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I think this is the word that really fits ~ "Fantasticheria" ~ As its between belief and an imagined thing, like its not daydreaming or fantasy or any of that... its like an actively pursued thing.

(Cont.) but i still dont feel that idea would be in contention w/ anyone or anything, As it would be like this odd entry into an art movement that hadnt been previously considered. Like, "o really, the church is still creating things that matter?" it would be pretty crazy.... Like how did they start in the beginning? they went against everything. To go against everything is to do it again ~ New Bible, page 1 through 10 — ~ ~ "Do you believe in Magic?" "Do you believe in Disney Land?" (End)

Hey i would not be surprised if its taken directly from it... "Ah lets do one like brahman, but w/ the three instead of the four!" I mean, theyre not Not onto something, put it that way, but its a stripped down vers., of what is just like a single question "Are you a spiritual person?" But... Perhaps they considered it, from that side, but thought "Dude it has no history... no ones gonna believe in it..." Like they mighta thought it was too ancient buddhe or indian or arabian nights -feeling wise, like how hermeticism feels... *Will anyone be spiritual if it doesnt start out w/ some creation myth or geneology like Greek Mythology...* These are things that the earliest dudes might thought ... I mean, i would tell em to be brave, start over. Change the world, do a full 180 on everyone. Thatll be a real head turner... Like... ""The fk... they changed the bible to somethin called the New Bible and it just has a single word in it... "Spirituality?"

Im still looking into Rome myself, As i do also like art (not necessarily the vatican and traditional Gnostic Christian stuff per say ~ but the Holy See + Curia: the papal government and Monastic orders, especially the Benedictines and Cistercians) As im more so looking into~or noticing reoccuring themes in the old manuscripts, like this obsession with dogs, and dog-headed creatures ~ possibly related to Canes Venatici (the Hunting Dogs who are connected to kings and English monarchs and Latin/Italian papalcy and things like this...) Granted, im not tryina fall into the new testament groups argument against James and all that again, or the many many weewees and ginee's that have rubbed up against the old testaments stories, rather im lookin at the relationships between all of our countries to see "What happened to country X behind the scenes, what happened to country Y". Like jus give me the facts. I dont want the cover stories lol Like, im a big fan of Michaelangelo, Raphael, and Da vinci, but they werent necessarily Christians. Michaelangelo, etc, they were hired by the church to do Christian shyt, and that style thats more of... well u can prolly jus google Italian church art to see it, but i mean, ever since then, they have prolly gone through evolutions in the Church... They now have plenty o time to catch up, while we are in such an art drought.

Spirituality is like its own anomaly / That is, to understand someone, e.g., Leo — yous would have to study him or get to know him for real, so yous can tell whats an act, whats just him having a bad day, etc., but aside from that, in regards to change, Its the innovators who are imparting inspiration and change to the world, not necessarily normal ppl... as.. Innovation is like its own practice, separate from spirituality, a little, i mean, to be spiritual is to discover some sortve feeling within yourselves that has that sense of spiritual discovery and such, But to innovate is entirely different. To innovate is to be challenging yourself and everyone else, which itself crosses through spirituality and more lax sortve, spirit related endeavors (not as a prerequisite, but just as parts of the spectrum that are possible to innovate in) I mean... Im contrasting two very diff things. ... But in our day nd age, there hasnt been real innovation, and its been more of the *bitcoin thing — I.e. "put two and two papers together, show the world how you put two and two papers together", As id consider that more of a cheap observation, or perhaps, a very fortunate scholarly person's thing. Thats like, people who were born and bred around universities and stuff, money, et caetera ... Looking at papers and putting two and two together... detatched from spirituality and creativity. Basically, iuno, like iuno how much innovation is happening in these schools and uber rich families who own the world typeve thing, As theres nothing to push them towards change or innovation. I mean, its uncommon. It could happen but it would be weird, unusual, As normal people seldom innovate for the sake of, let alone changing for the sake of, without some sortve conflict that they are trying to fix or iron-out in theirselves, or their life. Likewise the rich'n famous rarely are doing innovation, outside of the usual performative-ish-ness. Just recently Running man came out next to Resident Evil, same premise, different movies (Granted they been doing that for years, but no one noticed til... i wanna say 10 or so years ago)

🎵 So fkin goooooo d Edit: i feel like we have to include Mellow Melodic, Terrapin Station, Not just the Based Music, Because it was more than just grooving to music, there was a deliberate movement away from the music of normal waking world, to the acceptance of a dream that was always there, kindve thing... Iuno. Two things come together nd iuno wat it is until its like two felt-things, coming together. And thats speaking to how we feel in a sortve local-casual space, as well as a global-ultimate place — towards this liberating sense and source. inb4, can we translate ^this to another language, as now i feel like im trapped in 1960 and its conflicting w the art im tryina communicate here.

And the "mellow" part is particularly fitting as well, As its like, "Mellow Melodic, Terrapin Station"

@Mellowmarsh Do you know 🎵Terrapin Station by Grateful Dead — That rhythm, vaguely speaking, just the rhythm parts, i got that stuck in my head, its like a shuffle (in my head i guess its considered like a slow, slow, slow shuffle) Iuno what that it has to do w anything per say, but for some reason it was in my head in this dream image thing.

I felt like we had somethin there. it could only be called Mellowmarsh style, including the raps, like... just through it all together under one title... for now.. til theres a clearer vision into it... All the things i wrote today i also totally forget, As i spent most of that time trying to observe the non observance, or i tried to not observe what was/is suppose to be just, like, happening anyway / regardless, whether it be a local, global, or any other happening or non happening. For that reason... ... ... "Mellowmarsh style".

(DA) Slap this phone... I wanna slap this phone ... ... Im livin out a lie so i can RAP ALONE (repeat)

Rewrite / remix — "The sounds dont exist, the thoughts dont exist, the present dont exist, everythings a 'trick" (repeat)

"i turn on the station, to blast some shyt im turnin down the volume... Ohp... there goes a kid... He asks for some ice cream, i slap em instead... im fed up w this money, so i bought 50 cents, now im hiding out under a brooklyn bridge, cause its past curfew, and im scared of what i did... i slapped a homeless man. Now hes upset... so i slapped another one, it just makes sense... now im slappin everyone in town that i can sense, cause im a spider man. Your a spider menace. I wanna slap myself, oh yes, i cant resist, i wanna slap a phone, but it dont exist..." Chorus: "The phones dont exist, the schools dont exist, the teachers dont exist, especially the kids..." (repeat)

"Direct" is the word. but function, meaning and form collapse in direct exp., and the unrevealed becomes revealed, Door entered, where LSD A meets LSD B, etc, etc... Its the chik filemma dilemma. Open the door to reveal things, or close the door for continued avidya. Magic at that point is silly, cause its not like casting spells, you are the spells, actively puncturing a dream world that youve been misunderstanding the whole time. Thats the file mignon dilemma.

People rap too much... "im outside gettin paid all day ery day yes it too much money too much hate thats.. ... thrown my way. Im swimmin in denaro, ppl say its not fair yeo i dont care tho, its not fake, i swear tho... im in the studio ... writing fruity loops im gettin fruity w/ a bunch of tunes im blowing up a bunch of balloons et caetera... i dont know watz ta dooz.. I paid too much money fo these fruity loops. AI did me dirty.. now im living outside and im thirty... somethin dudes, what do i dooz now .. help .. help me... lord plz help .. Jesus walks, plz help, Barack Obama plz help"

Also consider the probability of this exact moment is happening. Thats kind've sort've like probability. How would you have imagined it from 10 years prior. Its impossible. From the pasts perspective, something totally improbable Has Happened, in the future (presently, this exact configuration). Ive moved like 16 times, but i could see how ppl living in perfect circular routines just see it as a circle, w/ minimal changes. Let your life fall apart, And youll discover it can change 16 times. Can you survive that amount of improbable probabilities is the question.