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I've found a channel that gives a daily analysis about the situation. I've only watched a few of those videos and I see that his view is a a bit skewed towards the russian side but never the less does he give a good overview about what's happening and the strategies of both the ukrainian and russian forces because he also takes russian sources into account. But take all this with a little grain of salt and use this as complementary info to make sense of the situation.

@Leo GuraAs far as I know lebanon is pretty chill about doing pickup and partying. Even people from saudi arabia go there to party and hook up.

I was wrong about the concentration in my earlier post. Can this editet post be deleted or hidden? If not, then just ignore it.

The video is nice but this isn't a breakthrough. Unfortunately what they have done has almost no consequences for research on nuclear fusion reactors because the design of the experiment isn't fit for extracting energy. It was constructed to do research on explosions. We have already had a little thread about it.

The russian troops have broken through major defensives of the ukrainians. Seems that bakmut is about to fall soon and the way to sloviansk and kramatorsk will be open shouldn't the ukrainian forces be able to stabilize the front in the open fields. The russians use what has always worked for them. Attack through sheer mass and brute force and it works because the ukrainian troops are forced to through soldiers and material back at them to slow them down and have casualties in similiar numbers. But the ukrainians have a higher survival rate if heavily injured. Last december I read in the newspaper an interview with an former us special forces soldier who trains ukrainian rekrutes and he told that they have only a few weeks to train the soldiers because ukrainien forces have problems to replace them because the fighting grinds both armies down.

Hello, I'm writing here because I need some advice and inspiration. Also to write here a little bit about me because I'm intent to be more involved in the personal developement and dating section and it's better to write my troubles somewhere if people need some context and I hopefully won't need to repeat myself too much. I also think talking a bit about my situation for relieve and other opinions also plays a part. I'm 33 years old and I have several issues I'm working on at the same time. First is I've had an accident 4 years ago where I was on the brink of dying and got a crazy near death experience. I shattered my feet, broke my neck and elbow and spent 11 months in a wheel chair and more than 2 years and 7 operations to fix my feet to the point where I can almost live a mostly normal live. It was really tough because I increased my feet situation bit by bit, from 1/2 mile a day walking to 3,4 over years. The only thing I can't do is jump or run or hike or stand more than 4-5 hours without pause, which isn't that big of an issue. But it is expected that I will need a few more operations because some parts in my feet aren't functioning and are causing arthrosis. But when that will happen, I don't know... might be next year or in 7-8 year. But as you might assume that got me really traumatized and I got more ptsd as I already had. But I made a lot of progress over the years and processed in therapy a lot of childhood of childhood and early adulthood trauma. I survived a shooting where my father was killed when I was 8 and when I was 19 at a party my drug addicted cousin tried to stab me because I tackled him when he went mad on speed and tried to hurt people. After that I had constant arousal and axiety attackes and didn't even know that I had ptsd. I worked for a while as lab technician, then I went to night school and made up for my degree as the 4th best to get access to university and started to study biomolecular engineering but in the first semester had to abort because of the accident. So until april or so last year things had improved considerably. I was able to do sports again like juggling in an artistic meet up, did regularly kriya yoga, spent sometimes some days and nights in a buddhist monastry, bike riding, swimming etc and was socialising a lot and just talking to people and approaching girls and dancing a little. I also restarted university but this time process engineering because this one I can do in parttime. I also set my diet right. It also looks as if I could stop taking medics and start a part time job by the end of the year. The only thing that bothered me was the nightmare of being chased and killed me and sleep paralysis which both occured in phases and I've got some resistence to falling asleep. So what happened 8 months ago was that my therapist who was exceptionally good concluded the sesions after two years because she changed location and does only private sessions from then on During the end it also looked like as if I wouldn't need more therapy because I was quite stable and my life good and I lived in the now and was quite happy and my consciousness was expanding. But I under estimated which stabilizing part she played to calm me down and reminded me to be loving and that everything was quite well and that I had to check the facts so I don't worry so much. Then I tried hypnosis with binaural beats and it fucked my brain waves up and triggered my ptsd. That caused me to not sleeping a few days which caused more stress and more tension and put me more in survival mode and that went so far that I hadn't slept for 2 weeks and got a panick attack that I'd get a psychosis from that and I was for a big time in survival mode. But also from hypnosis I never got to sleep, only to a trance and that went on the whole summer and I got really depressed and restarted unhealthy coping mechanisms because I was for a big part in automatic mode and got hooked up on sleeping pills which didn't worked after some time. So I thought I could do some holiday in a remote buddhist monastry and there I hurt my knee on a stair and since then I've got both knees inflamed and haven't been able to be active again and can only walk small distances and I'm not able to stand for longer periods. The doctors said that it will heal on it's own probably but it might take another 6-12 months probably and I have to do physical therapy and if that doesn't work an operation comes in consideration. But this is very taxing because I can't do a lot of things and I'm de facto disabled again and when my knees hurt more I my ptsd gets triggered which brings me in to survival mode. But in spite of that and the tiredness I still go to university and do that because I like it and it gives me meaning and structure, even though I'd be more fulfilling to do something where I could be more of service. So right now my sleep got better and I have only one or 2 sleepless nights a week on everage and even sometimes I sleep my 7 or 8 hours (mostly 5-6h) Maybe you guys have an idea what might help me to calm down and get me some stability and bring my sleep in order. Right now I don't take sleeping pills but some medication that's supposed to make me tired but doesn't because of the arousal they don't work properly. Sometimes I feel that I don't do enough and feel bad about it or I feel extremely stressed out because so much doesn't go according to my plans and I can't relax. It's hard to accept that and the lot I've drawn in the lottery of life. It also sucks to have lost contact to love and being in pain and being trapped in a very dense unaware ego state. My plan is to get a new therapist and process some of the emotions because in trauma mode I lose access to them and they accumulate over time put me under pressure. What do you think? should I just settle for a mediocre therapist and get not so good therapy but better then none or look for a good one, which might take longer? Or is it better to talk to depressed friends because they understand my situation better or look for new people? I'm afraid that my depressed and hopeless vibe turns other people of. As they say the vibe attracts the tribe. I'm also considering taking a few times a medium dose of psychedelics to process some emotions and to reintegrate some parts so that the pressure is lessened. A week ago I had a test and it went better as I expected and I was able to relax for 4 days and sleep better and learn productively. I know that I have to take care and assess each time.

I have just had one experience were I mixed them both once. I took 3g of very potent golden teachers and halb a tab lsd. The previous shrooms I tried were far less potent so I thought to add half a tab lsd and was taken aback from the unexpected strength of the trip. As I remember the were two peaks and first I was yawning from the shrooms and then came the high body load from lsd. The visuals weren't that great for me and everything their texture was like plastique.

@bloomerI If I remember correctly she had been detained 3 times during the protests. Nothing noteworthy though. Many people were detained at the protests for non violent resistance and disobidience. @bloomerI don't get your point. Can you elaborate?

It's always good to study examples of other people who had stried this earlier and how it went. I have two examples of people who had the same idea. First the autonomous hippy commune christiania in denmarks capital that needed rules and started as high concious egalitarian project with drugs. Ok partly the cause that it derailed so much is that it's a city inside a city. The other one was quite remote in tolino. It was mostly a nice place and started out without rules but succumbed to crime and problems with the people living in the small town next to it. The owner of the property finally died of cancer but stated that he was burned out from the years of policing and leading it. I think additionally to what the others said one of reasons such a project couldn't work is that it's for most people it's hard to estimate other peoples level of consciousnes and level of developement and therefore you don't know who you actually will be letting in as well as the open heartedness of stage green which easily gets exploited from stage red individuals.

I'd be cautious with this kind of videos. it's quite misleading and fear mongering. It's not made clear that this video was just a hypothetical video to start a discussion about this topic and where we could be in a few decades if technology advances this far from now on and the video is not made from the same scientist who do the research. To make it clear, this factory does not exist. Though the phtalates part is in a big part true and I agree with the overall message but he exegerrates quite a bit and takes info out of context and this channel doesn't seem very reliable from the way this is twisted. I find babies from artificial wombs quite controversial from the ethical point of view. On the one hand this could really help people, especially women with fertility problems or women in their late thirties. The researchers who develope this who are not the people who produced the video intend to develope this for babies born prematurely. But yeah, this might just be a starting point. On the other hand there is the danger of the designer baby which could be abused. But realistically there are so many conservatives which will set strict rules for usage and control of this technology. However, I think that in a few hundred years from you will be able to design your children, maybe in more or less strict boundaries but it's going to be a normal thing. Also there are other ways which this technology could open up like lab grown meat or a way of creating single organ organisms from stem cell although both brings along ethical problems on their own. https://www.google.com/amp/s/amp.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2020/jun/27/parents-can-look-foetus-real-time-artificial-wombs-future https://www.reuters.com/article/factcheck-concept-artificial-womb-idUSL1N33C1L5

Yeah, I'm sure this is real. Those who know datura know it can be one of the most fucked up things you can do. You get real hallucinations, often forget that they have taken it and get confused and somtimes trip for days. You can go to erowid and read a few reports on that. I've also read a few reports where poor people had effects for months and years and had hddp and were in need of antipsychotics for years.

I think leo is right on that. For example in Ghana there is a lot of illegal gold mines and some of their waste products are Pb, Cd and mercury. there are also huge scrap yards in were old electronics from around the world end up and the people there burn them down to extract cupper and other metals and all that goes down into the soil and the ground water supply. Also some of it pollutes the air and comes down with the rain. I guess that's kind of karma for us. Additionally there is so much other pollution. Lot's of people there don't even have sewing so it goes in the ditch in front of the houses and sinks into the ground water. https://environmentalsystemsresearch.springeropen.com/articles/10.1186/s40068-016-0067-0

It might vary from person to person but for me without getting a bodyload I find shrooms relaxing and yawning and I sleep quite well afterwards. I assume it depends how you use them. I you take them and listen to calm music or classic and close your eyes and dive into the space between things you will sleep well afterwards. All psylocibite cubensis shrooms have basically the same composition and vary only slightly, so it won't matter which one of them you choose, same with truffles. Maybe if you take another genus but that would take too much effort. armanita makes you sleepy but it is to easy to get poisened from it and it has toxins in it anyway. But if you just worried about arousal preventing you from sleep afterwards then ordinary shrooms should word just fine, as long as you don't listen to too energetic music, or do activities that arouses you. But I'd still advocate against pissing a good a tool as shrooms away with recreational usage under the week. ;-)

As an addition to tje other posts, on erowid are a few reports of seizures caused from huge doses or mixing it with something else. Sometimes it also just happens if you are prone to it or just had bad luck. There are many factors at play and I recomend harm reduction like only as much as needed and set and setting. Btw this can happen with most of the triptamines.

Alan Watts did lots of Zazen and took lsd and dmt. There are interviews where he talks about it.

@Leo Guraisn't it possible that after one dies his dream goes on to another form within the dream without becoming the absolute? Can you please elaborate about the flaws of reincarnation into animals and back? Isn't it possible that this energy has a continuity?

Sciences is mostly survival oriented like everything else. Somebody has to fund advancement of mankind and if the goverment underfund it then they have to turn towards somebody else. The way science is done is to research in areas which can create huge value for people. But on the other side this is clearly problematic because most people don't value fairness and sustainability or only to a certain extend.

On erowid are dozens of trip reports about amanita. I've read that the concentration of alcaloides can vary greatly which can lead to poisoning and the trips were more dreamy.

That's sounds hard. I feel with you. @roopepa I had twice a similiar experience where it felt as the people in television where conscious of me and giving me massages and I had to decide every moment the right action and there was also the way of killings myself and a little time it seemed as if my trip wanted me to do it, like I really had to do it and I was frightened and so greatful to come back because I also had closed eye visions but at the second time I saw through it as creation of the little self and deception then bam and it disappeared instantly with reality and I let go completely. when I came back this never happened again

Once I ate 3 g shrooms from the same batch as I tried 2 weeks earlier and they turned out to be double the strength of what I got before and I was so shocked from the unexpected god experience that I freaked out and prepared to call an ambulance because it also got so wacky and bending. But I managed to go through it and learned a lot. After that I needed just 1g to get into god mode and i was fine. Another time I was on 100yg 1pls and 100yg lsd 52 and I broke through to different realities and in one of these was a devil and I was in hell, in another I was a king and some more. I spent thete there years and I came back and it was as if all these worlds had a negativity and I grasp that the main reason was clinging and those things were not me and then suddenly reality stopped existing completely and I was as god in a completely different realm as nothing and I could transform for eternity as what I wanted and when It became a bore I came back and was so happy that I let go completely. As I watched on the clock this all happened in only 2 minutes of time and I knew why. Before I let go this was a very difficult tine for me because some of the visions/different realities threatened me. Yet another few times I had difficulties letting go and I was literaty stuck in hell and verywhere where I looked I saw devils and was in agony and horror. But it was still managable although quite painful and yet I learnt more about set and setting and that I can go through literal hell. Another trip on lsd I completely dissolved in reality and was in different parallel worlds where I lived and died knowing it was a dream and that went on for several lives and it suck so much because I didn't saw the love and unity aspect and I begged it to stop. I guess it was only a partial awakening. Finally when I came back I was so thankful for it. A friend of mine did before I met him a salvia trip and he spent there the equivalent of years as a slave for those salvia entities working to keep the vortexes to salvia world open and even had a life there and friends and when he came back he was heavily traumatized from the treatment by the enteties and the loss of his life and the beings he met there during the time there. So for me salvia is definitely a no go since he told me that.

For those of you who don't know there are few smart shops in the netherlands that actually sell 5 meo, aco dmt and lsd derivates in their store. It's just not where all the tourists go. Best do a little bit of research and you'll find out.

Sry, for upsetting the good news. It's nice that they took this hurdle but it's just an exaggeration and probably unimportant for reactors for energy generation because these reactor types are have more complicated problems to solve than magnetic ones. if we hadn't had a energy crisis I doubt that it would have made the news. It's true that more energy came out than they shot in but it's still a tiny amout to the actual energy belance like generating the laser beam so they still used more energy than and they got out of it. So they are still miles away from a functioning fusion reactor and if the funding isn't increased I wouldn't bet my life on seeing it on the grit.

I think if they are in the wrong conditions their negative programming aka trauma gets always triggerred and addiotional bad habit, then it's hard to developed yourself. Also if you supress it you might do that during a trip too and you get nothing out of it.

@Leo Gura but the teaser has the disadvantage of having only one shot and if you miss that one you're in big trouble.

It's good that police have guns. I won't go into details but they saved my live in a shoot out when I was a child and where I live guns are strictly regulated.