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I have been meditating 45+ min in the morning and 30+ min at night and 2-3+ hours on the weekend days over several sits. The longest I have sat was 1hr 35 min. I work until 10:30pm so the night time meditation I am often a bit tired to do more than 30 min. My understanding now is there is a mind that has the internal thoughts, emotions and external see hear feel arise within it. What determines what is being experienced within the mind is not determined by one thing. It is due to many causes and effects. There is no one in control of what thoughts, emotions, environments take place. There are thoughts that try to create fragments that believe they are separate beings and try to control and dominate the rest of the experience to serve itself but fragment is one with the rest of the experience. I will see if I can better understand what "mind" and "consciousness" revers to when I and others use those terms while meditating for the next week or so.

Ok thanks for responding everyone. I have many things to consider now. I will have to go over this a bit more to better understand I think. I will meditate tonight and tomorrow morning and see if I have a better understanding.

Hello, I have not read much here about dry fasting and always thought until recently of fasting as being no food but including drinking water. I have watched many videos from the "meditation steps" YouTube channel. It is a YouTube channel on Tantra Yoga meditation and practices. One of the things they recommend is doing a dry fast two times per month. The directions are to eat a light dinner the night before the fast then go the whole next day without eating or drinking anything. You wait until at least sunrise the day after your fasting day to break the fast with around 1 liter of very salty water with lemon. The water will be expelled from your stomach very quickly and clean out your colon and you will be on the toilet after around 20 min to 1 hour releasing it. Today I am in the middle of my 3rd dry fast and I wanted to share my experience so far. I have also been meditating 2x per day for the last 6-7 weeks I think as recommended in that YouTube channel. (averaging around 1.5 hours per day I would guess) During my first dry fast I worked overtime at my work. I was a bit concerned about getting a migraine from being dehydrated but I ended up feeling quite good. I was very conscious of how I was breathing making sure each breath was though my nose, deep and slow to conserve water. Emotionally I felt good on the day of the fast. I meditated 2x that day and the night time meditation was a bit better than usual. The next day I broke the fast with the salt water. Not much of the water went through my intestines as I expected. I am guessing most of it of got stuck or there was not enough salt and it got absorbed into my body. The day I broke the fast I felt more tired than usual. drinking water never felt so good though. The second dry fast, the biggest difference was that my night time meditation was much more concentrated. It was like I took a small dose of 5MEO DMT. I was able to focus and contemplate leagues above my regular sober meditation and contemplation. The next morning when I drank the 1 litre of water it was all expelled and I felt like I was really cleaned out well inside. This is the 3rd time today. I took the day off work today and it is the first time not working during a dry fast. I took a long nap mid day and did not even do my morning meditation. After around 6pm I sat in meditation for 1.5 hours taking a break to go to the washroom after an hour or so. I started out feeling pretty normal but quickly got very focused. I remember thinking about how I could die at any moment and It makes sense to give my full attention to this meditation. The fasting really helped me see that I am mortal. I started meditating then went into contemplation without realizing it after becoming very focused. I kept trying to experience the difference between thoughts and the experience of my sight and body sensations. I realized that in trying to know the present experience, I compare it with my memory and concepts. The problem with this is that memory and concepts are qualitatively different than the present experience of my sight and touch perceptions. It does not make sense to think you know experience by comparing it with a model of it. Understanding something as a model does not give you any knowing of it. The only way to know the present experience is to become it. Anyways, I just wanted to write this to give myself a break before getting back to meditating. Please share your thoughts or experience on water or dry fasting and it's effect on your meditation, contemplation or consciousness. If people are interested I might give an update after a few more dry fasts.

If you want to alter your consciousness it seems so far with my limited experience, combining 1 day dry fasting with an extra long evening meditation sit is worth trying out.

I have been doing mantra meditation for a while but am interested in learning about my emotions and chakras so I will just put my awareness on body sensations as long as it takes to know them enough to be satisfied. Just pick one that is interesting to you and try to stick with it until something else really seems compelling for you to do.

I tried water fasting for 1 day, 2 days, 2.5 days, 3.5 days and noticed no benefits and felt unwell afterwards. Dry fasting has seemed to have a different effect for me but there may be other factors I am not considering. I would really love to do a strict 10 day meditation retreat. I have not set my life up to be able to do 10 days strictly. I will have to get on that

I plugged 4 full scoops a couple hours ago. My attention was much more focused than the other trips. I was sitting up how I normally meditate on my bed after the first 5 minutes. I took away that I need to spend less time trying to make my future better and more time figuring out how to enjoy the present moment. This shouldn't be done through seeking pleasure but by finding satisfaction whether there is pleasure or discomfort. It is nice to be able to concentrate well so I think continuing meditation 2x per day is a good idea. The last 6 weeks or so I have been meditating 2x per day averaging around 40 minutes each time. I want to start meditating 1.5 hours 2 times per day. Each 1.5 hour session I plan to do 3 different 30 min meditations one after the other. The plan is to do mantra meditation followed by body scanning vipassana followed by the do nothing meditation technique. When I first started meditating 2x per day I was getting extremely vivid dreams every night. I did have a vivid dream last night but it has not been every day for the last 2-3 weeks. I have been sleeping 5-8 hours usually averaging around 6.5 hours per night I think although I have not recorded the times. I was sleeping 8 hours average before meditating

Hahaha he thinks he is real. Everyone is not real, even you. Haven't you figured that out yet. But seriously, If you want your life not to be in shambles you need to realize that it does not matter if people are unreal or real. Important to believe everything is real right now if that really matters to you and will help ground your reality in something.

It seems like a lot of the advice to have your chakras working properly is to put your attention on them. I have been recently meditating 2x per day 40-60 min each time. Around half the time is focusing on the chakras. Is there something important I am missing about developing an understanding of my chakras or is this the main thing?

I read that article. I will write down the important parts. It says "kayakalpa" is the demention of yoga related on the muladhara chakra. It uses "aritma" which is a secretion from the pineal gland. Aritma can be used in 3 ways:1. to strengthen the body 2.to bring blissfulness so much that you do not care how long you live. 3 Increase your perception so much that you can remove all resistance in your system. It doesn't really tell you how to go about getting more aritma or how to use it. It does mention something about hatha yoga postures at the end. Does anyone have any info on aritma or kayakalpa? I guess I will search myself too.

Hello, I would like to share some things that have gotten my meditation to the next level. Around 4 weeks ago I decided to start meditating every day. I did 100 days of one 1hr per day a few years ago but fell off track and have been doing it every now and then since that time. I looked at some Youtube videos for inspiration and found this one called Meditation Steps. I followed the meditation technique. He also gives a lot of advice on how to improve your concentration outside of meditation. Some of that advice I am not willing to do but other things I will try out. Some of his advice is to not eat garlic, onions, meat, pour cold water over your belly, lower legs and lower arms and face before meditation, sing the mantra and dance before meditation, wear special underwear that keeps your penis from moving decreasing any distracting sensations, several others that you can find going through the videos. Previously, I watched all of Leo's meditation videos and really got great value from them but these meditation steps videos took my practice to another level. This is the first lesson on the basic meditation technique: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Msi5oaVbPU&t=13s The basic idea of the technique is to relax your muscles, imagine you are on top of a mountain or somewhere else that is beautiful, boundless and without other people. Once you are satisfied with that, focus on your breath until you achieve access concentration then start saying a mantra in your mind. The mantra is "Baba Nam Kevalam" meditate on that sound of your mind repeating the mantra over and over. After you are satisfied with that, you meditate on the meaning of the mantra which is basically "infinite love is all there is" or "Supreme consciousness is all there is." That is the steps he shares in this video. The only thing I add after this since I am meditating for a long time and want to do something else eventually is I scan my body especially around the 7 main chakra points. This is done at least 2x per day. Some benefits I have seen so far: I am much more aware of my emotions. If I judge or insult someone in my mind, I will instantly feel shame in my belly and realize that this pattern is hurting me. I wake up after 5-6 hours of sleep when I needed 8-9 hours before. I am still a bit sleepy but not as sleepy as if I would have gotten 5-6 hours of sleep every day before. I am in a much better mood even though I was generally in a good mood before. I am able to focus better at work and notice other people's emotions more. Sex with my girlfriend has improved a lot even though it was great before. I have been much more interested in meditating and learning about emotions than playing videogames which seems a better use of my time. If you are interested in starting a daily meditation practice I would recommend doing at least 10 minutes 2x a day with this technique and increasing your time slowly. my morning and nighttime routine: 1 Take a shower 2 End it with a cold shower splashing on my lower legs and arms, belly and face 3 Dry off 4. sing "Baba Nam Kevalam" while dancing and with my eyes closed 5. Set a timer for 1 hour 6. sit on a couple pillows on my bed and do the technique I hope this helps someone. Good luck.

So I guess the images of a concept are real but the meaning behind them is not true. I guess developing focus and consciousness of this beliefs / meanings vs the direct experience can help you develop an understanding that is more closely aligned with the truth. Maybe this way you can slowly move closer to being enlightened. Does this make sense to you or am I off?

I am still a bit confused. Do you see enlightenment as being fully conscious of the content of experience with the concepts removed? It is a little confusing because concepts can be seen as made up of truth. (The concept of a house is made up of the shapes, feelings and sounds of a house in your mind) How do you tell if your concepts exist? If you are aware of them then I guess it is considered truth as well right? People already differentiate your current perceptions and concepts. I guess differentiating itself is a concept. You see it is a bit tricky to wrap your mind around it with concepts. You can see making it infinitely complicated does not help to understand because there is a self referential problem. How do you understand anything without concepts? You can know the truth but not understand the truth without concepts. If someone was enlightened which makes them fully conscious of truth, how would they understand what someone says to them unless they go back to using concepts?

I plugged 25mg of 5MEO DMT HCL an hour ago just now and I wanted to share an insight I had. I kept repeating phrases that I wanted to remember until I wrote them down. What I ended up writing down in this order is "we know this but we want to understand" "this is all we know that is what I understand" "this is what I know. That is what I understand" "This" that I am referring to is the focus of your attention. It is the present experience. I have a strong desire to understand but all I can know is "this." All understanding is imaginary and can never be anything like "this." The difference between knowing and understanding is really bigger than I thought. This is what I know everything else is my understanding, also my imagination. It seems like the desire to understand can be a good source of motivation to do new things and read, contemplate, meditate. I really want to understand what chakras are, how understanding works, how everything works. I think the best way to go about this is to build my understanding off of direct experience as much as possible. If I learn something that seems to be true, I should try to verify it in direct experience so that I can "know it" and make the understanding aligned at least with the memory of "this." I pretty much just wanted to write my thoughts down during the end of this trip and I wanted to share in case anyone found it interesting/useful.

I took 4 scoops 1 hour ago. I had a realization that I want to share before I forget. "This is what I know. That is what I understand" The only thing you know is the present moment. The focus of your attention is "this" and "this" is what I know. everything that is not "this" is "that" and "that" is what I understand. I have a strong desire to understand but all I can know is "this." No matter how well you think you understand something it is all imaginary and the only thing that you know is "This." It makes everything you understand impossible to know because "this" is all I know. I hope that is clear. Earlier today I meditated 1 hour, took a 1 hour nap, watched some videos on chakras, meditated again for 40 min then took 4 scoops measured to 25mg of 5meodmt HCL (one of the scoops was maybe 0.75 of a scoop.

What people refer to with the word real is imaginary. All meaning is imaginary. All comparison is imaginary. The only thing that I am not sure is imaginary are the current sensations as they are without comparing them or creating meaning from them. That leaves over 99% of my and your experience as imagination.

I really enjoyed this latest episode. It did not make be feel bad or like he is contradicting everything he said in the past. It was really interesting to consider that god could expand itself infinity to other gods becoming one with them and that god could play a game with himself by becoming avatars to experience being limited. I think Leo said that everything is imagination but there are more consistent imaginations we call reality so those consistent imaginations could be differentiated from the inconsistent imaginations by calling the consistent ones reality and the inconsistent ones imagination. I think this is pretty simple and I am not sure why this would make people depressed. If you get depressed by one of Leo's episodes I think you are taking your interpretation of what he is saying much too seriously. You need to take your interpretation of what he said and see if it makes sense in your own experience and if it is actually negatively effecting your life, become aware of this effect and consider taking a break from these ideas. You can take some time to get your own understanding from meditation and being aware of what is true for you experimenting with your own ideas of what could be true.

I took 5MEO DMT 3 times since I last posted. 2 at 2.5 scoops which were much stronger than the last time. I defiantly was not in the mood to walk around. I did not seem to get much out of them but it did help me get used to how it feels. I took 3 scoops for the most resent one which was hard to know what was happening. I was very focused and my body felt like it was shaking a different parts. I felt some energy moving and had to gasp for air at some points as emotions / energy was moving through my body. After coming back from it I did feel very grateful for my girlfriend. I have been meditating averaging over an hour a day for the last 3 weeks or so. Some days it is around 3 hours, some days just 10 min. I started getting vivid dreams this last week and have been waking up in the middle of the night from them. They were nice dreams though. In one dream, I was sitting on a raft with a propeller on the back heading towards an island. As I got closer to the island I could see the most beautiful mountains and scenery all around me. There was some guy across from me talking about something not very important. I responded to him but I was just thinking why would this guy waist time with words? the surroundings were leaving me speechless. I was crying from being so happy. Later, I was being taught by someone how to meditate while free diving. I was expected to hold my breath for 4-5 min while sitting at the bottom of a small lake. In another dream I was traveling by foot. I think it was through china. I trespassed through people's farms making sure I was not spotted and asked a powerful person over a large screen voice chat for permission to cross his land so I could get to my destination. I could not remember my path I took to get there or where I started from when looking at a map. I forget my other ones right now but Maybe I will write them down in the mornings when I wake up. I have been pretty tired this week from waking in the middle of the night. I hope my sleep gets a bit better as I continue meditating a lot. I got Covid 19 the last couple weeks so I stopped taking the ALA and DMSA. I will do a chelation cycle staring Monday

I found it useful to switch from trying with all your effort and willpower to focus doing mindfulness with labeling then relaxing your effort and letting your subconscious take over. Eventually you will be able to focus much without putting effort into it and your consciousness will increase over time. It helps to have a good reason to meditate to help motivate you to keep that willpower strong. The recent video on levels of consciousness was a good reminder for me to spend some time with 100% effort on focusing.

It will help to realize that when they are putting you down, they are just trying to do their best to live their best life. They might not feel comfortable seeing you change and want to deter you from it. If you are nasty to them, it will make you feel worse and make the situation worse. Try to see people with compassion and that they have no choice but to act the way they do based on their values and conditioning. If you look at it from this perspective you should feel more compassion than anger.

NP An hour and a half ago I took 1.5 scoops which I think was around around 8mg of 5-MEO DMT. It was a new batch and the HCL version. My previous trips were with the freebase version and it was a new batch so I took a smaller amount than I did with the old batch. It had about the same intensity of effect as when I took 15mg of the freebase. I meditated and contemplated for about an hour about what a concept is right before the trip. After around 5 min of laying down semi-prone, I turned onto my back. I felt a bit nauseous and I knew from past experience not to sit up until the feeling passes. About 10 minutes in I was feeling a bit better, sat down cross legged on my bed and looked around the room. I found myself concentrating on a fan in my room, the door nob, my mind was asking all sorts of questions and I was just becoming immersed into the present experience. Emotions came up stronger than previous times and I found myself stand up and walk into my kitchen. I decided I would cook some food because I could tell that I would be very hungry after the trip ended. A couple times I had an inspiration to eat some of the zucchini I was chopping and really feel and taste it with all my attention. I just experienced what it was like to cook while savoring all the sights and sounds. I observed thoughts coming into my experience like "be careful with that knife" "you are not sober so be extra careful" "Pay attention not to cut your fingers, It will hurt a lot if you do." all these thought were accompanied by flashes of internal images. I finished cooking and enjoyed my meal. trying my best to be focused on the taste and body sensations of chewing. It was an interesting experience. It effected me more than I expected. I don't plan to increase more than a half scoop each time. I think I will try to stay seated on my bed for at least an hour next trip. I bought 525mg of 5-MEO DMT so this batch will last a long time I think. I also have 525mg of 5-MEO Malt I might try after I have a more experience with 5-MEO DMT.

The speed of light is a concept imagined in your mind. In your mind, it imagines that in the nature of this experience, according to people's observations, that there is a limit to the speed of light. Where did this present moment come from? It came from itself. The experience exists as an experience, exactly as it is. Nothing else exists. The only absolute truth is the present experience. All other truths are relative based on imagination and memory. It is relatively true that there is a limit to the speed of light. Is it relatively true that god created this limit? I would say yes if you assume god created everything as it is then this is relatively true but not absolutely true.

You already don't exist Just like with me. If you want to experience not existing, you are already doing it. If you want to experience no experience then I am not sure how that would work.

This is my understanding: Ego is a concept in your mind of being something that is separate from everything not you. You do not exist, all that exists is this current experience. God is this present experience with the consciousness set to infinity.

5MEO Trip 2 days ago, on March 19, 2022, I used the last of my 5MEO DMT. It was around 3.5 scoops so I think around 24-25mg. It had a stronger affect than the last time at around 21 mg as expected. The concept that there was an observer was gone. My mind kept asking questions like what is truth, what is god, what am I. I only had the experience of the sights sounds and body sensations when I waited for the answer. Having a concept that there is also something observing the sights sounds and body sensations is adding something extra onto it. I tried to contemplate what my priorities should be. I came up with healing my knees, spending quality time with my girlfriend and her kids and learning to be present and accepting of uncomfortable situations. I ordered 500mg of HCL 5MEO DMT and 500mg of 5MEO MALT so that should last me a long time once it arrives. Heavy Metal Detox I am on my 7th round of DSMA. the first 4 weeks i took 100mg every 4 hours. Now I take 200mg every 4 hours 4 days and 3 nights on then 3 days and 4 nights off. I didn't have any nightmares anymore. A couple times I forgot to take it and I either started again the next day or took it when I could. The biggest side effect was when I took it then forgot on the 2nd or 3rd dose while I was at work. I just felt agitated and tired. I ordered more DSMA with some bottles of ALA this time. I hope it arrives safely. It should have been close to 7 weeks since I ordered it. Meditation I have been meditating off and on between 15min -1 hour usually every few days or so. I find it hard to sit still for more than 15-20 min recently because I just seem to move forgetting that I am not supposed to be moving. It seems to be more emotionally difficult than before. My knees do not hurt too much while meditating luckily. I used to be able to do 1 hour with not much problem. Knee Healing I have been doing the zero ATG program from the knees over toes guy for around 4-5 weeks. It is basically a bunch of physio type exercises for your leg strength and flexibility to help with improving knee pain. I think it is helping but it is hard to tell. I really would like to be able to jog without pain for an hour so I can train my girlfriend's son this summer. He wants to be a professional soccer player.