the Gentiles, and Peter is entrusted to teach the Jews, all accurate towards the idea — that free reign of influence that Jewish culture had, i.e. the names John, James, Peter... etc., Paul and Peter are retarded popular names, as both last names and first names, different versions. And everyone knows atleast 120 people w/ the name John, or it use to be like "meet my son John-John, and his fathers father John John the John from Jones and Johnville,..."

Heres another weird one @30:00 (see video at the end) or somewhere around there, the idea of being dead, And being brought back to life, thats like a thing w/ maybe like an accident you got in, And like maybe you are at the hospital, and you come to, while in a hospital... but maybe you were inside of either a light, or it was just darkness... totally unconscious. But thats like, something very different, because you can just exist as your dream body, in that place of light or dark, assuming theres a space thats carved out in there, like assuming you arent leaving your body behind all the time, like, spiritually, its always w/ you, so maybe its like, just dont leave things that are necessary behind maybe? i dont know, its not like theres a way to measure it, or try to record or weigh it or anything, while in a dream. its just there. Iuno wat happens to your body on dmt either, but in my experience, the body, mostly, is like, prior to identity and mind and everything else, like its priority mail, even in abstract dreams of floating around its there, and watever happens in reality is rotated elsewhere, til you return. The light is the scary part, and like i said, i cant confirm wat that light is, as its more symbolic and dissolving, and has nothing to do w/ ancestors. Like its a Soul in itself or something, pure dissolve maybe, but if you get wrapped up in it, your getting cut up in a way, like its not gonna be very loving and caring if you are in between dark and light, And iuno, like, if you become a new person, in a new reality, then you just bypassed this light, so its not like you will have even seen it, like im saying, theres alot of little details that we dont understand, like alot of little details, And most ppl describe "dream experiences", but its not wat im tlking bout. im talkin bout a total flip-around of whats like, flipping the mainstream idea and possibility space around, and the concept of your body, and how its more like a traveler that doesnt end or begin

Oh no prob, ya wen i watch ur vid, it reminds me how important it is, its like, we been missing out o that little puzzle piece, or atleast i have, definitely.

Just to break a little into the God paradigms, The idea of God is also the assumption that God cannot be undone, like... unless your vers of God is really a hologram that has no authority over his hologram... Because..Think about it... There arent things that are totally agnostic and free from the turmoil of Earth, unless you imagine it that way, like, if you can imagine form, than that form can also be ignored, which means it was never God to begin with, otherwise God is the hologram with no dominion over this hologram. Like holograms have an unfortunate quality, that they dont represent theirselves in a direct way anyway, so the hologram is a reflection of what? Of a hologram? Of the God of hologram(s)? Why does god need a hologram? These are the kinds of questions to start to ask yourself.

dang it, i overwrote everything, fk it, doesnt matter, lol im not tryina remember it all again

@Joseph Maynor Oh btw, i thought of something you might find interesting. It might tickle your fancy, tho i wanna save it for tomorrow, after one of my appts... because its gettin a bit late noow to start throwing out all these ideas all of a sudden. Better to think of, tomorrow, a fresh day.

^Try to crack that egg.

One argument for the abstract is however, that it can live within an absolute sensual reality, and sortve push the envelope, without it having to fold, without requiring structural resurrection , or reinsertion into a story... In a storytime story or (like right now, an online story) suddenly im not even on topic anyway, because *cough cough* im not on topic, and even if i was, it still may not be received or considered AS a story (like, ppl just may not care, unfortunately, but theres a larger chance of them tuning in / and not tuning out) Thats the argument against story, and obviously, to go toooo far in the other direction, no one really can understand it, even if they tried, cause now it would be hyper personalized language with no allegiance to anything in that initial stanza or grouping, like it can fly the coup at any moment, and leave the reader on a cliff hanger thats unpredictable (im talking, in the MOST extreme spectrums of an abstract writing of course, which i would not be doing) A story however, in the very least, can save itself from sudden termination of that initial stanza, Like it can be saved from its own psychedelic adventure.... Thats sortve the pros and cons.