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(cont.) im just waking from a quik nap, but thats like, the foundation for everything. And depending how you want to define the things in experience, those things may also be treated as no things, but its in a totally new context, cause we would be talking about "what causes something to go from idea to physical thing", whereby, theres a spectrum of things we could say, tech., they dont exist, but they CAN exist, and in some way they even DO exist, and will exist in the future. Hence it being a spectrum of existence, in that way (thats a diff question of course, cause before, we were simply asking, "is it all real, and by that same token, what does realness mean... or in my opinion, what does it mean to "imagine" so much that it feels real, is a, possibly, better question, possibly)

A Jehovahs witness came to my door today, And he said something that got me thinkin, it was something bout like, letting others do... something, or something for ya, but in a way that was appropriate to the bible, And its like, i dont understand how to even begin to think about reality in that way where its like, letting go, or taking control, besides from what i know, however i can answer some of these questions, such as, This is one of those technical ideas, that people get mixed up in, because its assumed nothing defines the all pervaiding force that is consciousness and its content. However, dont think of it in them terms Think of it like, everything always just "exists" because of consciousness, and no thing, depending on context, isnt something you have directly experienced, in this moment, which is important, otherwise you can stop the questioning, cause we are experiencing, we are seeing something via conscious exp., and its neither something as simple as, "ts all real, for me", but nor is it as simple as calling it nothing ... As "things" most often speak of "the content of experience", but somehow, you want to ask about "experience itself", without tackling the question directly.

And keep going, w/ that idea, what is it (why not)

Thats probably the most well put, well worded things you can ever say, a collective delusion. I mean, its a metaphor that can serve you for now, if course. it is like that, yeah. Its like that because — its the first idea ~ Like if someone gaves you a piece of paper and it said "Its all yogurt. Reality is all yogurt", its like, now the world is literally under the impression of, like... Its a baseline that, from that point on, is to be taken for granted, cause "Reality IS yogurt". Nothing is there to refute it, nothing is there to take away yogurt in order to replace it, reframe it, or otherwise challenge it in some way. Reality is yogurt. What can you do about it? Everything you see now, is in itself, defined as yogurt. Yogurt is now at this top of a hierarchy that you, as a simple citizen, cant get around. After the first psychedelic trip, that is like, the door into summer, As its a new season to tell yourself something different. But i digress. As, there are truths... Like. Its not like, its all just this "baseline, grounding" thing. Theres a sense of enlightenment that can be found, within yourself, And, most prevalant, is how you frame it all, or really, 'how you ask the question to begin w/ Most people start w/ God, like is God behind it all, does God = Consciousness, And i would just say, thats a mistake, a big one to be made along the way (... theres more to it than that of course, im just beating around the bush) its something to consider at least, how to frame it all. Or, rather, how to ask the question, towards "answering the question of"

Like, in other words, its rare that we, as the active developers of English, actively shape an older and, pre existing word, to be the positive thing it once was, Like if it can lean negative, we are like "Yes. Press the button. submit". Like...

I mean, generally, English has this little quark (or it tends to have this quark, maybe its around 90% of words that can lean in one direction or the other, have this quark in English) where everything is made to be negative, or its chosen to lean further to negative in those cases, is wat im tryina say. Which, granted, we can make things "make sense" with, or without that negative connotation.

I rarely use ego uniformly, And i mostly edge on, just, getting straight to business, however... Ego in its most basic form, is synonymous to that archaic form of the pleasure (not over abundance), like its what the ancient peoples wanted to talk about, fused w/ something like, the pursuit of, like theres also something sacred to the ego (i) or Being, so it has a spectrumy-thing to it, granted i personally dont always view it as "egoic personality", but one function for ego is to frame it as, the most negative parts of a person, or something like that. I personally dont find myself engaging on that lvl either, so i dont ever bring it up (in that way), still, the ego in a uniform sense does atleast have elements we can relate to, for its the same w/ most words, it depends on context, what we are talking about... Like, can we point to a landmark that makes enough sense, so that the words can start to make sense. I mean all words suffer from this dilemma as well.

This is somethin i was thinkin bout ~In regards to the idea of something like ego, Sneaking through, And that is how, say we were talking about [sense] perception, or a similar topic, and how our most recent perspectives shift the fabric of what we believe. And then you introduce that idea, And we have two ideas, one regarding perception -but on a subject matter that- on its surface, seems like the most reasonable, pragmatic of the two — Then you have this other thing, this psychedelic realm, where things like ego get dissolved (something like that) which is itself a topic that, in the least, interferes w/ the fabric of beliefs. I want to know what THAT is, that change of blood, in the most absolute sense, cause THAT change over is, in effect, pure chaos, cause you cant win in either direction, right?... If you view it from the truth of this psychedelic thing, its becoming more psychedelic, if you view it as this other thing its changing to this other thing... My point is that, the very question of "what is reality" or what we are, it is predicated on the belief in things, and those most-recent ideas dominate everything else, regardless, And even in finding truth, or how its working, the only thing you could ever do is to try to understand "WHAT it is, WHILE it is" Its a collapse in meaning, but its still somewhat functioning, in an absolute sense, in the very least.

You can navigate the ball of yarn, And even unravel it, but can you see the ball while its in active yarning. p.s. the cat sees it, but its still in a ffurse, a "fully functioning raveled state".... e.

of course, i dont have a good way to explain what "makin sense" means, to me, but it involves sensing (of course, im talking about an etymological kind-of-sensing, which encapsulates feelings, towards ultimate truth, justice and things of this nature, as a more absolute concept all in all) I mean, its not like its carved into stone, in a way everyone may identify w/, alas thats just the bare basic idea around it.

Ya. Very often, i explain it in a way that wouod otherwise try and bring that sense and curiosity towards non-dualistic thinking, if only to try and alleviate that sense of like, being stuck in 1960, but its not working really, like... I mean, its not that its not working, but its like, well... theres two things happening, one is im talking to older souls, people who are currently going through serious issues, and then the other aspect is that it takes time to really explain this stuff, like i talk to this person everyday, sortve giving yous the same sortve occassional ideas, that i give them... I mean, theres a third aspect too, which is like, consciousness is like, never really making a whole lotta sense? Like im thankful anytime it does, but its not entirely often that i am in like, a harmonious place.

Ya know, when you are in the direct experience, seeing the forms, considering and having to pivot in the moment, its a blinder, its like, you are limited by time, by how much you can think or say about whats going on, And as everyone else is sortve a conduit of that seed image in time, like sitting down at a dinner table to say grace, it gives the illusion of direct experience, otherwise we have nothing to call it ~ meaning dissolves in this moment, because Function and From is what sits at the top, Its only through contemplating that you bring meaning back into the fold to see if it was true ir not, to you, and to then, get a better sense of whether you shouldve shed yourself earlier, free'd of the experience, the cycle, assuming the dinner table was like, the wrong thing, for everyone. So in that sense, directly experiencing is never without its experiences, and thus its never without some sense of dissonant, like discordant sounds ~ towards a meaning of what happened, as it sits in reference to the thing thats doing the experiencing. If/when we are to eliminate all of those things, we can talk about it as if its not like, one successive relationship after another, but until then we have that problem to work out, this thing where we are using relationships w/ things to draw some semblance out of time and space, to produce, interpret and represent meaning. The form it takes is a form that we denote as meaning too, surely, its just wrapped up w/ the function and forms that we have better understanding of, in that moment. So ill stop there.

p.s. ElonGate is def available, or atleastz there arent any miscellany websites that come up

@cetus (cont.) i got a siq title for ya, something that maybe people will accidentally discover if they search "Elon" that is "ElonGate" (like "elongate") Cause back in the day, i accidentally discovered ebony through that same idea, searching the wrong thing. And assuming its not already taken, you can use that as a way to exploit the keyword machine. Oh shyt. yeo. bet, thatd be crazy. Yous all prolly live on the west coast and could easily find creators to make tons of crazy shyt... on the east coast, everyone hates me and no one is into art or drawing or anything.

I def like the look of ur work btw. its interesting. Also, i mentioned ebony, but i havent played it in while. But i def had a fondness for Ebony awhile back, as to me its like an art movement. But its so unknown, that its kindve a very quiet voice among the very loud voiced art of 2026 Where, now we really we need more of ANY art. Ebony art, fine art, doesnt matter... Text im also dabbling w/, like handwriting, cause thats a huge challenge for Ai, like authentic handwriting. And interesting art too of course.

@cetus that first one has got crazy Ebony vibes, like one of the lvls round maybe it was 20-30ish, somewhere in there (u prolly know idea wat im talkin bout)

Oh wow. O wait a minute. Do you know Ebony riddle game?

i try to wait til as late as humanly possible, in the grand scheme of time, As i think in like... in the global time, i dont want to inflict others, unless they want to live the life of not sleeping, And just doing 24 7 art / text ~or however yous might wanna think of it... Like i try to keep everything super specific, As that then acts as the interface towards understanding. Much like our body / identity has this reocurring element, thats there for (what we think is) either experiencing, or understanding, or something else. I guess it depends on what that flow of energy feels like, in a sense ~As far as what decision i am to make, or escape, etc.

Oh absolutely. alls i do is art, in some sense, but i just sortve, let the energy go alot right now, As i feel to much of it in this direction. This like, its like... finite scripting/programming (within English communicating) As i use sortve like, the text engine as a way to understand the... choice of region (in the art/game metaphor) ... if that makes sense. Like the text is my interface for everything else.

Ha. pretty perfect

@ElvisN Solve the issue a nother way, e.g., You can have local hallucinations, or global hallucinations. i only bring this up to point to a paradox of self, and how theres no way to draw a line, or separate "individual" (or shared, and/or group think) "hallucinations", from your own globally distributed hallucination realization, So you can talk about many things when talking about hallucination, but then it would not make sense from the global perspective, the globally produced vers., seeing as then, everyone should just say "its an hallucination" much like saying "its just all consciousness". Why not just get rid of that word, since its one of these base terms that dont signify anything else, besides for functioning as a local delusion. Try a different route around the issue, otherwise we are forcing the content of a locally-felt or sympathized delusion, onto the absolute perspective on consciousness. P.s. Understanding the little novel details and perspectives of the Absolute is something to aim towards, imo, as itll free you from being bounced between doublets of things. Consider the world could not exist as just a doublet, like... We clearly are not. Its a life-giving, life creating experience ~ Too much life, via those incessant differences in our life.

@ElvisN Meaning is a downstream phenomenon. So in further contemplating, the idea of hallucations and the validity of another being, etc., these are all secondary things, and relationship-dependent alongside thoughts, feelings, emotions and ideas. Your world view shapes it all at the forefront, and those imprecise layers are sortve subserviant to that primary directed flow, Which is to say, you build meaning from the question itself, like thats how it keeps changing, cause its not like its something set in stone, w/ one single conscious outlook. Nor is it something you can easily translate WHILE in the act of living it. You are finding "what works" and what doesnt, and trying to see from a more absolute perspective, such that it may broaden that whole limited, but necessary, conscious and unconscious experience. You are looking through the kaleidoscope window — looking for the right heirarchy on perception, like its the artist's challenge, Like how to understand whats happening, As it is happening, and theres absolutely alternate ways to get around that, to see it more clearly, or to feel what it is like, beyond settling on the simplicity of word:"hallucination", since its only a placeholder word towards an otherwise more truthful position, a felt-truth / positio youre most alignd w/ P.s. You might prefer to view as that, And thats fine. Its necessary. Thats something you use as a placeholder, a way to say something concrete in the moment. Because others will know *what you mean / or wat u meant to say, even though you may have ideas surrounding it or future ideas to connect back to it ~

Magic waterfall in time's space place. ∆s the windmill, for the mind of [us] specifically, yes? I make so specific. Magic hat that yous can try on off the rack.

^And if yous are into the idea but dont feel like investing in it too hard, For now, yous could use actualized for something like that, cause honestly theres so much crapola out there, i dont think we are gonna find many like, real, actual cooking enthusiasts who understand the idea, i mean, its incredibly simple: Food/cooking, herbs, plants, and like, technical discussions, like chemical things that you wouldnt have known -typeve things, discoveries ppls have made, stuff like that... flavor profiles, etc., Like hey, it could even turn intoa large part of what actualizing even means, in the future, cause what are we but the things we eat, right?

@everyone, Does anyone happen to know if theres a such thing as a "Food Alchemy" forum? One that isnt just like, "Der, here are cooking recipes" but rather like, intricate and delicate discussions around materials, chemicals, minerals, ingredients like herbs, plants, and these additives and such that you sometimes see... And how to cook, or diff methods, supplies, etc. Like, Technical food alchemy forum / but not reddit. And like i said, not just "Der, expert chefs, etc.", I wouldnt mind making the forum myself, Luke Warm Alchemy (i just made that up, thats not wat id call it) but yous get the idea... The reason being is cause, im real into like scientific lvl of food prep., however i dont really have enough $$$ to go hog-wild on it and try al sorts of things. Thats why i need one of yous to help me find a place for this, or make it and invite me. It could also include Psychedelics like DmtNexus, but obviously, that would be very minor, As the focus would be all about things like food, herbs, plants, and id even add all my Alchemy Latin to the page, cause why not, right? I added a bunch of esoteric books i read to Actualized book section, as i felt like it was a nice departure, a nice interlude into like, advanced meditations you might call it. Anyway. Thoughts?