kavaris

I gotta a good one for yas to figure out. If/when any of yous take notice to, you might experience what ive experienced, which is this odd thing: single hairs emerge, seemingly from,what at first looks like a pimple. Thought 5-10 days later or so, its not a pimple i dont think, but the emergence of a single hair, given that its literally dead center, the hair that is. And ive see this before w/ very slight, surface layer wounds, where little hairs would then form around it... Even in women its happened, like in my moms case, though shes 60 or so now... My point is, do any of yous know about this? Like, thats not where the story ends in my book per say, cause im not focused on pimples and wounds related to the forming of single hairs, even though that is how its mostly shown itself, but im more so just baffled by this, cause its so odd, i mean, when i was younger, my skin didnt work like that. Even the smallest wound caused scars, but i also think i was not eating enough. I was quite skinny. So it might play into the heavy amount of protein / chicken? Maybe... Again, the wound thing is weird — the pimple w/ a single hair is weird — but ive been furthering the experiment in regards to these hairs and their formation, and im more so looking at alot of factors. But i dont wanna bore yous w/ that... Assuming everyones like, "the fk is this pers. talkin bout" type thing.

(cont.) A year ago or so, i was tryin to invoke this lemniskos term, because what i moreso was going for was like a knotted, eight loop / track -kindve thing, as even in the most paradoxical of pardoxes experienced, we may never really know, encounter or realize it to be a paradox, In that sense, the word lemniskos, or something unique to describe this "loop that you are on while its looping" is the word for what it may feel like in that particular predicament. I mean, sometimes we do have a paradox before/in front of us, and we also are feeling it just as much the paradox that it is soo in that sense it still is very much making sense to me too. I dont know. Im just throwin some things out there that are like rough sketches of a thought or two. p.s. i just looked up this term and i thought it was an interesting result: matrix/ˈmātriks/The word matrix comes from the Latin matrix, meaning "pregnant animal" or "womb," which derives from mater, meaning "mother" (now im getting mother earth, very mitochondria Eve, woman tribe -vibes)

As i was riffing, i'd invoked the possible situation of uncovering the *paradox of self, in the sense that... its just difficult to have a simple sentence on just the fact that "its an illusion, but i know its an illusion, cause i derive prior to an illusion, that im calling the apriori illusion, etc, etc.", so if we were further driven towards "its an illusion", i would consider the quality of the illusion itself, as a pattern or clump of things. For that reason im taking a long time to really retrieve any words on whats gonna be the next impasse. I'll say that the layered, lego castle of construction, the temple which is in a constant state of change, it is always in an upwards or downwards direction, and that is kindve, by in large, what it seems like, a constant rebuilding of function, meaning and form, in order to then take what we see as the *clumps of patterns, and connect them further (or reconnect, reduplicate em, etc.), into the larger whole. In this sense what you have is affectation itself, as that clumping together, that may also de-illusion or re-illusion, like re-absorbing the sponge so its no longer rock hard, except that theres always a sentient rock there that can re-absorb the whole thing in some way / making everything alive, which probably leads out unto the waters of our next impasse... but i havent thought about it yet in that particular way. It also may make *paradox itself defined slightly differently, cause the whole thing is a paradox that keeps re-absorbing the familiarizing waters. p.s. we should probably just get rid of "paradox" as a word (or as the very strong, weighted version of it), cause it feels like "No, that cant happen", unless we are anticipating a point where things should ultimately stop and no longer happen, then we might want to keep hold of it. I dont think it can be summed up, but i dont have a strong opinion on that idea either way / its continuous, if only to change our perspectives. I dont know.

Ive never tried 5Meo dmt, but today i had this flash of like a feeling, that all of the interfaces that we assoc. w/ this body and this experience were being minimized like a computer desktop, and for 3 seconds i had this feeling, and thats how long it lasted. and i of course thought of how they often describe 5 Meo in this way where you ferl youve been released from your human bonds, andmerged with some source (or atleast thats often the way the language of description makes it feel) i mean im just trying to gauge it a little better, the real thing that is... And if im way off... Yous can jus say **No** if im no where near describing it ~ there may be certain affectations or qualities that are necessary in order to capture it that im just not capturing (p.s. its quite early in the mornin so its not like a hugely serious quandary or anything, im just gettin the beeswax out of my ears and such)

Everyones a candidate for excellence. Its very early in the morning, and i got to thinkin of this, that is this memory of something ~ i wanna say it was a friend who was considered like an A+ student at writing or math or something, and when he started getting real cocky/confident, one of the previous failing students actually outshined him... And i experienced this in 3rd grade, but then, it happened like 10 times afterwards in wholly unique ways, one time i was that failing student who overcame, and there was the advanced students who were real good at something like writing or whatever it was... And that is all to say that, theres this thing that we're working towards, irrispective of the anticipation of a final graduation or event at the end, since we dont know what it is at the end, meaning the end of our ability to say anything *has ended, otherwise its just a continuous thing, and we're not conscious of its continuity. But like, the excellence in the area of ourselves, that is like the only project thats ever mattered; prior to, it wouldve been learning subjects, going to classrooms, but now its like, the excellence can be granted by yourself, through yourself, like, you arent in need of a teacher or someone to say "oh wat you are doing, thats actually wrong". You are making the rules as to wrong and right, and then you are sharing it, such that you can see if it makes any sense. So that stuff that might not make sense, it may turn out to make sense, nd vice versa. Like some of this is battle testing the senses.

Ill preface w/ this idea, 'doesnt it invalidate our understanding of self (the Self as the one who knows what is), upon promoting lack/illusion to the highest position? Yay?... Nay?... Paradox is the next obvious perspective after that... And if in fact "paradox", then what? Yous may have had a diff road, but im jumping ahead. p.s. you can still have god(s) as a functional element i think, cause its "a god"~that is an extension of self~, the God is like a claim about the infinite self, infinite possible perspectives on gods, or something like that... im adding that in as i read someones talking around god, gods or God.

Im goin over your words, and im tryina isolate just one idea for you, for, I dont normally touch these delicate quandaries, but im changing things up, just to shake the etch-a-sketch and see what happens The seeker can never find the lacking, that is, you might call it penia (poverty or lack) inb4 how eros is born and neither fully destitute nor satisfied, etc, etc... The truly ignorant dont philosophize, because they dont *feel* lack, mistaking emptiness for fullness sake. Only the persons caught in between are in some sense aware of the in between~ness. They are who is to pursue wisdom at all in that case, and what is wisdom then? That is, what is wisdom within this context, of either, \*that which is within (or around) the hole?... The lack?... (p.s. woops i thought both posts were by the same pers., oh well, i guess i meant to ask both of yous in this case now)

Ima jus highlight "focus on" as i dont have am explanation for what that means, and so someone else can either fill in pieces, or write it down nd describe it later.

Iuno someone said that once, and i felt like its apropos for what i was thinking. And that is how, even though its goin fairly slow and steady, that there is progress happening, tangible changes happening within that... Like, its on a (domain or something like that), increasing, one thats up to you, that you are trying to develop, however its gonna culminate, cause yous know im sure, whatever it is you are to focus on the most, is what everythings building around / changing around... like the constant change, i mean... I mean, its not like theres a flat level, like you have layers or you have nothing, and to be staggered in the *in between direction is what prolly causes alot of discomfort. I mean, its not like it makes sense at the boundary outside of the small circle that weve called sensible, so we take that w/ a grain of salt as far as what can even be said around it, as far as trying to disect that edge realm. you know?

"Function, meaning, form" is the mind virus that yous gotta get on, by which i mean, package it up in whatever way / gift / present, that you want, spin it like a song stuck in your head, and then we'll come back when thats sunken in. Dont let go, just keep spinning / invoking it in the awareness of thoughts and such, and figure out where that it best fits, in the lypsis of transients, or directed towards the transients. I mean its only as difficult as yous want to make it, as we can literally just say "what a thing is" like this post "A = Cow shit".. That is also a form of dialectic language. Yous just stopped responding. If yous are bored then we'll stop.

@Hojo If what you want is for it to be called science, then call it science, but dont get stuck on what its called, As we are gonna be here too long on the label of a word that doesnt matter, as opposed to how that label is suppose to function, for its function, meaning and form that we want... the transient stuff thats gonna get us somewhere. The labels within that are whats gonna be extra important, and THOSE labels we have to agree upon or else neither direction will it make it appear as science or sensible reality. We cant remain stagnant forever.

What is "more" compared to science, than philsophy? And, what is the difference between science and philosophy, do you not observe things when you do philosophy? Philosophy is a very broad subject matter that itself includes scientific realms and observation. You are doing philosophy right now. We should have gotten well past what constitutes it, or we will be here a long time.

Is that a question? wat is that.

It sounds like your doing philosophy to me, just acting arogant in the process.

Ive realized whilst browsing mainstream youtube, 'truth, as an idea / topic, is a hairy subject matter for the younger generation. I believe its cause they are using today's English (like English dictionary) paradigm, that is English's application of — function, meaning & form — in the areas of refutation around such things as truth. So im giving out a recommendation for both Leo G., or @everyone else, if yous want to either begin the argument itself — around such things as truth — or if yous rather (and what i'd prefer we do myself) is just put together / throw out some subject matters, a list of subject matters that could be the missing piece, tangential to this notion of like ~ how the younger generation is stuck in that endless circle of searching for an ability to talk around such topics. And we are more of the brainstorming bulletinboard, as far as making suggestions. I mean, i just feel, if ever there wassomeone who wants to find some entry into productive arguments and speech, its just a good place to disect in general, and as i said, yous will simultaneously help in making suggestions, whether it be geared specifically for a younger gen., or not (p.s. the Greeks used that dialectic kind of language, and that to me is how you figure out what something is, cause you have the "agreed truths" and the universal, grandeur truth, and it means placing those kinds of things ~ getting on the same page as everyone)