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I like this concept. I already knew having a goal or a reason for doing something put you in the future imagination and more asleep but the way it is described in the video helped me understand more deeply. I also thought maybe instead of focusing on part of the present moment, focus on all of it equally. It makes me feel like I am tripping when I do that for a few seconds. I will try experimenting with that.

I sometimes talk about concepts Leo talks about with people but I pull back when enough resistance comes up. I will usually just try to understand their point of view instead and agree with them if they really seem closed to other possibilities after a bit of poking.

It has been a while since I took 5-meo dmt but thinking back on it I remember more that I didn’t mention before. I get a desire to stay perfectly still and that includes breathing very slowly. It feels incredibly good to stay as still as possible. Then it feels like you are dissolving but instead of pain it feels like love and relaxation as you turn into something more like a gas. You can’t feel your body or your breath but you remember that you could before just recently which makes you wonder if you are breathing or not. It is a bit scary not knowing if your body stopped breathing.

I did a 3.5 day water fast and noticed nothing good from it. I did some 1 day dry fasts and it seemed much more beneficial spiritually.

I couldn't feel any breath or even any part of my body for a while on 5-MEO DMT but I am not sure if that is because I was so focused that those sensations were just completely gone. I am guessing my body was still breathing fairly normally if someone was there observing it.

If you can make everything a meditation then I would agree with you but most people including myself are unable to make everything a meditation. The monotonous meditation techniques are the easy mode where you learn without as many distractions. Then you can increase the difficulty. Especially when around other people it is much more difficult. In terms of a trap, I would say doing tons of seated meditation without learning to bring the mediation to the rest of your life would be the trap. To tell you the truth I have been replacing much of my sitting meditation time with walking in the park and doing the exercise from the “guided exercise to realizing you are god” video. Also I will contemplate asking questions such as: “Can I be fully at peace with everything as it is right now?” as I walk. I would still call that meditation because I am entering meditative states as I do that. Also yes, I would rather go to Europe since there are many new experiences I could have there and it would be more expensive if I had to pay myself. I could just go to Costa rica another time The costa rica trip is still very tempting though.

Meditation is a term that covers both meditative states and meditative techniques. Meditative states are those states in which you are more calm and focused than usual. When you say you are meditating, you are doing a technique in order to have a higher chance of entering a meditative state. I think you can make a good argument that you can get many of the benefits without putting a lot of time into it. I haven't been meditating much recently but I would like to be more consistent because when I am it seems to allow me to enjoy my life much more. It helped me learn to really enjoy simple things at a level of blissfulness I would never have before when walking in the park or driving to work ext. It is like sharpening an axe before chopping wood. You seem to think people can just go travel the world and be just as mindful whether or not they meditate. That doesn't seem to be the case for me. The difference between going a year without meditating and meditating daily for 3-4 months is quite obvious in my level of contentment and making wise choices, my understanding of situations overall.

If you want energy Just focus on keeping your body and mind healthy. Work on your sleep quality, lower stress, exercise, eat well, socialize. You don't need to look for some secret meditation technique to cultivate energy.

Do you believe that other people do not exist? That is not true either.

Everyone is only ever conscious of the present moment but they typically do believe that the past is real. Believing the past is real helps you understand what is happening now. What could happen that would allow someone to know with their direct experience that the past is real or not real? It seems there is no way to know it because they only are conscious of now. What would change in your life if the past was real vs the past never existing? If it is the same either way then maybe there is not much to be gained by believing one over the other. Develop your understanding without letting concepts like "the past is real" or "the past never existed" get in your way. If you do not know then realize you do not know and experience reality in different ways until you understand it coming from many perspectives.

I agree the external world is indirectly related to happiness but so is consciousness. Happiness has to do with how you interpret what is happening in your experience and how it relates to you. If you interpret it overall as good, you become happy.

Frog leg and chilis with chili hot sauce mixed with the tomato sauce with garlic dipping sauce. I want some.

When you simplify your ideas they can become black and white thinking. Reality is in shakes of grey so there will be many contradictions the more you explain your simplified worldview. A worldview should be like a map that you use to navigate life. If you want to improve the map, you really should consider looking at what you are mapping more than what is on the map. Increase your consciousness of what life is directly. Not your model of it. Consider different worldviews, try living life through different lenses and see what leads to a good life. See what maps work in certain situations and will not work in others. Contemplate and test your theories in reality.

That is actually a great desire you have to be loving because it is the right thing to do and not for egoic reasons. Consider contemplating what “the right thing to do” is directly in your experience.

Although I should add that making a good moral choice depends on your environment. The right choice is often to be a bit more more selfish than you normally would if you are around selfish people and a harsh environment. If you are in a good environment with people that already act morally it makes being moral 100x easier.

I think following moral rules is good when you are at a low level of consciousness to improve your life but I am not sure that it help you increase your consciousness that effectively for most people. If you meditate, contemplate, and get life experience surround yourself with higher consciousness people, it becomes the obvious choice to act in ways that other people will view as moral. it isn't that you should follow moral rules strictly to avoid going to hell after death, it is just that you act in a moral way based on what you see will give you a life with as much bliss and satisfaction as possible.

If you go meta and take an observers point of view, does a human life seem better when it is selfish or generous? A selfish life creates a life of hell.

I recommend you do everything you can to find a job where you work with people that make you feel appreciated. Even if you work more hours than you do now, if you are appreciated and you are doing something you think matters, it will not drain your energy in the same way it does now. I never considered myself to have any mental health problems but there was a time where I was working as a laborer and I would get this emotion in my heart where I really felt like it was torture going to work every day without being fairly compensated or appreciated for the effort I put in. I tried starting my own business that did ok at first but I got lazy and felt the same about doing the parts of the business I found boring. After that I found a job where I am paid more now and they do make a point to take care of their employees here. That emotion has not come back in the 3 years I have been working here. Keep searching, you can find a way to make your life worth living.

Wow that interview really makes me want to realize I don't know anything without being directly conscious of it and contemplate for a few hours after work. Thanks for this.

I have had some insights into time. I have tried to explain it to friends of mine and they say they understand but I am a bit skeptical because they couldn't really repeat back to me what I meant. I see time as more of a description of reality than something that actually exists. Change and movement happens and you use the story of time to conceive how quickly things are moving and changing. Yesterday is a story that helps you explain what is happening now but there is no time to observe. Nothing happened in the past. The experience now is constantly changing but it doesn't mean there is a separate thing called the past that exists as well where things happened. It all happened in the present. There is just the experience of now that changes but it doesn't change through time. Things like time can be imagined to help you make sense of what is going on now.

1. Mantra meditation 2. Dropping concepts that are overlaying reality as you stare at your hand 3. Contemplate the nature of happiness and satisfaction 4. Mindful driving, be aware of what flickers of possible future scenarios' show up in your mind's eye as you are driving. 5. Pay attention to people's body language and facial expressions and how they are feeling as you talk with them.

Ohh she says your mother hatched from an egg. I didn't hear it the first bunch of times I listened to it. I had to come back to it after an hour and listen again. I don't really like the slow hypnotic way she speaks. It is kind of sexy but annoying to wait 2 minutes to hear 3 sentences. As for Leo being a trap, at least for me it is a bit laughable. I consumed a ton of free valuable content. I received a much higher value than he has received from me.

I am pretty sure he is saying you need to experience and know yourself the be that which accepts cherishes and loves all reality as it is.

I just sat down for 1.5 hours dropping my attachment to thoughts and becoming my sensations. I realized that god is what makes up the current experience. The only thing that stays constant is not any of the content but the fact that the experience exists exactly as it is. Why is it made of god? The current experience is infinity condensing down to a limited form. I believe it is so that it can know what it is like to be this particular finite experience. Infinity is god because it is unlimited and all powerful. How can you know that infinity is condensing down? The finite experience is only existing as it is because it is not existing as every other possible way. Being is Existence. A limitless god is understanding what it like to have limits. What can you do with this realization? Continue being this finite experience and enjoy discovering how it unfolds. God's purpose for you is to be as you are and understand yourself as deeply as your limits allow. You are free to create your own purpose. That is also part of god's purpose for you.

This video helped me conceptualize meditation in a different way. it is a bit long. After watching it I had more motivation to meditate more often and longer. I haven't watched it in a while so I hope it is as relevant as I think it is. Consistency is important and understanding/observing how your motivations work will help you keep consistent with a practice if it truly is important to you. I find it really helps to do several preparatory techniques before the actual meditation. I recently shared what I do when I meditate. I will link to it. I am not enlightened or anything but I have been meditating for around 9 years off and on. I usually meditate 2x per day around 30-60 minutes each time sometimes more on the weekend. More often than not I get into a calm blissful focused state. I never looked into how the different states are mapped by people with jhanas. I would rather just go take a look myself. I have been more getting into trying to meditate throughout my day by continuously accepting the moment exactly as it is or being aware of awareness. I also often contemplate the nature of satisfaction and happiness paying attention to how accepting everything as it is affects my emotions. I recently bought an audio book Leo recommended recently here: https://rupertspira.com/store/the-light-of-pure-knowing-thirty-meditations-on-the-essence-of-non-duality You can listen to the first chapter for free. I plan to listen to it in the mornings while following along being as present as possible and try to maintain it as much as I can throughout the day. Not sure if anything here helps you but I wish you the best.