Jordan

You might die within the hour too. Enjoy what you have here and now.

20% is not so bad. I wouldn't recommend trying to be 100% efficient. Take the middle path, there is less diminishing returns for your effort. Do the most bang for your buck in terms of emotional effort. Exercise 20 minutes every day, not 2 hours. Work hard 1 hour per day, not 8. Spend time learning 20 minutes a day, not 2 hours. If there is an obvious improvement you can make then do the minimum effort you need to in that area to see a nice improvement compared to the effort put in.

When I read probably 10+ years ago. I took something away from it but it seemed like the whole book could be summarized in a couple sentences. Something like mastery takes time whether you have talent or not. Most people can master any still given enough and proper training, coaching and practice. The stories in the book seemed mostly just a way to tell you this in different ways over and over until you understand.

The condition to happiness is you have to be able to accept the way things are right now. Most people are unable to do that most of the time. If you want to be happier then practice accepting the present moment exactly as it is and lower resistance you have to it. You can be happy with feeling like shit although it takes practice. You don't have to feel unhappy to motivate yourself to improve your situation. You can feel happy and still make choices that make your situation more appealing.

I have been meditating around 40 minutes before bed and not anything in the morning the last 2 days. I have been tired. I slept 9 hours last night and am feeling good now. I have been remembering my dreams. 2 nights ago I dreamt that I met a rock climbing youtuber Magnus and we made a video about shooting BBs at each other wearing safety glasses then I met a SC2 youtuber uThermal and for some reason I thought he know Magnus and I mentioned that I met him also. Last night I was playing a videogame in my dream. I remember picking a hero and breaking boxes to get items and weapons to start with in the game. I might need to go to bed even earlier if I am sleeping 9 hours and still want to meditate in the morning.

I missed a few days. I will see if I can start up again and see how many days I can get in a row 1 hour 2x per day starting tomorrow, 2024-11-26. I set my alarms for 4:20am and 7:20pm repeating every day so I can get ready to meditate by around 4:30am and 7:30pm.

I only did 2x 10 minute sits since I really find it hard to stop and take 10 minutes away from what I am doing. today I will try my best to do a few more times and work my way up to once every 1-3 waking hours over the next week and see how it goes.

I missed a couple days of meditation. I have been spending a lot of time with my girlfriend and value getting enough sleep a lot. Walking meditation doesn't seem the best I am considering doing more shorter meditation sits instead of hour long ones so I don't get back pain from it. Maybe 10 minutes of moving slowly through the chakras with a slow breath around 1x every hour or 2 would be better than 2x 1 hour sits per day. Then I can really put all my effort into it for the whole time and usually I don't have trouble entering a meditative state in around 10 minutes so I should be able to learn to do it much faster if I practice it that much. A possible schedule: 5am sit 6am sit 9am sit 10am sit 11am sit 12pm sit 2:45pm sit 4:30 sit 5:30 sit 6:30 sit 7:30 sit 8:30 sit I am not sure the best place for a 10 minute meditations at work. Maybe I can sit at one of the workbenches that faces to the the wall and pretend I am looking at my computer. I will try doing some today and see how it goes.

I did 4 hours yesterday 2 hours sitting then my back was sore so I did 2 hours lying down. I might do walking meditation instead of sitting meditation because it will benefit my body more. 1 walked for 1.5 hours this morning focusing on my senses and my thoughts. I made sure to think of things in the about the present moment and not bother with future or past. it felt pretty good. I might go for another 1.5 hour walk so I am all caught up with 2 hours per day average.

Finally it is Saturday. I slept in an extra 2 hours from normal. I am 3 hours behind so if I do 5 hours today I will be caught up. I just did an hour this morning. I was feeling really good by then end. I did the focusing on the chakras technique followed by contemplating the difference between content and structure then becoming one with my experience. It felt like I was making love with experience. I feel good right now like my body is having a constant mini orgasm. I play videogames with my uncle and brother Saturday morning so after that I will cook and eat some food then meditate some more.

I did 30 minutes last night and 30 minutes this morning so I am behind 3 hours. Last night I felt bored out of my mind during meditation but this morning I was feeling good like I could keep going for a long time but it was time to get ready for work. This morning I didn't do much mantra meditation. I contemplated what truth was and why I thought my head existed separate from the sensations I have of it now. I felt into my physical sensations and emotions a lot. On Saturday I will see if I can catch up on the time I lost during the week. Hopefully it can be like the meditation I had this morning and I can just sit in bliss for 5-6 hours

I only did 30 minutes last night and 30 minutes this morning so I am behind 2 hours now. I don't think I will have enough time to make it up until Saturday because I want to spend time with my girlfriend. I seem to need a lot of sleep to keep up my energy for meditating. If I have enough energy to do extra I will. I was feeling really tired this morning when meditating so I took a nap instead of doing the last 30 minutes.

I do a similar thing when I go for a walk during the summer. I will ask myself "is it possible to completely accept everything that exists right now?" then just pay attention to what is happening right now and accept it without coming up with an answer in words. I will rephrase it in different ways like "Can I be completely at peace with everything as it is now?" It gets me in a conscious state as I go for my walk.

I only meditated 1 hour yesterday so I will see if I can do 3 hours today to make up the time. This morning I started with a meditation where I put my focus on my chakras going down my body as I breath in then the spots along the spine that align with the chakras on the way up as I breath out. That got me in a meditative state pretty quickly. I started out 2-3 heartbeats at each section and slowed down to 5-6 over time. Then I went back to mantra meditation. At some points I had clear internal images fairly close to what I see with my eyes but they didn't last long. I had some dreams but didn't bother writing them down. They weren't too vivid.

The experience you are having right now is spiritual.