kavaris

P.s. i should add, that when i say "it started w an interesting question", thats not like some alternate art group and me conversating away, thats jus me inventing a world of lies, and then simulating it and tryina pick it apart, such that it fits as like a circle of logic that makes sense... So if theres holes that you wanna poke inside of it for fun, go ahead, as like... its not a real experience, its a fantasy for philoso-fizing and for really crunching the circles so you can feel it out, to see it as being true or not ~ Which is always got degrees of, to weigh on the scale.

Yas got me thinkin bout something thats called like "the common point of realization" like ... It started with an interesting sorta ques., for example: for those people that worship a teacher or god or anyone for that matter, suppose you are dating somebody and they too worship the same entity or person, and then suppose you were to do something, but one of yous blamed god... is that a legal move in that relationship? E.g., "something happened, i dont know how, but nevertheless, it was gods doing"? Cause i was wondering like, can you not just blame things on the highest deity, or on the flipside, if you are the person responsible for everything, then now, anything that goes wrong is something of your own doing. Like, no matter what... you are always tryina not have it go wrong for ya... but how can someone know whats considered right if they never had things go wrong? Yous know what im tryina say? Like "Im scared things will go wrong", for instance. But wait... If i dont know whats considered right, then i dont know whats considered wrong either, except for a few degrees around my little circle... And i might not know what anything even is in life, like at all... and anything that i do know is more like, "the common point of realization". Does that make sense?

Just in the small amount of threads ive been in, Ive not seen/heard frequency and vibration in awhile, but granted that its prolly popping up here nd there, just not as highly sought after as an idea? I mean, i think Its still very much apart of everything as far as interests are concerned, i believe, like where you put it in the toy box, and then you re visit it later. It might take some time but itll be needed again later, As you get tired of physical toys and such, but words, experience, insights & feelings are always there, regardless if you feel happy or sad, young or old, so one day someones gonna be like for instance: "Yeo, i had an experience, and it was all about harmonics and the way the frequency map is shaped w/ regards to the evenly distributed harmonics on the top layer, and the more dissonant tones being lower in amplitude at the bottom distribution map, such that it looks like, e.g., my reality and the way my experience is to ultimately shape things" or something. I mean, im sayin it now, so maybe itll catch fire.

Oh yes. o it prolly was alot like that. Dwarves of Drakken Kaeve.. or kai ev... is wat i wrote down in my notes, and the ring giver and receiver, and that i had been emotionally aided for the continued adventuring

I think there was brandishing happening at some point, but i was well lost in those caves, up high in the midair shafts~Like a winding track that goes up, down and back, but i was so emotionally falling apart, i didnt really take notice to wat was around me... i just finally went into the feedle position, nd it wasnt til they helped me up that i noticed i had cried myself into their cave system... or i think it was so giant, that it extended outside of their own tracks, like... They took a traincart thing to get to where i was, thats how far id wondered, and the tracks were high up in the mountain/cave

I had a dream bout these ancestral dwarves visiting me in one of these mining caves / dark misty mountain caves, as i was walking on a draw bridge inside of it, crying and being very much sad and not having a good time of it in these dark like, mushroom dreams or watever, but then the ancestral dwarves helped me up and slipped the pink ring of power on me, and there was a purple one too ~ as well as "the most powerful ring".... And i asked like "isnt there like 7 of these rings or something..." Nd they were like, "Oh, you tlkin bout the 3 Rings made for the Elven-kings, 7 Rings made for the Dwarf-lords, 9 Rings made for Mortal Men, and 1 Ring for all the bind them or watever? No thats a fantasy, theres only three that we know of..." I was like Hey thx wow, thats oddly specific, and the dwarves, and their rings did make me feel better... i mean i didnt have cancer or anything, but i appreciated watever was goin on in them misty mountains. So now i got a rotally diff vers of the lord of the rings happenin in my head via these weird dreams.

I see it like a painting yous are painting in the comments. As it transcended into more of an exploratory image based format via words. The feeling yesterday went abstract (in my min... which is how it cut through). However, there was more of like a uh... watchamakalitz like a group effort... Not just cause everyones on a diff pathz but specifically, from my perspective, its like, i experienced parts of @Inliytened1@Leo Gura's ideas, as a baseline for what was to be a perforation / And granted, later @Joseph Maynor @myself Added somethingz which then was like a diff topic i felt (or something intimately connected im not sure) but anyway thats how i mapped it out. I say that, to allude to the sense making being very much complicated, but simple from a felt location as well. p.s. maybe i should add something bout yesterday, how i wasnt focused on the words nor their meaning... However, i was like, influenced, or gifted something, i just cant actually locate what that was exactly..

I guess... well.... I guess its like... if you can... Like, if its something you can do, for you, effectively speaking, to not get too hung up on the separate or relative/relevant senses of like.... like for example, if i was like "Everyone has there own path that they resonate w/ or that they feel they're on or watever", The part you dont wanna get hung up on is the "everyone" part, right? Like, if thats what you get out of it, you would always contend w/ the idea that "everyone" is doing <x> That same sorta sense of like, colliding w/ many paradoxical things now, its an unavoidable, unmistakable thing, when you are experiencing it. But you can atleast realize it in the moment, and then try to not do it?... I felt like there was two diff things i was juggling, but thats atleast one single idea, which also sounds like the stupdest of the things, but its an idea you could sit w/

@Joseph Maynor@Inliytened1 Wai. Back up. Lastnite somethin interesting happened.. Something cut to the core, but now we are going backwards w/ opinions, how it feels to chew watchamakalit bubblegum. I cnt find the words for it, Like... Hold that thought, and roll it forward/back, and rub it around again. There was a very core idea (jog the right idea forward basically, as we might be able to find it as a shared form)

Thx. And, No no. i hear ya, i me, i appreciate that truly. Its like... Iuno. I dont wanna spoil anything, like... Im the hidden thing that i myself cant reveal, like... Iuno.

You know, lookin' back in my notebooks from amany years ago (though, its not like i had that many notebooks that have withstood the test of time...) ... but its like, one of them has this series of pages, each beginning "...and the subsequent paradox..." As i could not escape the incessant realization of the big ole bogging down of this paradox thing (whatever may have been on my mind at the time) and, as its pertaining to the fundamental ways i was processing... engaging w/ internal and external, thoughts, feelings, emotions, et caetera, et caetera... And because of that, that notebook is really afflictive in nature, torturous to read and get through. Like. Even when it seems to resolve towards the end.. it just feels like, even beginning every thought with "Paradox" feels like theres a glitch. Regardless of the subject matter, that philosophical side of life is always a kind of liquid ink available, to which i try to enjoy & dipinto, messing around with the painting of such things that i am to perceive or realize. Its like "Can i write without the word paradox coming up every page, ruining the work?" Like, it ruined that notebook of mine (or atleast, i feel it did, based on what i think the subject matter was to have been). Like its not that the paradox invoking is a bad thing necessarily, per say, but the repetitive reminder of it is prolly bad, to me, and towards what im trying to do. It ceases to mean what it means when its another fledgling spinner ~ spinning out of control; Another cascade of emotion that you've found yourself stuck in... Alas, this is sortve why i even would write in the first place, and yet not many people openly are burdened by it, i dont think? Or maybe not this one specifically. So in trying to write about the relative self, that is a constant reminder that im always making note of, and then regretting that i even acknowledged it.

Nice man. Sounds like ya got alot of love and enthusiasm for what you are doing.

Exactly. Id say dont try it, as youd be imaginging *what measuring is* and then predicating the nature of everything on the ability to measure and receive results. Like, its a world of reimagining is all, and thats the question id go to first for practicality, like "what is it then to imagine" typeve things. Or just "What is imagination", not that its the best place to jump off from, but its the best least best least or whatever.

The relative is the total self. Thats why the paradox is possible, thats why everything feels this way of like, a rise in some more complex. We are communicating, tlkin, tryina conjure up wtf this is, and we are mistaking complexity of nature w/ The Self (Period... or wat weve imagined it to be....) Alas, that is what gives it a sense of like "Why is life like this, why am i the thing looking out at the thing", Like... That is itself *what it is*. Its a freaky self thing. The fact that we interact w/ things comes w/ perception as the main thing, and not "a primary self, a secondary nature, etc, etc" Like its all just Self, period. The complexity happens within the self. Nature is just what Complexity w/ a /C/ happens to be lookin like right now.

I had a friend who was real into Mac, and he liked it at a time where there really wasnt a strict division yet, like i mean, it was still the computer revolution, but it wasnt like this thing where you got trapped inside of Macs ecosystem. Like you could plug the ipod into windows, or do non apple things inside of Mac -And maybe its still like that, but theyve turned it into more of a *classhood* or something, Like ... Iuno its weird cause alot of those companies collaborated together too, beyond the theftyish moves on Windows part... but really, how much diff could they have made some of those apps... We all long for the aesthetic of like 2001/2008 apps or whatever it was... Like Apple really wants it to be like *... if you want a girlfriend, she will think your weird if you dont use macs* -typeve thing, when really, before the iphone, that idea was predicated on the fact that girls already had iphones, but they didnt yet... So they were rushing into a fantasy of the world that wasnt even true. lol... kinda funny when you think of it like that. i mean it was trying really hard to be the way it is now, but all of the games nd stuff are on Windows, and that itself was the catch. I mean, computers in general are going through a rough time imo anyway... Like i just wanna do simple things, but its very expensive still. Like, watchamakalit... the RISCV thing, iuno if theyve gotten them projects anywhere but that was suppose to hold some promise for simpletons like myself. i mean, i really liked some of these more descrete companies when it comes to the phones... but i digress, as now we are mixing together phones and computers. They are two diff worlds i feel. P.s. Did anyone else see Casey muratori put out a video on skeletal/animation? i mention it as i seen the substack post flash by in my email, but i ignored it as im not doing any heavy duty research right now, but its def something that programmers should investigate, alongside text and such and managing a window (or figuring out how to do it in a way where you can pull up transient windows and move em around, tho iuno how many apps on linux focus on that typeve behavior, so its sumthin to think about), since ya need that stuff too. I mean, ive already contended w/ the terminal and shell behavior. unfortunately its a long story, lol. But i know alot about terminals on linux (its more of a philosophical ques., than it is a technical question) but like... iuno. its weird. Feel free to pm if yous want to know bout it too.