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@Joseph Maynor Retrospectively, thats prolly a better option for anyone whos got stuff on windows that they are married to, as i was more like "i actually wanna see wat happens without windows", granted now its been awhile nd i dont remember how it began. Now its like its become like, "oh, n/m, it was not a big deal", but i just dress it up like some sortve like infatuation-w/-a-linux things going on, but i just do artsy fartsy, and then i poop out things that look like the truest fitting quotes from the art work, and then... i sortve hope its something relevant to yous ~ in the moment. i think thats why it works tho, as you have alot of non-yogi / gurus interacting w/ ya guys, and so you get alot of contrast that would be missing in a room full of like, super well-minded yogi people, atleast thats how i feel... iuno... Do you feel like its better when theres lots of different people... or would a room of yogis be able to benefit from the fact they are all very much like equal/just intonated w/ each other?

My aunt has that. Shes told me shes got dual setup w/ windows and linux too. i told her, 'wow, iuno how to evwn do that. As shes like 70-sunthin, but she was a computer person her whole life working w/ comps., years ago.

Hey. thx. i appreciate that. i like your sig too. Oh, ive never tried kde on ubuntu, assuming now thats wat kubuntu is, im very much unknowledgable nd out of the loop on distros and kde... Ive got no problem w/ apt either. I really only do very simple straightforward things now, and i dont even remember a time when i didnt use linux. I have a very small amount of packages (450, i think), its like.... image magick... font forge... watchamakalit window manager... Everything else is like, kilabyte file loaded lol. very simple... oh and firefox of course.

I was into programming. I might still be, its just sorta now... i mean... iuno, its hard to explain... its true. i am periodically programming, but i find i get more out of programming when i solve the problems in my head, in a sortve meta language vers., of whatever it was i was staring at..... though i do ask myself, "Am i that committed?... Do i need to solve the... Iuno... Its become just sorta... iuno.. iuno... its in competition w/ several front runners that dont have anything to do w/ the computer world. If i had a girlfriend, i might be normal and reluctant to be as unusual as i am, but im just lost in an art world. i cant be sittin behind the computer tryina act like im a normal person ~ pressin' buttons like "press, press, press, press"on, like that whole routine is in hot conflict w/ who i am, and the painting that im going for right now.

Ques., Is it realy hot right now? like if anyone can check outside and see wat it feels like outside, cause it feels like its 99 degrees atm nd im kinda freaked out like...

i just updated my arch machine, a few mins ago. I say that as hey, my last pacman Syu was on like, january 2025 or something, so well over a year later im updating.... ive not been very attuned to doing useful things on the computer, but today i just figured its been long long. I mean, i use tower computers every day, as i dont really enjoy phones, tablets & laptops, so much as its necessary to have a phone and laptop (which i very seldom use... not to mention i couldnt get sound to work on laptopt, as i think the software / hardware is well old, or i just havent committed enough time to it) At one point, i hadnt updated in 4+ years... but, lol, hey... ... updating is a big deal on linux, for me atleast. p.s. im still a big fan of korn- mksh shell, and bash development, granted ive not kept up to date with either... im suppose to follow korn very close but im just letting it go right now, as its not the front runner priority atm.

... To finish that thought, Then, you have the unlimited, and such is the paradox (to come).

Its alot of questions, id imagine (questions to come). Once ya ask, then ya might have a basket of questions that beg answering from many directions, which is usually how it works. Or it can also go 'totally off the rails, full tilt-like. Such are them unfortunate consequences, sometimes, but such is life. We ride the waves w/ the wolves and all the things ~ upon focusing in on it. And when we're not... It just doesnt exist, existence as something that can be limited, sectioned-off...

(Cont.) Yas cant detatch enlightenment from everything else, nor any other thoughts and experiences, like it matters what happens in the moment. When we try referring to things in a very dumbed down way, we are relying on alot of meta to be responsible. Like we want all of the actualization triggers to be responsible for the thing we hold within, but you dont even have enlightenment without all of those thoughts, exp., emotions, etc., so it *feels* like its a time felt exp., its just that the words you think had a meaning are gonna change, in the face of an experience where yous are to become enlightened, such that things that once looked like materiality and time arent gonna be materiality and time. The actualization triggers towards that matters and so too do the storyline and the builtup experience matters. It might even matter more you could say, and im saying it now.

Did yas figure out the flip side yet. The flip side is like, nothing is possible without having that singular realm of sensibility fixed, such that you can feel things, like... How is comedy possible for instance, without having yourself together? How is love and expression possible without having yourself together? Hows anything possible? If you dont have yourself together ~ That is, if you dont have some equilibrium status w/ regards to thoughts, feelings and emotions, then you fall into cascades, cascades, cascades of experiences, in such a way that the cascading is itself what becomes most evident. And then you must reprioritize, cause its now like... Like its arrived, such that it eats at your attention, in multiple ways, beyond just yourself, such that the patterns underneath have been realized as something lackedaisily facing the wrong direct., plus, theres just alot of bad sides to it too, that is being lost in the woods like that. Without equilibrium of those things yous are actively considering, you just have wildness and cascading in the wrong direction. People think they can handle it til they admit its not for them. Thats what psychedelics are often about, atleast for some. Its like initiation into the wild side of things, where you are challenging yourself w/ a quick succession of the high winded questions, lost in a forest, and you have to catch them, all the thoughts, otherwise you land on just one, like weve arrived in this very moment. Enlightenment is just a word we use to express a thing thats true, or most true. Why? Because yous are treating enlightenme t like its an algorithm, ora construct around ignorance.

(Cont.) YEO i asked my mom, and she was like "No shes not the same person", so i was like "Then whos the one that killed her kids"? And she says "Oh theres been alot of em that've killed their kids now" Lololol. P.s. Oh wait wait, i think i get it. Maybe it was that, Elizabeth holmes made the device that the mothers who killedtheir children had used, and thus the whole thing is like, people keep using the devices and killing their kids, cause why else would there be a movie.

Wait i thought this elizabeth holmes also killed her kids, and made a device for a company, or are those two different people?

Let me know if this is a good or bad idea maybe from 1 to 10... with 10 being the best, 1 being the worst... Suppose i had a way to get all sorts of medicines and chemicals and over the counter drugs (i dont really, but its a fantasy game we're playing / riffing on) And if i was willing to go all around and sell medicines of all kinds to people, how would yous rate that ~ being that im in a somewhat decriminalized city, that ive got multiple options of transportation, and assuming i had multiple connections to these things, would it be a bad idea? I say that as im not tryina conflict with or be attracting others that arent customers, like police or someone whose like a mob boss personality type or something. Like thats why this thought crossed my mind, like, "can i do medicine, without it being connected to bad connotation". I thought id ask yous. I also imagined like, if i had a girlfriend and she was like "that sounds like a bad job" too, though... iuno why it would be a bad job, i think thats just a shadow that the world casts on it ~ And again its hypothetical, its not real, so yas dont have to worry too much.

Alright last update on this, srry, but definitely... definitely... def that rich sortve like, black- choco- soybean flavor is def a component to all of this searchin; i say that as a bought the air-sealed bag of fermented black beans @store, and although theyre like extra-salted, i can see how some sortve choco black or yellow miso bean (non fermented?) could be that missing part ~ As its got an organic'y version of the flavor. Granted that that missing element is like, extra rich, and... iuno how... but its like, "essence of richness" and chasing that perfect richness? Like it transcends umami- into just being like, perfectly enriched richness flavor (im also looking for like, how to get the "essence" out of fruits and these things, but i dont wanna make this too long. i really wanna try that funky natto bean stuff as well. the end)

Update: These movies are tryina be like the ultimate stymie cuck job of suck like... The intention is like, "the neverending reveal of some transgender coming out of the closet like it didnt happen in 1999", like whatever that infinite sentiment is, it should be done and retired, the constant farenheit 911, cobra19 and the cobra event, etc., like we want to watch the passion of a thing that someone had, that isnt that like, weird personal thing of christ, but something that people relate to, since its blending all the elements that people are gonna feel, like we've been colliding w/ twin towers over, over and over and over and over... i feel like. Pleease tell me yous understand wat im saying... as its so flippin obvvious.