kavaris

Start. Meaning is just what we feel is the approximate, orthogonal relationship at that time—as one of our prominent jobs revolves around the preserving of strings of words that we are micro managing. If those strings of words happen to overlay or trigger a strange little voice (a confirmation on their connection), then it is only through happenstance that we find some inherent meaning. But other than that, there isnt some magical meaning that exists alongside words or phrases themselves (we're in a text context atm) There’s an implicit (and constant) “bringing-to-mind” -mechanism (through whatever means), that is building up a kind of memory-stream (memories are is quite liquid and fragile) what keeps them going… Memory helps you stay fixated on this reality. That VERY important to know and its something you could extend/or continue the trend of thinking on... Truth is a very different notion from *meaning*. Truth is different from both fact as well as meaning. Something can be meaningful to you, but in fact, it may not mean what you think it means. It could be factual in some regard, and at the same time that fact could be untrue, either to you or to someone else. Truth = anything that is true. Therefore, your whole life’s purpose is to be able to say “what is true”, for you. When you can prove that one thing on Earth is true, you’re journey will be complete (completing the journey of whats true, will complete the journey of whats true) "But what will happen when my life is complete, And what happens when I stop remembering?…" Its actually paradoxically to say that anyone could ever stop remembering. Its the same as asking “doesnt there need to be nothing, before there can be everything?” — At which point you realize that, “No thing IS a Something”. At which point, you realize, theres no such thing as nothing!… At which point you think, “does that mean that everything has existed ALL the time?” And this kind of self-inquiry can go on, and on, and on, and on… Insert a 1/4 arc, and finish line 🏁 ^What was the point of that kavaquavaris?/ : Ive no idea, Enjoy. ---- Episode suggestion—a two hour rifling through realizations one would/should have, from beginning to end.

Cthulu comes to your door, once every morning threatening you and whatknot. Cthulu does this to everyone (he works fast) p.s. cthulu is like, part universe, and part entity of some kind. And for the sake of argument, it looks like an aggressive person to you. Now, you can choose to NOT believe in Cthulu, and he will from then on be gone (he will vanish once the thought has fully crossed your mind) but so too will reality and those aspects you depend on. Or, you can support your beliefs in Cthulu, lets just say, and go on having your reality destroyed from that direction (assuming you believe that he is real and will eventually break your door down) So you have two situations that are going to lead to destruction, and the very same result, atleast as so far as you can tell. You can of course believe in nothing and ignore everything, though that is really what im saying is your option already. Its a point where its everything or nothing, and you dont have alot of options in between. If you survive the encounter, it would presumably have less of an emotional affect from then on. Note: This is kindve a trick question i think. but im interested in wat yous say anyway.

I am someone whos tried lsd and mushrooms (this was 10+ years ago) but i carried all the information w/ me, as everything for me was just one lesson after another in them proceeding years (that i failed to look back on as a priority, at the time, to press against the face amongst the non priorities) i thus am looking for someone else who had an opposite experiences xthat is where they were enjoying theirselves so much, that they encountered those darker lesson after tripping through a spectrum/tunnel of a sortve "surreal or unreal" shade—that is, one where you would be remissed to find the real & unreal had super imposed itself, as some extremity that now rules over like cthulu—that, and this sense of a darker shade that now must be dissolved in the soup of life (a shade that ostensibly exists at the opposite end i was at) which was more of a direct hell for me, nothin'fancy. Does that sound like anyones exp? Id like to hear about it.

If you wana go for like, dream control in a regular sense, i do where i dont sleep, but rather—straddle the line between waking and dreaming, such that i meditate—instead of sleeping, a kindve psychic visualization state, wherein i start w/ the whole grounding + centering business, then begin the aforementioned meditation steps—which leads to a boundary where you are up against a kindve dream door, where you are gonna be staggering the natural dreaming sequence, with a new, deliberate sense of direction. And it helps to keep an alarm for 30 minutes, else it is not hard to accidentally keep falling asleep. The objective here would be to get deeper in between the awake and asleep transition, such that your subconscious language is interacting with the conscious language, and you are just the guide who makes it happen. There shouldnt been any obstacles besides whatevers directly suctioning you like a lamprey (i think lampreys are the ones with the suction cup for a mouth)

My dreams are a kindve, re-interpretation of sense making, and what each sense is, almost like a consciousness puzzle, and how you might feel isnt based on experiences with the rational object—person relationship, not per say, but its really like a breakdown of everything, turned up to 12. So, lets say i dream that im... iuno, in a room, at first... Thats just what i feel. I feel like, a presence (myself?) in an enclosure. Then i feel like im suddenly sliding down a tube, or what feels like im pooping, myself as the poop, but my feelings entact, in regards to what the idea of pooping once was like. As i slide down my own anus, i feel this pressure, like my own intestine, within my intestine. i know i have to relax, to get the poop out, which is myself. I relax, and then it starts coming (or rather, i start coming) Meanwhile, i start thinking about such questions as "what am i? am i a person?" Then i think about the word "consciousness" by accident, and as i travel down that series of thoughts, i wake up. Thats not the best example, but i couldnt think of any others atm that could explain the finite self as a very fine grain aspect, simultaneously feeling a higher level amalgam. And the fact that i was feeling both ends was just a bonus, as its often isolated, either as a higher or lower aspect. often, i play the character of a new self, who is leaving behind any notion of a higher self, or i am a higher self lost within a very abstract, shoots and ladders world, through all types of busy bus stations and whatever. I try to not get lost, but its like, if things arent going in the right, unidirectional, DC current sortve way, then its like, i just gota let it all go, cause itll spit me back out into some awkward scenario betwen people and stuff, and they are so annoying.

Make a list called "Knowns versus Unknowns". At which point, you can know the boundary of which things you can ask questions about (things you know, personally, that you feel you know as a thing to question) Your askin' surreal, super unknown-to-experience questions, and they dont pertain to parts of your OWN experience, but as aspects of other.., such as people who have stopped consciously existing alongside you. You mine as well ask what it means for other to sit beside you, or why the grass smells like grass when your near it. Why do birds fly south for the winter, and why is the sky blue. the whole—trees exist when no ones around, and if dreams exist if no ones having them. And keep going with it, on and on, and hopefully it dawns on you now in the other direction, like a 'who am i, what am i'.. what am i doing that i could be questioning. Are the questions being answered, or is it existing answers that are leading to questions. What is known as a fact that you can answer 100%, as a thing that youve experienced, that you can know for sure? and then, proceed from there.

"How to think bout reality", if its: A) Gonna be, A neverending exp, reality, In some ways it remains half unknown, Some half tilt dream to which we do not know, And B) its not actually real?.. Or what that entails, Seeing as, call it New Reality tells a very different tale... Thats a line of questioning, you then might take, A possible point of re apprising that role of advocate, And tryina to get it, to where, you are the younger you, From a new perspective of old and young inter fused. Sorting out the undulating rhythms inside, Its becoming of a direction—of "once you decide".

People whove done DMT, have you ever had like, an aspects of consciousness communication (see ive not ever done it, as i more so using dreams & imagination to base this on) like say yous are communicating in this whimsical way like: "Heres a magical golf course + do a backflip + sing a jolly ole song" -"Si, yes kind sir. I know exactly what you mean" @{Thats the impression i get from what ppl have said on utube} And, they end up performing that whole sequence, and then, does it ever come down to like, "So, actually this is a certain part of you, and this is another part of you, Oh, and meet ShimShim, another part of you..", or am i just way off? To me, thats what i feel like is being said, when they talk about this "look at this, and look at this" thing. As i would be inclined to think of it like, "Go down this road, to meet ShimShim, go through this door to meet LaLa the toad, the soul survivor of the abstract war you misinterpreted", that sorta thing, like... Super abstract world/land.

Contemplation in some sense doesnt even begin until youve cracked that nut, that your own brain is stuck on back in the LSD or magic mushroom experience (i cant speak to what is being experienced on DMT) So for that reason, alot of people dont find there to be any reason to contemplate. But a special few people do see that as an important invitation, beyond it being real weird, and that is who continues to contemplate (or are doing so on a progressive level—though this also crosses into a how creative are they territory, in regards to how progressive and what it means to progress) Alas, it sometimes means going through trauma to realize that it was the most important thing to carry on with thinking about, and not quite just remaining as the same calm or spiritual person, as we are speaking to an abrasive feeling—a noticeable change, stage/spectrum that, with more certainty & determination, t'which will be redirecting you (through a feedback mechanism between the parts of you who have a better vantage point) but another part of it is the guide, who makes sense of all of it and knows by which priority/vantage points should be the loudest, and which are dyadic chords that dont quite paint the full major/minor chord yet. So theres a strong element of programming that you have to do within all of that, else its not bound by any Earthly—down to ᴙþ foundation.

I had this really weird idea, to start numbering threads and posts 1 — 10... 10 being the lowest perspective and 1 being the ultimate after null point or zero, which represents a mythical source point. So its purely opinion on whether or not you think its something higher or lower, therefore no one would be able to say whether or not it is or isnt that number... And so i had an idea about how: everyone here is anonymous, and which gives us a kind of interesting meta perspective on the relationship we can have, and do have. We all share in the mystery, whereby nothing between us is defined in a way that has clear meaning, or visual associations to it. We might think we know what someone is like, but that doesnt give any indication about who they are (the brain cannot record any further identity) not to mention that from a meta perspective we dont have an identity at all (ask; what is identity pointing to? nothing.) and/or a single thing that we can point to for "self", from the meta (anyway, thats going off track from what im tryina say here...) So the *anonymob* (as ive randomly rated it, is an "8" since its so external) it just represents the fact that we are all anonymous here, and thus have the freedom to swim within each other, changing who we are if we want, learning, transforming, living as everyone and anyone. And thats a superpower that people from prior centuries did not have. So... WELCOME, anonymob. I just thought i would share that with yous, as i often do provoke yous to think, and think. alas, its not my forte, to go on these long shpeels. Nor am i doing it for any reason at all. I just am always brought back by a simple question: "what adds quality to the world, even though it might be sacrificing time and energy, even though it could be a gamble since others might not want, or have the strength/ability to be awake, alert—as two or mòre wise men to witness each other..." I continue to take that chance. Anyway, i dont have a question to leave yous, or a common thread or topic, i only mean to activate the frontal lobes or whatever, and to get the brains pumping so that yous can go on to do productive things w/,whatever you believe may be productive.

okay wait, going by what im seein , its then a little different then "insert belief", output action... Instead its like "the direction you just leaned is the direction that starts to unfold", which surely can be investigated. experimented with, etc. lota room to try things, in both a physical as well as a meta sense.

Yes i get it everyone is right. But wait, someone had another comment in the thread, and i dont know where it is now. i mustve halucinated it, as i was buildin off of its logic (in the middle of constructing a message), and now its gone.

- ColorZilla (i often need to see the hex color code for a given shade of color from an image/picture or some attribute of a website, therefore ColorZillas eyedropper is to pick up a color, a color wheel lets you scroll through colors, and you can of course store these colors-w/ what i thinks like a clipboard for color, as well a way to generate gradients, etc. though ive never used the gradient thingamajigger...) - Imagus (a way to enlarge any image, picture, thumbnail, etc. by hovering your mouse over, or setting it such that, e.g. pressing [Shift] would enlarge them - as its kindve annoying if everywhere you put your mouse was enlarging an image to max size... also, you can probably control which size youd rather have it enlarged to)

@abgespaced This is one issue... "focusing on your breath" is a high level aspect to meditation, and unless youve been doing it awhile, your actually doing it wrong... If you are confused then it sounds like you need to learn from the beginning (alot of people dont know these things anyway, so alot of people are about to learn, not just you) You are doing it wrong.... Why is that? 1. When you focus on your breath you interrupt your natural breathing mechanism (the act of being conscious of, makes it such that you cant un-focus on it) however when youve been doing it awhile, this line between conscious and unconscious breath work gets blurred... If this makes sense to you, stop focusing on your breath. 2. If you breathe too hard then you are activating your adrenal glands (this is better for when you are cold or are in a situation where you need to do something thats physically intensive)... Nevertheless, it would be a mistake too try breathing beyond what you would be doing in a relaxed state (ask yourself, does it make sense to have adrenaline activated while you are trying to relax?) The key idea here is "being relaxed", and should be what you are aiming for. Not enough people know this, so when they are just starting, they get tripped up on simple things like this. 3. Theres actually some methodology going on, that you havent mentioned in your post beyond the fact that you've been focusing on the void, which leads to "moving physically towards the centre of the physical sensations", that is to say that (i have to assume) that you are still trying to focus on the back of your eyes on what you call the void. That is fine... You can focus on the void. Dont change this part... (edit: you shouldnt consider it as "focusing on the back of your eyes", but rather, its just that your eyes need something in front of them, and you are leaving them to look at either the back of your eyes OR, the room around you. Neither really are better or worse, and so you are just leaving your eyes to be with whatever they are looking at, as opposed to "focusing" with your eyes, if that makes sense) 4. What you do have to change is what you are focusing on (within the body) as you get "deeper or more comfortable", as it always begins as a kind of "settling into the body"... That is to say, you are suppose to start by focusing your energy on the "temple lobes"... or a region near the sides of your head, such that it builds up, wherein you would be moving all your focus towards the center of your head, or a vague area near that region (the focus you put towards the temples grows, so... it might also be considered a "growing of sensations" or activations within the head, via temporal (temple) lobes) Theres alot more, but... lets just start small so you can get the basics down first.

Being right Not only is reality is filled with a whole lot of question marks (questions not alot of people give the time to investigate) it means theres a wide area, a pasture of questions that people feel the need to answer (a world of mysteries leads to questions, questions to answers) This ties in to an organic system/chemicals, and the internal dialogue, a self validation mechanism makes it feel like they are saying something right when it just is more of a feel good to say it, as opposed to "am i showing empathy to this persons situation as well as determing if im just flat out wrong...", or it could just be a random feeling, a stray hair emotion being cast out... whatever the case, that sentiment towards 'wanting to be right all the time' can be deepened to include more than the self, but to ask if/and when others are right, and if its showing respect/sympathy towards their condition, or if it is just assuming that they are a certain way. It helps to get to know the other person. Nevertheless, we take the "happy, happy am i right-" mechanism for granted, as many people dont know their entire life depends on it. That is, you would begin to break down if the seat of your throne was either dethroned or staggered between unhappy things (theres a balance of uptakes vs downtakes you dont know yous are doing everyday to keep yourselves straight/even) its both physical and mental, working together.