Jordan

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  1. I have been meditating around 40 minutes before bed and not anything in the morning the last 2 days. I have been tired. I slept 9 hours last night and am feeling good now. I have been remembering my dreams. 2 nights ago I dreamt that I met a rock climbing youtuber Magnus and we made a video about shooting BBs at each other wearing safety glasses then I met a SC2 youtuber uThermal and for some reason I thought he know Magnus and I mentioned that I met him also. Last night I was playing a videogame in my dream. I remember picking a hero and breaking boxes to get items and weapons to start with in the game. I might need to go to bed even earlier if I am sleeping 9 hours and still want to meditate in the morning.
  2. Hello, I wanted to create a new journal as I plan to start meditating consistently again. Goal: Meditate for an hour 2x per day without missing a day for 1 year. Plan: Start with mantra meditation for the whole hour where I just spend the whole time focusing on the sound of the mantra as I internally repeat it in my mind. I can also contemplate the meaning of the mantra "Bama Nam Kevalam" which means something like "Infinate love is all there is" Previous benefits: Before it gave me vivid dreams which was really cool. I also saw visions of the future stock market moves which made me some money. Some important things I learned from meditating before is: -Have no goals or expectations as you meditate (yes I do have a goal to meditate but as I meditate I need to start out by forgetting my goals or fantasies of what could happen and just experience what happens as it happens.) -Know it is 100% ok and expected to get distracted, just continue with the practice and be aware of what is happening now. -Set an alarm and have a reason to wait until the time is up - I will increase the time by 20 minutes if I stop and the start again as soon as I can. I will start after I go rock climbing today. 2024-11-10 I will update with how it goes.
  3. I missed a few days. I will see if I can start up again and see how many days I can get in a row 1 hour 2x per day starting tomorrow, 2024-11-26. I set my alarms for 4:20am and 7:20pm repeating every day so I can get ready to meditate by around 4:30am and 7:30pm.
  4. I only did 2x 10 minute sits since I really find it hard to stop and take 10 minutes away from what I am doing. today I will try my best to do a few more times and work my way up to once every 1-3 waking hours over the next week and see how it goes.
  5. I missed a couple days of meditation. I have been spending a lot of time with my girlfriend and value getting enough sleep a lot. Walking meditation doesn't seem the best I am considering doing more shorter meditation sits instead of hour long ones so I don't get back pain from it. Maybe 10 minutes of moving slowly through the chakras with a slow breath around 1x every hour or 2 would be better than 2x 1 hour sits per day. Then I can really put all my effort into it for the whole time and usually I don't have trouble entering a meditative state in around 10 minutes so I should be able to learn to do it much faster if I practice it that much. A possible schedule: 5am sit 6am sit 9am sit 10am sit 11am sit 12pm sit 2:45pm sit 4:30 sit 5:30 sit 6:30 sit 7:30 sit 8:30 sit I am not sure the best place for a 10 minute meditations at work. Maybe I can sit at one of the workbenches that faces to the the wall and pretend I am looking at my computer. I will try doing some today and see how it goes.
  6. I did 4 hours yesterday 2 hours sitting then my back was sore so I did 2 hours lying down. I might do walking meditation instead of sitting meditation because it will benefit my body more. 1 walked for 1.5 hours this morning focusing on my senses and my thoughts. I made sure to think of things in the about the present moment and not bother with future or past. it felt pretty good. I might go for another 1.5 hour walk so I am all caught up with 2 hours per day average.
  7. Finally it is Saturday. I slept in an extra 2 hours from normal. I am 3 hours behind so if I do 5 hours today I will be caught up. I just did an hour this morning. I was feeling really good by then end. I did the focusing on the chakras technique followed by contemplating the difference between content and structure then becoming one with my experience. It felt like I was making love with experience. I feel good right now like my body is having a constant mini orgasm. I play videogames with my uncle and brother Saturday morning so after that I will cook and eat some food then meditate some more.
  8. I did 30 minutes last night and 30 minutes this morning so I am behind 3 hours. Last night I felt bored out of my mind during meditation but this morning I was feeling good like I could keep going for a long time but it was time to get ready for work. This morning I didn't do much mantra meditation. I contemplated what truth was and why I thought my head existed separate from the sensations I have of it now. I felt into my physical sensations and emotions a lot. On Saturday I will see if I can catch up on the time I lost during the week. Hopefully it can be like the meditation I had this morning and I can just sit in bliss for 5-6 hours
  9. I only did 30 minutes last night and 30 minutes this morning so I am behind 2 hours now. I don't think I will have enough time to make it up until Saturday because I want to spend time with my girlfriend. I seem to need a lot of sleep to keep up my energy for meditating. If I have enough energy to do extra I will. I was feeling really tired this morning when meditating so I took a nap instead of doing the last 30 minutes.
  10. I do a similar thing when I go for a walk during the summer. I will ask myself "is it possible to completely accept everything that exists right now?" then just pay attention to what is happening right now and accept it without coming up with an answer in words. I will rephrase it in different ways like "Can I be completely at peace with everything as it is now?" It gets me in a conscious state as I go for my walk.
  11. I only meditated 1 hour yesterday so I will see if I can do 3 hours today to make up the time. This morning I started with a meditation where I put my focus on my chakras going down my body as I breath in then the spots along the spine that align with the chakras on the way up as I breath out. That got me in a meditative state pretty quickly. I started out 2-3 heartbeats at each section and slowed down to 5-6 over time. Then I went back to mantra meditation. At some points I had clear internal images fairly close to what I see with my eyes but they didn't last long. I had some dreams but didn't bother writing them down. They weren't too vivid.
  12. The experience you are having right now is spiritual.
  13. Yes, for now I will let myself do it if I feel it is getting too uncomfortable. After a while I might put the timer in another room. I did that before and it worked well. I meditated last night. After 30 minutes I was already struggling and looked at the timer. I stuck with it and did the best I could for the rest of the time. I don't think I had too many takeaways from it. Just practicing. I remembered a lot of my dreams from last night. Usually I forget shortly after waking up. This is what I wrote down in my phone after waking up: I was holding 2 steaks walking in the snow to a party. 2 bears blocked my path. I placed the steaks on the ground for them but they wouldn’t eat it. I called for help as I was close to the house that was throwing the party. My grandpa came outside and the bears slowly turned around and wandered off and I got inside. I remember being scolded for wasting the steaks and putting them on the ground. I was playing a game similar to age of empires. I was not confident in my skills. I watched someone play and they built just one hero and teched up while attacking with the hero and doing some damage. I asked how I could get that hero and found out I needed to purchase that civilization. I was at work. The IT guy started checking the computer I was using saying the webcam was keeping track of what was going on on the computer and it wasn’t company approved. He ran a scan on the computer and found some personal files of mine. I was afraid he would find something pornographic or something but he didn’t. I was at a car about to go to the airport and had some scissors in my bag. I was contemplating taking them with me through security at the airport. There was a box sitting behind the car. I had forgotten it at the hotel and someone had delivered it there. I then remembered I left it and forgot about it when I went out and met those bears from before. That is basically what I remember. Today I started meditating but last night I ate very spicy food so I decided to meditate on the toilet. I decided I would just keep going about my morning routine while meditating repeating the mantra and pausing if I am unable to keep focus on it. I think if I try this all day it will benefit my seated meditation. I could do it while on the toilet and cooking food and doing some cleaning but not when writing this now. I will see what I can do at work. I might do a short seated meditation before work.
  14. I meditated last night and this morning. It became uncomfortable in the last 15 minutes of both of them. I moved around and looked at the timer a few times. I did feel good afterward like my brain was massaged. I had a dream that I forgot soon after waking up. I felt a bit stressed from the dream. It was not a vivid dream though. I only slept around 6 hours. Usually I sleep around 7-8 hours.
  15. @Sugarcoat Sounds good. I wish you luck with your goal I meditated for an hour a little while ago. I got a message from my landlord 52 minutes in to help with something so I did the rest of the time after without adding 20 minutes. The time seemed to go by pretty quickly. I nodded off a bit maybe around 8 times but eventually I got more energized and focused. I heard something outside my window which got me laser focused listening to what was there while still doing the mantra. I did my best to stay focused with continuous internal noise/silence listening. I am feeling good now.
  16. Hey, I stopped meditating for a while and am getting back into it. I wanted to share a technique that consistently gets me in a state with a lower rate of thoughts and more clear and pleasant sense of sight, touch and sound. I am not sure if it will work for everyone but it works for me. You can take inspiration from it and do it in your own way if you want. What you will be doing is focusing on 6 of your chakras starting from your third eye down to your root chakra. You might need to look up all the locations but I will describe them here a bit: -Third eye, a bit above the spot between your eyebrows -Throat, at your Adams apple -Heart, in the middle of your chest by your heart -Solar plexus, around 1-2 inches above your belly button -Sacral, by your pubic bone -Root, between your anus and groin What you do is at a time of around 2 heart beats place your attention on the third eye then move down to the throat for 2 heartbeats and so on until you get to the root chakra. Then go up your spine in the spots that line up with the chakra for 2 heartbeats each, the base of the spine being the root chakra and the top of the spinal cord being the third eye. It will take a bit of practice to be able to put your attention in those spots accurately and quickly. you can go a bit slower if you need to but try to go at a decent pace. When you get to the top of your spinal cord then go back you your third eye and lengthen the amount of time you stay at each point. every cycle will get slower and slower. when it gets slow enough you can use a breath's length of time then slow down the breath or do 2 breaths of time at each point. Gradually slowing the pace will slow your mind as well and you will generally slip into a meditative state at this point. From this point it is up to you what you want to do in this state. You can do another meditation technique if you want or just sit and enjoy how you are feeling. Good luck. If it works for you then let me know. If it doesn't work for you then let me know.
  17. You only know your experience here and now but you can believe all sorts of stuff. Just use your imagination. You don't really need to believe anything else exists but it is useful to use a model of reality with other things existing a tool to predict what will happen next. It is how you survive as a separate self.
  18. I like this concept. I already knew having a goal or a reason for doing something put you in the future imagination and more asleep but the way it is described in the video helped me understand more deeply. I also thought maybe instead of focusing on part of the present moment, focus on all of it equally. It makes me feel like I am tripping when I do that for a few seconds. I will try experimenting with that.
  19. I sometimes talk about concepts Leo talks about with people but I pull back when enough resistance comes up. I will usually just try to understand their point of view instead and agree with them if they really seem closed to other possibilities after a bit of poking.
  20. It has been a while since I took 5-meo dmt but thinking back on it I remember more that I didn’t mention before. I get a desire to stay perfectly still and that includes breathing very slowly. It feels incredibly good to stay as still as possible. Then it feels like you are dissolving but instead of pain it feels like love and relaxation as you turn into something more like a gas. You can’t feel your body or your breath but you remember that you could before just recently which makes you wonder if you are breathing or not. It is a bit scary not knowing if your body stopped breathing.
  21. I did a 3.5 day water fast and noticed nothing good from it. I did some 1 day dry fasts and it seemed much more beneficial spiritually.
  22. I couldn't feel any breath or even any part of my body for a while on 5-MEO DMT but I am not sure if that is because I was so focused that those sensations were just completely gone. I am guessing my body was still breathing fairly normally if someone was there observing it.
  23. If you can make everything a meditation then I would agree with you but most people including myself are unable to make everything a meditation. The monotonous meditation techniques are the easy mode where you learn without as many distractions. Then you can increase the difficulty. Especially when around other people it is much more difficult. In terms of a trap, I would say doing tons of seated meditation without learning to bring the mediation to the rest of your life would be the trap. To tell you the truth I have been replacing much of my sitting meditation time with walking in the park and doing the exercise from the “guided exercise to realizing you are god” video. Also I will contemplate asking questions such as: “Can I be fully at peace with everything as it is right now?” as I walk. I would still call that meditation because I am entering meditative states as I do that. Also yes, I would rather go to Europe since there are many new experiences I could have there and it would be more expensive if I had to pay myself. I could just go to Costa rica another time The costa rica trip is still very tempting though.
  24. Meditation is a term that covers both meditative states and meditative techniques. Meditative states are those states in which you are more calm and focused than usual. When you say you are meditating, you are doing a technique in order to have a higher chance of entering a meditative state. I think you can make a good argument that you can get many of the benefits without putting a lot of time into it. I haven't been meditating much recently but I would like to be more consistent because when I am it seems to allow me to enjoy my life much more. It helped me learn to really enjoy simple things at a level of blissfulness I would never have before when walking in the park or driving to work ext. It is like sharpening an axe before chopping wood. You seem to think people can just go travel the world and be just as mindful whether or not they meditate. That doesn't seem to be the case for me. The difference between going a year without meditating and meditating daily for 3-4 months is quite obvious in my level of contentment and making wise choices, my understanding of situations overall.
  25. If you want energy Just focus on keeping your body and mind healthy. Work on your sleep quality, lower stress, exercise, eat well, socialize. You don't need to look for some secret meditation technique to cultivate energy.