kavaris

not in a long time, cause i hav crohns since 10, and it was sumthin to avoid... im gonna purchase and tell yas later if it wasnt the right thng for / towards wat i was searching for, or if it is right ill send a smile. note: my hands were full And i didnt purchase this time. i think i dont wanna fulfill my nutty garlic need directly w/ garlic ~ but im gonna try other things... but not with sesame oil, i tried that one already. i bought the toasted one, nd then they said that wasnt right. fk it doesnt matter.

We can riff on non-leo vids too here, right? im tryina bring complements to the discussion, instead of directly revealing all of the gems out there in his playlist (thats how i feel) E.g., im lookin for a vid on the Exegesis of the soul, and granted, this might not be the best way to depict this alas its an idea that yous can investigate, which could lead towards more ideas... i mean, its more of a beginning description, of a perpetual crescendo ~ in more of the sense of a large concerto context... oh nm u kno wat im sayin... its like an outline of the Soul, however that topic of the Soul has too many branches, for starters, like you could go down any number of roads that have Soul as the root ancestor in other words. P.s. i feel compliments are what literally give rise to interest and intrigue, that dynamism-of-choice -thing, where its like "how do all these ideas connect?"

You also cant really separate love from other things easily, but in an ideal world, love can be representative of the living thing in the undying, Like every moment is the potential to die, And love is this potential to not die, in that very same moment of dying, But its still just a nice thought. You have desire and love ~ sortve together in there, like a spectrum. Iuno, its breaking into topics that nobody asked for, in teasing it, so its like, why am i doin it, and is it something worth teasing out? If yas would tease out these things, there would be non-surface lvl answers on the other side, like they are just waiting, waiting, waiting... If they had a voice theyd say "hello"? Anyone home. Think of thoughts as minds of their own maybe. Worth a shot, to try something different. I mean, the minds have to be considered "as thoughts, that are, potentially minds", and not automatically minds. The point is their potential to be love ir not love, or this and not that, etc.

Theres also a movie called Unsanity that im watching, to see if it means anything, but its like, To be sane is more of the baseline... From there, things are inherently insane, if we are exaggerating, but even betond that, one more, insanity works for multiple things, but wed have to temporarily forget about the regular use ofthe word, which is fine i feel. I have a whole collection of words that are becoming things that previously didnt exist as words or ideas and such... one moment... oh n/m, thats the gist, its like a long story.

Im starting from the ground, towards the answer, but just going in order first — insanity (...) — Its like realms of mind, and insanity is a way of describing wat one part of the mind feels like... but just logically, its also insane cause logic should ultimately lead you to that as a word... "insane" as a word is working on two or three diff levels atleast, but generally, if you are someone new to all this, you dont carry anything like that with you, not on purpose... And you also dont immediately come back w/ insanity as an answer for anything (most ppl find it relates, i just see it as another word within mind), So i could see how that word might also be confusing, if ever a such pers like me encounters it. If you look at it positively though, insanity is the word to describe insane acts too, like "hes insane to jump off that, like it was nothing". I mean, thats not what it means, but its a start towards crossing off some functions and meanings ~towards what you think it means ... I guess on some lvl u might think that extreme-act-of-insanity does work, but i think thats the shallow vers., iuno you have to start from a diff place to know what insanity means ultimately. Another word is determination, but thats more confusing because now its like, we are making it seem like you are a sperm penetrating an egg- And so theres alot more things working for insanity vs determination (for example) Alas, its working on multiple fronts fr them reasons. I forget wat the ques was again, but if it was just "wat i thought of insanity" then thats wat id say, iuno.

And i should just point out, im speaking to Being/reality, As those things mentioned (in ur post) are instance of what you might temp., consider mind alchemy for the sake of knowing thyself, or as above so below typeve things. The centervoid is that Being everyone wanted to know, but then surface level theories veil the fact that you want to know Being from some odd theoretical place or judgement. Like, the radical awakening lives within itself, and everything else is subordinate to the awakening / psychedelic journey part.

Key-to-lock, as its highly personalized, highly guarded within, not something you can easily dilute and try to make a theory out of... Like we are all connected, in as much as you can become the thing that validates that truth.

Before i buy garlic and then get upset i bought it, How much different is garlic once the allicin wears off, that fresh pungency assoc. w/ it, which goes away after some min., or hours once it has been cut? Im looking for something that is like, a spice (not like a spice spice, i mean fresh roots and such) but i think ive been misunderstanding the importance of garlic, in alot of these things im tryina make, rice-related stuff... Im hoping someone out there has exp., using garlic, and knows of its stages-of-ripeness, you might call it, and how it effects flavor. Like, is it radically different? Is it sweet like Onion sweet? Or will i just feel like "Oh its just garlic, but less potent"? P.s. Im done w/ ginger, and i gave it my best shot, but its actually horrible. Like once i taste it, even slightly, its like, ruining my day, alas it is wat is bringing the dish down, Like garlic surely cant be worse. Like if i want brightness, i would just rather add battery acid, Like thats how much its gotten on my nerves, like... Even lemon, although i dont like to add it to the dish, it smells knda good when you clean w/ fresh lemon, where as ginger is like guava, in the sense that its like a fake version of a real fruit.

First i like to just start on the ground. As 'Dirt boy, poopy boy; By saying, how God, from religious paradigms, it has nothing to do w/ God realization, the stuff we're always on about, And thats sortve the first hump in communicating anything, because, to talk about god, or to ask about god or to worship god, those are all the same thing in the religious sense, as well as in their most fundamental of ways on Earth Earth... God realization is none of those things... Then the next thing to say is like, theres like pains of insanity, that dont have anything to do with "mind" or "physical body" that exist within the ethereal being, such that you have a new idea behind what constitutes "pleasure" and "insanity" and "to realize" because insanity is a thing that can extend infinitely in areas that you previously had thought of as sensuous arenas (or even, that you hadnt considered as part of the sensuous one), or to be like "Ah i feel anxiety and pain" or "Ah i feel like this is a state of mind" And all those things are intertwined, alas the ethereal has new categories of things... Its not strictly Aristotle's Category categories / but its a word, a feeling and a category ("of some kind of...")

User Manual says "Step 1, Dont sleep" Anyone wanna try Step 2? The unrevealing revealed, Etc.

The conviction by which you hold towards yourself, your identity, as the ultimate truth of your situation, that sense of conviction and acagn'ezza, is the proof by which you exist, and which you continue to proof or disprove yourself and others, which is an indistinct thing, actively made separate. The act of doing all of that, and thinking about it like that is a separation (its the un becoming, the un-knowing / misunderstanding, for the sake of a bounded existence in a grounded world or sense of...), But... Supposing you had NO conviction behind what you were saying instead, and assuming it somehow caused you to die the very next day (humor me), that would also be the ultimate truth or death, a missed life, for you, the anti-determined self, finding solace in death and moving on to the great beyond that you previously werent reclaiming in the moment (Note: We assume reality works the way WE think or that there is nothing else TO reality but what WE say, which is not the same as "thinking that we're creating reality through our thoughts or our energy" / For there's atleast two different things happening in there) The absolute lightbringer / Chaos, One, Nous, that is, the thing we keep trying to point to and call "thing" or "no thing", that thing can transcend dimensions without any boundary or border, and its in that process of creating space and time and all other possible upside down dimensions, including fantasy worlds, and non fantasy worlds, that we are able to exist, cause otherwise we are not able to speak of "thing" or "no thing" and perceive degrees in between, as well as making mistakes or seeing phantoms and ghosts, or hearing words from angels, etc, etc., its aletheia, its truth, And the one we tell ourselves is the one that comes true, for you... The only difference between you and the dream character is your conviction in yourself and others, or the seemingly realish attitude or act, or genuine interest, cause otherwise you have no interest, but its still the same idea in the absolute dimension of non-biased creation where anything and eveything can happen, and whether or not you go beyond is up to, cause you can see as far as you want to, sighting through, into the great beyond, and its mechanically necessary that everything be this way, otherwise it would be impossible to have anything come into existence in the first place. That primeval energy is what gives everyone thread-like connection, an energy that we cant do anything about beyond "becoming it" or "separating from...", i.e., from 'what you think is "myself and no one else" but Chaos (the thing we think is a "thing" or "no thing", which is effectively the same thing in the realm of pointing at the unexplainable) thats the dilemma we're in, and within that eternal birthing, here we are, with countless borders and boundaries and misunderstandings, for, "knowing thyself" is to "become the thing we're searching...." or to "know / understand" through subtle-awakenings-towards, les we not get enough freedom to unwind and realize who we are, and what it really means, what it feels like to encounter "realization", thats surely the dilemma yous have to solve and figure out (or get around) through some uncommon perspective. But just to go back for a moment, the "determined self", it is often quite limited in its frame of reference (what it is anticipating in the moment) Alas i digress and take a Siberian sigh, im hinting at a realm, a state where boundaries collapse. That is the nature of everything afterall, unrevealed Love in the sighted, nevertheless unrecognized -version of, that we can only experience and closely phrase as Chaos, One, Nous. Everything else is subordinate to this, including Light, where Absolute Light IS Chaos, that is, in [it's] absorption or creation of ALL things. P.s. We are in the active defining and describing of words and their function, meaning and form (language); Granted alot of this is fairly obvious, Alas its just a matter of putting the 100-piece-puzzle together, using the right pieces that fit, and you just require "the experience" that justifies "what a puzzle IS~And Why YOU are solving a 100 piece puzzle in the first place"

YES! Thats the best thing you can ever say, it makes no sense! Thats right.

@18:00 All names and forms are shining through our ... (he uses the indian terminology) and so that illuminated watevers equiv., to wat we see typeve things, but i bring it up cause, thats interesting, but that wasnt wat i was thinkin of, its 6:00 AM... i mean u can go as deep as u want -was the point- right. so im not worried bout it, but it was interesting, if we hadnt been so eager to feel complacent.

Are there diff kinds of self realiza... @ around 9:00 This got me thinkin of how theres two diff things to make the distinction of (in the least) but its literally like 5:00 am right now and my brains not functioning, if yall can figure it out rel quik... like hes tlkin bout things going according to the individual. but then, theres somethin else in there that flew by that they missed... again, not awake right now. yous go ahead. i mean, yous seem settled on the question yall raised, but if yas happen to get beyonder it, then maybe... iuno im jus not even awake right now (im tlkin bout sleep awake sleep-jus woke up)

Better yet jus ignore all that crp and get to this ques., Q: "Whats the relationship between the raw emotional conjurings and corrolary creation from nothing ? p.s. im not entirely sure anyone should try to answer this, but rather, you want to get closer to viewing the behavior [of thought] that exists around it, in contemplating what it is that it is talking about. Its like a super built up question, and im leaving out alot of background now.